I Kissed A Boy: Chapter Fifteen

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Chapter Fifteen (Blake's POV)

Like, I said. I had no idea what to do. And the past couple days were hell trying to figure it out. Danny didn't leave my room too often and when he did, it was just to eat or sit in front of our flat screen watching Spongebob, but I had a feeling he wasn't really watching it. He was thinking. Too much.

I wanted to do something, but it was one of those situations where you felt like your hands were tied. I couldn't really go over there and make his dad understand. He'd probably been raised up on the whole 'homosexuality is evil' thing and that was one hard thing to combat. It was why I never tried to explain it to people, they just threw it back in my face.

I sighed and buried my face into my hands before tilting my head up toward the ceiling. It was all just a huge headache, and heart ache. I hated sitting here, watching Danny miserable. Whenever he had a breakdown, all I could do was sit there and listen to him, wait for him to give some kind of sign that he wanted a hug. It was all I could do and it killed me.

"Mr. Patterson, I'd advise you to keep your eyes on your own paper, please." The teacher commanded, standing at the front of the classroom and giving me a nasty glare. Of course she did. Everyone at school was looking at me like I was some kind of creepy pedophile after that picture got around and after some hardcore digging and threatening, I had finally found out who had ruined Danny's life.

And they were not getting away with it. As soon as I had figured it out, it all made sense to me while Friday went more smoothly than it should have. I remembered the pure, raw rage that had fired me up to actually go out to the garage and beat the living crap out of my brother's punching bag.

I scribbled down bullshit for the rest of the answers on the test I was taking and handed it in before making an excuse to use the bathroom. I walked out into the hallways, glancing at the clock nearby.

All right. They should be having a student council meeting right about now and it was the perfect time to make an entrance of my own.

I headed down the hallway, fully intent on avenging Danny. They had guts to think they could get away with hurting him like that. It was driving me insane to think that Danny couldn't even come to school, especially after someone made a death threat.

I stood outside the faculty meeting room before knocking and I heard clattering and voices hissing at each other. It was just another stupid meeting about our senior song, colors, and other bullshit that really didn't matter at all. The door opened and Joss was frozen stiff in the doorway two seconds before he went to throw it shut in my face, but I forced it back open and practically flung him to the floor before I stepped in and shut the door quietly behind me, locking it.

Emily cried out at the sight of me and leapt to her feet. Mike also shot to his feet to push her back, as if he were protecting her when I full well that he wouldn't bother. Katie and Stone lunged back away from the table, rising to their feet along with Terry and Devin, who looked more confused as to why I was here.

"You seriously thought you guys could outsmart me?" I demanded. Emily's face screwed up in one of hate and irritation.

"What the hell are you talking about, Patterson?" She sneered.

"Don't play dumb with me, princess. I know full well that you and Katie took that picture and posted on Facebook. I'm shocked, you even added Drew to your friends list just so you could show her that picture. You even added Danny's parents. That's pretty shallow, even for you." I muttered icily. Emily's face burned red with rage as she clenched her fists.

"You have balls to accuse me of anything like that! Danny was my friend before you corrupted him, you selfish bastard!" She snapped.

"Corrupted him? I didn't do anything," I snorted, "Danny was ditzy and gullible when we first met and I had always pitied him for that, but I won't lie and say I didn't like him, because I did. So what? Who gives a flying shit if I love Danny Carter, huh? How is that any of your business? You don't see me hunting you down with a rifle because you love Mike, who, by the way cheated on you the other night with Katie at one of Joss' parties, but you were too stupid to even notice."

"He's lying!" Katie shrieked, her face red with embarrassment. Mike held his breath and stepped away from Emily immediately as if afraid of being bitched slapped. Which he then received two seconds later.

"The hell!" Mike protested, clasping his throbbing cheek. Emily glowered at him for a moment, then whirled on me.

"Because first of all, you're a freak! Gay people are just a bunch of creepy rapists and you just proved it by taking Danny home Friday night, you pedophile!"

"Well, jeez. I must have missed the memo because I damn sure didn't do anything like that. And since you're obviously too stupid to actually do any research, Danny's legally allowed to participate in that kind of stuff and I never forced myself on anyone. Unlike you, I actually care about Danny."

