Mischa's POV

It's been a week now since Heaven woke up and it's the first time that she called me.

"What's the problem?" I asked her as soon as I arrived in her room. She called me earlier because her head started to hurt. It's better that she's thinking of me as her friend than nothing at all. This way I can make her remember things little by little.

"My head started to hurt, I didn't call King because he's in the convention" she said while massaging her head. My face turned red when I saw what she's wearing, her usual baggy shirt and underwear. I walked closer and sat on the bed facing her.

"Let me" I said and massaged her temple.

"That feels good" she said smiling while her eyes closed. She's obviously enjoying what I'm doing. We're inches apart, my eyes averted to her pink lips, I missed kissing her. She moaned in pleasure and that made me blush more. The scene on where I kissed her on the couch came rushing back to me.

I really wanna kiss her I said mentally and about to do it when she opened her eyes. I flinched when she blew some air on my face. I almost fell on the floor because of what she's done.

"What's with you today?" She asked me chuckling, my heart beats fast, she didn't freaked out when she saw me almost kissing her. I looked at her intently as if analyzing her movement.

"Did you already take paracetamol or ibuprofen?" I asked her flatly.

"Yeah I did, the doctor said it's normal, the real reason why I called you is that I'm bored" she said sighing.

Now that I noticed it, it's the first time that I entered her room. The walls were painted in black and violet. There's s portrait of her on the right side of the wall. A small fridge on the right side as well, 50 inch led TV and another door that leads to outside.

"Why do you have an extra door?" I asked pointing to it.

"Oh. Nothing, I'm too lazy to use the main door" she said still massaging her forehead.

She's really weird, I used to know her as my Heaven and she's pretending that time. Now that she's back to her real self I wanna know her more. I kept on walking to ease the awkwardness that I'm feeling inside me.

"What's this for?" I asked her curiously when I saw a pellet gun beside her bed.

"I don't know, maybe I used that before to shoot something... A lizard for example or the bulb" she said clueless.

I frowned when I saw an umbrella hanging on the ceiling.

"What the fudge" I muttered when I recognized it. That's my favorite umbrella that I lost one year and ten months ago. I can't be mistaken, it's personalized so I know that it's mine.

"What are you looking at?" She snapped at me.

"Huh? Uh that umbrella" I said pointing to it. She followed my gaze and she frowned.

"What's with that?" I asked her, she gazed at it for a while before she spoke.

"I don't know. But it's cute" she said while shaking her head gently.

Of course it's cute, I designed that myself. I replied mentally.

"Why am I asking you in the first place? You have amnesia" I muttered sighing.

"But it must be important" she said after a while, I looked at her intently.

"How can you say so?" I asked her curiously.

"I won't display something that I don't own in my room. By the looks of it, it must be from someone so dear to me. Too bad I don't remember anything for now" she said smiling sadly. Somehow I felt touched because she treasures my umbrella.

I'm not just dear to you, you love me. I replied mentally.

"Anyways. What do you want to do?" I asked her changing the topic. I don't want her to be sad.

"I want to watch, King bought me DvD last night" she said pointing to the cabinet where the DVD's are located. I walked there hastily. I sighed because I already watched all the movie that King bought. I turned around and lifted the DVD's for her to choose.

"What do you wanna watch?"

"I want Annabelle" she said pointing to it.

"You already watched it. We watched it together" I said in a low voice. Her eyes widen in disbelief.

"For real?" I nodded in response.

"We must be really close" she said chuckling.

Extremely close. I responded mentally.

"What about the Gone Girl? Did we watch it already?" She inquired.

"No we haven't" I said hastily. I watched that movie myself but I don't want to upset her.

"Can we watch that?"

"Yes we can" I said chuckling. Now it's my turn to take care of her, I want her to love me again. It's fine if I take it slow as long as it will be sure.

"It's not playing" I said annoyed. The DVD is brand new but the player can't read it.

"Don't bother. Let's just watch TV I guess" she said sighing. I nodded and about to sit on the mini couch when she spoke.

