Yeji~

"What are you saying?" Yeonjun stared at me in confusion. I just created a huge mistake out of impulse... now I have to take full responsibility of my own words.

"I meant what I said," I looked into his eyes and tried regaining my confidence. "Yeonjun, I-"

"Don't say it. My girlfriend wouldn't be very happy about his..." He grabbed his coat and began making his way out, when I suddenly then hugged him from behind.

"I love you."

"No you don't. You just love the way I made you feel... who you truly love is Soobin- stick with him. Just stop this nonsense, Yeji." Yeonjun pushed me away, but I stayed persistent.

"I'll wait for you. I don't care how long it takes- I'm used to waiting anyways." I reassured him.

"I'm sorry, I just don't feel the same way. I love Jisoo... please understand." He coldly admitted. I would lie if I said his words didn't hurt me.

"Of course... you've always wanted her. I should have known." I went back inside my apartment and locked the door behind me.

So I just confirmed my feelings today.

Not just to myself, but also to Yeonjun... I can really never be satisfied. When I liked Soobin, Yeonjun was there for me. Now that I like Yeonjun, Soobin's always clinging onto me.

Why can't I make up my dang mind?

It's frustrating how I have to go through heartbreaks everyday for the past three years. First Soobin, now Yeonjun. I hate high school- I just want it to be over.

Also, none of them truly likes me. Yeonjun just used me to fill in his loneliness and desires, Soobin's using me because he's heartbroken.

I'm always just a replacement.

Maybe that's why I was never satisfied. Because for once, I wanted to be someone's first priority.

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Yeonjun~

"When are you getting your siblings back?" I asked Jisoo after her photoshoot for some sportswear.

"Oh... not sure," she tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "Haven't thought about it. They're in good hands though- I know Soobin's taking good care of them."

"But they're your siblings, not his." I quietly replied which still offended her.

"They hate me." She shook her head.

"Maybe you should do things to make them like you, right? Giving them away to someone else isn't a very good idea." I stopped talking all at once after she began getting annoyed.

"I don't really care, honestly. I wish I didn't have that responsibility- did I ask my parents to leave me with two useless little kids? They just give me headaches." Jisoo got out of the car and fixed her dress.

Does affection even exist in this girl's mind? She seems to have none of that and it's starting to get quite bothersome.

"Jisoo... what do you honestly feel about me?" I swallowed up the courage to finally ask. "You never seem to recognize the true value of anyone you date."

"You're not special. If we're talking about value, then wouldn't that be Soobin? He's got hella money, looks, responsibility..." She bit her lips. "He's just too sensitive."

"Why do you always talk about other guys in front of me?" I pushed her against the car and her breathing haltered.

"Because you don't seem bothered by it. I thought it was okay..." she avoided my sharp gaze and stared at her shoes instead. Jisoo seems quite intimidated.

If she can't see my true value, then so be it.

I can see hers.

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Yeji~

I rolled around my bed, trying to find a comfortable position. I even tried flipping my pillow, and so on- it just won't work.

How can I sleep with a rapidly beating heart?

I must be sick... or is it because I've been thinking of Yeonjun too much? Even after he rejected me, my feelings just seem to continue growing.

I tried closing my eyes, but all I could think of is him. Whenever he would hold me close and shower me with soft kisses... but then he's actually very aggressive and loved marking me his.

I wish we loved each other back then.

I wish I realized sooner.

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Btw this is my post of the week, so my next update will be next week Friday!

Song: Jeon Sang Keun (전상근) — I Still Love You A Lot (사랑이란 멜로는 없어)