Dear Diary

Blissful. This is what I'd describe the past week like.Everything seems to fall into place now. Ethan and I are sharing a great rapport. He and I working together on the biggest project is like cake walk. We have fallen into a rhythm.

Days are great but nights are greater. Ethan is someone with whom I've been physically and emotionally comfortable with in a long time. He shared everything from his heart and how badly he wanted to open his own firm.

I want to convert this dream into a reality for him. I want to tell him that it is still possible to have one's own identity despite working in corporate. Tomorrow I'll tell him that after we're done with this project we should take up the smaller things he cares about.Like building a coffee shop or a school.

This side of Ethan is something I've never seen before and I love it. He's someone in my life that I didn't even know I needed.

S.

"Ready for dinner, baby?" I shut the diary close and shoved it into the drawer.

I turned around and saw Ethan leaning against the doorframe, looking delicious as ever, "It depends. Did you cook?" I said as I sauntered up to him and kissed him.

"Yeah, duh." He said as held my waist tighter against him.

"Oh, that sounds delicious. Maybe I'll eat everything." I looked up suggestively.

His breath hitched as he leaned in closer. I pushed myself away and ran downstairs."I was serious, I'm really hungry." I called back as I ran away laughing.

We had dinner, thankfully without any distractions and discussed about the project. Ethan was so happy and excited like a child, I wonder what his reaction will be when I tell him to start a new branch for the smaller projects.

We were currently in his room. This is where I practically lived now. Ethan had asked me multiple times to shift my stuff in here. But I'm a big procrastinator.He was going through the blueprints when I started leaving sweet spots on his neck.

"Sky, stop." He said half-heartedly as he was smiling down at the plans.

"Look me in the eye and tell me that." I teased him.

He looked up ,"Sky-" But instead he started kissing me even harder. "God, woman." He sighed as he lifted me up, I giggled and wrapped my legs around him.We fell on to the bed,

I pulled over my shirt to reveal the lacy black lingerie. His breath hitched."Skylar Carter, you'll be the death of me." He said before burying his face in my neck. 

"Oh real-" We were interrupted by a knock.

Ethan opened the door. "Madeline, what is it?"

"Sir, Mr. Asher is here, he wished to talk to the both of you."

Asher? What is he doing here?

Ethan closed the door and slumped his shoulders as he came towards me."Your brother is literally cock-blocking us." He groaned as he put on his shirt.

"Shut up, it must be important." I put my clothes back on.

Ethan went down first and I followed him.

"Asher? What's the matter?" Ethan asked him.

"Mr. Burke has set up a meeting tomorrow at 8:00 am. He personally called me. I was in the neighbourhood so I thought I'd drop by and discuss about it."

"Oh yeah, sure." I said as I led him into the home office.

We discussed and decided to meet directly in the conference room tomorrow and Asher left soon after.

We went into the bedroom, I was so tired.

Ethan hopped in beside me ,"Sooo...?" he nudged me suggestively.

"Save that energy for tomorrow. I'm tired as shit." A yawn accompanied my words.

"What a waste of that black lace--."

I cut him off by kissing, "Tomorrow, I promise." He kissed me back before cuddling me to sleep.

--*--

Up and ready the next morning we reached the office and Mr.Burke came in after shortly.

"Good morning everyone. After reviews and thoughts from my counsel we have taken a big decision."

Our breaths were caught. Did he decide to withdraw from the project? We cannot afford it at this stage.

"Seeing through the plans and drafts. I along with my directorial have decided to let Mrs.Skylar Evans-Carter, take over the project and head it individually in her own direction."

My mouth hung open with shock, this cannot be happening.

"As Mrs. Carter had received the news last week, it should come as no surprise and I hope all of your minds were made up for it.I hope to see the results soon. Thank you. Now if you'll excuse me I have an appointment."

What just happened? Did Mr. Burke publicly drop Ethan from the biggest project? What was he saying about the me receiving the new last week? What the fuck is happening? I'm in too much shock to absorb any of this.

"Congrats, Sky. I'm proud of you." Asher said as he hugged me but I was too distracted , searching for Ethan.He was sitting right next to me but had now disappeared.I patted Asher and burst out the door  I made my way out the building to see Ethan getting into his car.