"Whoa, whoa," Devin cut in, his face pale with confusion, "Wait... You're telling me... That they're the ones who did that? They posted the picture?"

"He's lying!" Katie cried.

"Oh, shut the hell up, you mindless bitch." I snapped. Katie's eyes welled with tears, but her expression was one of pure anger. Stone glared at me, shoving Katie back against a wall so he could get between her and me.

"Watch your mouth, Patterson."

"You watch yours, Larry, because believe me. After last time, you damn well don't wanna mess with me, especially now." I threatened, sizing him up. He took a small step back, but he didn't seem to entirely lose his bravado.

"You care about Danny," Emily mocked, making me snap my head to glare daggers at her, "That's bullshit. We're the ones that cared about him. He was always there for us when we needed him. He always did what we said and he didn't even ask us about it. He let us copy off his homework and he made sure we got home safe if someone was drunk-"

"That's shit he did for you because he didn't even know how to stand up for himself and no one, not even his brother stood up for him." I locked eyes with Devin. I was partially pleased and surprised to see Devin's face go ashen with guilt.

"I didn't... It didn't seem bad at the time, but..."

"Of course not," I snapped, "You guys bossed him around and thought that was what a real friend was. Hell, you even spread rumors about him and he didn't know it and came to you guys for help about it; the very people who were tearing him apart. You're disgusting, all of you. How dare you play with him like that. All those times you fucked with him and he didn't do anything to defend himself and now that he's finally gone after something he wanted, you fucked him over so badly his own parents won't let him on the property where he lived. He can't even come to school because someone threatened to kill him."

Everyone was silent now. Even Emily was quiet, her fists unclenching. Mike dropped his hand from his cheek, averting his eyes while Terry, Katie, and Stone just stared at me. Joss held his breath and Devin looked shattered before a light glinted in his eye and he whirled on Joss.

"You didn't tell me about this," Devin seethed at him hatefully, "You told me you were just going to break them up. That's what I wanted. I didn't want my brother kicked out, or hated, or threatened! I just said I wished they'd break up!"

"They were supposed to break up," Katie cried, making everyone whirl on her with horrified gapes, "Devin said he wanted Blake and Danny to break up, so he asked us if we could break them up and Emily said she wanted to get Blake back for stealing Danny and Danny back for being a dickhead to her, so that's why we took the picture during Homecoming. It's not like his parents were supposed to hate him."

"Shut your damn mouth, Katie!" Emily practically shrieked in terror, rushing to grab her throat, but Mike held her back, wincing as she clawed at his arm. I glared at them.

"Oh, that's rich. You're so pathetic it makes me sick. You call me a freak, an animal, a disgusting excuse for a human being, when you're so damn hypocritical that it's etched into your freaking foreheads! Danny didn't do anything to deserve what he got! So what if he told you to shut the hell up, Emily? Your mouth is bigger than the San Andreas Fault and you were pulling all of Danny's strings like he was some kind of doll and as soon as one of his strings broke and he was on his own, you got pissed and broke the rest of them. He actually trusted you guys, he actually thought you had begun to accept him on Friday."

"You have no idea how happy that made him. He thought he'd gotten his friends back, his brother back," I looked at Devin, who flinched, "He thought everything was okay again. He thought he could actually be happy, but you guys turn around and stab him in the back? Seriously? That's way more disgusting than anything he could ever do. All he did was come to your beck and call and when he finally tasted something new, you were on him like a pack of pirhanas."

"In all honesty, I expected this out of you ingrates, but you, Devin? Your own brother?" I demanded coldly. Devin was tense and shame-faced, his fists clenched as he folded his arms over his chest. He opened his mouth, seemed to think better of it, and looked away. I looked at the others.

"As for you guys, don't think you're gonna get away with this. This is the last time that you ever hurt Danny and I'll see to it. Believe me, I've got the Bible of Bitches right here." I pulled Emily's diary out of my jacket, waving it out for them to see. Emily's face went sheet white.

"Oh my god." She managed.