"Can you sit here beside me?" She said sweetly while tapping her bed. She seems so casual to a lot of things, it's like she didn't change after all. It's like she still remembers me.

What if she's just pretending to have amnesia? I asked myself suspiciously.

"Okay" I said before sitting beside her.

It took her a minute to settle on a channel.

"Oh yeah! We're just in time. Adventure time!" She cheered happily. I chuckled by her reaction, she's really like a child. We already watched the chapter before but again she doesn't remember anything.

"What am I to you...? Hmmmmm" she's singing with Finn.

"I haven't watched this but how come I know the song" she said between humming.

"We already watched that, but it's good that you remember the song. It means you're improving" I said smiling widely. She nodded in response and continued watching the show.

I flinched when she rested her head on my shoulder, again it makes my heart beats fast. I don't know what to do honestly, I feel nervous.

"What am I to you? Am I a friend or am I your lover hmmmm" she kept on singing.

"Heaven" I muttered.

"Hmmm?"

"I'm glad you called me" I said truthfully.

"Ofcourse, you're like my bestfriend now. I don't know why but I feel comfortable when I'm with you. Well we've been together for seven months" she said chuckling. I was about to respond when she spoke again.

"That umbrella. Isn't that yours?" She said while pointing to it. My eyes widen, I don't know what to say, I'm really starting to think now that she's just pretending to have Amnesia to punish me.

"What made you think that it's mine?" I asked her suspiciously.

"Because you're special to me. Well I'm just wondering" she said flatly. Yes I'm suspicious but what she said made me smile.

"You're still good in this kind of things" I said still smiling.

"What things?" She asked me frowning, her focus is still on the TV.

"For making my heart flutter" I muttered. She didn't respond, I don't know if she heard it or not but I don't mind.

I focused on watching again, Finn and Jake already opened the door. My shoulder started to hurt because of our position but I don't want her to move away from me.

"See, Marcy has a crush on PB" she said chuckling, honestly I don't know it, but I remember before that she told me they're ex-lovers.

"Yeah I can see that" I said chuckling as well. I'm glad that's she's comfortable with me, somehow the sadness that I'm feeling because of her memory loss was lessen. It's like we're starting a new relationship.

"Mischa" she said using her Brit accent. I missed hearing her saying my name like that.

"Yes?" She removed her head on my shoulder and faced me.

"Why did I end up living in your place?" I felt anxious, I'm not prepared to her question and honestly I didn't expect her to ask me that.

Because you pretended to be my girlfriend. My mind said. I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out. I don't know how or where to start.

"What did King told you?" I managed to say. King doesn't give us a briefing on what to tell to her when she asked questions. She thought for a while.

"He said he came back to be with me but during the time that he's away I lived in your place" I frowned as soon as I heard what she said.

"Really? That's what he said" I said while gritting my teeth.

Damn you King. I cursed him mentally.

"Is that really the reason why I lived with you? I mean I have a house plus according to mom I only stayed with you for seven months" she's really smart. I want to tell her the truth but I'm afraid that she won't believe me.

"Yeah... I guess" I said in a low voice.

"King also said he fetched me in your house. Then after a few weeks that's when Pepper and I engaged into an accident" she said poking confused.

"But... Why would I drink with Pepper? I mean I seldom drink. I only drink when I'm problematic to something" it's like she's talking to herself now.

"Why would I sulk over you?" She added frowning again. My face flushed by her question.

"Uh... We fought about something" was all I said.

"About what?" She asked me hastily. I gazed at her, she's asking too much, my mind and heart were arguing if I'm going to say the truth or not.

"Be...because you lied to me, I hate liars" I decided to just say it. Her eye widen in disbelief.

"Why would I lie to you? I never lie. I don't feel the need to" she said while shaking her head. I didn't respond, I'm just observing her. She sighed after a while.

"Okay maybe I lied. But for what?" Maybe it's the right time to tell her the truth, I composed myself before speaking.

"You pretended to be someone else. You said you're an orphan and that I wish---"

"Wait-- wait--" she said interrupting me while waving her hand to stop me.

