tw: this chapter includes sexual assault i will put another tw where it starts

sasha raised a brow at you as she watched you fiddle with the hem of your dress once again. the loud music roared through the frat house as you made your way over to where the drinks were placed. you caught sasha's judging stare and whined. "my dress is too short."

"it makes your legs look sexy." annie complimented as she took a swig of her beer. mikasa nodded in agreement, smiling in greeting as jean and connie came over. jean immediately wrapped his arm around her waist as she handed him her red solo cup to drink from.

sasha was going to say something but before she could speak, kevin was by your side, throwing his arm around you. he gave you a kiss on the cheek as you gave him a tightlipped smile. throughout the week, kevin has been hovering by your side and been more touchy than what you were comfortable with. always having his arm around your shoulders or waist, a hand on the small of your back, or placing kisses on the crown of your head or cheek. most of the campus had assumed you two were item but you were far from it.

"you look ravishing." he complimented. you nodded in thanks.

sasha wrapped her hand around yours. "let's go get some snacks."

"sash, we're already in the kitchen." connie spoke up.

"for once, i'm not talking food." sasha winked at the boy as she dragged you over to the dance floor.

"thank you." you told her as you were out of hearing distance from kevin.

"that boy is worse than a koala clinging to a tree. let's just dance and enjoy ourselves." sasha suggested. you nodded and grinned as you found rhythm with the music.

you and sasha danced together for a good couple of songs before the rest of your group accompanied you. unfortunately, that also meant that kevin had found his way back to your side.

"can i show you something?" he said into your ear since the music was too loud.

"can't it wait?" you asked, your dancing slowly coming to a halt.

kevin just smiled and wrapped his arm around you before beginning to lead you elsewhere.

meanwhile, armin looked at eren who was leaned back in the driver's seat, taking a hit from the blunt they were sharing. the two of them never really smoked much but armin could tell that eren was more tense than usual so he suggested the idea. the music from the frat house could be heard from where they were parked and people were outside the house, smoking or conversating as well.

"any reason you've been distant from y/n?" armin asked as he took the blunt that eren had handed back to him.

eren lulled his head over to stare at his friend. "observing."

"observing what?" armin exhaled the smoke, handing it back to eren. "finish it."

eren did just that before speaking once again. "kevin's intentions. he said he liked her so i decided to give them space to see if that's true."

"and what do you think?"

eren blinked, looking at the roof of his car before letting out a sigh. he took his keys out of the ignition and stepped out of the vehicle. "i think it's time we head inside so i can find a room to nap."

armin rolled his eyes but stumbled out of the car, following eren inside. thankfully once inside, armin spotted annie and headed over to her before losing eren in the sea of people who were grinding against one another as the music seemed to be ten times louder than what it was outside. how eren managed to sleep through parties like this was something that armin never understood.

"so what was it you wanted to show me?" you asked kevin as you sat at the edge of the bed in what you assumed was his room. he sat next to you, looking at your side profile. the lights were off, only some LEDs that illuminated your features to him.

"just wanted some time alone with you." he shrugged.

you hummed, not really knowing how to respond. it was in an abrupt moment that you felt his lips meet yours. you were frozen in shock at first before you slowly started to respond to the kiss.

why?

you didn't know.

maybe it was because you hadn't had any kind of physical intimacy since you broke up with kris. it was also no shock that the only person who you had ever kissed was kris so feeling someone's lips who were unfamiliar to you on yours was somehow exciting. it was different. was it enjoyable? you trying to figure that out.

tw

kevin continued to kiss you, which you continued to reciprocate. that is until his hands moved from caressing your face to slowly caressing your hips. his lips moved from your lips to your jawline and slowly down your neck.

"kevin, stop." you breathed, when his lips were going further south.

his hands were now at the hem of your dress as he slowly laid you down. he hovered above you, raising his face to have his eyes meet with yours. "don't worry, baby. i'm gonna make you feel so good."

"no. just stop." you asserted. you tried to push him off you but he wouldn't budge.

it was then that you realized that all men weren't like kris and would take 'no' for an answer. kevin smashed his lips onto yours, his hand sliding under your dress while the other pinned your hands above your head. you writhed beneath him, trying to get him to stop as his hand worked to touch you.

you felt disgusted as fingers found their way inside of you, his face against your neck as he began to leave marks on your neck.

tw over

and just when you were about to lay limp and give up, a sudden force knocked kevin off and away from you. a clothing piece of some sort was thrown at you as you could see the figure throwing another punch to kevin, knocking him out.

"i should do more than just kick your ass." eren muttered, back facing you. "let me know when you're covered so i can turn back around."

you quickly resituated yourself, throwing on the jacket and zipping it up. you sniffled, trying to fight back the tears as you got up and tapped his arm. "get me out of here."

no other words were exchanged nor needed to be said. eren grabbed a hold of your hand and quickly escorted you out of the house. you were grateful that everyone was either too high out of their mind or drunk off their ass to really give you a second glance.

you got in the passenger side of eren's car. he looked to you before driving. "you okay? you want to go home? police department?"

your gaze was focused on your hands, trembling in your lap. your lip quivered as you shook your head. "i don't want to be alone. can we just go to your place?"

eren asked no further questions, knowing you probably didn't want to talk about it. you would when you were ready. the drive was silent, not even music to fill the silence.

you were disguting, you thought. you let a man touch you in ways that you had never been touched before. maybe you shouldn't have kissed him back. that was probably the consent he needed, one that made him think maybe you wanted him too.

if only you had been more assertive, stronger. why couldn't you push him off? you remembered there were times like this where kris would get handsy but as soon as you gave a slight budge or a small no, he stopped so why couldn't kevin?

thinking about his lips on yours made you want to hurl than and there. were you only gonna be able to attract awful men for the rest of your life? you looked over at eren as he parked in his designated parking space. he turned off the car, taking the key out of the ignition and stepping out before jogging over to your side. he opened your door, helping you out and making sure you were covered.

why was he such a gentleman? you held on to his arm in both comfort and support as you walked into his apartment building. inside the elevator, you leaned your head on his upper arm as tears slid down your cheeks.

you weren't good enough for eren. you were now tainted, dirty, and used. and worst of all? he saw it happen. after exiting the elevator, you walked the short distance to his apartment.

"i probably have some sweats and hoodies of mikasa's or armin's from when they stayed over for you to wear. i can run a bath or shower for you too if you'd like." eren offered as you entered.

eren cared so much for you and you never understood why. but you cared for him too. eren was a constant in your life. a constant source of support, comfort, reassurance. he's seen you for you and hasn't wavered from your side. you were so overwhelmed with the realization that you liked eren.

and then a crazy thought hit you. maybe eren would be able to make the disgusting feeling you felt go away.

so when eren came back with the extra clothes in hand you blurted, "eren, kiss me."