I sat in the couch watching cartoons while eating cookies that Katie bought from the store. I recently came from taking a shower, gave me sometime time to think about my situation I slept almost a full 24 hours at least that is what Jacob told me. I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that my best friend and her brother that I have never met are werewolves. Not to mention that he and I are supposed to be together what ever that even means.  It's 2:46a:m and Katie and Jacob where whisper arguing. I acted like I was too focused on the TV to care what they were saying. True I couldn't exactly hear them although I know they are talking about me, they were talking about how they were going to explain things to me. I like to think I catch on fast. I'm not freaked out or mad or anything like that.

Seeing Jacob in the woods the other night and what he can do is crazy fascinating, even more fascinating that he can turn into a large wolf. It does however confuses me on numerous levels. As a child he came to me as a freakishly big animal and I wasn't phased, when I was 11 because I had a strong feeling he wouldn't hurt me. But it begs me to question, why hasn't ever shown me his true form, why show me his form now? Why did he leave and didn't come back? I got so fucking depressed when he never came back. I would spend nights in the woods crying just hoping he'd come back I was devastated. I felt like I lost a part of me; like my heart was empty. He had a huge impact on me as a child. I thought there was something wrong with me, I kept asking myself what could I have done to drive him away. I'd just break down crying in school, and when I was asked why---I didn't know what to tell them. Mostly because I couldn't understand the concept to I was feeling. Having those feelings and not have them reciprocated was heart breaking for me.  I started to cry a little bit just thinking about it, I quickly wiped my tears so  Jacob and Katie won't notice.

My demeanor quickly change to unbothered to incredibly upset, I couldn't even watch tv anymore thinking about the distress a big dog put me through. Now to find out that he is actually human, I have someone to actually be mad at someone to hold accountable for the pain.

Jacob sat next to me, "What's wrong?" He asked as if he could sense my demeanor.

I put on a fake smile, "Nothing. Where is Katie?" I said noticing she wasn't here. "She had to go."

"Oh... okay."

"Love,why are you upset?"

My heart ached when he called me that, I shrugged my shoulders. "I'm not upset."

"Hmm," he hummed looking at me, studying me. I stared at my lap knowing if I looked at him I would break down. He took my legs and placed them on his lap, causing me to turn and face him. I still avoided eye contact. It felt really good to be close to him. How can I be upset with him? "Scarlett..."

"Yeah." I said playing with my fingers biting my lip harshly; holding my tears in. I just wanted to cuddle with him, every time he said something my heart will flutter. How can I be mad at someone that makes me feel this way. This is just so overwhelming. I was happy but also incredibly mad at him.

"Look at me baby." He lifted my chin up forcing me to look at him. Tears started to fall down my face.

"Scarlett please don't cry." He begged. He had a heart aching look on his face.  I started to break down. "Scarlett why are you crying?"

"I'm just a little overwhelmed, I'm so sorry."I said taking a deep breath.

"No love, you have absolutely nothing to be sorry about. Just tell me exactly what's on your beautiful mind, so I can help make things better."

I shrug my shoulders, I don't know how to explain to him something that happened years ago was still bothering me. I don't  want him to think I'm mad at him even though I probably am.  I have a right to be, he is human so he can give me an explanation. I just don't want him to be mad at me I guess, but I can and want to hold him accountable. I don't want to be mad at him.

"Its' just," I took a deep breath because my voice was getting shaky. I bit my lip.

"Take your time Scarlett I'm not going anywhere." He said wiping my tear with his thumb.

"It's stupid." I said.

"It can't be that stupid if it is making you cry, tell me Scarlett."

"You stop coming."I stated wiping my tears.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean when I was younger... You stopped coming." I said through sobs.

"Scarlett please stop crying, I'm sorry I hurt you."

"I thought you were dead, and I kept crying for weeks... and you just never came back." I said sniffling. He looked like he was guilty of murder.

