"Asked you out?" he repeats, with some bitterness. "So you're dating now?"

"Yes," I confirm the evident reality, and he does not show any happiness or enthusiasm. I expected it. "And what did you do? Did he kiss you? How did he do it?"

"At first he was just kidding and playing, but he kissed me and asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend," I smile at the memories of earlier, still feeling all the butterflies and rush of emotions through me. "'Cause he was, like, he was getting ready to ask something serious, so I was kinda nervous, but then he only asked me if I wanted to be best friends, so I was disappointed but understood he was just annoying me and doing it on purpose, but he kissed me again, and I asked if he often does this with his best friend..." I explain what happened, the excitement of that moment never coming to an end in my head. "...But he was not stopping, so I pretended to be offended and walked away, but he stopped me and asked me at that moment."

"That's great," he does not show what his words mean, and I chuckle at him. "Does not seem like that."

"Well, you know how I feel about it, so I can't be excited about it. I'm just worried, but I'm glad to see you happy," he does not change the habit, and I understand since I am used to it. "I just hope he knows he's gonna die if he hurts you, but he's been warned already, so I guess he thoroughly thought about this."

I scoff and shake my head. He is so unbelievable, but the worst about this is that he means his words. Not the killing part, he does not mean it literally, but still.

— Next day —

Tuesday, August 23rd, 2022.

4:50 pm.

[ hey, I'm back home. Hope you had a good day >

I send the text to Joonha after taking a shower since he asked me to warn him once I would be home this morning. I sit down on my desk chair to turn my computer on, and Joonha already answers me.

< I did, what about you? How did it go at work? ]

[ it went well and it was not busy at all. I even made one of our customers happy after finding the gaming chair he was dying to have lmao so I'm glad. What did you do today tho? >

< I'm not even surprised, you're the best employee they could have:> I went out and skated with Seunggil to practice for the competition and Hyunjin was even there and he told us he's gonna participate in the competition too ]

[ Oh he sent me a text earlier but I haven't checked it yet, this is surely about that. I can't wait to see you compete:> >

< who are you gonna support tho? You can't support different contestants, you know that right?:) ]

[ I can support the three of you and Minsu if he is a part of it. You don't have to be against each other, you just have to do your best >

< ...wow... ]

< I thought you'd support your man but alright. You don't mind hurting me like that and who tf is Minsu? Don't tell me its that mother Fulkerson who tried to get in your pants while i was away ]

[ mother what lmaoo? >

< shit. Damn autocorrect:') I meant motherfucker ]

[ I guessed it but stop saying that. I can support all of you:< There's gonna be my best friend, my favorite person who's now my boyfriend, his best friend, and the new friend I made who did not try to get in my pants dummy:) I'll support you more tho >

< doesn't heal my wound at all '-' ]

[ ;-; >

[ do you want me to not support anyone but you?;-; >

< yes. I'm the only one you love, support, appreciate, wanna see succed and win:) say it for me bb, make it up ]

[ let me get on my knees >

I send the text and make a voice message to do as he wishes. "You're the only one I think about, love, support, appreciate, admire, trust, wanna see succeed and win, wanna have babies with, and want inside of—" I end the vocal here and let it get sent, and I chuckle but write a text while he is probably listening.

[ damn I couldn't end it. I meant "want inside my life" >

< girl. ]

< my girl. Say that sentence again with the real ending. We both know you didn't want to say life. Hm? We both know it° v° ]

[ that's what I wanted to say. What do you mean? C: >

< no baby ]

[ yes baby >

< dont fucking start this again. Were not going through what we went through on the first night of my vacation ]

[ stop talking about that >

I smile at the thought of this talk he seems to be unable to forget, feeling like talking about moaning excited him.

< I can't stop talking about it. Its forever on my mind ]

[ good. I'll always be on your mind then? Right? >

< right my baby:> ]

[ :> >

< are you coming tomorrow? I wanna show you my new phone case:3 ]

[ I will, but I wanna see it now >

< no. You'll see it tomorrow ]

[ hope its Han or Felix on it:> >

< you wanna die? ]

[ i do if it's in your arms >

< you'll die in a damn lake after I threw you in it ]

[ so mean >

< you deserve it. I give you my heart but you give yours to those guys. ]

[ that's not even true. I gave you my heart >

< I'm gonna step on it rn then ]

[ damn. >

< I'm gonna start simping over some girl group. We'll see if you're still okay ]

[ "it's different" >

< lmaoo I see ]

[ hope you see well. >

< I do. With my big and pretty blue eyes you love so much ]

[ stop always complimenting yourself like that >

< you don't do it so who's gonna do it if I dont? I need some praise ]

[ oh sorry. Your arrogance is caused by me >

< exactly. Took you long to get it ]

[ I'll praise you more from now on >

< you better do it. Btw. We haven't talked about that bingsu guy enough. Have you gotten closer? ]

[ bingsu guy lmaoo? You're mean, dont call him that dummy we're just friends >

< "we're just friends" traumatized by this shit:) ]

