Heaven's POV

One thing that I acquired when I'm living with Mischa is that I became alcoholic. I always drink whenever she makes me sad. I threw my key on the couch and looked for something to drink again. The maids weren't around and I'm too lazy to get a glass on the kitchen so I decided to just drink straight from the bottle of brandy that I saw.

"Ugh! It tastes bad" I said while sticking my tongue out.

"How can you do this to me Mischa!" I screamed in frustration. The maids came rushing to me when they heard me.

"Ma'am, what's wrong? Do you need anything?" They asked me anxiously.

"Just get lost and don't mind me" I replied hastily then took another shot of the brandy. I really don't like the taste of it but I don't have a choice.

"Ughhhhh!" I groaned in annoyance.

"How can you do this to me? How can you do this to me?!" I screamed again. I removed my wedge heels and threw it on the table where David's picture was displayed. It didn't fell so I picked the throw pillow beside me and threw it again on the table.

"You ruined everything!" I said while pointing to his picture.

"Everything's fine. She already said she loves me" I wiped my tears and about to stand up when I felt dizzy. I lose my balance and I fell again on the couch, I'm soaked with the brandy and that pissed me off.

"Fudge!" I exclaimed before throwing the empty bottle on the family portrait. I heard the bottle breaks into pieces before everything went blank.

I'm awakened when I felt someone was lifting me up, it's David. I pushed him away immediately.

"Don't touch me!" I said angrily. He didn't respond instead he walked closer and tried to assist me when I stood up but once again I pushed him away.

"Where's King?!" I yelled in anger.

"He's with mom and dad, look what you've done. You created a mess" he said pointing to the broken bottle and picture frames.

"You're the one who created this mess! Damn you!" I said before slapping his face so hard twice that it turned red the moment my hand left his cheeks. He didn't react to what I just did so I slapped his chest multiple times as well, I don't have a plan on stopping so he grabbed my hands and hugged me tight. I tried my best to get out of it but he's too strong.

"I hate youuuu!" I cried out loud. I'm screaming everything that I'm saying. I just want to disappear in this world because of so much hurt.

"I'm sorry" was all he said.

"You're sorry?! You're sorry huh? Don't make me laugh! You planned this so don't you say sorry to me!" I screamed out loud. The maids we're frightened.

"I understand that you lied to make Mischa notice and love you, I respect your ways but" he paused.

"Please understand my ways as well. I told her the truth and that's my way to stop her from falling for you. Please understand that I'm willing to do everything for her. I gave you a chance before, to tell her the truth" He said while caressing my head. I didn't respond I just kept on crying.

"Now that she knows the truth, isn't it good? If she forgive you and wanted you as the love of her life I won't argue with that. But for now it's my time Heaven. I love her so much, so much that it breaks my heart whenever I saw you too so close to each other. I set aside my feelings before though I know that you're kissing and touching her" his voice became broke.

He's trying his best not to cry, I can feel his sadness though I'm drunk, what he said was right. He gave me the chance to be true but I ignored it, I chose to continue lying because of my selfishness and so much love for Mischa.

"I'm sorry Heaven but I'm just a man who's in love" he said then hugged me tighter. I guess it's time for me to give up.

I tapped his back gently to tell him that I'm sober, he released me and waited to what I'm going to say.

"That time won't come, she won't forgive me until the day that I'll die" I said as I wiped my tears.

"I don't believe that, she cares for you and I know that she loves you too" he consoled me.

"She loves me too" I repeated while nodding sadly.

"That's a very sad statement David" he was about to say something but I motioned him to stop.

"I want her to love only me. But I don't think that time would come. Good night" I said smiling bitterly. I understand how he feels, I love him and he's right. He just did what he needs to do to win Mischa and I should respect that.

I walked to my room while sobbing. I'm giving up on her for real but before that I need to confirm first if I don't really have a chance on her for the last time, torture it may be but I don't mind. I sat on the corner of my bed and dialled her telephone number, I failed to press the correct number twice but I didn't give up. I succeed after my third try. It took five rings before she answered.

"Hello?"

She said in a low voice. I missed that kind of voice of her, I smiled.

"Hello? Who's this?" She asked again.