"Isn't that your diary?" Katie asked.

"No, it's a library book, idiot," Mike snapped sarcastically, rolling his eyes and looking at me now, "Give it back to her, Patterson."

"Please, what's with the formality? You're barbarians trying to act like adults and the attempt is just a complete and utter failure. Now, here's the best part," I drawled, flipping through the diary, letting the pages flutter, "I have an appointment today with the newspaper printing guy. He's friends with my uncle and owes us a favor. So, I thought, hey, why not let everyone see the real Emily and what she thinks about everyone in Jensen, hm?"

"You-You asshole! Give it back!" Emily cried and started to go around the table, but I stepped back against the wall and opened to a page.

"Here's my favorite entry: 'Dear Diary. Today was a pisspot day because Katie kept following me everywhere! She's such an idiot and an even bigger ditz than Danny is! All she does his chatter and agree. It's like she has no brain of her own. It so didn't help when Mike came to pick me up today. He's such a selfish pig coming so late and having his car stink of cigarettes and booze. He's like a cheap lay, I swear. Sometimes I wonder why I even hang out with these people, but then I remember why. Because there's like totally nothing better to do.' Woww, that's some harsh stuff you got here, Em." I snapped the diary shut and Emily froze in horror.

Katie's eyes welled up and she sniffled, rubbing at her eyes while Stone took a step back to touch her arm, his expression worried, which was a shocker. Mike's face turned pink with shame and he didn't bother going after Emily now, standing stiffly on the other side of the room.

"You bastard! You sick bastard!"

"You think that's bad," I sneered, hatefully, clenching the diary in my fist, "At least you'll still have mommy and daddy to baby you after everyone hates you. Danny won't. Danny only has my family and myself. He won't have any friends to back him up or any family to comfort him. But my family and I will make up for it all because I'm going to hit you like a fucking ten thousand ton tank, you heartless bitch."

Everyone was quiet again. Joss, Terry, Devin, and Mike just staring at me in stunned horror while Katie sniffled and Stone tried to comfort her.

"I'm so sorry." Joss said suddenly. I frowned and looked at him, watching him shake a little as he looked down at his hands before clenching them into fists and screwing his eyes shut tightly.

"I didn't think that was going to happen... I just thought... I mean I figured what Devin did... We were just going to break you up because we wanted Danny back.... I didn't want his parents to hate him..." He managed.

"You should've thought of that before," I muttered, "And it's not like I hurt Danny. Why do you think I'm here? You hurt Danny and I'm just carrying out what a real boyfriend's supposed to do. I'm going to make you pay for what you did to Danny, only ten times worse. You guys probably don't know anything about real pain. You think losing your friend, failing a test, losing a reputation that won't last past high school, getting a paper cut is all so terrible, but have you ever had your parents hate you? Do you have any idea what that feels like?"

"What it feels like to have your friends turn on you and crush you until there's nothing left? Do you really have any idea what it feels like to be truly alone? It hurts a hell of a lot worse than any little failure. Danny can't go home because his father threatened to call the cops on him, his own son. His mother can't even talk to him because her husband is an intolerant bastard. Danny's own brother just stood there and watched him get bombarded. He can't even get his own personal belongings from his own house. You will never, ever know what it feels like to have the people who gave birth to you, reject you like that." I paused for breath, feeling stiff at what I basically just revealed.

Jesus Christ. My adrenaline was going haywire, flooding faster and making my heart pound in my ears as I let my own words sink in.

Of course no one would know how much it hurts to have your parents throw you out of the house for something you didn't even have control over. You never asked to be born, you just were. They blamed you and you had to accept the fact that it was your fault they hated you. And no matter how much you tried to make things better, they kept throwing it all back in your face.

It hurt. So freaking much. What you wouldn't give just to have your parents look at you and actually say "I love you" and mean it. My heart ached as I slumped against the wall behind me, dropping the diary on the floor. Emily jumped at the sound of it as it was the only sound that echoed in the room now.

