"So," Richard started when I was at home. I am playing with Dannon in the living room and Gouenji is nowhere to be found. He went somewhere angrily immediately after we came. I mean his face ever stoic but his eyes blazing with fire. I looked at him in question.

"You and Aram?"

His network is very fast, it is not even a day since this fuss started. How can he know about it that quick? I mean we just came home from all that drama and neither Kidou nor Gouenji said anything about it but here he is asking about that. Is he having some spies around me? I should carefully observe my surroundings and find out about it. I just kept quiet giving him an is it so look. Let us see how he will respond.

"I know you don't love him."

Why does everyone say that? If you ask me he is a very eligible person to love. He is a good person with a kind heart. What's more needed? It's just that..hang on! I don't love him, why? Of course it is better not to love him because he already has crush on someone else and I know that, hmm that could be the reason. I know he loves her and that's why I didn't love him. May be. But how does all these people know that I don't love him. Am I going around with a sign board saying 'I don't love him'?

"Why do you think so?" I asked him directly. After all I do love him like a brother and friend. He is worthy of anyone's love.

"He is a good person I know but you don't love him. I know."

"What do you want to ask then? You have formulated your own idea and doesn't need my conformation."

"I want to know why you are doing this."

"Huh?"

"Is it to make Gouenji jealous or are you trying to be with Aram even though you know that you don't love him. Are you trying to make yourself believe that you love him? Believe me that doesn't work. Don't force yourself."

Looking in his direction I only saw pure concern for my well being. I couldn't lie to him or keep quiet about it.

"I am not doing this to make anyone jealous nor am I trying to be with him."

"Then why are you with him?"

"Who said I am with him?"

"You didn't object when I hinted that you were together."

"I neither agreed."

"You young lady, are playing a very dangerous game. Don't form a love triangle around you."

"I didn't think you would believe in people's gossip. That's surprising Mr.Shuuya."

"It's not that I believe in them. I am afraid what would be a simple matter would be complicated by your actions."

"I understand your point. But he doesn't love me. He just needed my help to reject someone without hurting them."

"And you agreed to help by acting as his girlfriend. That doesn't sound like you."

"Circumstances made me."

"And those circumstances are?"

"You will know one day in the future."

He stayed silent without further probing the matter.

"How do you know that I don't love him? What made you think that I might complicate simple things?"

"I passed your stage. I know things since I have experience. I was afraid you would make the same mistake I did and spoil your otherwise golden life."

"If you don't mind me asking what mistake did you make?" I asked slowly not knowing if I should be asking that question.

"Gouenji's mother." I sat upright at this. Gouenji's mother is the one responsible for his hatred towards women. What happened actually? What did his mother do to make him like this?

"You know that Gouenji's hatred for woman was because of his mom right?"

"Yes." I answered slowly hesitating lightly. I mean somehow figured that is the case but I don't why. Will he tell me what happened? Am I allowed to know what happened?

"I loved his mother. I know that she doesn't love me but I loved her. When she was with me dating and when she married me all the time she didn't love me and I knew that. But I loved her. Since she agreed to marry me I was happy. I thought she would love me one day. We had Gouenji and I was happy but then she left me.

She left me for a man who is richer than me. He was just a four year kid then. I knew she married me for my riches but I never expected her to leave me for another rich man. That devastated me. I was really depressed and neglected all the business and even my son. We lost all the business at a point and everything went downhill for me.

But Gouenji had it hard. He was very small kid and had to face the fact that his mother left him for money. Other children at school who were always around him now abandoned him since his father became poor and his mother left him. I could only imagine how hard it was for him. All at once he was abandoned on every side, at a very young age.

Kidou was with him at that time. They are our family friends and Kidou was a good kid from childhood. He was the only one to stay with him. The expressionless face he has now started that day. Before he used to laugh and show expressions on his cute face like every other child. He had this stern face from that day on. Loneliness reflecting in his eyes.

I was in that state for a little time. Kidou's mom and dad took care of him then and they made me come back to my senses. Then I started working and we came back to our previous state since I was talented and I know business well. I could get back our previous financial state but never my previous joyful son. He was always stoic, his vibrant green eyes reflecting loneliness in them. Every time I saw him like that there was a pang in my heart. May be if I didn't give up on him when his mother left he might not have ended in this state but I did and he is like that. 

