I did something I never thought I'd do . I kissed mr kim and he was shocked . His eyes wide open as he looked at me as if asking what the fuck that's supposed to mean. To be TRUE i don't know. But I'm not sorry for this at all. I pull back when i see him too shocked after this .
I look down immediately not daring to meet his eyes now. *Slap . I flinch back

He face-palmed himself and i swallowed hard . I didn't see anything.
I try to take breaths. Inhale - exhale. Fuck ! Can I kiss him once more ? I look at him again. You have guts porchay !

" Can i kiss you once more ? " He didn't reply for a long time. REJECTED!

My shoulders hunch down in disappointment until i feel his right hand lifting my chin and his eyes meeting mine and a grin twitched on his lips . What's that ? Before i could ask this two word thing to him . His pretty mouth landed on mine but not like i did
It felt passionate, deep and deeper.

" Argh ! " I pull my hands up in defence when my mouth made such a lewd noise and my face run red . What the hell was that ? Forget that .....this ?

He pulled my neck grabbing it and squeezed a little " ahh " .

My eyes widen and heart ran deep as his tongue licked over my lips and he sucked my both lips over and over again. I felt hundreds of butterflies roaming in my stomach craved and out of nowhere i put my hands on his neck moving a little towards him & he pulled my thin waist leaving my face alone making me sit on his lap . I was too shy to argue .

" That's perfect now " he whispered

I look at his eyes and he bit my bottom lips while looking into them and my body turned hot and cheeks red . Not looking much better than a monkey's ass . Embarrassment ran in my whole body when he winked looking at me and i closed my eyes. Asshole !

But i won't say that kiss was bad . It was good . Too good to be my first kiss . First kiss for me . But as he moved a little here and there that curse started haunting me again and i wanted to cry but somehow his touch was too assuring for me to do that . It was so gentle and soft yet rough and i liked how he caressed me lovingly, soothing me back to back in the kiss . I tapped on his shoulders when I lost my breath and he pulled back immediately .

I was panting. Out of breath and my eyes too embarassed to look up to meet his . I shook my head pulling my hands from his neck and landing it to my thigh. I fucked up. I wanted to cry .

But the next second my hand flew in air supported by his and i looked up quickly and found him smirking .

" this hand is mine now. you're not allowed to take it back ever "

shivers ran tripple in my spine and i blush while his hands leaves mine and he grabs my neck making me lean towards his head . I did so .

" You're mine now porchay . Remember this for once and all . Never ever dare to leave my hand or push me away . You may have started it first but it won't end until we die "

my body tremble and i look into his eyes. They were sparking like stars lit upnin his eyes and for the second time i saw him smiling. He ran his hands through my hair seductively as he leans closer to my face .

" who you belong to porchay ? "

His eyes went dark and there was an excitement that filled my body . His grip on my neck tightened and my heart twitched looking at him . I lowered my gaze immediately and nodd .

" words little one . I want words from your sweet little mouth "

he brought his face near mine and lifted my chin up with his free hand and connected our lips but this time i closed my eyes and leaned in experiencing that feeling he was giving me . It was so good that i didn't want to pull back but he did and i could do nothing but pout . I wanted more . I tried to go near his lips and looked at him through he'll know I want it more but instead he kissed my forehead. I tilted my head in confusion

" You won't get anything until you tell me whom you belong to. "

To be true i was so lost in his lip moment that for a time a forgot that i needed to hear him not stare at his lips . They looked pale and beautiful. I wrap my hand on my neck

" Firstly i want more " i look at his eyes and he chuckled

" I can never win against you can i ? "

" No ! " I say proudly joining our lips nd this time i did what he did to me . I tried to contribute a little though i knew i was making it sloppy and wetty but who cares ? He didn't mind me and i wanted to enjoy my first kiss with him .
Our lips suck and lick each other as we bite them and pull it earning moans of each other but in all this i never forgot the burning hell i was enduring.

I pull back as we both pant heavily. I cupped his face and with my trembling words i peck him and whispered softly

" Porchay kittisawat belongs to only you for always and always "

my heart smiled a million times when i saw the sparkle in his eyes when i said those words . I don't know what it meant to him but for me it was my heart i offered him now .

