I can't believe this! This is impossible. It is not true right? This is false.

"It can't be true." I said tears flowing out. "It can't be." I said moving away from him. "It can't be."

"It's the truth Destiny. Nothing can change it." Aram said hugging me.

"No, I don't agree to this. I don't." I said trying to move away from him but he held me tightly in his arms not letting me go.

^An hour earlier at the college cafeteria^

"Welcome back Destiny!" My gang said while we sat at our usual table to have lunch. Yeah, I am back to college after healing completely. It seems I am taking more leaves in the last year of my college. Gouenji again insisted I stay in the hospital for a week though I am fine. But this time I fought against him and said I would like to stay at home, not in hospital. Of course there is not much difference staying here since he makes things happen at hospital.

They have no visiting hour limits, home food allowed and what not! This hospital room is basically like my room but the expenses would be too much. So I made fuss till I was taken back to Gouenji's house. I was treated like a fragile glass. Since I am not to move, everything was brought to move and if needed to move I had a wheel chair available.

Gouenji mostly stays at home. If not for my constant nagging he would have completely stayed at home. Kidou too bunks along with him. They are genius and are not needed to attend. Honestly it doesn't make a difference if they don't attend. Even professors excuse them. If I have half a brain like them I too would have established a company and get billions of dollars but alas! My brain is not like that!

It is complete entertainment at home. Fidio, Kidou and Gouenji are always around me not giving chance for boredom. G, Robert, Aram and Daniel visit often too! Lillian is always with me when at home. I sense something strong between G and Kidou. Now I am hundred percent sure that something complicated is between them. Even Richards reactions towards G is a little different G is clearly uncomfortable which she tries to cover and tries to leave as quickly as possible.

Gouenji always carry wherever I need to even though I have this wheelchair. Even to the bathroom! What could be more embarrassing than that! But he never cares! When I ask him what is the need of the wheel chair he say's for emergencies when he isn't there. But he is always there! Others just smile at us as if witnessing a romantic scene from a movie whereas I am embarrassed like hell to be carried around like a child.

Dannon is almost always with me. Gouenii helps me take care of him since my left hand is not that good. Dannon is a very good kid and doesn't make much fuss. He becomes fussy only when I am not around him. He is in a very good mood recently because I am with him all over the day. I wonder what tantrum he is throwing at home now since I am not with him now but in college. He always puts a smile on my face. Today I dressed him in a bear outfit.

And about Fidio and Lillian that kid Fidio sure knows about Lillian's crush on him but acts like nothing! I sometimes want to hit up and down and yell at him not to put Lillian in confusion and make his intention clear. He is surely taking her love for granted! That girl loved him for years and he is putting her to test, making her suffer. I am holding myself back because I don't want to interfere. My interference could make things worse and also I am not sure if he is good for her. But I swear the minute he makes her cry he is so dead! Her love sure is great and he would be a fool to lose it! Let us see how things will turn out.

That jerk Steven too visited me at times. Always I try to steer the conversation to love, trust and sincerity trying to make him realize what wrong thing he is committing but till date I am sure there is no reaction from him, no guiltiness. One day my patience is going to snap and his fate will end. That ring which I saw that wasn't on his finger meaning he is placing it only when he is with her! That cheater and bastard! No amount of profanities can describe him!

Richard too felt something wrong about him. He warned me about him that the way he was looking at me was wrong. I groaned listening to this. Don't tell me he has his dirty eyes on me too! I seriously want him to change. Why can't he? Gouenji found my strange behavior with him and asked if he behaved wrong with me. I told him he did but not with me. He looked questioningly but we left the topic with that.

All of that is fine, I mean not fine. All the things I said above were totally messed up, not fine at all. But that's not the important issue now. It's Aram now. That day in the hospital it felt like nothing is wrong with him. Even now he acts like nothing is wrong but day after day the sadness and loneliness in his eyes are increasing. Especially today! What am I supposed to do about it?

"Aram." I called him.

"Yes." He replied with fake over-cheerfulness which is the reason for my restlessness.

"I want to go out. Will you take me?" I asked pleading him internally to say yes.

"Why?" He looked genuinely confused.

"Just to relax. Have some fresh air." I shrugged.

"And for that you want to bunk the first day you returned to college."

"Oh Please!" I pleaded using my puppy dog eyes.

"You want me to come?" Gouenji asked.

"No!" I shrieked immediately by accident. "I mean no." I said calmly this time. I want to go with Aram. He is.....fun to go with." What would I do if you come with. You will know that I don't really need fresh air, just some story and the awkward silence, I can't bear it! You don't talk and if I talk you just give one word answers and to think I am not talkative at all makes it much more worse. And particularly not after the last talk. After he said that I am his and the moment was disturbed by Daniel I tried not to be alone with him. The emotions are confusing and I don't know what to do if something like that happens again.

"And by fun you mean." He peered glaring at me.

"Uh..uh..that is...I spent all this time recuperating with you right so I thought I will go out with him. I thought it will be fun." I stammered.

"Missed me too much?" Aram teased me hugging me sideways. I elbowed him not too lightly.

"Emph!" He rubbed his side. He is always like this! Putting me in trouble with him and happily watching from the side even making comments. I swear I will kill him someday myself.

"Alright! Come on. Let's go." Aram said and I immediately stood up and walked away hastily to escape from someone who is glaring daggers and bullets at me.

"I hope you did not come by bike today."

He did not answer me. He seemed to be in some kind of daze.

