" Kill me if you want, right now." Şahin said as he continued to be down on his knees, when a voice interrupted us.

" Sultana, Şehzade Murad is not fine. He can't stop crying and we don’t know how to help him." Zeynep ran into my chambers as she was crying for the whole time.

I just ran to my chambers where Murad was and Şahin followed me. I saw my baby son which turned two months, laying down in his crib and he couldn't stop crying.

I toom him in my arms and kissed his forehead and started walking around the chambers hoping that he would feel fine. And he stopped crying when I had him in my hands.

" Did you call the doctor?" I angrily asked Zeynep which was standing covered in tears at the corner of my chambers.

" Call him right now." I yelled on her and she run to call him immediatley.

When I saw my Murad crying, I forgot about everything Şahin said to me. No one was more important to me than my son and he needed all of my attention.

Şahin came to me and kissed Murad's forehead and he seemed pretty worried and upset now.

" Ismihan, our Murad is strong. He will be fine." Şahin said trying to comfort me, but I didn't even want to look at him now after everything I heard from him.

Soonly, nurse came to my chambers and she took Murad to see what is wrong with him. I putted him to lay down on my bed, but he started crying immediatley.

" Nurse, what is with him? Every time I put him to lay down he starts crying, and when I take him in my hands he stops crying." I said to her as I was afraid for my Murad.

" I will check up on him, Sultana." she said and she started to see what is with him.

I was standing at the corner of my chambers and I was really afraid for him. Doctors said he won't live more than three months and that was what was scaring me the most, as he turned two months now.

" Ismihan, everything will be fine, don't worry." Şahin whispered in my ear as he came from my back, but I didn't even want to see him now.

" Sultana, it is nothing serious. Our Prince probably has stomach problems. I will give him some medicine, and he is going to feel fine." she said and that made me feel bit easier.

I took Murad in my hands and he stopped crying immediatley. I couldn’t stand listening to my only child crying and being in pain when there is nothing I can help him about.

Two days have passed and my Murad was drinking medicine nurse gave him, but I saw no improvement then. I was afraid if the nurse which was with me when he was born was right. What if I will lose my Murad so quickly?

I didn't allow Şahin to be in my closeness which made me feel even worse, as it was hard for me to be alone in situation like this, but I couldn't forgive him about what he has done.

" Ismihan, we need to be together in this. No matter what happened, Murad needs us both." Şahin said as he came to me while Murad couldn't stop crying.

I haven't slept for those two days and I always carried Murad in my arms, because I couldn't listen to him crying.

" Let Zeynep hold him during night, you don't even sleep. I sleep in another chambers and I hear both you and Murad crying." Şahin said to me as he moved to another chambers, because I didn't want to sleep in the same chambers as him anymore.

" I can't believe anyone anymore, I am afraid they will hurt him." I said to Şahin as I was too weak already.

" Give Murad to me, please." he said and I allowed him to take Murad in his arms.

Şahin was so soft and so gently with the baby, he was so cold on surface that no one could know he is emotional like this.

I loved him with my whole heart, but he shocked me and I wasnt sure if I will be ever able to forgive him about his plans.

" Sultana, Sultan Ahmed sent the best doctor from Empire to examine Şehzade Murad. He will now see how he is and what is with him." Zeynep said as old doctor came inside with her.

" Sultana, I will need you to leave chambers while we examine him, please." Doctor said to me, but I didn't want to do it.

" No, I will stay here." I said to him as I gave Murad to him in his arms.

" Ismihan, please." Şahin whispered to me and I left the chambers to my terrace.

I was there not being able to even look at my child and is he even fine. I was afraid what is wrong with him. Why would he cry while he is laying in his crib or bed?

I have never seen something like this in my life and I was really afraid. Only thing I wanted is that he would be healthy and alive.

After few minutes, Şahin signalised me to return. Doctor gave me Murad in my arms and I dressed him up. I was really afraid what is he going to say.

" Sultana, Hanzade, I have to be honest with you." Doctor said and looked embarassedly at the floor. I knew something isnt right when he acts like this.

" Tell me." I said to him as I was already nervous and afraid of everything that happened.

" Şehzade Murad's bones are curved and interlocked by birth." Doctor said and I felt like someone stabbed me with a sword in my heart and gave me such a pain like this.

" What? What are you talking about?" Şahin shockedly asked the doctor as we couldn't believe what is happening now.

" Şehzade Murad will probably be hunchback. I'm sorry." Doctor said and looked at the ground ashamedly.