My eyes fluttered open to see the familiar white ceiling and the smell of lavender. Shit. I knew exactly where I was at.

Getting up slowly I stood up to my feet and stretched. Almost instantly my head began to form a throb. Yeah I'm never drinking again. All of that liquor went down to my bladder so I made my way carefully to the bathroom. I heard the shower going so I knew she was in the shower. She tends to do this sometimes, get up and shower before everyone else wakes up and then lay back down.

Opening the door I closed it back shut quietly so she wouldn't hear me. Then I lifted the toilet lid and aimed at the porcelain bowl and peed. I kept looking at Jaydas silhouette. Her perky breasts were outlined by the glass. Boy how I wish my mouth was around—

I didn't bother to flush, I just pulled down the lid before she had another fit again and fall into the toilet.

I removed my clothes and walked towards the shower. I swiftly opened the shower door startling Jayda causing her to cover her breasts and look at me like I had three heads. She had only a zebra printed shower cap on her head.

"The fuck? Cato?" I stopped her from saying anything else by shutting her up with a kiss. Almost instantly I could smell the sweet coconut and strawberry body wash of hers that I liked to use sometimes when I slept over. The kiss was steamy and urgent. Like we've missed each other—I know I did.

I stepped into the shower with Jayda and lifted her up on my shoulder where her thighs sat oh so comfortably before feasting on her. I sucked ferociously like a vampire in a needy desire for blood. I hummed in satisfaction of her sweet nectar dripping downwards on my tongue and down my throat. She tastes exactly how I left her.

I enjoyed casting my tongue in and out of her then flicking my tongue up and down and around her inner labia. I applied more pressure with my tongue while slurping her up.

"Oh Cato baby. You're so good." She formed an 'O' with her lips as I french kissed her bottom set of lips. My eyes closed as my body melted at her clit throbbing in my mouth and against my tongue. So warm and slippery. I can do this all day if I wanted.

"Mhm. " I gave her one last suck before planting a kiss on her swollen pink clit. Jayda succeeded in gaining back control in her legs before stepping back down onto the porcelain of the tub and forcefully being turned around and I entered from behind causing both of us to release loud groans. I grunted with each stroke trying not to come so fast, but I haven't had any of her in a while so it was a hard task, but I managed to pull through. I was giving long deep strokes so that she could feel everything I was feeling. I missed this girl so much it makes no sense. It's like I've been missing my high.

"Oh yes! Yes!" her back arched and unarched.

"Yeah. Bounce on that dick." Jayda fucked back on me showing me how much she missed these moments. My jaw fell agape at the movements she was making and my stomach began to tighten along with my balls.

"Mhmm. I'm finna cum." Her beautiful moans filled the bathroom and her hands clawed at the walls. Giving her smack to the ass I pulled her head up by the front of her neck before slowing down my strokes making them deep and slow. I could almost see fear and pleasure in her eyes.

"Uhn uhn. Hold that shit. You hear me?"

"I -I need to—"

"Shut the fuck up." I turned her around while she was still clenched around my dick and hiked her up on the wall before pounding up into her guts to do some rearranging and decorating. Shit.

"Aweeeee fuck meee Catoraaa. Oh shit!"

"Take that dick like a G. You the G."

"Yes I am baby I swear. I need to come."

"Gone head and cum for me then. You can do it."

"Catoraaa." She moaned my name out loud. Giving my last couple sloppy pumps I came right after her. Fuckk.

As if she were ashamed of herself she dared not to look at me and finished washing up. Taking the loofa from her and exfoliating her backside before handing it back to her. She gave me a quiet thank you before rinsing and taking her cloth and washing her face.

"Um you may wanna hurry up so you can get your stuff and leave. Y-Yeah." Jayda was stammering over her words nervously. Cato watched her walk out of the bathroom in a towel and bonnet hoping she wasn't regretting what had just went down between them.

After I showered I wrapped the soft white towel around my waist before entering her room. She was already in her undergarments and putting lotion on her body.

"I'm getting dressed Catora."

"Ain't nothing I've never seen before." I joked smiling. She wasn't trying to laugh though. Biting my lip I searched the closet for some clothes that I may have left over.

"Where my shit at?" My nose flared at the many thoughts running through my head ready to whoop her ass. I hope she ain't throw my shit out like I cheated on her or something.

Oh wait. Damn. I did cheat on her. Shit.

"Calm down it's in a box under the extra blankets." I squinted at her like she was crazy. Eventually I found some jeans and a Vlone T-shirt. We locked eyes before she made the decision to look away. I could read her so well at this point. She was done with me.

