Chapter 14: Telephone

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"Let me take you to lunch tomorrow, I miss you." Jacob said. Jacob and I were speaking over the phone, I got listen to the sound of his voice which weirdly enough made my night. We talked about him mostly, I wanted to get to know more about the man I'm supposed to be with 'for the rest of my life'. He has to live up to my standards; which I explained to him. I expect to be respected by him no matter what; men tend to treat women unfairly because they are thought to be weak. I am a strong feminist. I also, explained to him I will be treated like his equal and despite our age differences. It is 10 o' clock at night, I laid underneath my blankets, we've been on the phone for two hours now.

I blushed, "I can't, I have study hall afterwards and I can't miss it. I have a test coming up, I've already missed two days."

He hummed, I listen to his vocal cords vibrate as he stayed silent. "What about afterschool, are you busy then?" I asked breaking the silence.

"I am kitten." He said.

"Hmm, did you just think of that pet name?" I said grinning.

"Maybe I did, you don't like it?"

"I like it, all these pet names... Makes me feel like I should call you something." I said mischievously.

He chuckled, "Well you figure that out tomorrow."

"Wow so ready to get rid of me I see." I said sarcastically.

"Never, I'd miss your sweet voice all night. Although, you do Highschool to complete; as you said." He responded. I rolled my eyes at his cheesiness, I got up off my bed. My hair is everywhere and I have munchies. I put Jacob on speaker and walked to the bathroom to tame the wild curls on my head.

"But I don't want to get off the phone, besides I'm not tired so if we get off the phone I'd just stay up and be bored." I said as I combed my hair and parted it down the middle to braid two pigtails.

He laughed, "Okay if you aren't tired I will stay on the phone with you until you fall asleep."

"What if you fall asleep before me?"

"I doubt it I plan on staying awake most of the night."

"Why would you do that to yourself? You need to sleep."

"Are you worried about me kitten?"

I bit my lip, "I am."

"I assure you love you have nothing to worry about."

"I will have something to worry about, I can't go to sleep peacefully knowing you're not doing the same tonight. Please sleep tonight." I said finishing up my braids. I walked to the kitchen with my phone in my hand.

"Well since my little mate asked nicely." He said.

"I'm serious." I said rummaging through the cabinet for some chips.

"I'm serious too, if it means so much to you. I'll do it."

"Good."

"What are you doing love?"

"I'm about to eat some potato chips. What are you doing?" I said opening the big bag of Lays and poured some in a bowl.

"Just paperwork. It's really boring I wish I could be cuddled up with you instead."

"Mm, maybe you should come, it's not too late." I said biting my lip hoping he say yes. I miss him and I want to cuddle against his chest; his chest is so warm and abs are so toned.

"And revisit last night." He said. I imagine him with a grin on his face.

"No... maybe, I just want to lay on your chest it's like laying on a heated pillow. Your body is so freaking warm. I bet you have no problem being naked in the winter—not that I picture you naked—not that don't picture you naked. I do. But—I'm just going to shut up now." I said rambling nervously.

He laughed.

"You picture me naked." He asked. I hear the smirk in his voice.

"I don't know...maybe." I said filling my face with chips.

"In your pretty little mind I trust I'm every bit as endowed as I am in reality."

"What?! No, I don't think of that. Cocky much." I said defensively blushing knowing damn well I think about when I met him in the forest; his naked body and how big his assets are. He is in fact very big.

He laughed, "Alright baby, but it's okay to want what is yours."

"No Jacob. No sex." I said sternly. I'm not going to lie to myself I want him to fuck me, but I don't know the first thing about sex and I'm not exactly comfortable with advertising my body even if he has already seen it. In some ways I am insecure but not totally. I know I'm an attractive person, it's just certain assets of my body I don't like; such as my stretch marks.

I admire my body it's just sometimes I feel overweight, but everyone feels insecure sometimes.

"I would love nothing more than that, but we both have obligations in the morning."

