Hi! I really want to be more active as much as I can so I thought I'd write another chapter.

    As well,thank you for all your support and do continue reading! 14K means alot and I'm genuinely thankful.Here it goes...

Sterling's POV

  "But what if I can't?" I said. "What if I can't help but to keep loving you."

"Sterl-" She choked and I know her better than anyone that she was on the verge of crying.

"You know what,I'll wait.I'll wait for you even if it takes eternity." I declared and she let out a laugh.

"What did love do to us? Our past selves would be pretty startled by the discovery of our relationship." April smirked,glancing sideways.

"Agreed."

"You and I both know that we need to fully understand what we truly want and what we're sacrificing here." April took my hand, rubbing my thumb slowly but enough to make me feel safe and content with her presence.

    It's not the end, right? This is not the end of us.

"So what does that mean for us? Are we breaking up?" I joked but the joke seems inappropriate for the occasion.I really need to work on my social skills but considering that I'm nice and all...

"No,no.Of course not.After what I did to you 3 years ago,I never want to put you in that situation again,Sterl." April softened up, kissing our now intertwined fingers.

           Yeah, it was a really hard time coping with the pain and pretending that it never happened between us.Blair was personally impressed that I didn't blurted it out to anyone for the past 3 years.

           "Maybe we need a break, a pause on our relationship." April stood up and suggested, my eyes flickered in pain hearing those words.

            "Can't we just continue being like this? I like this and us." I plead, taking her by the waist.She looks away even when I was holding her close.

             "You may like this moment but what about moments where I am forced to hide you and look at you like you're a stranger in a crowded room, forgetting that we were ever partners.It hurts me more than you think,Sterling." April reasoned out and as always she was sensible and right.

              I took a moment before finding the words to speak up.

             "I-I guess you're right for once." I teased and she gasped.

             "Wait,for once?" April lifts one of her eyebrows and crossed her arms, ready to take me on physically and mentally.It was adorably cute of her, taking her size and everything.

              "You're right all the time.April." I nudged and she smiled a little too much.She always loved it when she's right or in control.

             "Trust the process." She reached out and cupped my cheeks, looking right in my eyes.

            "And I trust you." I reciprocate by tilting her chin up and catches her lips with mine, soft but tender.

            We pulled away, reluctantly before we start to get carried away.

        However butterflies ,let me tell you, butterflies every time when I'm with her.

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April POV

         I think this was the right decision that we compromised together and I think this time apart could help me understand what I need to do and what I'm willing to do our relationship.

         Am I willing to risk everything and come out to everyone? Including my Mom. Mommy and I are close, but not as tight as what Daddy and I have.

         He wouldn't see his perfect little girl anymore, all he'll see is the filth of sin that has stained and corrupt my pure soul that he could never condone.He was always stringent when it comes to homosexuality.It was a word he despise firmly that he never talks about it ever even when we come across it during our movie time.

         My Christian upbringing has always brings out another side of myself and I always feel accepted by God.

          "To not throw your pearls before swine," has been what I've always reminded myself when it comes to people.Trust and vulnerability is hard for me especially with Sterling but she is a temptation I'm unable to resist.

          In good terms, she makes me feel things that I've never felt and that love I've never received at home or from my friends.

         "I can only advise you this.If you think she is the one, take a step forward with her and put in a little trust.In terms of coming out, talk to a friend or a trusted adult and see their perspective.Take your time, you should never feel the need to rush.Things will be alright, my dear."

         "Thank you and I am sorry for these and all my sins.I-"

         "No need, my child.You are blessed and loved for who you are."

         I stepped out of the booth, feeling the weight of my shoulders burdened off a little like I was free for awhile.Yet there was an inkling of regret for ever sharing my doubts but it was good to talk to someone.

         I left the church and decides to drive off to Ezequiel house's since he is more sensible and understanding.

He wouldn't judge,right?

Maybe I'll just meet both of them at Ezequiel house.I texted them to meet me over and I wasn't sure what I'll be expecting.

Sterling's POV

It's been a hot week since April and I took a break.I think it's great...except that it's not.It feels like a break-up all over again except this time it's not

'I'm not ready to come out.'
'I changed my mind.It's allowed.'
'Maybe someday though...'

These sentences would haunt me for all I've lived and it has been replaying in my head.

I mean we've come this far and she wouldn't just drop it because she's scared,right? I trust her.

Trust the process.Trust her.Trust the process.Trust her.Trust the process.Trust her.Trust-

I mumbled them softly before I was interrupted.

"Hey Sterl,what you doing?" Blair strolls into my room,crashing on my bed.

"Oh,nothing.It's just school."

"I didn't know school has a picture of a girl in a green top and-" Blair teased.

"Okay,it's April,you've caught me." I sighed and threw the phone on the bed,gently of course.

"C'mon,you've been a party pooper this whole week and I can't stand this.It's exhausting."

"I know but I love her and she loves me.You know how that feels like better than anyone."

"Anyways,how is it going for you and Eric? Usually you would be getting your hand all over him."

"Initially we both wanted to but we realized that we're gonna take it slow."

               "Take it slow..." I mumbled and I knew what exactly was my resolution.

               "You're a genius,Blair.I know what I'm gonna do." I stood up and start taking my belongings.

                 "Wait,what does that mean? You're gonna tell April that you'll stay together and she'll-"

                  "April?" We both looked up and I wasn't prepared for this talk at all.

                  "Mom..." Blair lets out and I was pretty sure I might passed out.

The ending was pretty impromptu.However do stay tuned and let me know what you guys think! 💜💜