Christmas was in a week and I couldn't be any happier because I got to spend them with Ethan.

His parents decided spending their christmas to Bali this year. They asked Ethan, Brian and me to come along but I didn't want to because I'd prefer spending my christmas in snowy places.

I'd asked Ethan to join his parents but he didn't want to because he didn't want to spend Christmas and new year without me. How sweet he was.

My parents called asking if me and Brian wanted to come home for Christmas but none of us wanted too. The disaster on Thanksgiving was enough for us.

Me, Ethan, Brian, and Kira were decorating the Christmas tree. It was fun and fulled with laughter. I'd never been this happy since... ever. It was just great spending time with people who really loved you.

We were almost finished and just had to place the angel on top of the tree. Brian handed me the angel to place it on the tree.

I climbed carefully on the stair and placed the angel right on top of the tree. It looked nice.

Ethan helped me off the stair. Kira turned off the lamp in the room and turned on the tree's light. We watched the tree glowing beautifully in different colors.

After decorating the tree and the room, we had dinner and went to bed. It was exhausting because we'd been busy since morning doing christmas shopping and everything.

I got to Ethan's room and laid my head on one of his pillows. I'd been sleeping in his room for a while now and Brian didn't mind as long as there was no funny business.

Ethan was still doing his work so I just laid on his bed watching him work.

"Stop staring", he said as he drew whatever it was. 

"I like watching you work", I giggled.

He smiled. "It's creepy you know"

"I think it's romantic", I said and the next thing happened was he came to me and tickled my sides making me laughed like a donkey.

"Stop", I said between my laugh.

He stopped and stared into my black orbs. Those eyes was my weakness.

He leaned in and kissed me passionately. Soon he was on top and I put my hands on his soft hair.

I opened my mouth giving him access and it gave out a soft moan. Without my realization, I circled my legs to his hip. I could feel his member hardened and it turned me on as well.

I grabbed the edge of his T-shirt trying to get it out of his body. He got what I meant and he got it out from his head.

I took off my sweater as well and to be honest I was kind of embarrassed. I'd never been naked in front of a guy. He kissed my neck and I let out another moan.

I got freaked when I saw him was about to take off his boxer. My eyes widened and backed away a little under him. He looked at me confused.

"Are you okay?", he asked worried filled his eyes.

"I'm fine", I lied and he continued to take off his boxer. His member spring free and I got freaked out again. He was huge.

He saw my scared expression and he seemed realized that it was my first time.

"Look, we don't have to do it, OK? I don't want to push you into anything", he said putting back on his clothes.

"What? No. I am ready", I said getting sat up on the bed. I was ready to give all of me to him but he refused.

"No. You're clearly not ready, Linda and I want your first time to be special", he said putting his shirt on.

I let out a forced laughed and he looked at me weird.

"All the guys I'd been with wanted my pants so bad but I kept rejecting them and here I am become the one who got rejected", I said looking down, feeling embarrassed.

Ethan came to me and sat beside me. "Are you upset about.. you know that we don't do it just now?"

I looked up to him and smiled. "No. I'm glad actually. It means that you want me not for getting into my pants", I said pecking his lips.

He kissed me back passionately. "I'm not that kind of guy, Linda. I love you with all my heart. Sex or no sex", he said hugging me.

I smiled and hugged back. For the first time of my life. I felt wanted by someone who truly cares to me.