"I guess so," I said sighing eating my chips on, " Jacob?"

"Yes love."

"Do you love me?" I said with immediate regret.

He chuckled, "I do."

"Really?"

"Yes, why do you sound surprised? Did you expect a different answer?"

"No! I don't know –- I guess so. It's just Katie told me you've loved me for a very long time." I said recalling my talk with Katie.

"I did and I still do."

"Why though? You don't know much about me."

"I know more than you think."

"What do you mean you know more about me? Did you stalk me?"

"No, I just had my wolves look after you."

"So you had people follow me."

"I wanted to make sure you were safe."

"Jacob I don't need that, I perfectly capable of taking care of myself I've been doing it for years."

"I know I was just really worried sometimes, I wanted to keep tabs on you without interfering your life."

"Why didn't come into my life before, why did you decide to come into my life now?"

"I didn't think you needed me in your life, you were so young I didn't want to take your innocence."

"Jacob I didn't expect to have sex I just wish you were there for me when I didn't have anyone." I said

He sighed staying silent, "I'm sorry baby, I thought being in your life would be toxic for you. Being Alpha means that I have to suffer with the enemies of my pack, meaning they'd probably come after you to hurt me. You being so young I didn't want you to deal with that at a young age."

"I'm not that same little girl I you once knew me as years ago; I changed a lot."

"When people change, they sometimes change for the better. In your case, you have for your own sake you are strong woman I can see that."

"I guess so." I said looking back at things I've been through a lot, I took care of myself and I had to grow up faster than most.

"Are you afraid I won't like you the same?" He asked.

"I don't know, maybe." I said nervously.

"You don't have anything to worry about, if anything I like you even more. You were beautiful then and you're incredibly sexy now. Over time I will only love you more."

"I just met you and I really like you, I don't like how I feel when I am without you, but I can't really say that it's love. It is probably the mark that makes me feel this way, what if when the mark is gone I don't feel the same anymore? What if I just resent you too much?"

"The mark is just a symbol that you belong to me, It doesn't make you have feelings for me. It enhances them, now I don't expect you to be in love with me by tomorrow and I don't expect you to want to marry me. I want to earn your love, and not to force you into anything. Anything that you feel will be at your own will." He explained.

"Will I get to mark you?" I said playing with my fingers.

"No love."

"Why not? You can claim me but I can't claim you."

"It is something exchanged between two wolves that are mates. In every other aspect you can have me but not this." He said.

"Will my mark go away?"

"Do you want to go away?"

"What if I do?"

"Well like I said I won't force you to be with me, if you don't want this for us if you don't want to be with me my mark on you will fade away."

"You would like that would you?"

"No I wouldn't, but I would like you to be happy."

"You know exactly what to say don't you?"

He laughed, "I guess I do love."

"I want to see you Jacob."

"How about I take you to school tomorrow?"

"That's nice but I want to spend the day with you." I said pouting.

"Listen baby, I will be gone for week. I know this is bad timing but I need to handle some things out of town."

"So I won't be seeing you for week, I don't know why but that sounds like a long time to spend away from you. I don't want you to go Jacob."

"I know baby, but this needs my undivided attention." He said.

I became distraught, I don't want him to leave. It pains me to know that he will be out of my immediate reach.

"Jacob... I don't think I can be without you."

"I know baby, my mark on you will have this effect on you-"

"It's so fucking overwhelming Jacob. I want you here now but you're not." I said crying.

"I know baby."

"No Jacob I don't think you know. I cannot stop thinking about you and all I want is to be with you but you don't want the same. I don't like having feelings for any one especially when it's not reciprocated!" I said. I had unwanted tears streaming down my face. I am getting so frustrated.

"Scar please don't cry, just take a deep breath," he says in attempts to calm me down.

I disconnected the call.

I went back to my bedroom so I can cry in my bed; I feel so overwhelmed. I went under my covers and put a pillow to my face and screamed into it. I don't want to feel this way, I barely know him but he have so much effect on me it aggravates me.

