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A L A S K A

It was silent and dark. Everything around me was black and it seemed like I was stuck in a hole. A hole full of darkness. Maybe even an abyss. It was something I couldn't escape from because no matter where I looked it was all the same. The same black everywhere. No bit of light lightening up the darkness.

Nothing.

Just nothing.

Thoughts went through my head as the silence around me bored and even intimidated me. It was so quiet that I didn't even know whether I was deaf or not. It just felt like my ears weren't functioning right.

My father was the only thing I could think about.

His pained expression when he held my hand, the pure anxiety in his eyes made me feel guilty. Guilty that I didn't let him know that he shouldn't blame himself anymore. He should just let the past be the past or otherwise he will drown in his own sorrow.

I will never forget the past but they should. My brothers should live their lifes wihout me. They should try to find their own happiness. A happiness without me.

And Max.

He should forget me too. He should live his life with all that he's got. He should enjoy it to the fullest. But how can he wihout Leo and me? I wish he could. I don't want to see him in pain because of me. I don't want him to throw away his life just because I can't be in it.

And Leo.

I hope he wakes up. He deserves to be happy. He deserves to enjoy his life as well. He's such a good guy when he isn't being a jerk. He had such a fragile and soft heart. One wrong move and it would break apart. I hope he will someday find this one person who knows exactly how to treat him right.

And my brothers.

Even though I don't even really know half of them and even though they made my life hell, they do deserve happiness. I mean they were all just scared little kids back then as well, whose mother was 'fighting' for her life. Yeah, I do blame them and I do hate them for what they did. But deep down I still love them. I still crave for their affection and love. But if I could tell them one more thing than it'd be that they should never treat a woman or a human being in general this badly, no matter now much they despise them.

And...Xavier.

He should find someone who's good for him. Someone who stays with him and makes him happy the way that I never could. The way that I wanted to but was always stopped by the drama that was going on in my life. He went trough so much with me yet he always stayed by my side. And he made me feel things no other ever could and for that I'm truly thankful.

I'm thankful for all of them.

When I was sent off to the boarding school I wanted nothing more but to hate them with all I got. I wanted nothing more but to not be related to them. I was even ashamed of being their sister, but now...

I was just thankful. Thankful for the things they taught me in life, thankful for the good days we had, for all the times where they made me the happiest girl on earth, even if those were rare.

I was just thankful.

Suddenly a light blended me, gaining my attention. I put a hand in front of my eyes and tried to figure out what the light was or where it was leading me to. I slowly took a few steps towards it and with eveyr step I took I quickened my pace. The nearer I got to the light the more peace I felt. It was like all the negative thoughts were just washed away and my mind was set at peace.

Suddenly I heard a voice which made me stop in my tracks.

"Please wake up, Al."

I didn't respond. I just stood there, contemplating on whether to walk on or listen to the voice, which was the only company I had here.

"I'm sorry, Sky. So so sorry."

Another voice said. The voices were faint and whispery but they were audible.

"I need you, AK."

Suddenly I was overwhelmed by memories. Memories of my past, but the good ones. The moments where Phoenix first called me AK, where my father chased me through the house and my giggles were heard all around the building, where I was happy.

Or the memories of Leo, Max and Me graffitiyng train after train and running from the police while we were full on laughing. And my first kisses with them.

Or Xavier...the way he made me feel. Our first date, followed by our first kiss and then the dance.

I didn't want this to stop. I wanted to spend more time with them, to have more fun and to enjoy what I couldn't enjoy when I was younger. I wanted to see them again. I wanted my family.

My real family.

All of a sudden the darkness of the room was replaced by brightness, but I didn't close my eyes I enjoyed the feeling of the light blending me. And then there was it.

A constant beeping noise.

I tried to move my body but it was like I was paralyzed, I couldn't move one bit. I tried again, to at least move my pinky finger but it didn't work. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

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T H I R D P E R S O N

It was one month since the fight.

One month since Alaska went into a coma because her mind needed peace and her body needed rest.

One month since Theodore Hades last had a proper meal and a sleep without nightmares.

One month since the Hades and Fernandez brothers last left the hospital for more than 6 hours.

One month since Xavier Ricci last smiled or laughed or did anything else other than staring at his unconcious girlfriend or at the floor.