 He got all the good qualities from his mom and dad. He was intelligent beyond his age level, has good looks and plenty of money and power on his back. People were attracted to him and tried all dirty things to get to him and use him. I think you can understand what it means to get him. This all resulted in him being vexed with females further more. He already hated girls thinking they are all for money and the ones he encountered doesn't help in any way to change his mind. This started with his hatred for his mother and all the girls trying for him, but not really him rather what he has, deepened his hatred. He hated them with a passion. He never let anyone approach him. He rarely spoke a word to them.

Because of his incredible talent he could avoid each and every dirty thing anyone planned. Those plans were really awful which ranged from right out seduction to deception. But he never fell for them. To be frank as his father one day I even got doubt whether my son is gay since he never fell for seduction, leave falling for their tricks, great beauties couldn't even get a reaction from him, not even an erection surprising me."

"Well that is master for you." I interrupted him. "You sound like you are disappointed that he didn't fall for their plans."

"No, not at all." He laughed. "I am happy that he didn't but sometimes it made me ponder if he is really a man."

"He is a real man and that is why he didn't react. I don't know what this world calls a man but man doesn't mean a lustful animal that gets excited at every moving thing that is female. Master is a real man."

"You have a really high opinion of him." He smirked that evil mischievous smirk that Gouenji throws at me making me move back a little in caution.Now I understand where Gouenji gets it from. "Anyways whatever happened increased his deep hatred and distrust in females day by day. That doesn't mean he is favorable towards man. The difference he talked to them more or less. All in all he resulted as one lonely human with none to rely on and be with him."

"Have you ever tried to get him out of the hatred he has for women?"

"No."

"Why?"

"I know that it can't be explained to him. He will not listen to me, he will not believe me if I say not all the women in the world are like that. Not when the women he saw everyday supported what he believe. He has to experience for himself. He has to face that girl who will change that opinion he has of the women. He has to know her, her character, her kindness and her love more than everything. Someone like that had to come into his life changing him. I waited for that day patiently and am glad to see that day."

"What do you mean? There's a girl in his life." I asked shocked and felt that familiar pang in my heart. This time it was even stronger. There was this feeling that someone clutched my heart and is squeezing it painfully. Do I have some kind of heart problem?

Based on what he said that girl will be an important existence in his life, his everything, his love, his girlfriend and his wife one day. I felt this weird feeling in my stomach. Am I having some problem with my body?

"Yes." He said making my heart stop for a second. "It's you." Ah no! He was back to his original track of supporting us. He almost gave me a heart attack with his ridiculous theory! I breathed in relief. Thinking of being master's wife and his everything, being his love is a lovely dream but that is what it is! It is a dream. A dream I shouldn't even dare dreaming. He is out of my reach and I don't even want to think of that prospective. I don't want to daydream and then be sad for my entire life. I want to be happy!

"I am afraid I am not that great of a person to make him lose his years long mistrust on females. I am not that capable. He despises me more than anything."

"You can and you are doing that unknown to him and you. I don't see the loneliness in his eyes any more. His dead eyes now have life in them. He has that twinkle in his eyes. Before he was like a machine with all capabilities and talents but no emotions. He is slowly turning into human."

There is some truth in that. He is showing emotions. Though showing it on his face is very rare his eyes are very lively expressing various things. That counts as change right?. But I don' think it is because of me. I never did anything. He is giving me credit for something I didn't do.

"He might not show it but he is a very kind and caring person. Deep inside he cares more than anyone. He just doesn't show it out." I said trying to make him see the actual truth of him.

"I know. I am glad that you can see it. Not many can see past the vast walls he built around himself. I was afraid that you gave up on him and decided to be with Aram."

"Eh? What do you mean? What's the link here?"

"I thought you gave up on the hope that he will love you and decided to be with someone whom you know you don't love but decided to be with him hoping you will love him one day to escape from the pain and trouble."

"You started sounding meaningless. I still haven't figured out the love between a man and woman. I am not with Aram at all, not for any reason you think. I don't love anyone as of now. But if I do know that I love someone even if it is troublesome and hurting I don't think I will give up without trying. I mean if the one I love by chance is a married man or has a girlfriend I will give up immediately without even trying. I can't go that low, I think then I am in illusion not love so I will try to give up that non-sensual notion."

"You still don't know." He said smirking.

"What do I don' know?" I asked carefully scared that he will say some nonsense again.

"You will see. Based on what I see it is very near, the day that you will know." With that he left and I gulped down the tension. What is that I will know? I hope it's nothing bad.

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And so another update! Now we know of Gouenji's past and the reason for his hatred of females!

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