"I want to punch you so badly," I seethed, locking eyes with Emily, making her eyes widen in horror, "I want to make you suffer like you made Danny suffer. I want to make everyone in the world hate you and want to burn you at the stake like they want to do to Danny. I want to hurt you until you cry as much as Danny's cried.... But as much as I want to, I know Danny doesn't want you guys hurt. He wouldn't wish that kind of unbelievable pain on anyone because Danny actually has a heart. And right now, it's aching. All I can do for him and let him know that he's not alone..."

"Take your stupid diary," I kicked it at her feet, making her wince, "Take it and keep writing all that dirty shit you write. All I can hope is that karma slaps you all so hard, you don't ever recover. And if you ever, ever come after Danny, you can damn well bet that I won't have any control over what happens next time. You better damn well hope there's no next time either." I forced myself to walk out the door, slamming it shut behind me.

I suddenly felt exhausted. I just wanted to go home and sleep for the rest of my life. But there just wasn't any time. When I got home, Danny will be there and he'll need me. And I care more about him than any sleep that I've missed.

I turned and started to head down the hallway, shoving my hands into my pockets and sighing. I stopped when I heard the door behind me open and slam shut. I frowned and stopped, turning around to see Devin, running toward me before stopping at least a few feet. Like he was afraid I'd hurt him, which I wanted to so badly.

But looking at his face, I couldn't.

"Blake, please let me come over and see Danny," Devin pleaded quietly, "I need to apologize... I just didn't want you to hurt him and I was stupid to let everyone convince me that you would." I frowned, studying him up and down for a moment.

"You're not going to beat up on him, are you? Because if you say one thing to hurt him-"

"Blake, he's my brother. My twin. My other half. The entire time he's been gone, I feel like... I feel like I can feel everything he is. Maybe not exactly, but almost. Please, Blake. He's my brother." Devin begged, his eyes glittering with the hint of tears. I hesitated, holding my breath as I mulled it over before I nodded slowly.

"Fine... But I-" I didn't finish because my cell phone vibrated. I frowned and picked it up, seeing my uncle's name on the screen before flipping it open.

"Hello?" I asked, looking at Devin, who was staring at me expectantly.

"Blake? Thank god you answered. I phoned earlier, but you didn't pick up. You should come home right now."

"Right now? I thought you were the one who told me to go to school, even after everything that's..."

"Blake, it's Danny. He's talking stupid if you catch my drift. If I were you, I'd come over here and give him a little something to distract him. He's mom called earlier and she said she wanted to talk to him, but it was after that phone call that he started acting weird. I think his father might've said something too, but it's just a guess."

"Shit... All right, we'll be right there."

"We?" Vic asked, sounding irritated. I sighed, shaking my head and gesturing for Devin to follow me and he was at my side immediately as we headed down the hallway, avoiding the windows to classrooms and the office.

"Danny's brother is with me. We're heading over right now. See ya in a few." I hung up before he could argue about anything.

"What's wrong?" Devin asked worriedly as we crept past the office, bolting down the hallway toward the exit.

"Nothing. Danny's just sort of... well, saying really upset would be an understatement." I muttered and watched Devin flinch as we headed out to my car. He paused only a few feet from it, gaping.

"You drive this thing?!"

"No, I dump it in the lake and float on it. No shit." I retorted.

"B-But, it's..."

"Wow, you Carters must be car fanatics."

"Hell yes, this baby is beautiful," Devin hopped in, stroking the leather seats and sniffing the dashboard, making me roll my eyes, "It's still got that new car smell. Holy shit, I am jealous."

"Well, hang on. I'm gonna break a few speeding laws to get home."

"Sweet." Devin buckled up and was practically bouncing up and down in his seat as I shifted gears and shot out of the parking lot, curving out on two wheels before we sped toward my house. The entire way there, Devin was staring out the window in awe before looking around the car, then back out the window again, finally turning his gaze on me nervously.

"Is he... Well, I don't want to ask if he's all right, but..."

"He hasn't done anything to himself if that's what you're asking. Danny's stronger than that."

"Good," Devin sighed with relief, tilting his head back and closing his eyes before grimacing, "All that stuff that happened... Our mom is heartbroken over it and she keeps asking our dad to let him come

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