And one month since Max Romanoff last left his bestfriends' side, who were both lying in the same room.

Everyone was gathered at the hospital, including the twins and Ricci.

Suddenly the alarm went off and nurses rushed into the room, where Alaska and Leonid were lying in, and instantly everyone was on their feet, worry and fear written all over their faces.

"What's going on?" Lily asked one of the by passing nurses.

"Please wait a moment." The nurse said and rushed into the room as well.

Then the silence overtook the room again, it was like the alarm had never went off. The nerve wrecking silence was driving everyone in the room crazy with fear and anticipation. In the room were so many emotions lingering in the air that it was hard to breathe, which nobody did. They all held their breath, trying to keep up the hope of not losing Alaska or Leonid.

"Excuse me?" the nurse said as she came back out of the room and gave all of the people in the room a reassuring smile.

"She woke up."

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In the meantime Alaska just opened her eyes and was breathing heavily, making the heart monitor go crazy. The sounds around her scared her. The plain walls, the stinging smell in her nose and the feeling of emptiness, even more.

She got into a sitting position and hissed when a bit of pain erupted in her stomach.

"Al!" someone exclaimed and she was pulled into a bone crushing hug. At first she was stiff but when she recognized his scent and his voice then she swung her arms around him and hugged him back, ignoring the pain in her stomach.

"I-I thought I'd lose you." Maxim sobbed into her hair and stroked them while Alaska sniffled into his shirt as well.

"I love you, Max. Fuck, I wouldn't know what to do wihout you!" she mumbled so only he could hear whereupon a smile graced his lips.

But their moment was cut short when Max was pulled off of her and she was pressed against another chest. This time it was Xavier.

"Gosh, you scared the living shit out of me! I'm so so sorry! If I hadn't let him kidnap me then you would've never gotten hurt! If only I had be more cautious and-" his rant was cut short when the girl pressed her lips on his.

"It's not your fault, stop blaming yourself." she whispered and gave him one more peck before she broke the contact and was pulled into yet another hug by someone else.

"My dear daughter. If only I had never listened to that psychotic bitch. I'm sorry, for everything I did. From accusing you of something so horrible to insulting ou with such horrible words. I know you will never forgive me and I honestly don't even want you to. I don't deserve it. But please at least let me see you every day, yeah? That's enough. I don't want to live without you. I couldn't. I love you my beautiful little sunshine." Thoedore apologized whereupon tears welled up in his daughter's eyes at the nickname.

Little sunshine.

She hadn't heard it for such a long time that she almost forgot about it. It was what her father used to call her. A little sunshine lighting up a room full of darkness. She had the power to do so, but unfortunately her family noticed too late how precious and beautiful their sister truly was.

"Thanks dad." she replied, making her father smile widely.

"Alaska...we wanted to say the same. We behaved like...No wait, let's say it different. We want to apologize for everything we did to you and even though we know that you won't ever forgive us, which we wouldn't deserve anyways, we want you to know that we will always be there for you and support you. And we will do anything to keep you in our lives, willingly of course. I mean we wouldn't kidnap you that's what I me-" Phoenix rant was cut off by Colton stepping onto his foot, making him groan in pain.

"What was that for, man?" he complained, holding onto his foot.

"We wanna apologize and not threaten her, dimwit." Colton hissed and sent his sister a sheepish grin, whereupon she just started to laugh.

This was what she had missed. Her family's stupid behavior, their sarcastic comments, their arguments about useless things. She had missed it so much.

Suddenly an alarm went off and Alaska glanced to her side. Her breath hitched when she saw her friend lying on a hospital bed, still unconscious.

"How long did I sleep?" Alaska blurted out, a lump forming in her throat as she watched some nurses rush into the room when Leonid's heart monitor went crazy.

"One month, actually....You were in a coma, y know?" Jack scratched the back of his head and if she wasn't scared for her bestfriend's life or shocked at the fact that she was in a coma, then she would've probably been happy to see him and his twin sister again right now.

"Oh god." A shaky breath left the girl's mouth as she watched a doctor perform CPR on her bestfriend.

"Come on young man, you're strong. I knwo you are." the doctor said and told the nurse to charge the defibrillator before he put it on Leonid's chest.