" And you ! " I make a tight hold on his neck roughly pulling him in

" argh ! He Yelp out because of the pressure i applied on it.

" I won't ask you instead I'm telling you this. You belong to me . Only me . "

I look at his lips once more and bit my own lips seductively . Why can't I have more of him ? He's mine now . I look up to meet his eyes and this time he attacked me .

My feet entangled in his waist and my hands resting on the bed as i was in air and he over me . Our mouths entangled as we both moaned loudly devouring each other. His hands on my neck rubbing on my collarbone and jaw line as he fine mouth works on my lips and neck sucking and kissing it hungrily.

" S-slow ...d-down..." I whispered when he bite my earlobe and my whole system tensed on it . His wet tongue running on my neck and cheeks not leaving a single area to not leave it's mark . His hands on my chest exploring the insides lewdly while my back strained more nd it was getting to uncomfortable to hold back the screams
But still i didn't let out a single one . His touches helped alot to stay persistent .

" Come here " his dominant voice rang in my ears as he took a hold of my waist more roughly was something that flinched open my eyes . My legs wrapped around his waist as i sat in his lap and he dropped his head on the crook of my neck and i thought he'll stop but he started running his tongue seductively over my neck sucking it and biting it occasionally while i could just hold him tightly from his shoulders wrapping my arm around it . His mouth ran to my ears back and he bit it once more . His other hand inside my shirt over my nipples twisting and turning them inside.

" How does it feel baby ? " He pulled himself a bit to meet my stunned face and he chuckled kissing my cheeks.

" If you make a face like this baby, I'm afraid you'll ever be able to walk on your feet" My eyes twitch and ears burned with the endearment he used for me . I blinked twice and hit his chest strongly and he whines out " bastard !"
I gulp down . I turned my face away .

" I would love you hear calling me like that . Try it " my heartbeat fastened & i shook my head immediately " no ! "

" Ahh !" I meet his eyes when he grabs my neck pulling it closer so i don't turn way . I see the smirk forming in his lips when he leans just a few inches apart from my face rubbing his nose with mine and says in a weak but arousing voice

" I'd never force you to do anything that you don't like but i really wish to hear it from you " i close my eyes.

" What .... should...i say ? " I whispered
My voice is trembling and shaking but anyway let's get it over with .

" Anything you like! Can even say baby ?" He exclaimed excitedly and pulled back from my neck letting me breath. I grab the cuffs of his shirt tightly

" b-baby ..." Finally !

" Once more" " no! " I look at the puppy innocent eyes and sigh . Fuck you !

" Baby " i smiled.

He smiled back . Oh this man knows how to smile back ? What a discovery .
He gently caressed my cheeks and i smiled when he kissed my lips once more and chuckled.

" I wanted to say it first " he said sadly.

" What first ? " I look at him .

" Yesterday . " He held my face and kissed my cheeks. " If you would have come to meet me there in the backyard i would have told you this first . I prepared so much and waited so long and when i lost faith that you will come i went to give you ice-creams and then "

He looked disappointed at me.

" I'm sorry " that's all i could say .

" You hurt me alot porchay . You called your brother when you know he will not come to you but you didn't tell me once what pushed you to such an edge that you tried to kill yourself ? If not love wasn't i even able to gain your little trust so you could come to me ? "

I kept my head down . How to tell him i never wanted him to see this side of mine that he's seen already . I wanted to look brave and beautiful to him but now i feel more like a weakling and pathetic fool that took such a big step .

" Can you please tell me now ? Can you trust me a little ? I can take care of all your problems at once will you allow me to do so ? "

My head looked at him and my tears couldn't hold back any longer . I hugged him tightly snuggling into his chest and i slapped his chest multiple times but all he did was to soothe my hair and caress it saying I'm there . You got me with you , little one . Relax a bit now .

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Kim's pov

" It's hurting a lot "

" It's okay . Just tell me all . You can count on me always right ? "

I said but i was more afraid of what he was going to say ahead . Hurt ? What was hurting ? Where was it hurting ?

