I looked at my phone while waiting for a text from Sunoo after I arrived at the building. He told me to wait in front of the building because he wants to change his clothes as he keeps practicing his choreography causing him sweats a lot. So, I decided to wait for him, sitting on the bench. Honestly, my heart was pounding fast and it made me felt nervous because I am scared, what if Jungwon show himself here?

" Let's go." Sunoo suddenly appeared in front of me, wearing a mask on their face, and almost made me don't recognize who he was as I can only see half of his face. I stare at him confused, " What if people get a wrong idea about us?" I asked him slowly when I am getting more nervous when some people were looking at both of us weirdly.

" I don't care. It doesn't stop me from loving you."

I froze, " You dummy. Can't you stop making a joke?"

He suddenly pinched my nose causing me groaned in pain. I quickly hit him on his shoulder and he laughed at me,

" Kim Sunoo, do you want to di-" He immediately held my hand and dragged me into the building before I could finish my words.

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" Im Soo Ah, where are you?" I read a text from Hana and quickly turned off my phone instead of replying to her before looking at Sunoo who was walking toward me with a microphone in his hand. He stood in front of me and started to sing a love song while his eyes still fixing on me. It made me shy but at the same time, I'm amazed by his vocals. My eyes keep following his step and laughed when he tried hard to show me his sad expression.

He suddenly pulled me, asking me to dance with him when his song played in the studio. I followed his step after he taught me the dance step by step but we end up laughing hard as we suddenly stepped on each other's feet hardly. After a few minutes of having fun together, we laid on the floor while facing the ceiling, gasping for breath.

" How are you feeling now?" Sunoo asked me and I replied to him by smiling at him, taking a glance at him but suddenly, we did eye contact as I caught him staring at me too.

" Beautiful." He mumbled to himself, smiling for no reason. I locked my eyes on him, still can't stop from adoring his beautiful pair of eyes, and didn't realize he was slowly leaning his face closer to me with his eyes locked on my lips.

" Kim Sunoo, what if someone sees u-" He suddenly cut me off by tucking my hair behind my ear, slowly wrapping his hand around my neck before giving a peck on my lips.

" It's the end, right?" He asked me.

" I'm sorry for kissing you. You are going to leave me and I don't think I can see you this close after this.

I don't want to be sad, thinking of you all day long and hoping for you to come to me. So, this is the only way to make me happy when you are no longer by my side. " He used his thumbs to stroke my cheeks.

" We still can be friends," I replied to him and he smiles.

" I wish we can be more than that." He said.

I looked at him blankly.

" I'm kidding." He pinched my cheeks and showing me his hand, waiting for me to do a handshake with him. " What does that mean?"

" Our last goodbye." He replied to me. I am getting teary when he smiles at me, holding the pain in his heart as he doesn't want me to leave him. After everything that happened in my life, he was always the first one to come to me and treated me differently than others.  We met in the waiting room for the first time
and started our relationship in a bad way. I still remember the moment I bite his hand to run away from him after he found out about me.
I don't expect we will end up in this way.

We started with a fight

and end with a painful goodbye.

  Tears shed from my eyes as I held his hand and did a handshake with him. His eyes were getting teary but he quickly wiped them off and laughed, to hide his pain.

" Thank you for keeping my secret, Kim Sunoo."

" Thank you for coming into my life, Im Soo Ah."

He hugged me, appreciate the last moment with him before I leave him.

  " I wish I am not an idol, so I will follow you and be with you all the time."

" I love you." He continued.

" Kim Sun-"

He placed his finger on my lips to stop me from saying anything.

" I know. I know your answer. It's better if you keep it to yourself."

I looked at him, feel guilty.

" Just because I loved you, that doesn't mean you have to love me back."

" Please be happy. I will always wait for you."

" You can go."

He smiles and changed his position to the opposite, facing the wall instead of me. I stood behind him while holding my tears again as I heard a sob from him. He covered his face with his palm and could not help from crying. He doesn't want to show me that he is weak, that's why he hides it from me. He hides the pain, fight with himself and pretend to be okay when the truth, he got hurt the most. Stupid me for realizing it now, I used to lean my head on his shoulder and cried in his embrace, telling him everything like I am the saddest person in the world without knowing he is getting hurt too.

" Kim Sunoo, I am sorry."

" Go, Im Soo Ah."

" I'm sorry ."

" Im Soo Ah, please."

" Thank you for everything.

I will never forget you. I'm happy to meet you in my life, I hope we will meet again in the future. Take care, Kim Sunoo.

Goodbye."

I left him.

For real,

I left him.

I left someone who loves me the most.

I left someone who cares about me the most.

I left him for someone who doesn't love me back.

He deserves better than me.