"I think it's time to head upstairs," Gavin said.

"Why? We're having fun." I laid back against his chest.

"I don't want you to get sick." He replied.

"Fine" I stumbled to my feet.

"Give it to her, Gavin!" Jason laughed out, and I flipped him off.

I almost lost my balance, so Gavin picked me up and carried me. "You're so strong, Gavin." I looked at him as he walked.

"You're light as a feather, and I love having you in my arms." He kissed my cheek.

"That won't last forever," I mumbled.

"What did you just say?" He asked.

"You'll get bored with me sooner or later. I'm not Claudia or those other women."

"I don't want them. I want you, and I'll never get bored of you."

"I'm not having a threesome or letting you smack me around with a whip."

He chuckled. "What? I don't want you to do those things either."

"You're a dirty boy, Gavin. A very, very bad boy, and I think the things you did were gross. I wish I knew that before we got married." Yeah, I'm smashed.

"Would that have made you think twice about marrying me?" He sounded sad.

"Yes, because I'll never make you that happy, and I lost some respect for you tonight."

He sighed. "I'm not going to say a word right now, because I'm not going to fight with you while you're drunk." He snapped.

"I can't believe you did that with those women." I started crying. "What else did you do? Did you have one night stands and pay them for sex?" He ignored me.

"I hate Claudia, because she gave you things I can never give you." I continued to cry while he unlocked our door.

"I'll never make you happy." I sniffled, and laid my head on his shoulder. "I love you so much, Gavin. I just want you to be happy, and I'm so scared."

"I love you too, and why are you scared?" He asked.

"I'm scared you'll get bored of me or forgive Claudia and want to have sex with her, then I'll end up living in a tiny apartment in Brooklyn."

He stopped in his tracks and set me down. "That hurt, Kori. I'm nothing like my father."

I stumbled to the bed and fell asleep before I even took my shoes off.

A shooting pain through my head woke me, and the sunlight made it impossible for me to open my eyes. I put my hand on my head and groaned. I start remembering last night and my heart breaks. I was horrible about what I said to Gavin. I can feel the tears building.

I felt the bed dip and I smelled Gavin's fresh scent. "Take these and drink all this water."

A tear fell down my cheek and he wiped it away. "Hey, don't cry."

"I'm so sorry, Gavin." I didn't even look at him.

"Take this, and we will talk in a bit. A shower might help you feel better, too." He said.

I forced my eyes open to take the pain reliever and a drink. "Oh my God, I must look horrible."

He leaned in. "You're always beautiful, Kori." I felt his kiss on my cheek.

I realized I'm in my underwear and bra, so he must have undressed me. I groaned as my muscles worked against me, and I got up for my shower. My husband stood with a towel around his waist looking as delicious as always.

The hot water felt amazing, but I'm still heartbroken about what I said last night. I'm not saying my fears are wrong, but I didn't have to voice them so harshly.

My headache finally started to ease, and I'm thankful my stomach isn't upset, just growling.

I walked out and saw he was in a pair of sweats and sitting at the table drinking his coffee and looking at his phone. I stood behind him.

"Gavin, I'm sorry I drank so much and said hurtful things. You didn't deserve that kind of treatment." He set his phone down.

"Come here." I walked closer, and he pulled me into his lap.

"I ordered breakfast. Are you hungry or is your stomach too upset?" He asked.

"I'm hungry."

"Good, now you should know I'm not mad or hurt. I thought about it, and I'm not proud of some things I've done. Luke was trying to upset you and, obviously, he succeeded."

He cupped my face. "Making love to you is so amazing, Kori. None of my past experiences compares, and no woman has ever made me feel as good as being with you. I'm in love with you, and I now realized I've never been in love till you. You are my everything, and you said you can't give me what Claudia or other women gave me. You're right, but what you gave me is much more precious. Those women will never hold a candle to the woman you are, and I have zero desire to be with a woman like that, because I want you. If I wanted that kind of woman, I would have committed to Claudia because we were friends, but I never loved her or respected her the way I do you. This marriage is not built on sex or our insanely strong physical attraction. Our marriage is built on an insanely strong and deep love. That's why I refused to have sex with you until our wedding night. What we have is rare, and you have no idea how grateful I am to be your husband."

"I'm sorry, Gavin."

"Shh, now listen. As far as my parents go, there are other factors involved. Dad didn't do what he did because Mom bored him. Mom ignored him for years, and was so wrapped up in the church, raising us, and volunteering, he would go weeks barely seeing her. This is disgusting to have to tell you, but my mom stopped sharing a bed with my father two years before he started his affair. My mom pretty much ended their marriage."

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"Either way, he was wrong to do what he did, just like it was wrong what Melissa did to me and Keegan, but I am also at fault. Neither of us was truly in love and that's why it didn't work. That's why Claudia was successful."

He looked into my eyes, and I can see he meant every single word.

"When will I be more comfortable? It's been bothering me that I can't touch you. It's not normal, and something is so wrong with me." I wanted to cry.

"Kori, I knew when I married you that it would take time. We have done this so fast, and you've experienced so many changes in your life since we met. The women that raised you covered themselves head to toe. The Catholic church is very particular about sex, and your education on the matter taught you about sin, not pleasure. Their books on the subject shame you from doing anything that won't result in bearing a child."

"I know."

"You were taught that even masturbating is a mortal sin, so is that why you never had an orgasm until I touched you?" He asked, and I blushed.

"You don't have to say it, because I already know." He chuckled. "You were so shocked that night, and I knew you had never had one. It was awesome. I love that I am the only one responsible for giving you that."

"You're embarrassing me." I hid my face in the crook of his neck.

"Since I met you, I've seen a huge change. It's like you blossomed right in front of my eyes. You went from a beautiful girl who hid in big baggy clothes and glasses, to a woman who embraces her insanely beautiful curves. Your body is so amazing, and I still can't believe you even exist. Hell, the most beautiful women in the world have to be photoshopped to look anything like you."

"You're crazy." I giggled.

"I'm crazy in love with my wife. Oh, before I forget." He sighed again. "I've never paid for sex."