[ come on Joonha. You don't mind Hyunjin, why would you mind him? >

< I know Hyunjin. Not him. Anyway, since you're addicted to the stray cats I spent some time trying to memorize their names to know who tf you talk about when you say their names, and I got to know that one of them is actually called Hyunjin too ]

[ Stray KIDS. Say it properly or im gonna kill you'-' and yes, my best friend has the same name >

< I call them what I want. There's felix the cat that you like so much and I remember all of their names. All of that for what? For you. Thats what you call love ]

[ you're so sweet you did just for me Joonhass:3 >

< I'm sorry? What did you just call me? ]

[ I call you what I want:) >

< I'm not talking to you anymore. ]

[ apologize first >

< apologizing for what? You called me joonhass you little shit ]

[ you called them stray cats and disrespected Felix >

< calling them cats is not an insult. Calling me an ass is ]

[ alright. I apologize I didn't mean it:( >

< is that what you call an apology? ]

[ I'm sorry daddy please forgive me I love you more than anyone, I won't say that again I promise<3 >

< a bit better. I gotta go eat for dinner now anyway, ill maybe come back unless I wanna talk to someone else:) ]

[ then talk to someone else cause I won't be there >

< fine :>♡ ]

I put my phone down to leave this conversation and since I know my dad is cooking downstairs, I get out of my room and go and help him.

— Next day —

Wednesday, August 24th, 2022.

12:40 pm.

The bus finally slowing down at the stop where I should meet Joonha, I grab my skateboard, stand up, and peek out of the windows to check where my boyfriend is, and once I catch sight of him standing next to the shelter, I smile and feel some excitement hasten the beating of my heart.

I wait for the bus to stop, and when the doors open, I get out and head towards Joonha, who quickly noticed me with his blue eyes. "Hey," he smiles at me and does not hesitate to press a kiss on my lips, causing some butterflies in my stomach. "Hey, why didn't you wait at your house?"

"I wanted to be with you," he shrugs and sticks his hands in the pockets of his black denim jeans, and I glance down at his oversized white t-shirt. "Why do you always hide your tiny waist with large clothes?"

"I'm too skinny and hate it, so oversized clothes make me look a bit better," he takes hold of my board and grabs my hand, and he walks away from the bus stop. "What are you talking about? Your body is perfect, don't hate on it."

"Hm. If you love it then I'm happy," he intertwines our fingers and checks the road to be able to carefully cross it, and I smile at how soft he can be as a boyfriend. "You should love it no matter what."

"I know," he slows down once we are safer, and I calm down the effect this small gesture has on me. Holding hands with him feels so special.

"So, your phone case?" I bring this up since I have been wanting to see it since he mentioned it, and he chuckles. "I can't show it. My hands aren't free."

"Where's your phone?" I get closer to his body and look at his pockets, but instead of answering me, he gazes into my eyes then lowers his pretty ones to his pants. "The pocket in the middle."

I punch him but cannot help laughing as he did. "You're a moron."

"I know," he smiles and does not deny it. "I'll show you at my house. It's better."

"Alright, I'll wait a little more," I show some patience for once, and he looks at me. "You're a good girl."

I chuckle and pretend not to like it.

30 minutes later...

I sit down on his bed as he went to his gaming chair, and Choco jumps on his lap, occupying this comfortable spot I wanted to be on.

"Hey, my baby. Are you finally awake?" he pets him, and I stare while envying this cute puppy. He smiles but gazes up at me, and he turns his chair towards his desk. He grabs his phone and gives it to me, so I take it and check the case.

This is a cute dinosaur looking behind him, half of his tail showing because it is cut on the side, with 'What are you doing?' written next to his head.

"And here," he throws something on my lap, and I pick it up but realize what is so special about this. This other phone case shows the rest of the tail, with a tiny dinosaur clinging onto it, and this one says 'Miss you, hug me!'

I giggle at how adorable this is, and I put Joonha's phone on my thighs to grab mine and check if the case fits my phone.

"I checked the one you had so it's made for it," he tells me, and once it is on, I connect both phones and see the couple cases. "You're cuter than I thought, Joonha," I smile and hand him back his phone, and he grins but retrieves it. "I know I am, baby. Do you at least like it? You don't have to leave it on your phone if you don't want to."

"I love it. I'm not taking it off. Why am I the one clinging though? You should be that tiny dinosaur," I point at it, and he shakes his head, not agreeing. "You're the baby between us, and you're tiny, so you're that dinosaur who always wants my hugs."

"That's not true," I refuse to admit this, but he scoffs. "Stop lying to yourself."

"Who kept kissing me because he couldn't stop?" I remind him, but he stares at me and remains quiet. "I don't know. Probably you."

"Oh, and who kissed me and held my hand all the way here? Hm?" I stand up to bend over his lap and grab his thighs. "Hm, Joonha?"

His cute smile does not fade away but grows bigger, and Choco jumps on the floor at the sound of some people talking loud in the streets.

