What Am I Supposed To Do?

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Logan

I made my way to the vending machine and decided on getting a black coffee to wake myself up. I took a few sips before placing it down, my hands against the vending machine as I yawned and tried maintaining awake.

"Hey man. You alright?" Steven asked, startling me. He hit my back lightly making the coffee spill a little on top of the machine.

I sighed rubbing my chin.

"Yeah. I'm fine. Where were you? I thought you had gone home?" I asked him, turning my body and leaning against the machine with arms and legs crossed over.

"Nah, I went to get some grub for everyone. You hungry?" He asked, his hands lifted the plastic bags he held in his hands.

"I'm good. But maybe the rest will be hungry. Come on, let's get some drinks for everyone before we go back." I said, turning around and placing more money in the other machine, grabbing juices and sodas for everyone.

I had a few cans in hand and was struggling to pick up the rest. I placed some of them in my jeans pocket and grabbed the other cans out.

"Hey, need any help?" Ashley asked as I knelt down. I looked up towards her and smiled, " Hey bugger, what are you doing here?" I asked her making her giggle.

"Mom brought me. She overheard Mr. Patterson's phone call when you called him. She asked what was wrong and then asked mom to stay and look after the project for a bit. She was really worried, but then Mr. Pascal finally came back from his deliveries and she rushed home to take a bath and come here. So I tagged along so I can see Sophie."

"Here. Hold these." I said to her, handing her the cans I had in my hand.

"So you came to see Sophie? You didn't come to see how your brother was doing or what?" I taunted her, acting as if I was bothered and hurt that she wasn't here to see me. I honestly didn't mind. Sophie had been nice to her all along. I know she misses her, hell, I miss her. Seeing her here makes it so hard for me. I want to run and hug her and tell her that everything is ok, that everything will be ok.

The urge to hug and kiss her is unbearable. I need her so much, especially now with the issue, we have to deal with. After I called Derreck and explained to him the situation I asked him to help me and mom get through this without having to make it into a big court case. I'm afraid dad will not back down and fight for Ashley's custody. He already knows I'm a lost cause since I already turned eighteen, but why give mom a hard time after he was the one that committed adultery?

This was really irritating.

"OH! Oreos. Logan get me some Oreos, PLEASE?" She asked, clinging onto my sleeve. I chuckled and gave her a couple of fives. "Here, get whatever you want. We'll be in the waiting area, so hurry up, ok?" I told her grabbing the last drink and winked at her with a smile. She grabbed the money and jumped with joy, holding the money to her chest.

"YES! thank you, brother," she replied happily as Steven and I walked away.

We went back to the sitting area where we all sat, mom and Mr. P were talking softly. Sophie was no longer sitting here, which means she was probably in her mom's room.

"Hey, mom. How are you doing? Are you tired? You've been working all day nonstop, you need to rest a little."I said concerned with her health. She has been having many sleepless nights since we came back from Chicago. It's killing me to see her this way.  My girls mean so much to me. I hate seeing them this way. I wish there was something I could do other than be here. I feel useless and incompetent.

"I'm fine sweetheart. How is she? Did you talk to her?" She asked looking around with concern written all over the room.

"Talk to who? What are you talking about?" I asked in a low voice. Mr. P stood there listening quietly.

"To Sophie. Ash told me you guys haven't talked to each other in days, what's going on?" Mom replied. My face turned red as it filled with embarrassment. I wasn't sure if Mr. P knew about our breakup, but I hadn't had the heart to tell my mom about it. Though I had a pretty good idea who she got the information from.

I turned towards the direction of the vending machines, Ashley was just a few feet away from us as she walked back towards us. I turned giving her a warning stare, making her bite her lip and eyes wide like saucers.

I turned back to mom and cleared my throat. "Mom," I said, taking in a deep sigh. "Sophie and I broke up a week ago. We uhh, we had a huge argument and we ended up breaking up."

"Oh, honey. I am so sorry," she replied, making me give her a small smile.

"What, why? I thought you two had just argued and were taking a break?" MR. P asked making me turn towards him.

" Logan, whatever it is I'm sure you guys can work it out. There's nothing you two can't overcome. YOu guys can't just give up so easily, you've gone through so much." Mom added making me sigh, closing my eyes and throwing my head back.

"Well, not this time, I'm afraid. There are just things that can't be fixed, and in this situation, I'm afraid we can't fix things any more mom. I'm sorry Mr. P." I added looking at Mr. Patterson.

"What happened exactly between you two Logan? Why can't you guys make things work this time? You've stuck together through thick and thin, and you can't say you don't care about her, you're here now. You love her don't you?" He asked making me purse my eyebrows, my heart ached badly for her.

"Of course I do Mr. P, you know I do."

"Then talk to her, make things work between you two. I'm sure you two can work out something and forget about whatever the argument was about, can't you?" He added making mom nod in agreement.

"Mr. P I'm sorry, but it's different this time. I'm not sure things can be fixed this time. Mom, I'll be sitting over here, waiting for you."

