Jacob's p.o.v

"Good, I've heard some things I'd like you to deny" my father rumbles and walks away with his heavy footsteps echoing through the house.

"O-okay" I respond without questioning the matter. I don't want to make him more frustrated than he already is so I silently follow him into his office.

"Sit" he points towards an empty seat in front of his desk and I cluelessly ogle my nanny and my mother who are already standing in the room with their heads down making me wonder what exactly is going on. The remorseful impression on miss Alyssa's face answers my question right away and I gulp in despair before taking a seat.

Something is definitely wrong...

My father on the other hand doesn't sit, he leans against his desk right in front of me and crosses his arms over his chest. I slowly crumble away by the pressure of six pairs of eyes penetrating every part of my body and I close my eyes with my head down.

My parent's attention is something I've always longed for, but never this type and it's extremely spine-chilling how they're just staring at me without uttering a word. I open my eyes to see if they're still looking and quickly close them when I realize that their gazes are sharper than before.

"Your school called" I suddenly hear and the words make all the hairs on my body straighten. My father finally spoke.

"I'm sorry. I-I skipped s-school last week, but I swear that I'll try to get all the work I've missed. There's t-this girl in m-my class that's very nice and I'll do my best to get some help from her to catch up and close the gap. It's not as if the gap will do any harm, but fath- sir, I'll do everything to get all the work" word after word come spilling out of my mouth like a broken faucet. I even dig my nail into my palm to suppress tears and force myself to look my father in the eyes.

"Yes he will and I'll make sure of it, sir. I'll personally drop him off at school every morning to avoid skipping again" Miss Alyssa chimes in with her hands pressed together on the verge of going on her knees and my father lifts his hand up to silence her.

"You have no idea of what I'm talking about, do you" he laughs evilly staring daggers at my nanny, "always there to take the blame and lie to get this useless kid out of trouble. Is he yours?"

"N-no sir" miss Alyssa replies and flinches when he rapidly makes his way in front of her.

"Then shut up and mind your business. I hired you to cook and clean, not to be my son's mother" he spits and seizes a strong hold of her chin to forcefully pull her head up, "don't try to safe this worthless son of a bitch that I'm ashamed to call my son.....when you couldn't even safe your own" he says the last part through gritted teeth and lets her go by pushing her back.

The sight of that makes me quickly get up on my feet and my father turns towards me. I hopelessly watch miss Alyssa slide against the wall with her hand on her stomach and a helpless expression on her face. My father has hurt her mentally.

"What do you think you're doing?" he vigorously pulls me back by my scrawny hand when I try to reach for my nanny, "I'm not done with you, sit down. You've disappointed your mother and I enough. It stops today" he declares and pushes me unto the chair.

My mother just stands there looking at everything that's going on in the room without uttering one word, my own mother.

"...mommy?" I mutter like I always did when I was a kid. Her presence always made me excited and jumpy, but somehow, I loved my nanny more and I questioned my feelings. Now I know why I loved miss Alyssa more, because she sacrifices everything just to safe me at the end of the day.

"Look at me when I'm talking to you" my father exclaims and violently pulls me by the neck to face him.

"Your school called and told your mother something horrendous about pictures of you going around, something I'm unable to repeat and I want you to deny it all for once. I want you to tell me that it is all a lie. I, director and noble Chan Park, cannot have a disgrace as my son" he proclaims powerfully hitting his chest as I dumbfoundedly stare at him.

Then realization dawns on me that they have finally found out. The cat's out of the bag now, everything is revealed and my life has finally come to an end. These are my last moments.

"I-I d-d-di-"

"SPEAK UP!!" he shouts in Korean and everyone in the room flinches, even my mother. My father is enraged and I've caused it, again. Teardrops roll from my eyes at the sudden sound of everything that was on his desk crashing right in front of me.

"This is all your mother's doing, she let you grow that hair, you two are alike and that's why I cannot stand either of you" he states as he paces around in the room, "I will end your life before you end mine, come here" he pulls me by my hand weakly let him do whatever he wants.

"Wait, wait" miss Alyssa pleads behind us and my father surprisingly stops, "wait..."

"It's not true, none of it is" miss Alyssa starts and I regret not telling her about the pictures and everything that's been going on recently. "The children in that school never liked Jacob. He's been pestered every single day just because he cannot defend himself, Chan. I pleaded for you to put him in a private school, but you denied my request and now look what's happening. He's being blackmailed for something he didn't even do."