"Why would I lie about my identity? You're telling me things that I don't understand" she's now massaging her head, she's trying to remember the things that I just told her. I cupped her face and started massaging her forehead once again.

We fell silent for a while before I spoke again.

"Will you believe me if I told you that you fell in love to a woman?" I asked her seriously, her eyes were closed.

"No" I'm hurt by her immediate response. That's when she opened her eyes.

"I'm straight. It never came to me that I'd fall for a woman. Plus David would kill me if that time comes" she said chuckling. I tried my best to stop my tears from forming. She's hurting me though she doesn't know it. I forced myself to smile while nodding in understanding.

"What else King told you?" I asked her curiously. She thought for a while.

"He just told me the important things like what I've said a while ago, he came back for me and that mom and dad are now okay with our relationship" she said simply.

"Oh... Important things" I repeated.

"Why? Is there something else that I need to know?" She asked me curiously.

"Ah! There's another thing that I want to know" she said excitedly.

"Huh? Okay... What is it?" I asked nervously. She gazed at me intently before she pinched my nose.

"How did you and David become lovers huh?" She said giggling. I hate to see her being like that, she's giggling and so happy to ask me that kind of question when before she's dying not to know.

"We just met in a boutique" I said simply, I don't want to elaborate more because I don't like the topic.

"That's all? Tell me more" she said while shaking my shoulders gently.

"Well...I'm pretty maybe that's the reason why he fell in love with me" I joked.

"Yes you are pretty" she said seriously while again gazing at me intently. The atmosphere became awkward, I don't know if she felt it but I do.

"He's lucky to have you and vice versa. David is a wonderful man Mischa, don't make him feel bad or even hurt him okay?"

"Is that a warning?" I asked her unsure.

"Well yeah, but in a good way of course. I like you so much" she said before hugging me tight.

I used to be the one who says that word. I like you so much... I said mentally.

"Thanks" was all I said while tapping her back gently.

I can see on her eyes that she's so happy, happy to be just my friend and her brother's girlfriend.

We're in that position when King arrived.

What a spoiler. I said mentally while rolling my eyes.

"King!" She lets go of our hug and jumped off her bed and gave him a peck on his lips.

Ouch to the second power or cube root or something... My mind said.

"What brings you here? I thought you're in a conference?" She asked him sweetly.

"Hi Mischa" he greeted me before turning back his attention to Heaven.

"The maid called me, I brought you medicine and your favorite Java chip frappe" he said while lifting up the Starbucks paper cup holder. She rejoiced and hugged him tight. I'm so jealous right now but I have to keep it to myself. I focused myself on the TV to avoid seeing them so sweet.

"Mischa do you want lemonade?" King asked me after a while.

"No. I'm fine" I said forcing myself to smile.

"Okay, I'll just go make myself a lemonade then I'll be back" he said while tapping Heavens head. I rolled my eyes again.

He's really enjoying Heaven's condition. I said mentally, I changed the channel to Nickelodeon, Catdog is the show.

"Mischa. You want frappe?" Heaven asked me as soon as she sat on the bed.

"No" I said irritably. My eyes widen when I realized my attitude. She gazed at me confused. I stood up immediately and about to walk away when she grabbed my hand.

"What's the problem?" She asked me anxiously.

You! You're the problem! My mind replied.

"Uh... I changed my mind, I want lemonade" I said chuckling. She pressed my hand gently before she lets go of it.

"Okay, King's in the kitchen" she said smiling simply. I didn't respond and just walked out of her room immediately.

"Stupid!" I muttered as soon as I closed the door. I wanna be with her but King is getting in the way. It's like he's sensing that I'll tell Heaven everything.

"Ma'am is there anything you need?" The old maid asked me when she saw me leaning on Heaven's door.

"Do you know the umbrella that's been hanging on Heaven's ceiling?" She thought for a while.

"Yes, the pink umbrella" she said politely.

"Do you remember when did she brought that?" I asked curiously.

"Yes ma'am, she brought that almost two years ago. She's soaking wet that time because she walked in the rain"

"I see thanks" I said before motioning her to go away.

A year ago, we've met at the pedestrian crossing. You're crying that time...