" I did nothing....i begged them...they didn't stop it . I did nothing wrong .... I promise p'kim . I said nothing to them "

He just cried and his voice cracking with each words . Some words i couldn't even hear but all i could hear was

" I believe you porchay . you don't need to justify yourself anymore. Just tell me what happened . Who did what ? "

I pull back and look into his eyes with flowed like rain. I quickly wiped his tears off.

Then he told me how the kids at his school bully him because he's not like them. The school's different from what they can afford but Porsche earns really hard and paid for once and all at once and now he can't even back off. Students make fun of him and bully him , beats him and the teachers don't interfere in the matter because these children are of high status.

Fucking shit ! I'll show them their class and ensure they know who they are messing with .

I pull him back into the hug and kissed his forehead lovingly " don't worry you're safe now . You have me right ? "

He nodded and hugged me back .

" P' kim and ....." He trembles.

" Is there anything you didn't say ? " He again nodded and i asked him to say all

He pulled back a little and his head sank down . I saw him . I wanted to lift his face up and cheer him but i saw his hands gripping the hem of his shirt . He tugged his fingers at that and pulled a bit.

" What are you doing ? " I asked shocked. He looked at me and tilted his head in confusion " what ? "

" This !?" I cover my face immediately but ingot a smack on my head and i yelp out . " Don't take it the other way!"

He screamed and i pull my hands back .
What was i thinking ? He's 18 not 28 ! Stop with your dirty thoughts for god sake before you scare him off ! He eyed me very weirdly & embarassment
would be an understatement of what i felt at that moment . Gosh ! Let me die.

He pulled up his huddie he was wearing a little by little exposing his little white clear skin and my mouth watered . But i held it in . I shut it down!
He pulled it off completely but to be exact i didn't get what he meant by doing this ? I looked at him seriously & he held my shoulders firmly and whispered softly in my face

" don't panic " i nodded

He smiled and then slowly slowly turned around and my mouth hung open when i saw the bruises on his back. His back was facing me and God knows how much i lost it after i saw it .
His back was stabbed and blood came out like a leaked pipes in small thin amount while the wounds were extreme. The amount of cruelty was visible and i immediately closed my eyes. My fist clenched in anger .

" I could reach out to you. I know this . You will help i know it . But i didn't want anyone to know this . It's the last year i can just take it and behave like it never happened . "

I didn't said a word but what i could hear was his screaming when ge got it .

" If cao was there none of them would have dared to touch me after what he did to them last time. He's a brave boy "

My anger rose even more " last time ? It happens often ? " he took a pause

" Before yes . But as long as my stars doesn't go bad I'm safe. Once you protected me and then cao did . You guys are my guardian angels " he chuckled.

My eyes opened abruptly at it . I'm amazed. How could he possible smile after all this . I bet he's not okay .

" Why they do this ? " I asked my hands rose up to touch his back. But but he jumped off yelling at me angrily.
Now we were facing each other .

He smiled " sometimes we get things people don't think we have the right over so they bully you but if it happens God sends his angel's too . Like he sent you two, to me . " I smiled caressing his cheeks . He's so innocent.

" Why did that boy save you ? You know him ? " I asked worried

" He's an outcast himself . He's having everything you have. People around him and I've heard his pa is mafia but who cares ? He's a good boy p "

" Mafia ? " I stumbled questioning him
And he nodded smilingly but my face went pale . Why does this life never leaves me behind ?

" He likes boys so children don't talk to him and say DIRTY words . I became cao's friend so they said bad words and beat me saying that cao and i ....we ...." He hesitated and didn't look at me anymore. I immediately knew what he wanted to say . I cupped his face and kissed him and he smiled so bright
" so cao beat them really bad . "

I sighed. I don't know what to say him anymore. Sometimes the children of school can be so cruel. The fuck they care about others sexual preference ?

" What happened ? " He asked worried

" If i ask you something you'll do it ? "
He looked confused but smiled .

" Let's go and see a doctor ? "

" I said no ! Never! " He screamed .