"I'm always here, I see what he goes through every day. Look at this" she goes on and take quick steps towards me, "is this normal to you?" she questions harshly and pulls the sleeve of my sweater up revealing all of my scars. "He is your son, have some sympathy and treat him as such. Don't be so heartle-" and before she could finish, my father shuts her up by striking her in the face.

"Don't cross the lines and don't forget that you leech of me. I can easily throw you out and leave you begging for help, I can ruin your life if I want to. How come you forget so easily, I'm supposed to be a God to you. I was the only one that didn't mind flying you out of Korea and giving you shelter when you were dying. "

"I rather you throw me out than be with you under a roof, you demon" miss Alyssa spits back and they start to bicker like an old married couple. I press my hands on both of my ears to mute out their shouting and take a deep breath.

I'm tired...

This life has made me so exhausted and I can't stand it anymore. Something has to be done and I'm the only one who can. I'm the only one who can get my nanny out of this situation and in order to do so, I'll have to face my father by myself. I don't want to be weak anymore and I've cried enough for tears to keep rolling down my face like this so I step in between them.

"Move, Jacob" my father warns me and I shake my head.

"N-no."

I won't this time....I'll stand up against him because I'm tired of miss Alyssa fighting my battles and getting blamed and slapped for things I do.

"MOVE, you piec-"

"It's true, it's all true" I start and ball up my hands into fists for courage and energy to finish this. This has to be done so I continue, "Everything the school told you is true. The picture was taken against my own will, but I wasn't forced to kiss another boy. Your son is a disappointment and you should be proud of yourself because you knew it and you always told me that. I know I'm weak, but yelling and hurting me won't change the way I am unless I grow up by myself and that's what I'll do."

"Jakey, it's okay, let me talk to him for you, okay?" Miss Alyssa whispers caressing my back and I step away from her. "Jakey, let me do th-."

"I'm gay, father, I'm gay and I fell for another race. I broke all the rules" I reveal with a beating heart and sweaty palm and miss Alyssa gasps.

My father doesn't flinch, but he does speak up, "Jacob, shut your mouth", but I don't. I won't do it this time.

"I went against everything you stand for. I'll never be racist because everyone is equal and we're all just the same. Someone told me once that she was open-minded and so am I. Miss Alyssa faced you for me every time, even when she was feeling down and now it's my turn to face you. You always despised the way I am, from the shape of my body to the pathetic look on my face, but I'm not going to change. So go ahead, lock me up in the cellar, but that will never change my mind. I'll fight it, I'll fight you as long as I can breathe."

"Jacob, apologize" I hear behind me after saying the last part and I quickly turn around to see where it came from and it's my mother. She's been silent this whole time and now that she decides to speak, she tells me to apologize?

"Now, Jacob" she demands and I stare at her with my bottom lips quavering in disbelief and apologize just like she wants me to.

I look her straight in the eyes and say, "I'm sorry for not being what you want."

When I was younger nothing made sense. I loved watching television and always ended up comparing my mother to those I would see on t.v. They always wanted the utmost best for their children, they were ready to support them no matter what and it confused me because my mother was far from that.

But now that I'm older and wiser, everything has become clear. It's not that my mother never wanted the best for me or support me, no, it's just that she never loved me enough to feel that way. She never loved me and it's clear as day now...

"I'll go to the cellar or lock myself up in my room if that's what you want" I tell my father with my head down.

"No, get out..."

"What?" miss Alyssa yells in horror alongside another faint 'what' from my mother.

"What?" I can't help but question my father who seems so defeated either. I guess he wasn't expecting me to say such things, but I couldn't hold back anymore.

"Get out of my house."

"B-but..."

"I don't want anything to do with you, leave before I throw you out myself. Leave this instant."

"W-wait, you can't do this, Chan. He's only 17 years old, please, don't do this. You're just angry at the moment, just think about it before making a decision" miss Alyssa pleads on her knees as I stand there at a loss for words. Did I go too far?

"He can survive with an attitude like that and you're not leaving this house, Alyssa" is all my father says and makes his way to the door. " If I see you in my house when I come out of my room, it won't be pretty" are his final words and I helplessly run to him, but I don't touch him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I apologize hiccupping with snot running down my nose and my father walks away unbothered, "miss Alyssa, please tell him that I'm sorry......mom, I-"

"I'll help you pack up your things, Jacob" my mother cuts me off and my heart shatters into small pieces that keep stinging my chest whenever I breathe.

"W-what?"

"You heard your father and you know how he can get sometimes. It's better if only one person leaves instead of all of us. I'll give you some money and the car key so you can find the nearest motel to sleep in."