"It's me" was all I said. I know that she'll hang up any minute so I spoke again.

"Tell me, what can I do for you to forgive me just like David? I'll do anything just tell me" once again I pleaded.

"I already told you I will never forgive you until the day that you'll die" she said flatly.

"So If I'll die you'll forgive me huh?"

"You're drunk" she said annoyed.

"I should die then--" she interrupted me.

"Yeah you should die, why not die tonight huh?! Stop calling me and if you're really willing to die just for my forgiveness then do it without telling me! Stupid!" She said before hanging up the phone.

I massaged my temple and smiled bitterly. It's hard but I have to move on, I'm giving up for real now.

David may look like a fucking antagonist of my life but he never left me whenever I need him especially when King left. He contradicts me most of the time but I know that it's only for my own good. It's the first time that I saw him so in love to someone that he betrayed me. Even when he seduced Julia, he did it because he knows that Julia was a gold digger and was only using me.

I lay on my bed facing the ceiling, there are three lizards that looked like they're having a conversation, I smiled bitterly.

"Goodbye and thanks for the memories Mischa" I said before drifting myself to sleep.

••••

"Heaven, you should eat" King said while knocking at my door. I didn't respond, I just kept on shooting all the lizards that I saw using the pellet gun that I ordered online, most of them are good in dodging.

"Fudge!" I exclaimed when I hit the tail of the lizard and it fell on the floor. I stood up immediately and searched for it.

"Fudge it's amazing!" I said amused. The tail is still moving.

What an amazing creature it is. I said mentally while examining it. It's the first time that I saw it happened. I frowned when King knocks again.

"Get lost King" I said flatly then jumped on my bed and continued shooting the lizards.

It's been two weeks since the fight between me and David and I didn't come out of my room after that and it's been three days now since I stopped eating the food that they always put at my door. I have stocks of lays and Cheetos in my room so I'm fine with it.

As much as possible I limit myself from thinking because it'll only lead me again to Mischa. Locking myself from the outside world is my way of moving on. He didn't respond but I know that he's still there because I can see it under my door.

I stood up immediately when I heard my doorbell rang. I have another door in my room that leads me outside of the house. My room was located at the ground floor because I'm too lazy to walk upstairs. I opened the door excitedly.

"Are you Heaven Anderson?" The two delivery men asked in unison. I nodded hastily.

"Here's your order ma'am" he said then gave me the BFF bundle that I ordered from McDonalds. I put it on the table before paying.

"Keep the change" I said winking.

"Here's your another order ma'am" the other one said as soon as the McDonald man left.

"Should I set it up ma'am?" I shook my head immediately.

"It's fine, I can handle it on my own" I said then gave him a tip as well. I closed the door and locked it immediately when he left.

"Okay. Let's try you" I said as I took a piece of my French fries. I bought Xbox Kinect.

I don't really have plans on going outside ever. I also skipped my classes, I only go to school because of Mischa. Now that she's gone I don't feel the need to. The anaconda song played the moment I opened the game Dance, Dance.

I frowned when I heard a loud knock once again. I removed the cover on the door that I made to peek on the hole that I also made. It's my dad and he looked really angry at me.

"Heaven! Tone down your sounds you're not the only one who lives here!"

He's really mad. I said mentally. I ignored him and continued playing, they can't open my door because I have three locks inside, their key was useless.

I chose the song Bubblegum by Jason Derulo first and danced until I'm tired. After an hour I stopped.

I can't believe I finished ten songs. I closed my eyes and the memory of Mischa dancing with me in her house came rushing in my mind. I shook my head to erase it and fell asleep.

I was awakened when I heard a continuous loud bang on my door. I sat on my bed and covered my body with the comforter. My ac was set to freeze mode so it's very cold. I reached for my coke float and took a sip of it while waiting for what will happen next. The first lock was already broken.

Two more left. I said mentally. I don't know anyone who can break my door, I mean my parents and two brothers won't do that kind of thing.

"Maybe it's Mischa" I said flatly. I took a piece of fries and dipped it on my float.

"Two down" I said smirking. The third lock was about to break, I took another sip of my float again while waiting.