My phone rang I checked it, it was him. I declined his call and turned my phone off. I continued to cry until I fell asleep.

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I woke up to my alarm blaring I hit the off button and sat up with my blanket around me with my eyes shut. I really don't feel like getting up my eyes puffy from crying last night and it is hard to open them. I grabbed my phone and turned it on I had 14 missed calls all from Jacob: I rolled my eyes. It is 6:50 in the morning and I have to get to school by 8. I got up and trudged to the bathroom and I began to brush my teeth. I looked terrible like I got run over by a bus or something. When I finished brushing my teeth I took a shower a long one hoping my puffy eyes goes down before I have to go to school. I soon finished and so I dried off and wrapped myself with my towel, I put lotion all over my body, and went to my bedroom. I put on a my burgundy shirt, black denim, and my red converse. I brushed through my hair with my fingers I'm going to just let it all out today maybe my curls will draw attention from my puffy eyes. I put chap stick on my lips, I grabbed my black hoodie along with my book bag and phone. I went to the kitchen and saw Grace and Ebony eating breakfast. I took the box of raisin bran I took a zip lock bag and poured some in it.

"Good morning to you too Cinderella." Grace said sarcastically. I ignored her I am not in the mood for a light morning conversation.

"That's what you're having for breakfast?" Ebony asked.

"Yup," I said walking towards the door with my phone in one hand and my breakfast in the other. I walked out the door and slammed the door shut. I walked to the elevator and saw Mr. Jamison he is a pervert I immediately entered the elevator I'll be damned if I had to share an elevator with him, I went into elevator and I repeatedly smashed the 'close door' button before he came in.

When I elevator reached the first floor I walked and left the building and walked to the bus stop. The bus didn't take too long, I got in and took my wallet out of my book bag and payed my fare.

I walked in and took a seat in the back and I put my hoodie on, I looked out for my stop. When my stop came I got off and walk the rest to school, I had 7 minutes before I had to go to class. When I walked through the school I held my head down I just feel like crap today. People began to stare at me, I began to feel nervous. I rushed to the nearest bathroom. "This is just my fucking day!" I said aloud just as two girls came out of the stalls and gave me dirty looks as they washed they're hands. All I wanted to do is get this damn day over without being notice and all of a sudden I'm a big deal around here. Since fucking when! "Scarlett!" Katie said busting through the door. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine. Why am I a center of attention?"

She pointed to my neck, "Some of the students here are werewolves from my pack, they now see you as our Alpha's mate."

"How can they see the bite? I covered it with a bandaid." I said looking in the mirror.

"Scarlett they can smell him on you."

"Well how do I get it off me!"

"Scar relax it is not that serious, you are over exaggerating. In a couple of days his scent won't be as strong as it is now."

I rolled my eyes, "This isn't my day."

"Scar you don't have to stay, you're going into heat I can cover for you."

"Is that another one of your weird wolf things?"

"It is, I can call Jacob to come and get you-"

"No don't call him he is busy, and besides I don't want to talk to him right now," I said just as the bell rung.

"Scarlett stop being so stubborn you know you want to be with him."

"Katie I'm going to leave, okay? You should go to class, you're already late." Said ignoring her comment that was so true. I want to be with him but I don't want to get my hopes up on something that feels so good but probably not going to last.

"Okay," she gave me a hug, "I got to go to class before I get detention, call me if you need anything I'm only a call away. I will skip school for you."

"I know." I said. She walked out of the restroom. I sighed and walked out after her leaving school grounds.

I don't want to go home, so I decided to walk to the park and read. It was a 10 minutes away. So I walked, thinking about the book I was going to read it is about an assassin. When I reached the park it was really empty, I guess it is pretty old and torn up. I sat on the bench my the pond. I grabbed my book and my headphones from my bag, I had a weird habit of listening to music while reading it really soothes me in a weird way. It sort of reminds me when I was little I use to always read in the woods. Man I read a lot. I was a bored little girl with no friends and a very busy father. My dad. It was always so quiet and cold inside the house. He became so verbally abusive, but he never hit me really. Always empty threats but I was scared nonetheless it was not a pleasing environment for a growing girl to live in.