"Scar I didn't mean to hurt you; I just wanted you safe baby. You being safe was the only thing I considered I didn't consider how it would effect you mentally. I'm incredibly sorry I caused you pain. What can I do to make it up to you love?" He said passing his hand up and down my leg soothingly.

"Explain to me why you did what you did."/

"Do you remember how you got this scar?" He asked tracing the only scar I had on my back.

I shook my head, "No one wanted to tell me, Katie told me she couldn't tell me. Are you the one that told her to not tell me?"

"Not exactly, a wolf isn't allowed to tell a non-wolf anything about werewolves. Any human to find out is to die unless a wolf in the pack has a strong relation with the human, in this case you are human."

"But I am not your mate, aren't I?" I asked.

"Yes but Katie wasn't aware of that fact and my mother told her not to." He responded.

"What does this have to deal with you leaving me just to not to return?

"A wolf hurt you while you were in the woods with Katlyn. That mourning wolf could have killed you. I wanted to make sure you were never in that situation again. I was there at the hospital, I don't know if you remember me."

"I think I did see you, you were that handsome man that was holding my hand. But that doesn't change the fact that you hurt me Jacob," I said getting up. I walked away from him, it doesn't seem like a valid excuse for me. I found my way outside of his large house. I walked down the drive way, "Scarlett,"Jacob called after me. He catches up to me he halted me, "Scarlett,"he pleaded taking my hand. I snatched it from it grasp, I was feeling mixed emotions. My heart keep telling me to go in his arms, but my brain telling me this is a fucked up situation I am and that  I need to walk away.

"Please don't be angry." He pulled me closer to him. I pushed him away, even though I wanted him to hug me I felt like I was on the verge of tears and I didn't know why. I walked away from him. He took my hand, "Talk to me please, tell what I can do to make it up to you."

"I'm not angry... I just want to go home and stay away from you and Katie a while. I understand why you did what you did but it just seem to complicated and it sounds like it is only going to get more complicated."

"Scarlet.. I don't want to lose you again."

''I don't think you ever had me."

I started to cry again I feel so frustrated.  "Alright Scarlett you never have to ever again if you don't want to, I just want to see you get home safe. It's three o'clock in morning I don't want you to get hurt."

"I'm a big girl Jacob."

"Please."

"Okay you can take me home only because I don't know where I am and Katie still had my phone."

"Okay let me go get my keys, just come back in the house."

"No get your keys and take me home."

"Alright just wait here."

I waited until he walk back into his home, I walked down his drive way. I need sometime to think and regroup about everything. I just want be in my bed and cuddle with my pillow, I also want to cuddle with him. A couple of minutes of walking a Range Rover pulled next to me.

"Scarlett get the car."

"I just want to walk right now Jacob. I need to think.. about things I'm not mad at you or Katie I just want to stay away from you two my emotions are crazy and being next to you isn't doing me any good."

"Okay I understand just let me take you-"

"Jacob! I don't want you drive me so please let me walk on my own."

"I can't do that right now." He responded.

"And why is that?"

"Your extremely fertile right now and hormonal."

"Excuse me?! What did you just say?" Perhaps I have something in my ears.

"The bite is made to have mate right afterwards."

"You mean sex?"

"Scarlett it is in the middle of the night, you can get hurt."

I rolled my eyes, "I am not having sex with you."

"I'm not asking you that, I'm asking you to get in the car."

"I want to walk, if you insisting on taking me follow me like a shadow and let me think."

"Okay but love, you are going the wrong way  and it's about an hour drive anyway."

"Oh fuck," I groaned and turned around and walk the other direction. Jacob made a U-turn he was a few meters behind me though.

