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A L A S K A

One week.

It was one whole week since I last had a proper conversation with my bestfriends. It was like I was air to them. They don't even look at me and it hurts. It hurts so much, because I'm so fucking scared to lose them. Without them I'm nothing. Wihout them I wouldn't be able to control my emotions. I wouldn't have someone to lean onto or to talk to about my problems. I'd miss them so much. Their smiles, laughs and silly jokes as well as their yells, fury and anger attacks.

The fact that I didn't even know why they avoided me made it just ten times worse.

All of a sudden I was pulled out of my thoughts by someone bumping into my shoulder.

"Hey, what the-" I cut myself off when I found Leo staring at me.

"Leo." I breathed out and a small smile made it's way onto my lips. Now was my chance to finally talk to him. Well it's not the best way to talk to someone in the hallway of a highschool, but otherwise who knows when my next chance will be?

"Sorry." he muttered and turned around, making my face drop, but before he could walk away I grabbed his arm. He stopped and hesitantly turned around before a look of annoyance made it's way to his face.

"Seriously, Leo? Can't we talk please?"

"No. Now let go." he deadpanned and pushed my hand away before he turned on his heels and sped off.

"Leo!!" I yelled, desperation lacing my voice.

The hallway suddenly silenced and all the students were looking around in order to see what's going on. The only thing you heard were low whispers and someone chewing a gum.

"Please, talk to me, godammit!" I exclaimed.

"What's going on here?"

"Max?"

"Al." he whispered but quickly turned towards Leo and asked him what was going on whereupon I cut in.

"I wanna talk. Please."

"Oh." he said with his lips forming an 'o' shape.

"Alaska, just let it be, yeah? I- We just need more time...to process it, I guess." Leo mumbled.

"You ignored me for one fucking week!! I understand if you need time but- No wait, you know what? I don't. I don't understand why you're avoiding me like a virus. We always talked about everything, never had secrets. So what's different now?!"

"It's complicated." Max sighed.

"Complicated? There was nothing that was ever so complicated that we couldn't talk about it!!" The fear inside of me had turned into anger and my worries vanished into thin air. They were keeping something from me, they weren't trusting me. That hurts more than any slap I could ever receive.

"Please, just talk to me." I pleaded, tears welling up in my eyes.

"I...I can't...."

"Why?! Why can't you fucking talk to me? Why can't you tell me what your problem is? That's how we always did it! Just tell me the reason and we can sort it out! Please just-"

"I am afraid!!" Leo yelled on the top of his lungs, eyes glossing over.

"W-what?" I choked out with widened eyes.

"Fuck, I don't wanna live without you, ok? But I'm so scared to not be enough. That you will choose Ricci over us, that you will leave us. I-I am afraid to lose you, Al!!" The crack in his voice sent a painful pang to my heart as I noticed how selfish I was. I only cared about my feelings, about how I would be alone and lost wihout them, but I never thought about their feelings.

I never thought about the way they must feel.

The lump in my throat grew and a tear ran down my cheek, bringing up a tingling sensation as the warm tear touched my cold cheek. People around us were staring at us in shock and confusion whereas my brothers were gaping.

"Why didn't you tell me? Why would I choose him over you? I can't live without you!" I said.

"Likewise." they said in unison, making a smile crawl onto my dry lips. The next thing I knew I was pulled into a bone crashing hug, suffocating me half to death.

"C-cannot breathe...." I gasped whereupon they quickly let go of me and apologized with a sheepish grin.

"Idiots." I muttered under my breath receiving two disapproving huffs.

"But, would you choose him over us?" Max asked out of the blue, anxiety swirling in his eyes.

"I...I don't know. I-I don't think so. I'd never choose a guy over you, I mean like a boyfriend or something. But you have to promise that you'd never choose anyone over me as well, alright?" I asked hopefully.

They nodded eagerly and pinched my cheeks whereupon I sent them a glare, which in return made them retreat their hands immediately. They know what I could do of I was pissed off...and it wasn't pleasant...for them.

I hope that everything will return to normal now.

It won't.

I am glad that we talked it out and we can finally have a little bit of peace in this cruel world.

They won't have peace. The only thing they will get is something that will either tear them apart or bring them closer together.

I just hope that my brothers will leave me alone, so that I can somehow manage to survive until I am eighteen years old and can move out of that hell hole.

T

he brothers won't leave her side.

They will always be around her once the incident happens.

If only they had known that it would happen...

then they could've stopped the worst from happening...
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Hey there, I didn't update for like one week or something, so I am glad to publish this new chap for you guys ☺

Tomorrow or maybe even today will be another one, btw.

What do you think will happen?
What could the brothers have stopped from happening?

Stay safe guys! Love y'all!
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