Final Note 💬

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Hello! I'm so sorry I pushed the final note so late but here we are.

I swear to God, saying goodbye to my books is the worst part of being a writer. All the fun and life I had for so long is suddenly ripped. That feeling is the worst I swear to God. But I hope this is all for the best.

I would like to thank each and every one of you who supported and loved all of this book, even the older version. Thank you for believing in me and staying till the end despite the hell I put you guys through. 

Even though I'm not proud of the old version it is because of her, this baby exists. I owe it all to her. I didn't feel like it was a bad plot. Of course I love every part of my books. I just wanted it to get better. I wanted her to develop and grow. Get a glow up. Thank you for 125k reads. We are still going.

I would like to NOT apologize for all the headaches we gave you. I warned you guys. And stfu yall enjoyed it too. But I'm sorry to anyone I have offended with my lack of knowledge in certain aspects of this book. Especially about DID.

I just believe it's really very important to be educated about DID. Like, the movies, books etc. paint it in a bad light. But no, DID patients can live a normal life too. It's like any other mental disorder too. Like depression, anxiety etc. Not every DID patient is a psychopath.

We all have been there. It's ok if you don't know. But it's really important to educate yourself. I tried my best. JAN has a really good message about mental disorders from what I've educated myself with. If i had been wrong anywhere, feel free to correct and educate me.

As i read the JAN comments i can legit see how people take mental disorders. We all are very poorly educated. I may not know everything about it. But whatever ik, I'll try to put it in the right light. Just let me know if my content is offensive. 

The book do have a lot of triggering content. But so does the world. And none of it is glorified. It just saddens me to know that it is all common around us. And no, it's not rare for a person to have any mental disorder. It's quite common. That's how complex and different everyone's head is.

JAN is a roller coaster which starts with horror then moves to mystery then to thriller and finally to psychology. And I'm literally not into any of those genres lmao. I don't watch or read anything of that genre. So i apologize if my sources were not right. But i mean no wrong. My versatility just gets the best of me sometimes.

With that said, i really hope we can normalize treating people with mental disorders for who they are with respect. Feel free to talk to me about anything. My account is a safe place for all kinds of people.

And i do hope people understand the power of the words 'depression' 'panic attacks' 'dyslexia' etc is.  These words are NOT to be used as you please. There's a difference between being sad and being depressed. Sad is an emotion. Depression is a condition. So please, i really hope people don't use these words for attention. That's highly disrespectful. It's ok if you had been like that, we all learn. I'm proud of you for that.

JAN also had a good in depth moral despite all the ghost and crime shit. I hope people understand that it is indeed possible to live your life even after losing your loved ones. But at the same time, those who wish to give up, aren't cowards. I hope I can tell everyone in that place that they did good and they deserve to rest. 

I hope everyone is happy. Everyone be happy. Don't hesitate to seek help if you need. If you fear something do consult a professional. Surround yourselves with positive people. Let go of the toxic people. The fact that you can give up on yourself but can't give up on others, do not make you any good or kind. They don't deserve you.

I might sound selfish, but you need to take care of yourselves first. Put yourself first. Take care of your mental health. Grow and change every single day. Fuck up and make mistakes to learn new things. Construct yourself. Everyone has bad days. But make sure you are strong enough to deal with them. 

I wish the best for all of you. 

Now, my personal farewell to my characters and some facts. 

Jimin. My baby, you did well. I'm so proud of you. You are not dumb. You deserve the world. I'm so proud of who you are today. This story is nothing without you. Thank you for keeping us together in one piece.

Yoongi. you didn't deserve to die. Your death was the most unjust. I'm sorry. But the fact that you stayed for Jimin despite everything proved how much you love him. You guys have a tragic love story. But maybe in a different life you will be able to give all your love to Jimin.

Jongin, Taehyung and V. Im proud of you guys. You did well. I wish I can tell you guys how much I love you. You guys are so strong. I enjoyed writing you guys the most. You guys are the reason I got to educate myself. Thank you. 

Namjoon. I'm sorry you were forced to be something you didn't like. But I do hope you are terribly sorry for what you did to Doori. That was wrong.

Seokjin. I know you love your brother. But you can never justify a death with another one. I hope the best for you. You did good, Seokjin.

Hoseok. Oh to have a friend like you. I am so proud of you. You deserved to be happy with Doori. I'm sorry. But I do hope you understand now that it wasn't Taehyung's fault. 

Jungkook. I'm so sorry baby. I wish someone was there to save you. To help you from your own mind. I'm sorry. i hope you know what real love is and I hope you will be able to experience it someday.

Doori. My baby. I'm so proud of you. You did good, baby. Take some rest. It's all over.

Hyunjin. Rail me, daddy.

Now for the facts:

1) Doori was never to be a part of the plot lmao. I overworked myself to come up with her. 

2) The older version's plot was not constructed. I just developed it on the way. So I myself had no idea about a lot of things. But the second version was wrecked for days or months. I took a lotttt of notes and rechecked the plot eight times to make sure I didn't leave a loophole. It took my soul to get everything connected. And the thing is, if I start to work one day, finish three chapters and then get busy with my personal life for a while when i come back, I cant resume. I will forget the intricate plot details. So most of the times, the book was binge written for hours. Ten to fifteen a day.

3) Namjoon was not supposed to do that to Doori. V was. But I would hate myself if I did that. I can NEVER do that to a DID patient just for the sake of a book plot. I've already had enough with people who portray DID patients as killers. I didn't have it in me to do it.

4) The numbers in the older version were dumb af. Made no sense. But for the new version my pea brain had to use a calculator. I worked it out pretty good.

5) Jimin was supposed to kill himself in the end lmao. But I couldn't kill him. I already killed Yoongi. Not him too.

6) SOPE were never meant to be step brothers. Originally it was made for Yoongi to love Hoseok. But then I full on made it as a YOONMIN thing.

7) Hyunjin was solely introduced just because I wanted both my biases to be in the same book. It was supposed to be a guy named SeoHyun, an original character. But what was the fun in that?

8) The Lee MinHo, Yoongi's uncle is not Lee Know from skz lmao. It's the actor one.

9) Jimin and Hyunjin were supposed to end up together. But again, I kept it as YOONMIN.

10) It was not supposed to be Jongin actually. I was searching for the prominent Kims in the K industry.  It was supposed to be Kim Hanbin (BI) but then I remembered Kai. He fit perfectly. I was this close to put Seungmin but I can't do that to my baby. I mean, have you looked at him?

That's it ig lol. So yeah. It has ended. Again, a big thank you to everyone who has made this happen. A shout out to my babes, arsh and larissa, the reason i made it. Thank you hoes. Muah. ive never seen two people love and adore this book like they did, especially larissa. I enjoyed every bit of our interaction about JAN. This book gave me you, and now you ma bitch. Arsh, youve been there since the first version, never gave up on me. Thank you.

Also, I am starting to post this story on ao3 as well. I added the nude Jimin sends to Yoongi in the first chapter in that version. So if you want to check it out, check the ao3 version. The details are in my bio.

If you have questions or final farewell for the book, leave it here.



WITH THIS I OFFICIALLY END JUST A NUDE. YOU WILL BE MISSED TERRIBLY. GOODBYE EVERYONE! THANK YOU FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL JOURNEY!

LOVE, AMY


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