I haven't really thought about it until now. I have been feeling empty and sad for a while and I didn't want to admit it until now. I guess I underestimated how much his death would really affect me. I hate it.

I hate the fact that I have to care for him when he had no regards to my well-being whatsoever. All those feelings I buried deep never wanted to talk about it. I stop thinking about him—I pushed him out of my head and tried to push him out of my heart. I guess I wanted to show him I cared about him just as much as I cared about me. No one caring I felt like I had to raise myself, teach myself right from wrong, when my grades were slipping I had to be the one to straighten myself out, when I was hungry and he was on one of his trips I had to go out by myself and find some stranger to tell me where the nearest restaurant was. I just felt so all alone, I still feel all alone. In some ways it has been a good thing. How else was I supposed to learn? I

I felt someone sit beside me I didn't look at the person, the aurora felt all too familiar. I wiped my tears sniffling not realizing I was crying. I didn't want to look because I honestly didn't want to talk to him. So, I ignored him and continued reading my book. I didn't want him to see my cry. I felt a hand go on my neck and pull my head phones out, his touch felt so good. Only one man can make me feel that way.

Jacob POV

I hate the fact that Scarlett went to sleep upset with me, it actually pissed me off when she didn't answer my phone calls. Katie texted me, and told me Scarlett is really upset and didn't stay at school. She also told me where she could be and it was not her apartment. I found her at an abandoned park sitting on a bench as I got closer to her I sensed she was upset and I felt her tears. I got closer to her and I noticed headphones in her ears and her head down reading. I sat down beside her. She wiped her face to make it seem like she wasn't just crying. She shouldn't be scared to show her emotions when she is around me. She didn't look at me I watched her as she read her book.

She really is beautiful, with her two braids in her hair and her flawless brown skin. I gently took her earphones out and she shivered at my touch.

"You always loved to read." I said deliberately.

She rolled her eyes and put them back in her ears. I grabbed my book away from her lap purposely to catch her attention.

"Jacob give me my book back right now."

"So you do see me." I said standing raising it above my head.

"How did you find me?"

"Katie told me where I might find you, and it wasn't your apartment. Besides you are my mate I will always know where you are."

"Yeah not actually the best thing right now."

"Why, what's wrong? Am I the reason for the tears?"

"No I don't want to talk about it."

"I hate seeing you upset, talk to me please." I said pulling her close to me dropping the book on the ground.

She bit her lip and put her head down, I placed my hands on the side of her face and raised it, "Come on Scarlett." I kissed her plump lips, "I don't want to see you sad."

"I'm just overwhelmed." She said as I looked into her puffy eyes indicating that she has been crying. They were really puffy like she had been crying all night, my heart dropped. I should have been there for her as she didn't answer my phone calls.

"I know baby." I said. With her dad dying and her going through heat very soon you can imagine how overwhelmed she might be.

"Let me take you home, it is getting cold out here." I said grabbing her things.

"Okay." She said.

I led her to my car, I opened the door for her and she entered I gave her things and close the car door. I went to the driver side, her head was laid up against the window. I started the car and drove away from the park to my house, I didn't live near here. I live about 30 minutes away from this area.

I took her hand and kissed it, "Did you get sleep last night? You look tired."

"I did." She said going through her book bag and taking a zip lock bag filled with cereal in it.

"You didn't eat this morning?"

"I did this is just a snack."

"You're lying, I don't like lies Scarlett."

"Okay well... I just can't really eat anything but I don't want to starve today making my feel worse than I already do."

"Alright well, I'm making sure you're eating later today even if I have to feed you myself." I said.

" I don't want anything, I just want to sleep next to you. Unless you are still leaving."


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