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Doves POV:

When I entered Mrs. Lara class I moved toward my seat. I look around and Ezra was no where to be found .

We just saw each other at lunch where could he be ?

"Alright class it's a new year let's start off with something big" Mrs.Lara says . "This weeks assignment is to write a poem about the day you realized your life had changed . Now it could either be the day you realized your life changed for the better, or for the worst ."

The day my life changed for the worst ...

"When you finish the assignment you will be presenting them" Mrs.Lara states .

Oh hell no! Not happening.

I love to write and read but presenting my thoughts is a definite no. "Whoever's poem is the most" Mrs.Lara stops for minute to think . "...most out of heart. Meaning you really put some thought into this poem you get an A for this whole semester."

Well shit.

No one can go wrong with a free A . I usually get all A's anyways but when it comes to a struggle at times I wouldn't mind a free pass on doing work.

My mom only always cares about my grades . I wish at moments she would just be proud of me for trying instead of pushing me to be the perfect daughter she always wanted me to be, even so I don't think I'll ever be enough.

For the rest of the period Mrs.Lara told us to start our project in class which is due Friday and we will presenting them Next Tuesday. Whoever doesn't show will get a 50% on this assignment.

I started to jot down the first things that came to mind :

10 years ago my life changed for the worst...

Before I could write anything else the bell rung. I turned to my left and noticed Ezra was in his seat . I mustn't have of noticed him.

When school was over I sent a text to Mrs.Miller saying that I didn't think I would be able to make it to the house today. I still have to go home and ask my mom if I can even go to the club with The Girls .

I see both my mom and her husbands car in the drive way . That's when I start to get really nervous .

My mom doesn't let me go out because she scared I might get kidnapped or some shit. I'm almost an adult and I don't even have privileges to tryout for any sports .

I walk inside the house . My heart it beating as fast as light right now.
I walk to my moms room. I open the door just a little, "Hey m- "

Did I just see that right. Well at least they made up.

I close the door fast before I say anything else. I walk up to my bedroom and pull a little smirk on my face .

Well that gives me a reason to go out tonight

I think back to what just saw a few seconds ago . My mother was on top of her husband ...

Ew

I shake my head to erase the memory. Yeah I know they are adults, but like do y'all care to lock the door like what the fuck . I text the girls to clarify I'm coming for sure.

I put my phone down on the bed and start to get ready . I put on my black velvet heels, grab my purse and head to the door .

When I'm near the door I make sure I close it quietly and walk to my car. I pick up the girls and we drive to Josies gig.

To be honest me and the girls look extremely hot tonight . Josies wearing a black lingerie with a black long leather jacket and black pants. Pearl is wearing a silk, light pink, thigh high, spaghetti strap dress. I'm wearing a red, thigh high, dress

When we walk into the club there's over about 700 people in here . Half of them are wasted. Some are making out with each other. It's kinda all over the place .

"Well hello lady's" a familiar voice says from inside. I turn to look around to see who it is and- . Oh it's Chase

"You guys looks very pleasing tonight" Chase says. Me and the girls roll our eyes . "Oh shut up" Pearl says .

"I'm going to head to the back and start to get ready" Josie tells me and Pearl. We both give her a nod and she walks away. Chase blows a whistle while she does .

"Such a perv" I say quietly under my breath

"I AM NOT!" Chase says even though he's looking at my chest me . "Eyes up here buddy" I put a finger under his chin and direct it to my eyes.

"DJ!" Someone calls from behind Chase . I see it's Milo and next so him is Ezra.

He's wearing black button up but 2 buttons at the top are unbutton. He has a glass cup in his hand with a liquid that looks clear . He's not looking at anyone and just walking beside Milo.Milo basically wearing the same thing as Ezra but just a white button up instead of black.

Ezra looks hotter though. Stop.

When they make it towards us Ezra starts making eye contact with me,but then looks me slowly up and down and I slightly blush at where his eyes are at . He looks me back into my eyes and I see a smirk pull from his lips .

