"You were my first kiss, Allie." He said and looked back at me. At the sight of my shocked face he laughed.
"I thought you noticed. I had no idea what I was doing." He continued.

"But- what?" I asked perplexed. Yes it was a sloppy kiss, but I thought he was just drunk.
"Don't make a big deal out of it. I shouldn't have said anything." He hissed and I came back to my senses again.

"No, I mean. Yeah, it's not a big deal." To me it was. But I guess it wasn't for him.
"Whatever." He answered. Wow. I was Chandler Hawkes' first kiss.

"Originally I wasn't even planning on blackmailing you. But when I saw how scared you were at the mall, I was amused. I found interest in you. Not in a creepy way, though. I kind of wanted to get to know you, even if that meant I had to force you to spend time with me." He shrugged and I blinked a few times.

"Wait, hold on." He looked at me questioningly.
"So you're telling me you bullied me and humiliated me, because you wanted to get to know me? Not because I humiliated you at the party?" My voice rose. He nodded, making me even angrier.

"Why didn't you just ask me to be your friend and not let me massage you and make you food?" I asked and he frowned.
"You wouldn't have said yes, Allie. We both know that. You were scared shitless. I took advantage of that. But you don't think I wanna kill you anymore, so I can tell you now." He shrugged.

"And what makes you think I'll continue our little deal after hearing you say this?" I scoffed.
"Because you enjoy kissing me?" He asked and I rolled my eyes.
"Not really." I answered and he smirked.

"Oh come on. Do you not remember the way you grabbed the back of my head when-"
"Stop." He smirked even wider.
"Admit it, you like it." I shook my head and he huffed.

"I'd prove it to you, but I'm afraid you might push me away." He said, looking at the rocks below us.
"You're right, I might." I nodded my head. He chuckled and stood up, before offering me his hand.

"Let's go, I'm getting cold." He said and I nodded, before taking his hand. We walked back in silence and I still couldn't think straight. I don't know how to feel about all of this. What he basically told me was that he never even wanted to sue my family, right? I don't know, I'm confused.

When we got in his car, none of us spoke. I was too confused and just wanted to sleep. Even though I was hungry, because I only had breakfast today. I just wanted to think about all of this.
"You're quiet." He sighed after a while.

"What do you expect me to do? Thank you because you didn't mean to make me your slave, but did it anyways?" I snapped.
"I shouldn't have-"

"No, you're right. You shouldn't have. You shouldn't have blackmailed me in the first place. You shouldn't have gotten into my life at all!" I yelled. Why was I so mad? I hated how he treated me. But I also liked it when he showed his playful side. And when he smiled and laughed. I loved that we watched the railway children together. This day was going great, even when he proposed the kissing buddy deal.

And now after he told me all of this, it felt as if it was ending. And I didn't like it. Even though I wanted it. I felt like there was so much more to know about him.
"I know. I just wanted- I don't know what I wanted." He sighed and ran a shaky hand through his hair.

As I watched him, I remembered the other things he told me. That he thought he would be able to jump off that cliff. That he hated his life and I couldn't help but pity him. I never thought about it like that, because I thought rich people had it best.

But I understand him now. He must be lonely and I also think he just wanted a friend. He just wanted somebody to be there. I was that somebody for a while and I was only complaining. No wonder he felt as if he had to blackmail me. I really wouldn't have accepted his friend request.

But mainly because he's really attractive and I kissed him before. That's a no go. You don't kiss your male friends. I never kissed Danny or Mike, thankfully.
"Chandler." I didn't know how I wanted to say it, but I was sure I wanted to.

"Allie." He said.
"I've never kissed one of my male friends before, like ever. And I'm pretty sure if we wouldn't have met the way we did, I would've loved to be your friend." I said and his gaze snapped to me. I smiled reassuringly.

"And there is no way we can be friends just now, especially after that proposal of yours." I continued and he gulped.
"But we could start with communicating and I don't know, start trusting each other." I said and his eyes widened.

"You'd do that?" He asked in disbelieve and I shrugged.
"Whenever you didn't bully me, I liked you. I liked the Chandler, who shared a laugh with me and watched my favorite movie with me. The playful Chandler, not the mean one." I smiled.

"Really?" He seemed really surprised and I frowned.
"Yes. Why does this sound so surprising?" I asked.
"I don't know. No one ever told me I was playful." He shrugged.

"Well you can be and you know what I liked most about the nice Chandler?" I asked him.
"What?" He had a small smile on his face and conveniently stopped at a red light.
"He had manners and complimented my mother's food. He cared about my little brother's feelings and made me realize how much I mattered to him." I told him.

His stare was intense, but comfortable. Because he wasn't really staring at me. I could see he was thinking about all of this. I watched him with a small smile on my face. I'm glad this road is deserted, because I'm sure he was looking at me for longer than ten minutes.

"But I still want to kiss you." He smirked and my jaw dropped. Was he serious?
"What is it with you and kissing me?" I threw my hands in the air.
"Sexual frustration maybe." He shrugged and I rolled my eyes.

"But I don't kiss my male friends, that's a no go." I told him.
"But we have to, I thought about this deal for so long. I can't just give it up after a day." He said.

"Chandler-"
"Please, Allie. I really like kissing you. I think I couldn't concentrate on getting to know you if I didn't kiss you every once in a while." He said and I sighed. There was no way out of this and he was stubborn as hell.

It's either kissing him and be his friend or nothing.