"So this is it?" I stood in front of her with the box in my hands referring not only to the box, but to us.

"I guess so." she shrugged refusing to look me in the eye.

"I'll always wait for you, you know that right? I'll drop any bitch for you Jayda. You're the love of my life." I told her. She didn't respond. Leaning down I planted a kiss on her temple before turning to leave. But before I turned I could've sworn I saw a tear run down her cheek.

It's been hours since Cato left.

We're really done. This is my second break up and this one just seems harder than the first. My first was with my baby's dad.

I was currently coming back home from handling some business when a little blonde haired girl was walking down my hallway knocking on peoples doors.

I don't recall any white people living here. Maybe someone moved in.

"Are you lost?" I asked the little fair skinned girl in stockings and a floral blue shirt and sandals. Her hair was pinned up into two buns and she clenched on to a blue and purple striped stuffed dinosaur. "Erm, do you live here?" She looked around me cautiously, stretching her neck and scratching. That's when I saw the bruises among her wrists and neck.

"Je veux ma maman?" Big doe eyes stared back at me. I didn't understand a word she was saying so I took out my phone and went to google translate before asking her the question again.

I want my mommy?

I took the girl to the police station making a report because it seems that this child doesn't know where she is.

"Oh man. This is crazy. She's Dolli. The little girl missing from France. Suspected child trafficking. Snatched right out of her own fathers studio." the officer shook his head before picking up the phone and dialing a number.

"Are you serious? Oh wow." My heart fluttered and not in a good way. Who knows what happened to her. How can anyone even—. I can't even fathom the thought of anyone doing that to my kid. I'll kill somebody.

"Yup. She's been missing for about six months now. I'm about to contact her parents now. This is big news."

"Oh wow. Well I guess I can sit here with her until her parents show up." I volunteered. This little girl is probably scared out of her mind, and I'd want someone to do the same for my little girl. Besides since we've been here it seemed as if she was scared to be around a males presence.

I bought her some snacks from the vending machines which she ate gratefully. Over the course of time I learned what thank you meant in French. Merci.

Six hours had passed and I was getting sleepy. I've been on my feet all day and this chair wasn't making it any better.

"Oh mon Dieu mon bébé!"

A loud shout coming from a woman's voice caused the both of us to look up from our daze. The little girl hopped up and ran into the woman's arms. She was tall and slender and blonde with highlights. Her eyes were puffy and red as if she's been crying which I'm sure she was. Must be her mom. A man was beside her smiling with his arms held wide open for a hug. She looked up at me and said something in French. The man next to her quickly spoke after.

"She asked are you the woman who found her?" the accent dropped from his lips.

"Yes I am." I nodded, giving her a tight lipped smile.

"Thank you so much. Thank you. I owe you my life." He continued to translate as she embraced me into a tight hug.

"Oh no there's no need for all of that. It was the humane thing to do. I have a daughter of my own too so I could only imagine what you've been going through." The translator spoke under my words. The mother nodded.

"She says stay here for two minutes."

Shortly she returned with an envelope.

"This is $250,000 in cash. This was the reward for whoever found our precious Dolli. It's yours to keep."

"I-I wait—" I couldn't even form the words to speak. Before I knew it the lady was blowing me kisses and made her way through a door of the police station. Meanwhile, I was stuck with a quarter million dollars in my hand.

"If you don't want it I'll take it. Otherwise you can leave ma'am." another officer spoke, clearing me of my shock.

I looked at the grouchy officer at the desk who was writing something down on a piece of paper. I looked at him skeptically before rushing out the door. Probably trying to get my address to rob me.

Rushing home my hands were shaking. My thoughts were all over the place because like what will I do with the money? Well for one I'm stashing away twenty of it in the bank that way it'll build in interest as the years pass. That way if something were to ever happen to me Justyce will be set. I'll be damned if I leave my baby to fend in these streets. This is what the white people do. They think ahead of time and set their children's finances up for them when they're young.

My mind then went to Cato. What we did this morning shouldn't have happened but it happened. It's making me miss him even more. He hasn't done anything to me to make me resent him or anything, I'm just scared of the baggage that comes with him. I have to start thinking rationally and this is a start. What he said earlier had me thinking though. He said he'd drop any other bitch in a heartbeat for me. Yeah right. I've seen better than me and I'm sure he can get them.

I pulled up BayBays apartment in the speed of flash before running up to the door and telling her to buzz me in over the phone.

"Where you at Bay?" I shouted entering the apartment. I was ecstatic, but I couldn't even go into depth about how I was really feeling. I had mixed emotions and I didn't know how to express them.