"Now wait Logan. Richard is right, you guys are both being stubborn about all this, don't you think? Why can't you two just talk and make things work? I mean you obviously care about her, and she cares an awful lot about you sweetheart-,"

"No, mom. She doesn't. If she cared about me, she wouldn't have cheated on me, ok? Don't you think I want to be with her? I do, but she doesn't love me like I thought she did." I burst out making mom and Mr. P gawk their mouths open. I didn't say it out intentionally, I don't know why I burst out like that. I guess I had been bottling in all these emotions inside about everything that's been happening that I finally lost control of.

"What? cheated on you?" Mom asked concern.  "Logan, are you sure?" she added.

I nodded and hung my head. "Wait, who did she cheat on you with? It's impossible, she rarely even goes out, and she's with you most of the time. I don't- I don't understand." Mr. Patterson explained.

"Well, I'm sorry to say she did Mr. P, she's been seeing Troy behind my back. Unfortunately, she wasn't as sincere with me as I was with her about my feeling-"

"Wait, wait, wait," Mr. P said, waving his hands over his head.

"Are we talking about the same Troy here? Troy, as in my daughter's best friend Troy Michaelson?" He asked, chuckling in disbelief.

"Uhh, y-yes, sir," I replied a bit confused with his response.

he then began to laugh along with my mom as it had been the funniest thing in the world. I couldn't understand why they were behaving this way. I had just dropped a bomb letting both of them know that Sophie and I had broken up,

"Ok, I don't understand. Why are you two laughing?" I asked a bit dumbfounded.

"Logan, there is no way that Sophie could be cheating on you with him. That dog doesn't bark up that kind of tree if you  know what I mean sonny." Mr. P said making me look at him in concern. I thought back to what he had tried to tell me the other day at school that he was gay, could it be true that he was gay? I didn't want to believe him. 

"That's true honey. Sophie couldn't possibly be cheating on you with him, or anyone for that matter, she just wouldn't. It's impossible for her to cheat on you with him because Troy is-," Mom declared making my eyes wide in shock.

"Hey, Riley? How are you?" Dylan came towards us greeting mom, cutting her off.

"Oh, Hi boys. How are you? It's so good to see you boys here. Oh, I am so glad to see you guys giving the Patterson's support. That is so sweet of you boys." Mom said to Tory and Dylan.

"Where is Sophie anyway, Richard?"  Mom asked Mr. P, making him turn towards the sitting area. "Um, well, I thought she was sitting next to Lexie when I left them to go check on Hailey. I wonder where she is?" He said concern as he looked around.

"DO you think she's with Hailey? What about the boys? Have you had the opportunity to talk to them about this already?" Mom asked MR.Patterson. He sighs, running his hands through his face.

"Yeah, . . .  well, kind of. I talked to Aaron earlier, but I only told him that mom hadn't been feeling good lately. I don't know how they're going to take the news. This new treatment and radiation should work, but Hailey's body seems to be getting tired from this whole procedure. I don't know how much  longer she'll hold out for."

"Wait, what do you mean Mr. Patterson? What's wrong with my second momma?" Troy asked with concern written all over his face.

"I'm afraid Hailey has breast cancer boys. She was doing so well! Or so we thought. She never complained and looked so energetic. but it was all a phase she was putting up. She dabbled herself with makeup to conceal her paleness and wore that wig from the place Logan found for us. Almost all her hair has fallen off. She's so strong, and I feel so helpless and useless, I don't know what else to do boys. I don't know how to help her when she's throwing up in the mornings other than put loud music, pretending she and I are in the room having a good morning so that the boys and Sophie don't realize she's throwing up inside. It's hard, it's so hard, and I see her getting weaker by the day." Mr. P finally reached a breaking point. His voice quivered in pain and his eyes filled with tears, just like everyone else did in the room.

"You, you've been lying to me this whole time? You kept this from me knowing mom was sick. How could you dad? And you!" Sophie said from the hallway that leads to the patients' wards.

She glared at me angrily. "You knew mom was sick. You knew she had cancer and you never said anything to me. You looked at me every single day knowing she was suffering and going through this all alone and decided not to tell me? How could you? Both of you." She whispered-yelled at Mr. P and me, making us feel worse than we already did.

"Sophie, sweetheart, I'm sorry. "

"Save it, I am so mad at you right now dad. How could you keep this from me? You saw how grandma suffered through all this a few years ago. She needed us, she needed support. Mom needed us there as well, how could you not tell me? I could have been there for her. Instead, you kept me in the shadows." Her voice sounded so broken, I knew she was hurt, and I wanted to do something to take her pain away. I hated seeing her like this.

"Babe, please. Try and understand your dad. He only did what your mom asked us to do. It was her decision to keep this from you because she knew you would be sad, please Sophie." I said as I reached out for her. She took a step back, folding her hands over her chest, hugging her own torso.

"DON'T, don't touch me. I hate you both for this. You both are not allowed to talk to me right now." She said as she turned around and walked back inside to her mom's room. Mr. P and I stared at each other, the guilt eating at us deeper than the ocean's floor. I couldn't believe what was happening. Things just keep getting worst than they already are.

How the hell am I going to fix this? Things may be over between her and me, but that didn't mean I wanted her to hate me. I need to make it up to her, one way or another.

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