I'm Not O-Fucking-Kay.

GERARD.

"Stop staring, your jealous is showing." Frank laughed as he came to stand beside me whilst two of the instructors were standing in front of us all, the older guy was yapping on and on about the lands whilst Sarah stood there making faces at Brendon, thinking no one else would be able to see her pulling faces at the kid.

I huffed and faced Frank, crossing my arms over my chest defiantly, "I am not jealous. Why would I be jealous?" Frank raised an eyebrow and chuckled at me, patting me on the back, letting his hand stay in contact with my body as it slid down, holding my hip, "'Cause a hot girl has got Brendon's attention and you haven't. Maybe that is why you are jealous."

I shrugged as I continued watching Brendon's face as his eyes widened and he grinned in reply to Sarah's face, "I guess she is pretty hot and he's got good taste. But you and I both know I'm the hottest girl here." Frank laughed at me and pulled me into him so we would bump hips.

One of the girls turned around and frowned at me, obviously seeming to disagree with me and she seemed to be slightly freaked out by what I said. As soon as the girl turned back around to focus of the guy instructor, Frank leant in closer to whisper in my ear, "Ten out of ten as a guy, eleven and a half as a girl."

I snorted and rolled my eyes at Frank, "Why do I get a higher rating as a fucking girl?" Frank shrugged and diverted his eyes away from the guy from an art class that had looked in our direction, sending a strange look at us, "I'm not sure, I don't make these rules up, sorry. There's no take backs either."

"That's stupid. Those damn 'rules' are stupid. You're stupid. I'm not an eleven and a half as a girl. That would make you like, a seventeen." I then held my hands up in a surrender sign and shrugged when Frank looked like he was about to protest against what I said, "I'm sorry I guess I don't make up these rules, no take backs."

Frank laughed at me and shook his head in disbelief, "You can't use my own rules against me! That's against the rules! Take it back!" I laughed at him and shook my head fiercely, smiling to myself at how childish Frank really was. He crossed his arms over his chest stubbornly, glaring down at the ground pretend-angrily as his bottom lip pouted out.

I laughed and ruffled his hair, "Nope! Not until you take what you said to me back! C'mon, Frankie! You inflicted this on yourself!"

Before Frank could reply properly, we saw Brendon bounding over to us, a huge grin on his face, "Guys, we're allowed to go exploring by ourselves for a while! Which way are we going? Where's Patrick? Should we take some food? Are you guys hungry? C'mon stop wasting time!"

Both Frank and I just stared at Brendon for a moment, still trying to keep up with all his questions and to try and process them, "Uh, Patrick's over there-" Frank pointed in the direction of the short kid before continuing, "I think I may go back to my cabin and listen to music and unpack or whatever, you guys should have fun though."

I span to face Frank with a sad frown, "What do you mean? You have to come with us! You can't be a lazy shit! Please don't leave me..." Frank sighed and shook his head, "No, I'm tired Gee. I'll explore the place with you tomorrow. I'm going to bed now."

Frank leaned in closer, "I'll text you when you it's safe for you to come back to my room." Frank pulled away and smirked before he began walking away from me and Brendon who just shrugged and pulled me in the opposite direction to where Patrick was talking to one of the other guys in our class, "Hey Pat! You gonna come with me and Gee into the forest? Joe can come too!"

Patrick looked at the boy called Joe as if a silent invitation to our little group expedition and Joe nodded slowly with a small smile on his lips, "Can Andy come with us too?" Patrick, Brendon and I all looked at each other as a secret sort of talk between the three of us which we had seemed to develop when we spent every single day with each other since Patrick was first introduced to our group and we all nodded once at the same time.

Joe smiled again and looked for Andy, finding him talking to the instructor about something, "Hey, Andy! We're going exploring!" Andy held his hand up as if to tell Joe to wait a minute and Joe huffed, "We could be in the middle of the forest by now." He grumbled and turned around and started his journey into the trees, Patrick following behind him then me and Brendon going in after.

There was no speaking between the four of us for a few minutes, even when Andy had managed to catch up with us and join onto Joe and Patrick's area. Brendon was the one to break it, bumping into my shoulder to grab my attention off of the crunchy leafed flooring so he could quietly ask me, "What was it that Frank said to you before he left us?"

My eyes widened as I faced him, stumbling over a tree root and reaching out to clutch onto Brendon's arm for safety, not letting go even when I was stable on my feet again, "Calm down, dude. You don't have to tell me what he said, I was just a little curious because as soon as he said it, you turned bright red and started biting your bottom lip to stop yourself from smiling like an idiot."

Patrick looked back and nodded in agreement with what Bren had said, somehow hearing what Brendon had said from a meter and a half away, and with Brendon using his quiet voice, "How did you see my reaction, Pat? You were with Joe?" Patrick grinned evilly before turning back to face the right way and started talking to Andy and Joe.

Brendon snorted and patted my head, "So, you gonna tell me what he said or what?" I huffed and let go of Brendon's arm and slowed down, Brendon catching on that I didn't want the others to hear so he slowed down too, "I don't know man, he said he'll text me when it's safe for me to head to his room. I guess I'll be going to his in a bit."