"Aram!" I called trying to attract his attention.

"Ah! Yes."

"Nothing." I said and we soon reached his car. I got in and he asked where to.

"Somewhere you think would be peaceful. Relaxing." I said smiling lightly at him. The longer time we are riding the heavier my heart became. It is beating a taboo right now and somehow I don't feel right about it. I feel like something bad is about to happen, that what I am going to hear from him isn't going to be good. I really hope it is something solvable.

Soon we reached a place where there is no one around, a very calm and peaceful place!

"Where is this?"

"It's my garden. I mean not literally mine but this is the place I come whenever I feel down I come here. It is very peaceful here. Since you said you wanted somewhere peaceful I brought you here. Whatever you have in mind, it will help you here. No humans, no noise. Just some peaceful moments together with nature."

We walked a little further in the garden and settled in the shadow of a tree squatting on the ground beside each other.

"So what happened?" I asked deciding not to beat around the bush. I am afraid something is wrong with me because my heart beat is really fast but I know this is because of the tension and anxiety I am feeling. May be I am over imagining! It may nothing, even if something is there we might be able to solve it.

"What happened?" He asked me in confusion,

"You are not yourself lately." His face dropped at this. "Can you tell me what is bothering you? I know it is not my place to ask or interfere but I can't see you like that. You are acting happy but the loneliness and sadness in your eyes is literally eating me. Can you share with me what is troubling you?"

He sighed looking to the side.

"I didn't think you would notice. Everyone else brought my act except you. Even Robert who was with me from my childhood couldn't find out so I thought I was acting fine."

"You are even worth of an Oscar! But you can't fool me. I think I know you more or less. I want to know what's troubling you that much that you can't even share with your friends and act like nothing is wrong. If you don't want to tell me that is fine but I want to know. I want to share what is troubling you."

He looked me in the eyes and gave me a sad smile which made me feel as if someone is squeezing my heart. This sadness and anxiety is too much.

"I am a selfish person Destiny." He said putting a strand of hair behind my hair. "I know it will be too much for you but I want to tell. I want to tell you everything. How much more selfish can I be?"

"It's not being selfish. You can tell me anything. I won't tell anyone." I said encouraging him and trying to prepare my heart for whatever is to come.

"I have cancer." He said and I felt the world stop around me suddenly. I could feel the gentle breeze that blew past me and the tree that is swinging along with the wind. Those words echoing in my mind continuously but my heart refusing to understand what those words meant.

"You..you are kidding right?"

"I wish I am." He said throwing me another one of those heart wrenching smiles.

I can't believe this! This is impossible. It is not true right? This is false.

"It can't be true." I said tears flowing out. "It can't be." I said moving away from him. "It can't be."

"It's the truth Destiny. Nothing can change it." Aram said hugging me side wards still in our positions trying to console me.

"No, I don't agree to this. I don't." I said trying to move away from him but he held me tightly in his arms not letting me go.

"I am sorry Destiny. I am sorry! But this is the truth. I am sorry!" I held him tight and cried furiously.

It cannot be true! How can it be? How can he have cancer? He has a bright future in front of him. He is a very good person! A person with heart as white as snow! It can't be! Why him? Why? He always does good! He did nothing wrong! Why him? There are so many criminals and sinful people in this world and they are all fine. Leaving all such why should it be Aram? Why him? I don't want him to die. No, he has to live. He has to! How can he die all of a sudden?

"No it can't be. Tell me it is all false! You have to be with me! You have to! I can't lose you." I sobbed.

"I am sorry! I know it is too much for you but I wanted to tell you. I am sorry I am not strong enough to bear it alone and I had to tell you."

I tried to control myself and moved a little away from him.

"No! I don't want you to suffer alone. I am glad you could tell me. I am sorry for all this." I said wiping my tears. "I will be there for you. Always! You can tell me anything."

"Thank you. You are like my own sister." He said kissing my forehead and smiling at me.

I smiled back at him amidst the tears.

"How is your condition?"

"No chance." He said making me cry more. No! No, I shouldn't cry. He needs me! How can I cry like a baby here when he is the one having it worst here. I can't cry. Stay strong. You can cry all you want when you get home. Stop it here now.

"Destiny. I need another help from you."

"What is it? I'll do anything."

"Can you act like my girlfriend?"

"Why? What about Elena?"

"You know her? I think nothing can escape your hawk like eyes." He tried to joke but neither of us are in any mood for jokes.

Elena is one of our classmates on whom Aram had a crush. Clearly both of them have feelings for each other but either of them were upfront about it. Aram is trying to woo her and from what I can see it is working. Elena is a very silent girl and a new definition of book worm, much more than me. She is very shy and innocent girl. Aram is head over heels about her.

"It is because of her. I can't hurt her. I don't want her to know about this. If you become my girlfriend she will back off. Let her think she misunderstood my intentions and I thought of her as my friend."

"But you can't do this to here!"

"Please Destiny! This is the only way. Its okay if you don't want to but this is the way in which she will be hurt the least. She has a high opinion of you like I do. If you are my girlfriend she will back off. She might be hurt now but that is better rather than torturing her to the end. Please! Only you can do this."

"Okay. I'll leave it to you. Do whatever you want." I know this is wrong but if I don't accept now I don't know what drastic measures he takes to settle this. After that we settled watching the nature and the sun setting from our positions with his hand still around me and my head leaning on his shoulder, neither of us uttering a word.

***************************************************************************************

Get ready for another update in less than a day!