16 • since the first time

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eren froze, eyes widening as he felt your lips press against his. never did he picture his first kiss with you to be initiated by you. hell, if he was honest with himself, he never thought he would kiss you. it wasn't until he felt your hands trail down his torso and under his shirt that he came back to his senses. he gently pushed you away, watching as your face contorted into an array of emotions. confusion, hurt, but most of all, sadness.

"y/n, you don't want this. just stop." eren said.

"what do you mean? kris and kevin only wanted me for my body. is that not what you want too?" you questioned, your voice cracking at the slight rejection. after coming to the realization that you liked eren, you felt that you owed this to him so having him push you away, hurt.

eren was also hurt that you thought lowly of him. his words came out a bit sharper than what he intended, but he was angry. "what the hell gave you that idea?"

"why else would you constantly be around me? hang out with me? talk to me? there had to be an ulterior motive! annie said that every girl on campus wants you, yet you still stuck around me!" you shouted through tears. your emotions were a mess, your thoughts even messier.

eren sighed, running his hand through his hair before placing his hands on your shoulders. he looked you dead in the eyes, already feeling his face flush before he found the right words to say. "why else? i do all those things because i like you, you idiot! i like being around you, so i constantly want to be with you. i don't just like you for your body because you're so much more than that. you're strong, smart, beautiful inside and out. how can i not like you? and so what if other girls want me? all i want is you!"

you stared at him, eyes wide in disbelief. you never had the feeling that eren would ever like you. you thought maybe he just wanted someone to bother. after hearing his confession, you broke down again but in relief knowing that the feelings were mutual. you wrapped your arms around him as you cried into the crook of his neck. he hugged you back, rubbing your back in a soothing matter. "how long?" you said between sobs.

"how long what?" he asked, feeling you pull back to look at him.

"have you liked me?"

he gave a small, shy chuckle. his cheeks were coated in pink which caused you to smile a little to yourself about as you wiped your tears away. "you're really gonna make me say it, huh?"

you simply nodded, hearing him sigh again. "since the first time i saw you."

"at the ramen shop?" you questioned.

"yes. when we met again at your work, i simply wanted to tease you to get your attention. then i found out about your boyfriend. most of the stuff i said was just a joke, i never expected him to break up with you or anything. i beat myself up for days after and that's when we took you and sash out to the arcade. it was a relief to see you were doing okay."

"you did come off as more of a flirt when we first met." you chuckled, sitting back on the couch. your tears had slowly ceased from falling and now you had a headache rolling in. the exhaustion you felt hit you more than it ever had before. "i guess i should let you know that i like you too."

eren looked over to you, surprised. "really? since when?"

"well, when we first met, i thought you were attractive but of course, i was still with kris. it didn't hit me until tonight that i like you." you admitted, biting your lip. with your head laid back on the couch cushion, you lulled it over to look directly at him.

"you're not just saying that based off of what happened tonight right?" eren asked, feeling a bit insecure.

"no! i thought about everything you had done for me and how you are always there for me. i really do like you eren." you leaned your head on his shoulder, feeling more exhausted than ever.

"we'll talk about it more when we're both in a better mindset and more conscious." he said, stifling a yawn. eren reached for the blanket he kept folded on the arm of the couch, unfolding it while doing so.

you simply hummed as he draped the blanket over you before laying down besides you.

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the next morning, you woke up quite early as you remembered you were scheduled to work. the events from last night still haunted you, yet you felt safe knowing eren was by your side. he was kind enough to take you to your dorm where you quickly, yet quietly got ready before heading back down to have him drive you to work.

eren didn't want you to go to work, saying that you needed a few days to mentally recover from what happened. you refused, knowing that work would be a distraction from causing the scenes of what happened to flash through your mind. you even dressed in baggier clothing as to not seem appealing to the male gaze which was one thing eren noticed but didn't comment on. you needed to heal in your own way and he was going to be there with you through every step.

as eren stopped in the front of your work, he turned on his hazards before turning to look at you. "i can always go in and tell levi you got a nasty cold."

"eren, i'm fine." you reassured, reaching for your bag.

"my dad's birthday dinner is tonight. i want to invite you but i also want you to take time for yourself because that's more important. i am inviting but i am also letting you know that i would think it's better for you to stay home. you can meet my dad another time."

you laughed a little at this, a genuine smile gracing your lips. "thank you for inviting me only to uninvite me." you placed a finger against his lips as he opened his mouth to speak again. "joking, jaeger. i kind of want to avoid outings for a while so it's fine. see you later?"

"yeah. i can give you a ride home?"

you shook your head, opening the passenger side door as you stepped out. "spend time with your dad. i can uber!" you waved him off before he could protest, heading inside the building.

work was... well, work. it felt like a regular work day. restocking shelves, setting up new arrival tables, checking guests out. that was until levi approached you in the break room while you were on your lunch.

"my office. now." he stated, glaring at you. other employees sent you silent prayers as you stood from your seat and followed him to his office. upon arriving, levi gestured you to sit at the chair in front of his desk as he sat at the one behind it. you were going to ask why he called you in here but he spoke before you could even open your lips.

"two things. i've heard two things from both your coworkers and customers alike. one, you've been flinching whenever someone, especially men, come near you. two, you neck looks like a leech was left on your skin too long." he deadpanned.

your eyes widened, hands flying to your neck as they shook. you didn't even realize that you were flinching whenever anyone of the opposite sex can near you. you also didn't look at yourself in the mirror prior to coming to work. you knew the marks were there last night but you figured they would disappear.

levi sighed, leaning back in his chair. "i get it. you're young and things happen but given your reaction, i'm assuming it was unwarranted."