"I'm in the bathroom." I skipped my way into the almost cubicle sized bathroom with a smile on my face.

"What has gotten you so happy and jumpy?"

I stopped jumping. My heart dropped and my mind cleared. My eyes began to burn and my breathing came to a choppy halt. I busted out crying. Did I say I didn't know how to express myself? I lied. I express myself by crying. I was happy and hurt.

"Awe shh. It's okay you're with me now. You don't have to be strong right now." She spoke to me while rubbing my back.

"Cato and I broke up. Officially this time." I sniffled thinking of our many months together. Pure happiness. The most I've felt in a long time.

"I'm sorry. We all know why you did it though so I'm sure he completely understands."

"He does so I don't know why I'm crying." I shrugged. "God he was amazing to me." I closed my eyes, smelling his scent from earlier that lingered in my nostrils. I'm going to miss waking up to that man and his antics.

"Maybe he's guilty about something and figured he shouldn't go against your choice." she shrugged while flat ironing her hair. I furrowed my brows before looking at her again. Huh?

"What do you mean? You know something I don't?"

"Girl what?" She nervously laughed. I know when she's faking it too.

"Don't play me with that bullshit, what do you know about Cato? I know Will be talking to you so wassup?" I hopped up from the toilet seat.

"I was going to tell you."

"Tell me what Bay? You're my best friend we tell each other everything that way we don't kill ourselves trying to withhold things that hurt us inside."

"I'm sorry please don't be mad at me I just didn't know when to tell you this. I didn't want to see you hurt. You just looked so happy."

"Bayou bitch" I gritted her name through my teeth.

"He cheated on you in Miami. I'm sorry Jay." She sighed looking at the floor.

"Wow."

"Y-You're not mad?"

"Wow."

"Jayda, you're scaring me. Say something other than wow." I just wanna beat this hoe face in.

"Wow. Woww," I clapped my heads slowly. "I can't trust my nigga I can't trust my best friend I can't trust myself to choose a decent motherfucking to be in my circle." I laughed to myself wiping the empty tears.

"Hold the fuck up now I told you why I didn't tell you right away." she slammed the flatirons down on the sink, cutting her hand in the air.

"So you just didn't care that he was making me look like a dummy. I was so blind. Not anymore." I chuckled wiping my face over and over. I'm so pissed.

"Wait a minute I had my back against a wall here." she defended.

"What? Bitch bye with that bullshit excuse. Only thing you had your back against was Will's bed." She pokes at her cheek with her tongue shaking her head.

"He told me not to say anything. He's my boyfriend. What am I supposed to do to disobey his orders?"

"Bitch what are you slow? Are you a dog? How many times do I have to tell you Will is not a one woman nigga. He doesn't care about you bitch!"

"Tuh. And your nigga is. Shows how much he cares about you."

"I thought he was. I would've known sooner if my sister would've let me know the real." I got in her face letting her know that I'm not playing with her ass.

"Bitch fuck you. You can't have your cake and eat it too. That nigga got money and he tries to keep you from seeing the demonic shit he sees on a daily and you complaining. You should just be glad a rich nigga cheated on you and not a broke ass nigga like your baby daddy."

"You know what you sound like right now? Dumb. A gold digger. A hoe. I knew you did not have your priorities together, but damn. And where's the morals?" I laughed in her face.

"You know what, you can leave my house. You and the morals that I don't have."

"I will."

"You know what no wonder you stay getting cheated on. You're too damn stuck up like you ain't grow up in the gutter."

Growing up in the gutter ain't got shit to do with this situation.

"Bitch I'm stuck up for wanting better for myself? If that's so wrong then I don't wanna be right." I paused because the way she was looking at me was like she was yearning to say this. And I saw something in her eyes. Envy. "That's why your ass got STDs. Worrying about my pussy worry about yours that's probably decaying by now Mrs. Crabs." I cursed that bitch out before turning on my heel and leaving this dingy ass apartment. And to think I was about to break bread with her. God, I see what you're doing. Thank you for showing me the light.

After picking Justyce up from Saca's I went home to pack up all the shit we needed. A picture fell from the closet I was cleaning out of me and Cato on our first date. He had his arm wrapped around me with my back against his chest and his lips against my cheek while I had an annoyed expression on my face. I threw the last of my things into a bag before telling the landlord sayonara. My baby and my baby are about to live lavishly in a condominium somewhere. I think I know what I am about to invest this money into. I just know I can't do it in this hostile ass environment.

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Do what you gotta do Jayda.

EDITS: 10/1/20

EDITED: 1/13/22

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