He does not say anything to fight or defend himself, he comes closer and cups my face with both hands, and he presses his lips on mine. He pulls me in for a second kiss, and he teases me by touching my bottom lip with his tongue to kiss me and moves back. "Here. I'm the one who did it, and I'm proud."

"Good you are," I chuckle after not expecting this, and he glances down at my lips but leans forth and puts his arms around me. He stands up without letting go and picks me up to carry me, so I wrap my arms and legs around his body, and he takes me to his bed.

"Unless you want me to be on top of you, you should let go," he smiles and grips the back of my thighs, but I cling onto him. "I'm staying like this," I push my body up and gaze down at his pretty plump lips.

"Alright," he leans forward and ends on his bed with me, and he lays his hands down on the sheets. "I'm totally fine with this. The only one that could be bothered by this is you."

"Me? And why?" I ask for an explanation, but he brings one hand down to my thigh and holds the back of my knee. "Don't put them around my waist," he tries to push them away, so I move them down. "Why?"

"I don't think you wanna know," he grins but never leaves this spot, remaining in this position with me. I cannot lie, I love it a lot. "I do."

Without telling me what I want to know, my legs clench at the feeling of his hand running up my thigh with his thumb on the inner part of it, and my heart skips a beat to spread a weird sensation through my entire body. "See what you felt? I get that same type of thing if you wrap your legs around my waist."

"How? That's completely different," I chuckle, still not over the way he made me feel with this touch, and how he knew exactly the effect this would have. "Alright then what if I stand up right now, spread your legs, and keep them open? It's kinda the same, hm?"

"A bit, yeah," I get butterflies at the thought of it. "But still, you're so sensitive to my touch...No wonder you fell in love with me—" I get cut off by his hand. "Shut the fuck up. You're as sensitive as I am, it's just that I don't hide it, but you do."

I grab his wrist to pull it down and be able to argue. "Not true," I put my legs against his sides, loving how thin his waist is. I push to the side to try to turn and get on top, but he countervails that force and grips the sheets. "Don't even try, baby. I'm the top."

"Sure, baby boy," I pull on his arm to take his only support away, and I roll over to sit on his crotch. "Girl," he laughs and touches his lip ring. "What, boy?" I smile and place my hands over his abs. He breathes out pretty sharply and stares into my eyes. "It's so tough," I poke his stomach, not hearing him answer, but he grabs his t-shirt and pulls it up to reveal his tan skin, and he flexes his abs to show off. "Are you happy to see them from so close and touch them?"

I chuckle but look up at his tattoo on the side of his abs, and I run my hands over them, shamelessly. "Wow. I'm so lucky," I slide them up his torso to tease him, but once I slip them under his t-shirt and reach his chest, he sneers and catches my arms to get them away. "Not the tiddies. What do you think you're doing?"

I laugh at the way he called them and put my hands back on his lower abdomen. "I'm sorry."

"Yeah, of course," he slaps my thighs in a kind manner, but I do even say anything, both staring at each other, and he squeezes them. "When are you gonna crush me with those? Hm?" he gives some more squeezes, and I giggle. "You took my legs away from your waist when I could have crushed it. Did you change your mind?"

"Yeah," he nods but cannot stop rubbing and kneading my thighs as if they were stress relieving, and he sits up to not remain in this position anymore. So, now that he is closer to my body, I wrap my legs around his waist again to do what he wants me to. "Like this?"

"Yeah," he hides his face in the crook of my neck and embraces me with his arms, and he draws me in to make sure no air can fit between us, forcing me to open my legs even more but feel him get hard between my thighs.

This feels so thrilling.

He presses a kiss on my neck and holds me tight in his arms, and I smile, unconsciously. "Baby," he whispers against my sensitive skin and kisses it, softly, getting my eyes to close. He parts his lips without breaking this contact and constantly leaves some pecks on it. "Yes, daddy," I chuckle through my nose and feel him smile against my neck. "Not now," he manages to stand up with me in his arms, and he walks up to his desk, but the feeling of his massive erection pressing against my core is giving me so many butterflies and arousing me.

"Why not now?" I ask him once he puts me down on his desk, and he sits down on his chair but pulls on the bottom of his t-shirt to conceal the bulge in his pants. "Because I say so."

"Ah, alright then. When are we skating?" I do not bother him about what seems to make him uncomfortable. "When Seunggil texts me," he tugs on his top once more, and this time, turns his chair towards his desk and hides his legs underneath.

He must be feeling some pain right now, but that is what happens when you wear tight pants. That is probably the reason why he loves sweatpants and cargo pants so much.

"Tell me once he texted you then," I get on the floor and move to his bed to lie down on it and pet Choco. I take my phone while doing so, and I look for a new video to watch. I place my phone against a pillow, but I turn my head at the sound of Joonha moving, and I watch him head to the door. "Are you leaving me?"

"Yeah," he steps out, so I watch my video and wait for him to come back.