"Guess what, DJ called me a perv" Chase says to Milo and Ezra . I roll my eyes . "Well maybe because you are." Milo says . Pearl and I laugh a little while Chase just pouts.

"I got us a booth if you guys want to sit" Milo says . I nod and we all make our way over there and set our things down.

"WHATS UP EVERYBODY!" I turn to my right and look up to see Josie on the stage talking . I smile at her. "I hope you guys are having a great night so far . I'm hear to make this basic ass music hundred times better, so be prepared for some amazing beats. Your one and only JOSIE !!" I laugh at her last sentence. She says that at every introduction she does at clubs .Everyone starts clapping and yelling for Josie.

"Alright everyone lets start it off big and strong" Josie begins to say on the mic . She starts making a beat and plays She knows by Ne-yo, Juicy J. Me and Pearl look at each other and smile knowing the reason Josie played this song.

This is kinda the girls and me, song every time we go to one of Josies gigs . She always adds some amazing beat drops so we're able to show off our moves .

Me and Pearl start get up. " Where are you guys going" Chase ask . "To dance" Pearl says. I look at them and they all have confused looks on there faces. " Bye boys" I wave to them while walking on the dance floor.

Me and Pearl both move to the rhythm of the song. "OH SHE LOVES THE ATTENTION THAT SHE GETS WHEN SHE MOVES" Me and Pearl sing to each other.

"I'm gonna get a drink" Pearl saids over the loud music . I nod at her letting her know I heard her. " Do you want anything" she says . I shake my head, " No!" I try to say over the loud music . Pearl nods and walks away.

I continue to dance to the rhythm to the music until I feel a hand on my lower waist . I turn to look who it is and it's a man. I'd say he's a little older , about earlier 40's "Hi darling. How's your night so far" the older man says from behind me his hand still on my waist.

"Please excuse me. I feel very uncomfortable with you next to me" I tell him and I start to pull out of his grip.

"Don't worry I won't hurt you" he says while tightening his grip. I look up him and he has a grin on his face.

What is taking Pearl so long?

"Please let me go sir" I tell him a little more harshly. "I can make you feel good darling if you let me" He tells me in my ear. I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I punch him across his face. He has no reaction. "Aggressive aren't we?" he questions with a smirk. He pulls me harshly into him. "I can only imagine how you are in bed." He whispers in my ear. I feel like I'm going to cry, but I hold my strength and try to get out of his grip . "Let me go!" I whimper . He tightens his grip even harder.

I hate men.

"She said let her go sir" a familiar voice says from ear behind me . I try and see who it is, but the old mans grip is to tight so I can't see shit.

"But I was just starting to make her feel good" I hear the old man say .

"I suggest you to let her go or things will get very ugly sir" The familiar voice says. The old man pauses for a second. I think he was looking at something.

"Fine you can have her. She was ugly anyways"

Ouch.

The old mans grip loosens and I look behind me to see who saved me from him.

Ezra.

He looks me in the eyes . He moves his fingers toward my face and trails his thumb under my eyes.

Dammit!

I didn't even notice I was crying. I looked at him in the eyes and seems like he was already looking at me. He's eyes are so beautiful.

"I'm so sorry I wasn't here sooner" Ezra says looking into my eyes. I nod . That's all I'm managed to do for now . "I'm going to go to the bathroom" I tell Ezra .

He nods and I'm soon out his grip. It felt nice being in his arms. When I get into the bathroom I look at my self in the mirror and it all comes storming back.

"Please don't touch me" I whimper to him. "It's okay I'm allowed to" he says

" You're not my dad. Im going to tell mom you're doing this" I tell my moms husband while his hand is trailing across my lower waist .

He puts his hand over my neck he tightens hard. "Well we're not gonna tell her. Are we Dove?" He says with bringing out the "v" in my name. I shake my head no. I start loosing air and wishing he would just let go. "Good girl. This is just our little secret."

Im crying. I'm crying and I didn't even notice.