"i begged him to stop." you whispered.

"someone from the university?" he raised a brow as you nodded. you don't know what compelled to you to share it with levi. maybe because he was older and would know what to do. you respected him very much too. or maybe it was because he gave off the aura of a protective older brother and it was something you confided in seeing as you, yourself, was the oldest sibling.

"kevin, second year."

levi sighed, leaning forward to place his elbows on the desk and rest his head in hands. he could tell you were still shaken up about what happened. "i'm not gonna ask you to recite everything to me as there is only so much i can do. but," he paused, looking at you as you fiddled with your fingers in your lap. "i can send you home to rest up and take care of yourself. that being said, you're free to go for the day and i'll handle getting your shifts covered for the week. also, don't force yourself to attend classes if you feel unsafe. take care of yourself."

"are you sure? i can work." you tried to argue. levi shook his head, waving his hand at you.

"i couldn't possibly force you to work knowing you aren't in the right mental space. go home, get some rest, do some self care and i better not see you at the dinner i'm sure eren invited you to."

you chuckled a bit at that. "don't worry. he already invited me to uninvite me. i really appreciate it, levi."

"you have my number and email if you need anything else." levi nodded at you as you took your leave. you fisher your phone out of your pocket, texting mikasa for a ride home. your hands shook as you knew that you would have to let your roommates turned best friends about what happened at the party.

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eren sipped at his glass of wine as his eyes wandered the vicinity of his father's home. what he was lead to believe to be a small family dinner turned out to consist of a dinner of his family along with families of his father's colleagues and patients. his father was too busy welcoming everyone to really greet eren. a quick hug was exchanged before the two separated.

"looks like your father went big again this year." armin mused as him and mikasa approached the table. looking at the grim expression upon mikasa's face, he could only assume that you had informed her of what happened.

"seems so. when zeke came over last night, he made it seem as though it would only be a small gathering."

"can never trust zeke." mikasa grumbled.

armin turned to his friend as the two of them took their seats at the table with eren. "you were quiet on the drive here, something on your mind?"

mikasa opened her mouth to speak but eren beat her to it. "let's just say that kevin doesn't know how to keep his hands to himself."

armin's eyes widened and his head whipped back around to mikasa. "no way! what did he do to you?"

"not me. he did nothing to me. it's y/n." mikasa clenched her fist on the table, feeling a sense of rage that couldn't be expressed earlier while trying to comfort you when you had shared the details. she felt her own eyes well up with tears at the thought of you shaking in her arms as you sobbed through telling her, sasha and annie. sasha had also cradled you in her arms as she cried with you meanwhile annie had muttered profanities under her breath of the beating that kevin was going to receive if she saw him approach you again.

armin frowned, resting his chin upon his own clenched as he turned his eyes towards eren. "what do you have up your sleeve?"

eren finished off his glass of wine. "i'm sure i already broke his nose but a little talk with the dean herself should do just the trick."

armin looked to where eren was staring to find zeke and his mother, dina, in conversation by a pillar near the entrance. eren stood from his chair, ignoring armin and mikasa's eyes as they followed him. they two than exchanged a glance before getting up out of their seats and going after eren.

"zeke. dina." eren said as he approached the two.

zeke smiled at his brother, eyes wandering behind him at the two people who had followed. he gave them each a wave to which they nodded in greeting. dina looked to eren, a smile gracing her lips.

"ah, eren. zeke here was just telling me that you were hoping to speak with me at some point of the night. i'm assuming now is the time?"

"yes. i do apologize for bringing up work related matters at a family gathering but you see, this incident happened to a good friend of ours and i'm hoping that as dean, you do not take this case lightly."

dina raised a brow as she took a sip from her wine glass. "please, go on."

"it seems that one of your students by the name of kevin lenz has sexually assaulted a number of girls on campus, our friend included. he is a second year student and has been doing this since his acceptance last year." eren stated. he then pulled out his phone, scrolling through it quickly to search for evidence. "i have spoken to some of his past victims and have been granted permission from them to provide you with information seeing as they, themselves, are to scared to approach you."

"you wouldn't want this to put a damper on the university's name now, would you?" levi spoke as he approached the group.

"levi." mikasa murmured. levi just put his hand up to have her refrain from speaking out.

"their friend has informed me already of kevin's doings which only happened just the other night. the marks on her body are fresh both physically and emotionally. this could also be something that numerous other girls are experiencing as well. if we continue to keep kevin on our campus, we would protecting a predator who will only continue to do this to other girls."

"and what do you suggest we do?" dina asked, clearly soaking in all this information that was being thrown at her.

"go to the police, file the reports, and press charges. i also want him expelled from the university." levi said.

"whoa, who are we expelling over here?" grisha asked as he made his way over. he eyed the group, curious as to why they were all gathered together in such a heated conversation.

"a good for nothing bastard." zeke said earning nods from everyone besides dina who was lost in thought.

"what if the parents try to fight the university for expelling him?" she asked.

"dina, i think your forgetting how powerful of a man i am in this town. if word gets around that levi ackerman was the one to request of his expulsion, not further questions will be asked."

"he's got a point, honey." grisha agreed, wrapping an arm around her shoulders.

"fine. consider it done. may i at least know the name of the student who was his recent victim? in case i need to ask any further questions."

"y/n l/n." eren told them.

"i've never seen you get so involved or heated over something like this before levi." grisha noted just before levi turned to walk away. he looked at grisha, running a hand through his hair.

"it's to protect his daughter. i owe kenny that much."

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