"Away from the body!"

The line on the heart monitor was a straight green line, making Alaska's heartbeat increase and her palms sweat.

"Again!" the doctor demanded and repeated his process, but again it didn't work so he performed CPR again, pressing his hands on the middle of Leonid's chest.

"1, 2, 3..." he counted with every time he put pressure on his hands until it was 30 and then he took the defibrillator again.

"Charge it!"

"Charged."

"If this doesn't work...then we can't do anything for you anymore." he muttered whereupon Alaska's eyes widened in fear and she grabbed Max's hand for support.

"Away from the body!"

The doctor's arms dropped to the side and silence over took the room, the only sound being the girl's heavy breathing.

"I'm sorry." the man in the white lab coat mumbled before he said that one sentence that she dreaded the most.

"Time of death--" Tears formed in her eyes, clouding her vision and making it hard to breathe.

Suddenly a beep made her heart skip a beat. She glanced over to her bestfriend's monitor again to find it beeping in a normal pace.

"You idiot." she breathed out when the doctor sighed in relief and left the room. "You scared the living shit out of me."

"I did?" a raspy voice suddenly whispered, making her head snap to Leonid. She practically jumped out of the bed, completely ignoring the pain in her stomach, and walked over to him.

"Are you...awake?" she whispered hopefully, grabbing his hand.

Silence.

Her face fell when he didn't answer and the grip on his hand loosened wherupon he moved his fingers, making her grasp slightly.

"Al." he smiled and slowly opened his eyes.

"Oh my god, Leo!" she exclaimed and threw herself around his neck.

"Slow down there. Let me breathe." he chuckled which turned into a cough because of his sore throat.

Maxim quickly grabbed a glass, poured some water into it and gave it to Leonid.

"Thanks man." he thanked after he gulped down the whole glass.

"I missed you so much." Alaska admitted and embraced him in a hug once again.

"Me too- wait, how long did I sleep? What happened? And who are they?" he asked, pointing at the twins.

"Ok first, those are my friends, Jack and Lily. Second, you were in a coma for like 5 weeks. And third, I was in a coma too because I was shot by William's brother, who is also the twin's father." she said it all in one breath, afraid of his reaction.

"Coma? 5 weeks? You were- Are you ok? Who shot you? Oh, I'm gonna kill him. What was his name again? Who was he? Tell me! I wanna introduce him to my fists!"

"He's...uh...--"

"He's dead. I shot him." Jack cut off Alaska, making her jaw drop.

"Yo-you shot him?" she asked incredulously.

"Yeah." he said proudly, a smirk making it's way to his lips.

"Uh, well then. You're aren't as bad as I thought, bro." Leonid admitted.

"You only knew me for like 5 minutes and you already judged me by my experience?" Jack wiped away a fake tear.

"Man, everyone who's befriended with my bestfriends is a possible danger for me. I have to keep them safe, y know?"

"Aww." Alaska cooed whereupon she was shushed by her friend.

"Yeah, yeah. Now shut up." he chuckled.

And that's how it was.

Alaska was surrounded by people that meant the world to her, even though some of them had to win her trust back first, but nevertheless she was happy in that moment.

She didn't feel pain or sadness as she laughed with her friends. There was no pressure on her heart, weighing her down.

She just felt free.

And upon that day she enjoyed every single day that she spent with all those poeple.

She let go of the hate and let the past be the past, although she didn't know whether she would ever really forgive her family for all the pain they caused her, but one thing she knew for sure...

...she was their little sunshine again.
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Hey there...this was the last chap.

I wanted to thank you all so much for reading until the end. When I first started writing this book I was like 'nobody will read my crap anyways' but then I got so many comments, showing me that there were actually people who enjoyed reading my story. I got a lot of tips, tricks, criticism, praise, opinions, ideas and what not, and for that I'm so incredibly thankful guys!
You made writing this book so much fun! I really enjoyed it and I hope that I will see/text with many of you again someday on wattpad! ❤

I hope you enjoyed!

By the way, the extra chaps are coming throughout the week.

And in case we won't see each other gain or text with each other or whatever, Merry Christmas and a happy new year!!🤗

Stay safe all of you, especially in this time of the year! Love y'all so much!
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