I just shrugged it off as if it was nothing, "I suppose you're leaving our party a little early then?" I rolled my eyes at him and sped up slightly, trying to catch up with Patrick, Andy and Joe as we reached an area where two paths crossed and two logs were laud out for seating, "It's hardly a party when it's five people, no music, no booze and no whatever else is at parties."

Brendon laughed at me, shaking his head, "Oh the ignorance, Gee." Brendon let something slide off of his shoulder into my view and he opened it up, revealing water bottles full up with clear a liquid and three boxes of twenty pack cigarettes and four bottles of Budweiser beer, "Brendon, how the Hell were you able to get all of this stuff?"

Brendon grinned at me, sitting down on one of the tree logs and pulling out a beer to hand over to me, "You remember I told you about that girl who got a fake ID off of her ex for a tenner? Yeah well I got her to get me one, and I've started splashing out on booze and fags for this trip."

I looked at the beer, to Brendon, over at Joe, Patrick and Andy then back at the beer, "You really expect me to open this bottle with my teeth?" Brendon didn't say anything as he rolled his eyes and took the bottle off of me, placing the lid between his teeth and pressuring the cap off the bottle, making us all cringe at the imaginary pain he would've felt from doing that.

"Dude this is going to be one lame-ass party." I laughed and took a sip of beer, shivering slightly at the aftertaste and pulled a face before drinking a little more, "Yeah that's because you're here and you suck." I laughed at Brendon and stuck my tongue out at him before drinking a little more, "You would know all about me sucking, Brenny."

Brendon snorted and cupped his hand under his chin to stop any of his drink from spilling out of his mouth as Joe and Andy stared at me, "What? I enjoy rocket lollies? Is there something wrong with that?"

"Yeah 'cause that's all you get up to in your spare time." Brendon wiggled his eyebrows up and down suggestively as he drank more of his beer, "Are you really suggesting I suck you? My name isn't Sarah, Bren. I think she would get jealous if I did that to you." Brendon rolled his eyes at me, drinking more of his beer at the same time I pressed my bottle to my mouth.

It took the rest of my beer and two whole water bottles full of vodka to actually get me somewhat shitfaced. Brendon was laughing about something with Patrick, swaying dramatically side to side where he was sat down and hitting his two beer bottles against the ground much like a young child with maracas.

Andy wasn't the slightest bit drunk because of the whole 'I'm not into drinking alcohol underage' thing, and Joe didn't want Andy to feel left out with his sober-ness so he didn't drink anything, and Patrick wasn't really one for drinking anyway. So that left nearly all of the alcohol to be shared between me and Brendon, and share it we did.

I dropped off of the log and onto my knees on the ground, starting to crawl to the middle of our gathering and crashed to the floor, Andy and Patrick going to help me but stopping when they heard me giggling to myself as I rolled over onto my back, staring up at the sky, "So pretty..." I whispered, staring wide eyed up as I saw the sky was already turning a shade of dark blue, the stars shining through without all the city lights fading them out to the background.

"Twinkle twinkle, motherfuckers." I mumbled as I reached out for the stars, flexing my fingers and watching the the bones twitch under my skin which fascinated me more than I usually would fascinated by such things under normal circumstances. Brendon crawled on the floor and sat cross-legged beside me, patting my shoulder, "Gee, would you like me to get you a star?"

I looked up at Brendon wide eyed and nodded slowly, "Yes please!" I nodded ferociously and got to my feet as quickly as someone that was drunk could, scuttling over to the nearest tree and looking up at how tall it was, "Brendon! Help me up!" I grinned, holding my arms up in the air and waited for him to rush over, kneeling when he reached me.

I stepped up onto his knee, clinging onto the tree branch as Brendon began to stand up and take me up higher, pushing me up until I was able to pull myself over the lowest hanging branch. I struggled to get myself sat stably on the branch, but as soon as I managed it I started pulling Brendon up with me.

I struggled once more to stand up on the tree branch and shuffled along until I got to a good enough foot hold to get me up higher and closer to the stars, "Look, Brendon! We're almost there! We're so close to getting the stars!" I jumped a little with excitement as I got up another level, Brendon soon following behind me then taking over and going up before me.

"Be careful up there!" Patrick yelled up at us, sounding quite scared for our well being but I quickly dismissed it, giggling happily, "We're gonna be fiiiine, Patty! I'll get a big star just for you! Because you are shiny and beautiful just like a star so you deserve to have a little you." I hiccuped and frowned, pulling myself up the tree further and sat on the branch.

My phone went off in my pocket and I pulled it out enthusiastically, hoping it was going to be Frank 'Hey, meet in five? X'

I cheered out loud and began typing a reply, really concentrating on what letters I needed 'okay! Me and brendon rrr getting sutars then I will be there for the cuddles' I grinned to myself, proud that I was able to successfully complete a whole text message without any spelling errors and sent it onto Frank.

I looked up for my friend, spotting him and sending a big smile to him, "Frank wants me! I wanna get down!" I kicked my legs back and forth as I stared up at Brendon on his higher branch, "B-but... I can't reach the stars, Gee! What do I do?" I crossed my arms over my chest and pointed at my chin thoughtfully, not wanting my friend to be sad.