What she said was true, I now remember it. I'm crying that time because of Eric.

Stupid! I yelled mentally while slapping my forehead. I decided to go to the kitchen after a while.

"King" I snapped at him. He's wearing a pink apron.

"Yes?" He asked me politely.

"I thought you don't want lemonade?" He added.

"Yeah I don't want that" I said sternly. He whistled by my response.

"Heaven was asking too many questions, you didn't even share with us the things that you made up. How can I possibly answer all of it without lying?" I said annoyed. He opened the fridge to get the pitcher of water.

"Just change the topic or dismiss it" he said nonchalant.

"It's hard to lie King! You know it's not my thing!" I argued.

"You're not lying if you don't say anything" he said hastily. I massaged my forehead in annoyance.

"It's hard to pretend" I said sighing.

"Why are you so concerned? I mean, don't get me wrong. You two are close but... You're not like that before" he said frowning while his arms on his waist.

"Because you're lying too much" I said hastily. He turned his back on me and started picking the lemons on the tray.

"It doesn't matter Mischa, she'll let it pass when she gets her memory back" he said simply.

"Still---"

"Tell me the truth. Why are you being like that" he stated. He's now slicing the lemon.

"I love her..." I said in a low voice. He sighed.

"That's too late don't you think?"

"I know" was all I said.

He puts down the knife and faced me.

"Mischa, this is my only way of letting her know that I still love her. It didn't change, our parents now approved of our relationship. Finally" he said smiling at me simply.

"But it's a complete lie" I argued. He grasped my shoulders gently.

"Mischa, this is what love can do. Now you understand why Heaven lied to you. No matter how much we want to tell the truth to the person that we love, the fear of leaving and hating us by them holds us back" he explained. I didn't respond because I know where he's coming from.

"This is my way of showing how much I love her and I hope you'll respect that, I'm sorry but if I were to choose I don't want her memory to come back" he said and turned his back on me to continue preparing his lemonade.

"What if it does? What if her memory comes back?" I asked in a low voice.

"We let her choose, but for now it's my time" I nodded in agreement though he can't see me.

It hurts so much that I have to lie and oblige to what he wants but he's right, I should respect his decision and ways. After all it's my fault, I wasted every chance that I have when she's in love with me.

"I think I should go home now"

"Heaven might look for you" he said flatly.

"We both know I'm not the one she needed" I said sadly before heading out of their house.

I skipped classes today to take care of Heaven but King spoiled everything.

"Why do you have to spoil the moment King" I said then slapped the steering wheel of my car. I drove fast out of their gate nowhere to go, I don't wanna go home yet.

I just kept on driving until I felt hungry. I stopped in front of a ramen house. It's been a long time since I last ate it. I smiled sadly because I remember I'm with Heaven that time.

There are lots of customers when I entered, I looked around to search for an available table but all were occupied. I sighed and about to leave when the waitress called me.

"Hello ma'am, looking for someone?" She asked me politely.

"Actually I'm looking for a vacant table" I said smiling.

"Oh" was all she said. She searched for a minute before she smiled.

"Ma'am is it fine if you share a table with someone?" She asked me politely. I nodded hastily since I'm very hungry, I don't have time to be choosy.

She headed to a table near the window, there's a woman sitting alone with her laptop. They both looked at me, I smiled. The woman nodded and smiled to me as well. I sighed in relief because she's a woman, if it's a man I'm sure he's gonna chat with me and I don't like that.

"Thanks" I said as soon as I sat in front of her.

"No worries, customers should be the priority" she said politely. I didn't respond because I talked to the waitress about my order.

All I did was sigh while waiting for my order, I glanced to the woman sitting in front of me, she's so serious while looking to her laptop.

She's pretty and hot. I said mentally, I seldom appreciate beauty but this woman in front of me is one of the lucky ones that I appreciate. I think she's 28 or something.

"Here's your order ma'am" the waitress snapped at me cheerfully.

"Thanks" I said before she left.

Once again I sighed. I really miss eating ramen with Heaven. I started eating in silence. When I'm done I called the waitress for the bill, I