"Have a mind that is open to everything and attached to nothing."

Natasha's POV.

I still can't believe I had said those words out loud and it made it feel more real than keeping it within.

Honestly I have been avoiding Lorenzo. I don't know why, actually I do, its because I feel like things will be awkward between us. What if our relationship changes? I didn't have the courage to face the awkwardness so I hid like the coward I was. But I knew that I couldn't hide for long.

Tomorrow I go home shortening my two week trip to one because of Natalie and her wedding plans. She keeps nagging me and the phone calls are very expensive for an unemployed woman like me so I'm just heading home. Yes, even though a lot of things have happened I still remember that I'm unemployed and I hate having to even think of relying on someone to look after myself.

Mum and Susan (she told me to call her that from now on) are still teasing me about my revelation. Which makes me blush crimson. Oh and yes I've started calling Maria, mum and it feels like I've filled a piece that was empty.

Right now I'm sitting on my bed trying to think how I'll face Lorenzo when I get home.

"Hun are you in?" Mum voice comes through the door.

I hum my respond but turn to look at her.

"So your going home tomorrow, I still can't believe you've been here for a week and we've made so much progress." She says.

"Except my cooking. " I state.

"Yes that is going to be a big improvement if you choose to cook more. Anyways I came to ask... Actually I don't know why I came I just think I want to spend a lot of time with my daughter. Time I lost. " she says.

"Mum its OK. Please stop looking back cause that's not the way we are moving." I say reaching out and taking her hand. "All those things we have left in the past, the door is locked and the key has been thrown away. Its useless trying to open up the scars again." I said.

"OK. One more thing how's your employment going?" She asked.

It was like time had frozen. How do you tell your successful mother that you were fired and have been unemployed for about two months?

"Ilostmyjob!" I say as fast as I can and bury my head in the pillow .

It took her a while to understand before she got a surprised but confused facial expression.

"Did you do anything wrong?" She asked.

"Yes. I allowed Lorenzo to fall for me and his mum ordered him to fire me." I said.

"OK girl 1) you shouldn't regret the fact that Lorenzo fall for you and 2) why didn't you tell me ? " she asked.

"Mum your teenage years have way pasted and how could I tell you? You are a successful woman and my mum, that would be embarrassing even disgraceful. " I said.

"Honey no matter what you do I will never be embarrassed of you. Well except if you cook for a few of my friends.." She says then ducks the pillow I throw at her.

"Whatever. Anyways I have to get packing. Anything else you haven't said?" I ask.

"Did I tell you I love you?" She ask.

"Almost every minute." I said giving her a bear hug.

When she was gone my phone started ringing.

"Hello?" I ask.

"Miss Valenti?" A male voice spoke from the intercoms.

"That's me." I say.

"Just calling to ask if you are ready for your contemporary piece next week?" He asked.

"Mr?" I question.

"Whitlock." He says.

"Mr Whitlock I appreciate your call is it OK if I perform in two weeks time?" I ask.

"Miss Valenti. As you know that would be unfair to other contestants. Would you like me to withdraw your part?" He ask and I can hear him picking up the pen.

"No sir. I will be ready next week Saturday." I said.
He hummed a response and then the line went dead.

My life was a disorganized mess.

*next day*

I was saying my final goodbyes to my mum and boarding the plane with my aunt.

"It feels good to have a sister again." Susans says and I know she means every word because since they have reunited she has this glow of happiness every time she thinks of her sister.

Sitting on the plane I rehearse over and over different things I can say to Lorenzo for ignoring his texts and calls.

Exiting the plane every line I had practices falls out of my head, when I see him standing there all crisp and fresh. I can smell his cologne and feel the attitude he gives off, mixture of happiness and anger. When we lock eyes I feel like my body is becoming a puddle. My heart beats against my chest. As he walks towards me he never loses eye contact and I know its dangerous the game his playing at so I break the contact and fetch my suitcase. Soon I feel two hands snake around my waist and I can feel his breathing on my neck.

"Babe, did you have a good trip?" He ask breathing me in and out.

Its like all words have left my tongue. Surprisingly I manage to nod my head.

"You know, it was very naughty to ignore me like that. You have no idea how crazy I went not hearing from you. Why did you?" He asked.

"Why did I what?" I manage to breath out. I feel like hundreds of horses are galloping across my chest.

"No. Don't play the innocent with me." He says then turns me around to face his dark hooded eyes.

"I'm sorry I thought things will get awkward now. " I finally admit.

"What will be awkward is if I kiss you right now and do you know how much I've wanted to do that?" He asked.

I look at him in shock and suddenly lick my dry lips. His face inches forward and just as his lips brushes against mine I hear my name being called.

"Natasha!" Natalie says running towards me.

"Rain check?" Lorenzo whispers in my ears.

"Definitely." I say smiling.

I turn and give Natalie a "thanks for interrupting the most waited moment in my life" smile.

"You know I wasn't allowed to do all that with him until after the engagement according to their mom's rule. " she whispers waving her hand around.

"That's why you ruined my moment?" I asked.

She nodded which cause me to roll my eyes then pull her in a hug.

"I've missed you so much." She says.

"That's only cause you need help with the wedding." I say and she grins confirming my assumption.

"That's because those two knuckleheads are useless at this." She wines and I look over to Lorenzo and Massimo. I catch Lorenzo's wink and my heart melts. My mind relive the small moment we had and I smile a stupid teenager smile.

"Girl you are like his oxygen. That week without you he turned into a guy in rehab. You are like his drug." She says.

I smile but give no reply. The only thing I feel is the tingle on my lips.

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Sorry life had been hectic. The story seemed a little disorganized so I brought back some things I had originally written . Hopefully it all falls into place. Being my first book hopefully I will be more organised in the second one.