"I know!" I exclaimed, starting to clamber down the tree and not saying my brilliant idea until my feet hit normal grounds, "What if I get Frank to get us some stars? He's bound to have some in his bag! He's shiny so he should have stars!" Brendon jumped off of the lowest branch and landed next to me, losing balance and falling onto his butt a few seconds later.

"That's a brilliant idea, Gee!" Brendon stood back up and pulled me into a hug, "Go! You need go do that now! Quickly! I wants stars!" I nodded quickly, not wanting to let Brendon down so I immediately started galloping away from where my friends were sat and back towards our rooms where I was certain Frank would be waiting for me.

Although it was starting to get late, I still felt like I had to hide away and try to avoid people as best as I could so I wouldn't get caught and make the whole case go up in smoke. That's what they really wanted, that is what the underground government really wanted me to do, just get it all wrong and to catch me, to torture me until I spill all of the undercover secrets.

No, I didn't want to that to happen, I didn't want to be the one that had been caught and secrets to be forced out of me, I didn't want to have people staring at me if I got out alive. Frank would probably drop me like a sack of potatoes and wouldn't want to give me anymore of his cute little kisses ever again because I betrayed him.

I climbed up the stairs on my hands and knees as a way of avoiding any windows and continued crawling along the hall and knocked on Frank's door, using the handle to get myself up onto my feet because I was finally in the clear and no one would find me now, "Frankie-Boo! Open up!" I giggled and banged my open hand against the door, giggling a little louder when I heard Frank rushing through the door to open it.

"Hi Frankie!" I yelled and threw my arms up in the air expecting a hug when he swung the door open, but I just got an eye roll from the slightly shorter man and he dragged me into his room, closing the door build me, "Gee, I had to make sure the coast was clear, people might think we're up to something now..." I pouted and crossed my arms over my chest.

Frank smiled gently at me and held his arms open for a hug that I had wanted only seconds ago. I stood still for a few moments, not walking into his arms just yet and pretended to be mad at him. I wasn't actually mad at him, I just wanted to make him think I was upset with what he had said to me.

Frank waited a few more seconds before rolling his eyes at me again and grabbing ahold of my shoulders and dragging me into his body, wrapping his arms around me. I snuggled my nose into his neck happily as my arms snaked around his waist and closed my eyes with a sigh, "But Frank... There we are getting up to something now. People would've guessed right."

Frank snorted and rubbed my back gently. I opened my eyes and stared out of the window at the one thing I actually came to ask Frank for, "Frank..." I whispered loudly as a way to get his attention away from our hug, "Hey, Frank... Can you... I don't know, maybe get me a star? There's loads in the sky and I really wanted one, I said you would get one for Brendon but you don't have to-"

Frank laughed and pulled back from our hug so he was able to see me properly, "Gee, if I wasn't able to smell the vodka on you I would totally think you were on drugs." I gasped, clutching my heart as a way of faking shock and poked Frank's chest, "I would never, ever, ever, ever... EVER- ever do that! I don't drink the al-ca-hol."

Frank nodded with his eyebrows raised, "Oh yeah? Is that so, Gee? Gimme a kiss, then. If you've been drinking I'll be able to taste it, if I don't taste it I'll believe you don't drink." I opened my mouth as if to say something but quickly shut it. Frank was right, he would taste it and he would hate me for lying about it.

At that thought my eyes started to prickle and sting, I tried blinking rapidly to stop the oncoming waterworks it was too late to go back and the first few tears had already started making their way down my cheeks, "I'm so sorry, Frankie!" I wailed, hurling myself into his arms and sobbed into his neck, my grip tight on the back of his shirt.

He was going to let me go, he did not want me. Especially when I was acting like this, like a big baby. What surprised me most was the feeling of Frank's hand on my back, gently rubbing circles and whispering into my hair softly, his words barely understandable compared to the volume of my sobs.

It took Frank a while to calm me down, but as soon as he did, he pulled away and patted me on the shoulder once more, "Hey, I think you should head back to your room now and I'll see you in the morning, okay?" I nodded slowly and flicked hair out of my eyes and sniffed, still not over the manic episode of sobbing just yet.

I composed myself, wiping the tears away from my cheeks and sniffing a little more before turning around to find the mirror in Frank's room and analysed how red my eyes were and whether it was noticeable.

"Alright, I guess I should actually go back to my dorm. I'll see you tomorrow, I guess." I shuffled away from Frank towards the door, giving him a final glance and a grin, waving goodbye and heading to my dorm and saw Brendon, Patrick, Dallon, Spencer and Jack all on their bunks, my bunk above Brendon's empty as expected and Brendon in his bunk, starfished on the mattress.

"How was the sex, Gee?" Brendon giggled, looking over at me and laughed, "He's a hair puller, huh?" Brendon asked, confusing me slightly. I looked in the mirror on the wall and suddenly realised that Brendon was referring to the fact that my hair was sticking up in every direction and looking very disheveled.

"Shut up..." I mumbled as I made my way up onto my bed, laying down face first into the pillow, "I hate you, Bren."