Chapter Twenty-One

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I believe in fighting for

a relationship. I just don't 

believe in fighting for it alone

~Unknown

It took me a good few minutes to fall asleep and a few sleeping pills to help me relax and to keep those horrible nightmares away. Early in the morning, my sleep is interrupted by tapping on my bedroom window. It must be Chase. I hope he is! "Give me a minute!" I call and proceed to make myself look more presentable. It's funny how, after giving us a chance, I still feel conscious for him to see my bare face. Of course, it's not something that could be good, because we're mates and supposed to love each other unconditionally. We're supposed to love each other through all the flaws and imperfections, but we're not an ordinary couple, are we? I don't believe so, and all my family and friends don't do, either.

"Come in," I exclaim and expect to see Chase opening the door, but reality crashes my dream. Chase still hasn't shown up, and to say I'm furious would be an understatement. As soon as I see him, I'll punch him hard enough to feel how I feel now. How dare he embarrass me like that? I gave him a second chance when everybody around me protested, and now I made a fool out of myself! I'm to blame for seeing the good in everyone despite their actions. They may be horrible to me, but one small gesture is enough for me to erase everything. "How are you feeling today, honey?" She says while carrying a tray full of food. A few moments earlier, I would be drooling over those, but as of now, my only desire is to get under the covers and sleep my worries away.

"I could say good, but I know you won't buy it. So, I'm gonna speak the ugly truth. I'm not fine and I feel like a complete idiot for falling for his idiotic games, once again." What's the point in lying when they already know how I feel? "You're not an idiot for believing in someone. Quite the opposite. You're brave for putting your trust in someone who didn't do the same for you." That's my biggest flaw, though. I tend to forgive people just like that. One good gesture and my mind can erase a hundred bad ones. Some people can call me forgiving, but I would call myself an idiot. "You need to cut toxic people out of your life. You know it, I know it. He fooled you once and it wasn't your fault, but the second time will be on you. Don't believe that just because hearts can be mended that it doesn't matter how many times they'll break."

Despite hearing those things, it's not easy. It's not easy to erase people that you love from your life. But it's even harder to keep those people around and allow them to keep hurting. Every day that passes, I feel like a piece of me is dying. Things I used to enjoy before aren't as pleasant as they used to be. There were times I wanted to die in hopes that this torture would stop. It's not right, though. In a world where thousands of people die every day, I should appreciate life for what it is and not make those wishes. "You need to do it, Sophia. For your own peace of mind. You need to take care of yourself for once. Then you'll see that only good things will come your way." Maybe it's time to let it go. Let go of the people hurting me, and let them become lessons for me. Let the moments with them become memories. Only then will I be truly free.

"Can dad arrange for a ride to the BlueMoon pack? There are some things I need to take care of." A knowing smile crosses her face, obviously figuring out my intentions. "In different circumstances, I would have declined. But, to allow yourself to recover you need to cut those loose threads. I'll go talk to him right now. I'll send a maid to help you get ready." Kissing my temple, she exits the room. I'm a bundle of nerves. I don't know if I'm going to do it. I'm afraid I'll chicken out and not go through with it. I say so many things, but when the time comes, I freeze.

"Are you sure you want to do it? You're still recovering." I thought that mums worry more about their children. No one told me about dads. "It's okay, dad. I need to do it. If I feel like it's too much for me I'll leave immediately." Both he and mum kiss my forehead. They both stay, watching the car speed down the road until we disappear from their view. Who would have thought that I, a girl who once was abused, is returning to the scene of the crime, the place where it all started? I have many bad memories of that place, but I do have good ones. The bad ones are more vivid, but that doesn't mean I forgot about the good ones. The whole pack probably knows about my family, and I know what I will have to face once I'm there. They'll either be extra nice to me, fearful of my parents, or they'll be envious of me and continue saying cruel things to me. I'm not ready for either of that.


What did Ava see? Can you guess?

I hope you liked this chapter. It's a bit more emotional for me than usual. All the things that I wrote are things that I need to do as well. In my everyday life, I'm surrounded by toxic people who are weighing me down, so I can relate to that.

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed it, and I'll see you again in the next update. Love you!


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