I'm fertile and hormonal, I guess that makes sense why I feel this way, but it's still weird. I'm not ready for sex I'm not even married. Its stupid but I'd like to wait until marriage to make 'love' it makes it more special. I don't care if he bites my feet I am not sleeping with him even if he is attractive. I'm not ready physically or mentally I don't know the first thing about sex. I was even scared to take sex ed. Yeah I watched porn the other night but that is literally the only sexual experience I know; besides that shit looks painful. Okay I lied Jacob made me orgasm last night but that is about it that I know about.

I low-key really sleepy even if I had the longest sleep of my life a couple of hours ago. I'm hungry and tired not the best combination.

I drifted away in my thoughts until I tripped on something and landed on my booty. Jacob rushed to my side. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah-yeah I'm fine." I said clearly not, I think I sprained my ankle. This is so not my night. I got up anyway.

I hopped on one feet, I think my body weight all landed on one side.

"Let me take you to my car."

"Jacob.."

"Scarlett you hurt."

"Okay fine."

He lifted me up bridal style and walked me to his car as I held on him my head in the crook of his neck. Fuck he smells amazing.

"You smell really good."

"Thanks love, does that mean you forgive me?"

"No it just mean I'm going steal you cologne." I said.

He chuckled.

He sat my in the passenger seat, "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine."

"Okay good put your seat belt on," he said closing the car door going to the drivers' side.

"You know where I live."

"Yes."

"Who told you?"

"My mom." He responded.

"She knew!"

"Yes she does."

"So far every person in your family are liars."

"Scar she couldn't have told you."

"Why not?"

"Because it's not her position too."

"Let me guess Katie too."

"Don't be mad at Katie she was just following orders. Most of the time it's hard to defy and Alpha."

"You are not the boss of her."

"Scarlett yes I am."

I rolled my eyes.

"What is up with you and Katlyn with rolling eyes? I hate that Scarlett."

"I don't care Jacob, I hate being lied too. Did  you care?  I didn't think so."

"Scarlett don't talk to me like that."

"I haven't known you any more than 24 hours and you are already starting to order me around. I am not in your so called pack your rules do not apply to me." I said rolling his eyes.

He sighed not saying anything; probably irritated by me.

I'm not happy that I talk to him like that because I don't normally talk to anyone like that unless I'm mad at them. I'm not that mad at Jacob I understand why he did what he did. I guess I just have this obnoxious void inside of me.

"I'm sorry Jacob, I didn't mean it-- I mean I did but just not like that."

"It's okay love, no need to apologize."

"No don't say that I probably put you through a lot tonight and there is not excuse to talk to anyone like that, "

"Scarlett I hurt you and all of this is-- if willing will be a drastic change in your life. I wouldn't  expect anything less of you. I don't want to force you to be with me, I don't want you to feel obligated to anything, I certainly I wouldn't  want you to feel like you have to sugar-code anything.''

" Okay but still I am not going to sleep with even though I sort of-- kind of really want to."

He laughed, "Trust me you worth the wait."

"I'm saving myself for marriage."

"Perhaps one day I'll change your mind."

"I highly doubt it."

"I could've had you last night."

"You caught me off guard besides I was extremely vulnerable. What you don't think you can wait until you put a ring  on my finger first?"

"No I don't think you would be able to resist me."

"Wow okay alright, confident okay. I accept this challenge."

"Does this mean you aren't upset with me?"

"I'm still not completely aware of my feelings for you, so far everything I've known about you is a lie. I don't think I can trust you."

"That's fair."

"What does the bite mean?"

"It means that you are mine."

"I'm yours?"

"Yes, you will be emotionally and physically attracted to me for the next couple of weeks stronger than your feelings toward anything and anyone. Because you are my mate, and when I bit you here last night I claimed you as mine," he said passing his finger lightly on the bite on my neck. I felt good where bit me. I shivered growing goosebumps on my body, craving more of his touch on my body.

"That sounds scary."

"Its actually a beautiful thing."

It has been too long😅 I couldn't agree on what I want the chapter to be about but I took my time and finally finished it I wanted it to be longer but it will have to do for now. As for the next update hopefully soon.

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