I looked at his back and i suddenly remembered he was crawling back then i lightly put pressure on his thigh and he squirmed in pain and started crying .

" The fuck I'm going to listen to you if you're this hurt " i was angry .

He begged saying that he doesn't want people to know what happened because Porsche will know everything and will feel guilty and he doesn't want it and the worst reason was " hia needs to be happy too p'kim . He's done enough for me and now that he's found someone he can spend his life with I don't want to disturb them " my jaws dropped.

And there's the big brother of mine that can call 3pm at night just to say he wants a pink colour goldfish or other stupid items . My baby's so smart.
I convinced him that no one will know because this is my personal doctor and this report won't leake ever . He finally said yes but still hesitantly .

The doctor came in and checked him thoroughly. My heart sank deep the way chay trembled when Dr top touched his wounds or the swollen area . Dr looked so worried . I patted his arm and he turned

" Any problem ? " i asked worried

" I'm amazed that he's endured so much pain . It has started inflammating and he needs to be treated well ."

I nodded and chay closed his eyes. But the dr had other plans . He took of some gloves and ointments and looked at me

" You need to go out please "

" What ? " I exclaimed angrily .

" Ofcourse! " He said rolling his brows

" I need to strip him off so you can't stay here . It's a private treatment you can't interfere with here "

my blink twitch in confusion

" private ? " He nodded .

" His back and hind thigh is brutally swollen i need to take care of it and he needs to take it all off "

i nodded but chay ? I looked the man who was pissed off now . He pointed the scissors towards us angrily .

" get out everyone! I can do it myself"

Dr looked at me scared and whispered
" He can't .... he needs help mr kim ."

" Dr please carry on . We will leave "

i say and the next second a pillow land on my face and cursings shower over me and then the poor doctor . We sigh
As decided I'll be helping him to take the Medicare and Dr will guide me through instructions over the phone. Porchay wasn't still interested as usual .

I closed the door after i pushed the dr out . Porchay was sitting on the bed all curled up . I walked towards him and carried a cream in my hands and looked at him when i saw him looking away .

" What's going on in your mind ? Why won't you look at me ? "

" ........"

I sighed and sat infront of him with legs crossed . He suddenly flinched away and pulled the blanket up covering himself. And my eyes shot rainbow . He was blushing . His face reddened and nose turned pink . Of course it was February so the winter was troubling a bit . But his eyes showed a little shyness I never saw before.

I try to get a firm hold of his face and i finally did . " You're blushing...aww "

" Fuck you ! " He said grinding his teeth

" I'd love to " i roast back and his face burnt down" HAHAHA " i laugh out loud holding my stomach until porchay went quiet . He didn't turn his head up anymore . But then i head him sobbing and my all laughter melted down .

" I didn't mean to make you cry . Stop ...
don't cry "

i beg him but he kept crying rolling his hands while wiping his tears off .

" Stop teasing me p' kim . I feel bad "

he stammered and i feel guilty . I jump up to my knees and pull my shirt off and threw it on the side table and opened my hands like a filmy hero and he blinked twice confused . I am more embarrassed by the way .

" Both of us are equal now . Neither of us having anything okay ? "

I said. I saw his eyes looking so beautiful and it completely stuck on my chest . I snapped fingers and he shook in embarrassment but i put his face in tact in my palms and kiss his lips softly and lick it like he does and smiled

" everything's yours . No need to get shy of me ever . You get it ? " He nods

I pulled back but his eyes didn't show up and if they did he again got caught staring at me like I was a black hole attracting him to come inside of me.
I chuckled. I leaned down to kiss him and his hands wrapped around my neck but this fucking phone !

I look at it with anger . It was Dr . We pulled away and i answered the phone

" Mr Kim . He needs treatment quickly. We don't have whole day . Please be quick or the consequences....i won't be taking them on my head please"

I looked at porchay and he hesitantly nodded to the request . We both knew he was suffering and treatment was necessary for him . He was scared that it will pain alot . Of course I've witnessed how he curled up and jumped when i touched it even by mistake . It's going to hurt . I