Finally the door opened and I didn't expect that person would see me.

"Pepper" I muttered while playing the straw with my mouth.

"Yo sucker" she greeted me. I never thought I would see her again.

"I thought you're sentenced for life in prison" I said flatly as I continued biting my straw and blowing some air on the float, it's boiling and I like the sound of it.

"Idiot! I went to rehab not in prison!" She yelled then laughed hysterically. She's really crazy. She's my cousin and she's older than me but still in senior high because she's more into drag racing and party. She was put into rehab two years ago and I thought she'd stay there for good.

"That's the same if you're not allowed to go out" I insisted.

My eyes averted to her shoulder, she has a scar there that looks like a barcode. Good thing it's not ugly to look at, it's more like of an asset.

"Bullshit!" She said hastily. She's the only daughter of my uncle Thomas and Aunt Ysabelle and I pity them. Their daughter doesn't have a future and the way she talks it's so out of manners.

"Don't cuss when I'm around" I said flatly.

"Bullshit" she repeated while raising her brow. She's getting into my nerves.

"Get out of here" I said then threw a fries on her face, she didn't dodged so it hit her face, she picked it up from the floor and ate it afterwards.

Gross. I said mentally.

"It's not five minutes yet so it's still clean" she said defensively. I just raised my brow and threw another fries on her face.

"You broke my door, do you know how much it cost?" I said then put my float on the side table and wrap myself on the blanket. Now I can feel the cold.

"Let's go out sucker! Stop sulking and acting like a child" I didn't respond so she walked to my side and grabbed the blanket.

"No!!! Give me that back!" I yelled angrily.

"No I won't. Let's go out and party kiddo! I will make you happy"

"No one's gonna make me happy" I said hastily. Ever since we're a child she's a real bully but we're closer than anyone else.

"Mischa the bitch can't make you happy sucker! I will make you happy!" My ears ticked but I know that I won't win any argument if she's the one I'm talking with. I covered my head with the pillow but she pulled it and throw it outside of my room.

"Dad will be mad! Why did you throw outside my pillow?!" I said pissed off.

"Uncle Buckle won't get mad at me, I'll kick his ass" she whispered the last four words. I rolled my eyes at her, I know she won't stop until I get up and agree to what she wants.

"Okay I'll come with you!!!!" I yelled in annoyance.

"Hah! I know you would! No one can resist me!" She said cockily while pointing at me and laughing.

What a douchebag, I said mentally. Her beautiful face doesn't fit her attitude.

"Hahaha this is fucking cool sucker! I'm gonna buy lots of lizards and spread it in my room! Hahaha" she said while I'm changing my clothes. She enjoyed shooting the lizards as well.

"Of course! That's why I'm playing it" I said cockily and we both laughed.

Okay we both looked stupid on that part.

•_•

My eyes widen when I saw her car. It's a limited edition dark blue Ferrari Enzo, I've always wanted that car but I already have a Gallardo.

"How's my baby?" She asked me proudly. I walked closer and caressed it.

"It's so cool, it's so frigging cool!" I said in amazement.

"Of course!" She said cockily as we both entered inside.

"I'm surprised uncle bought you this" it smells new, I like the scent of new car.

"Hah! That old man won't buy me this kind of car" she snorted.

"Then who gave you this?" I asked her curiously. She started the engine and drove fast out of the main gate.

"I stole this" she said simply.

"What?!" I asked her loud.

"Pepper! You're rich why would you steal! You're such a dickhead!" I said while slapping her shoulder, she laughed out loud by my reaction.

"Sorry, what I meant is I stole the money that I used to buy this---" I slapped her shoulder once again.

"That's the same!"

"No it's not! It's Dad's money. I stole one of his credit card and bough this. It's a payback because he gets me into rehab" she exclaimed cockily. I shook my head. She's really worst.

"I bet he didn't know yet. Your car smells new, you just bought it" I put my seatbelt on when I noticed that I haven't wore it.

"Yeah, he'll find that out after a month" she said nonchalantly. She's driving on 100kph good thing there's not much car around.

"Where are we going again?" I asked her curiously.