"Ethan, wait!" I shouted but he looked at me with fury in his eyes and drove away.

Andrea came out, huffing with an envelope. "Mrs. Carter, I'm so sorry last week-"

"Not now , Andrea!" I said as I got into my car and went home. Ethan was not here. I had already called his office and he was not in yet. I waited for hours. Dad had called me to congratulate. But I just didn't want to listen to this. I can't take over! Ethan and I were working well then why did this happen?

It was 11:00 pm, when he came in. His eyes bloodshot and he was stumbling.

"Ethan, are you drunk?" I ran towards him.

"Yes. Why? Are you gonna take over this right from me too?" I flinched away.

"Ethan, listen. Whatever happened it's a misunderstanding, I will try and talk to Mr. Burke. I swear I knew nothing about-"

"Bullshit." He said as he held up an envelope addressed to me."You think you can act all innocent and get away with it?"

"What is this?"

"You say you know nothing about it and then Andrea gives me this copy to hand over to you.This is the formal request of you being appointed as head."

Oh my god. This is what Andrea was rushing out for ?

"Ethan, you don't understand-"

"Don't you dare say my name from that betraying mouth of yours!" He choked in a sob, "You know, I thought what we had was real. Me telling you about my biggest dreams and my biggest fears.I would've been more than happy for you if you achieved this in front of me. Heck , I even would've been proud of you. But you hiding this from me and going behind my back? That's low. That is low ,Skylar."

"Ethan, whatever you're-"

"Please stop!" He covered his ears, anger visible on his features, "Stop with your lies."

I held him, "Ethan you need to listen to me! For fuck's sake!"

He pushed me away. "Do not touch me. I regret everything. Everything. I need you to go away." He said and smashed the bottle against the wall.

That hit a nerve and sent me over the edge."Fine, I'll leave."

I went towards the elevator, in tears. I turned around. I'm not weak.

"I hope you come across the truth soon. And when you'll do, I'm not coming back.Ever." With that I looked at him one last time and left.I need a break.I can't be here.

--*--

I drove up to Ava , I knew Asher will be here.

"Hey!"

"Hey. Is Asher here?" I had cleaned up but I knew Ava would sense something from my tone.

"Yeah. Come on in. Is everything alright?"

I just nodded and made my way to Asher, perched on the couch.

"Hey, Sky. What are you doing here this late?"

"Asher I'm here to ask if you're willing to take up the other 50% of project. I don't want to do it alone."

"Are you sure? Mr. Burke specifically asked for you."

"Yes I'm sure and I know you'll convince him."

"Alright then, whatever you want." He kept down his phone and looked at me expectantly.

"One more thing. " I held Ava's hand and looked at Asher, "I want to take up the job in London and do this project on the side." Ava's hand fell from mine.

"What?" She asked me slowly.

"Skylar..." Asher started.

"No, Asher. I need this. I want to get away, take a break and clear my head."

"Is this about Ethan?"

"No. Of course not."

He hesitated for a moment, "Alright then, let me get some paperwork done and I'll get you your ticket." He walked out after giving a quick peck to Ava.

She took a seat beside me.

"Ava, I need you to promise me something."

"First you're leaving me here, all alone on such a short notice and then you expect I'll keep a promise for you?" I could see her tears building up.

"Ava, please." I cannot cry. I cannot cry.

She nodded.

"Promise me that if ever Ethan comes here, looking for my whereabouts you will not tell him a single word."

"What? Why-" I held up a hand.

"And I'd be forever grateful to you if  you won't ask me any further questions." By this point I was crying. I was not ready to let anyone in on the pain that he had caused me. Maybe I was trying to convince myself that this wasn't real.

She grabbed me in a tight bear hug and we cried together. Her because of me going away and me due to countless other reasons.

Telling Dad was the hardest part. But he was okay with it. Em was fine as she was going to be there for most of the time.I had decided against telling Liam. I boarded my flight the next morning, ready to start again.

When my flight touched down, I raced to Emilia's apartment. It was 2 bedroom and she was gonna live here for 90 days total, so it was reasonable enough.

I unpacked and it was then I realised that I had left my beloved diary right there in the bottom drawer of his house. A piece of my heart lied in the place that I used to call home, the person who was becoming my home.

I looked outside the window and London was beautiful, but it was not home.