I wish I was dead.

I cry harder I don't mean to be loud,but it just hurts.

"I hate men, I hate men, I hate men,..." I repeat to myself quietly.

"Dove!" There's a scream from outside the bathroom door. There knocking harshly. I try to stop my crying before I get up and open the door.

When I open it I see

Ezra

He comes in a hugs me. "Omg I thought something happen to you. I heard you crying from out the door" Ezra says with a little panic in his voice. "Are you okay?" He questions looking into my eyes .

I nod . He brings me to sit against the wall. I let a sigh of relief .I see in the corner of my eye I feel eyes on me.

No one has ever been worried about me.

"You know your beautiful right?" Ezra says.

My eyes widen at his words. I turn to look at him in his eyes. His eyes show wealth in them and he's speaking truth. I give him a sad smile. "Are you really okay?" Ezra ask me.

No.

I nod my head at him telling him I'm fine.

"Chase was supposed to be the night and shining armor, what happened to that" I chuckled.
"Well he was either checking out some girls ass or is wasted" Ezra laughs and I join in.

"I can take you home whenever you're ready okay ?" I give him a smile and nod. "Thank you" I tell Ezra quietly. He places a quick kiss on my forehead. I blush at his action.

" Are you Blushing right now?" Ezra asks with a chuckle. "Oh shut up" I nudge him just a bit and we're both laughing.

I look at him in the eyes and we both make eye contact. We stay like this for a while. I don't know why, but there's a feeling in me that just wants to kiss him.

Why?

That's until Ezra moving his face closer to mine to where our lips are only inches apart. He pauses right in front of them and looks down at my lips then looks back into my eyes.
I look down at his lips. God. They look so soft I really want to kiss him. I bite my lip and look back into his eyes.

Knock knock'

That's when there's a knock at the door. I back away from Ezra quick and don't make eye contact. Before I could get up someone comes storming in.

"Omg ! Im so sorry DJ I didn't mean to leave you out there alone . I got caught at the bar. I been looking for you. Are you okay? Are you hurt?" Pearl looking at me with concern and guilt in her eyes.

"I'm okay Pearl it's fine don't worry" I tell her so so she won't have to worry . I see her let out a big sigh of relief. She looks at me then looks next to me.

Oh shit I forgot about him

"What are you doing here Ezra?" Pearl asked confusion laced through her voice.

"Well I was here with Dove when you weren't" Ezra says with no expression on his face. The room goes silent for a second

Pearl puts her head down a little. "I'm sorry DJ again"

"It's fine stop worrying" I give her a smile. "Ok well I'll be at the booth. I'm sorry again DJ" she says before walking out. I give her a small smile again.

The door shuts and it's just me and Ezra. Again.

"You and me both know It's not fine" Ezra says. I look at him again and I laugh a little and shake my head.

"You know it's okay not be fine. If you ever want to talk I'll be here " Ezra says with a sad smile. My mouth opens up, but I close it and nod .

"Thank you Ezra" I tell him . He turns to look at me and now were making eye contact. I look at his lips again. Lord help me. I really want to kiss thoses lips like a lot. "Anything for you love" Ezra says back to me, and I smile .

I feel Ezra starting to get up beside me. I look up at him to see what he is doing . He reaches out his hand "Are you ready to go?" he says with a sly smirk . I roll my eyes and take his hand.

We told the rest of the group we would be leaving early
and Ezra would take me home. The whole ride was basically silent. We pulled up in my drive way and I felt a whole weight getting put on me again.

"Good night Dove" Ezra says when I'm exiting his car. "Good night Ezra" I tell him before I shut the door.

Ezras car pulls out when I am inside the house. I run upstairs to my bedroom and lock the door, then jump on my bed.

I'm so exhausted

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Author's NOTE:

Hello just wanted to let everyone know I did say in the beginning there would be Trigger warnings for this book and also wanted to say not all of them are so violent but just wanted to clarify!

Love you guys .