How hard is it to confess your feelings to your crush especially when he's your childhood friend?

Will you risk your friendship over your feelings or will you keep it to yourself and let it fade in forever?

Normal pov,

You and your bestfriend of 10 years were walking home from school. It was a long way of walking, more like  an hour. You could have taken the bus but both of you like spending much time together. You do it almost everyday.

You talk about random things. Sometimes people look at him with disgusted faces when he's doing his butt dance. He's weird and funny but It makes you love him more.

But today wasn't what it used to be. It was the time you wanted to go home as soon as possible, wishing you could have taken the bus. It's because of one reason - Some girl in the school.

He can't stop talking about her. You wanted to just cut off your ears once and for all.

"You know, this girl really took my heart. Whenever she smile makes my heart melts. I think I'm in love," he said in excitement. You can feel the tears forming in your eyes and it could fall down any seconds.

"Hey, you ok?," he asked looking at you. "Yeah I'm fine," you mumbled. He just nodded his head which get you confused because whenever you were lost in thoughts he wouldn't stop asking you until I spit it out.

Your pov,

One hour in hell.

He kept talking like that until we were finally home, we live next to each other's houses. Finally he shut his mouth and said goodbye to me.

I went inside straight to my room, not minding my parents in the living room. As soon as I stepped inside,  my tears fell down my cheeks without me realizing it. I lay my back on the door as my knees became weak, slowly sitting on the floor.

"Why do I have to be hurt like this?" I kept telling myself. I sat on the floor for a couple of minutes. I decided to lay on my bed and mindlessly fell asleep.

"Sweetheart wake up it's time for dinner," my mom slightly shook my shoulder. "What time is it mom?" I asked. "It's 6 pm" she answered. I looked at the clock and it was really 6. I fell asleep for 4 hours. "I'll go down in a minute," I said. She nodded and exited the door.

I walked towards the bathroom. I looked a the mirror, staring on my reflection. "This this the girl she will never like" "This is the girl she will look at only as a bestfriend not a love of his life" "You look ugly, disgusting and unattractive". I kept telling those words to myself. My parents were waiting for me so I washed all the tears and went down.

After dinner

"I'll head to my room now, mom. Thanks for the dinner," I said as I stood up. "You ok?" My dad asked. "I'm fine dad just tired," I lied, I'm not fine dad. "100 percent?" He ensured. "100 percent" I lied again.

...The next morning...

My body has no energy, I feel week. My bestfriend for 10 years ignored me because of a girl he saw in a day?

Am I overreacting or I can't just hold this feeling anymore?

It was Saturday, our friendship day, the day where we go to different places to play, to spend time together. But here I am, sitting alone on my bed, feeling dead, feeling nothing.

I gather all my courage to call him, to say that I love him. I wasn't sure if I'm ready to get hurt, to get rejected, to cut my 10 years of friendship with him. What I'm sure is that it's for the best.

I held my phone in my hand and dialed his number. After forever of ringing he picked up.
"Hello?" He said. God I missed his voice. "Can we talk?"