"To my friends newly opened bar" I didn't speak after that. I just gazed on the road while thinking of Mischa. I terribly missed her. I hope she's doing fine and happy.

After a few minutes we arrived at the bar that she's talking about.

It's big and the ambience is cosy, not bad for a high entrance free. The waitress greeted her as soon as we arrived, I'm sure she's a regular customer here.

"Pepper! You came" my eyes widen when I recognized the woman that greeted us.

"Fudge, Avril!" I said in disbelief. She's my idol.

Fudge I need an autograph!

"Uh, Avril this is my broken hearted cousin Heaven" I punched her shoulder because of what she said.

"Oh hi Heaven, I'm glad you're here" she said before giving me a hug. I blushed and my legs started to wobble.

Fudge I wanna die now. I said mentally. She smells good and she's really pretty. She led us to the vip area and served a double black JW. She didn't stay long because she's tending other customers.

"Wow, you're friends with her. I can't believe it" I said as I took a shot.

"Of course. She's my crush way back when I was in high-school" she said smirking.

"You're still in high-school" I reminded her.

"I mean when I was at the age of a real high-school student! I should be in college now you know" she said then poured the liquor almost half of the glass. I shook my head at the sight, she's still alcoholic.

"How did you get out of the rehab?" I asked her curiously.

"Money dear, I begged mom to get me out of that fucking rehab, I told her I already changed" she said winking. Aunt Ysabelle loves her so much.

"Enough of me. Let's talk about you. I heard you invented a website to fool Mischa Lewis" I raised my brow at her.

"I did that because I love her" I said hastily. She gave me an oh responze.

"And here I thought you're eyes are for King only" she paused then took a bite of her barbecue.

"This just proves that people change" she added.

"Yeah people change and you should too" I said hastily while rolling my eyes.

"You know that Mischa bitch was my classmate before, I just don't remember what year" she said while trying to remember. My eyes widen in disbelief.

"For real?" I asked hastily.

"Uh... Well let's not talk about her. I'm moving on and I think she's happy with David" I said then focused on watching Avril sing.

Nana...nanananana... I miss you, miss you so bad...

I don't forget you, oh it's so sad

"Why is she singing that song?" I asked her frowning.

"Why not? She composed it and that's hers as well as this bar" she said mindlessly.

"I know! I mean the song speaks to me"

"Hah! So you're now the song whisperer? Hahahaha fuck that's a good joke!" She said laughing out loud. I gave her a poker face.

"Hey!" She said then leaned closer and cupped my face.

"What?!" I asked her frowning.

"Laugh at my joke!" She said seriously.

"No! It's not funny! It's ugly!" I said irritably. She pressed my cheek so hard that it's making me pout in an ugly way.

"Stafiit! Legoofme!" I said while trying to push her away.

"Laugh at my joke" she said frowning, we're inches apart and I swear I don't know what I'm gonna do if she's gonna kiss me. She can do it, that's how bully she is.

"Okay okay. Hahahahahaha yofofunny!" I tried my best for that because she's still grasping my cheeks. She released me and laughed out loud.

"You're so funny Heaven, I missed teasing you!" She said that in a serious way after laughing. I think she's not just crazy, she also has a split personality.

I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly...

"The day... You slipped away~ was the day I found it won't be the same wooh~ nana...nanananana" I sang with the song while waving my hands from left to right. I can relate to the song and I feel the sadness that's embedded on it.

"Fudge!" I flinched because she threw the cover of JW on my shoulder.

"I'm here so let's talk" she said smirking.

"Say. What is your ultimate dream?" She asked seriously.

"Is being with Mischa out of the question?" I joked then gave her a peace sign.

"Me... Hmm... I just wanna be a singer like Avril. A performer in a bar or any place will be fine" I said truthfully. I just want a simple life.

"What about you?" I asked her back.

"I just wanna be a..." She paused.

"What?" I repeated.

"Billionaire" she said seriously.

"Huh?" I didn't get what she said.

"So freaking bad, buy all of the things I never had" I slapped her forehead when I realized that it's a song.

"When will you get serious Pepper huh?" I said annoyed.

"Peace men" she said while massaging her forehead.

"I just wanna be a farmer" she said smiling genuinely.

"For