"N-no" I instantly cut her off and she gives me an apologetic look.

"I thought that I would see you off to college when you turned 18 years old. I thought we'd be able to bond and sha-" she starts and tries to hold my shoulder, but I flinch.

"D-don't touch me, don't you ever touch me" I sniffle and walk away with miss Alyssa on my tail. I wipe my face with my sweater as I struggle to go up the stairs.

"I'll come with you" I hear my nanny say behind me, but I don't pay her any mind. We both know she can't, my father won't let her.

When I finally make it into my room, I throw my bag on the bed and start packing Art's shirt that I stole and the jersey that he gave me. I go into my closet and grab all the things I can carry in two arms sniffling as I do so and something catches my eyes.

It's a drawing I made when I was just a little boy, a drawing of my family, a drawing of mom and dad when I thought they were humans. I let my hand roam around the three happy stick figures holding hands and that makes me immediately break into the tears I was holding.

I let out a cry of the bottomless pain when I feel the loving arms of my nanny wrap around me. "They don't want me anymore...." I whimper and she pulls me closer to her warm and familiar arms. This is how she carried me around when I was little.

"They hate me, Miss Alyssa. What do I do?"

"Don't cry, everything's going to be fine. I'm here with you, aren't I" she turns me around and coos me. "No crying, let's be strong. This will end before you know it, baby."

"R-really?"

"Yes, yes, I raised you so I know. You're my little baby and there's no way I'll let anything happen to you. You're my little pup and I vowed not to let you get hurt since you were so small, so how could I let that happen now. Here, this is some of the money I've been saving. I want you to take that car, find a place to stay for the night and we'll go from there tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay, Jake?" she asks cupping my cheeks when I don't answer. "You're so special, you know that? You're getting stronger every day and I can't help but be proud when I look at you. Look how amazingly you faced your own father for me. We'll survive this together, no matter what, you hear me?"

"Y-yes."

"Remember how you and me used to fight the monsters under your bed? Your superpower was turning on the light and I was superstrong so I would go under your bed and you would turn on the light, remember that?" she pokes my cheek and a small giggle breaks from my lips.

"We were the superduo and we still are. If something's wrong, we face it together, that's how we are. You have a heart of gold and it shines through your chest, that's why people always try to hurt you. They want that, but I'm guarding you and they'll have to get through me first. So when I say we'll survive this, I really mean it, okay?

"I b-believe you..."

"Good" she states and kisses my forehead. "Come on, let's go" she pulls me and I grab my bag. I look around the room for the last time and sigh before making my way out.

"Jacob..." my mother starts again as we make our way out.

"He's been through enough" miss Alyssa stops her and grabs the keys from her hands. "Let him be" she warns pointing her finger at my mother and we leave through the front door.

"Okay, listen. You cannot go too far, you hear me? You have to call me in an instant when you find somewhere to stay or I'll come find you. Don't stay up late thinking about this and stressing about it, okay? You don't have to go to school if you don't feel like it tomorrow" she rambles and places multiple kisses on my forehead and my face.

"Don't open the door when someone knocks on the door at night, okay? Unless it's me and you have to brush your teeth before going to bed."

"Yes, miss Alyssa."

"Okay, if you have homework, do it and do-."

"Miss Alyssa?"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

"Aww, I love you too baby" she hugs me tightly and the waterworks start again.

"A-and I'll miss you" I cry on her shoulder as she pats my back, "s-so much."

"Don't say such things" I hear her say, "don't you d-dare" she whispers and her voice breaks painfully at the end. She's trying her best to hold back tears.

"Now go before your father finds out that the keys are missing" she whispers without making a move to let me go. Her grip only tightens around me as I weep clutching her body.

"It's hard to let go....." she softly lets me know after some time and I nod in agreement.

"But we'll have to eventually..." I reply and she hums. We hug each other for quite a bit longer before letting go and she wipes my face carefully.

"Okay, go before I change my mind" she jokes and I throw her a quick close-mouthed smile. I really wished that this day never came, but we don't always get what we want.

"I wish you were my mom" I say truthfully staring her in the eyes. Maybe this wouldn't be happening and my father would be way nicer because miss Alyssa has a good heart.

"Me too, baby" she confesses and waves at me. I nod at her for the last time and step inside the car.

Key into ignition, seatbelt on and I step on the gas. I pressure myself not to look at miss Alyssa breaking into tears through the rear-view mirror, but I just can't so I take a deep breath and make a turn.

Hopefully towards the better....

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I was avoiding to write this chapter like the plaque, but now it's here. It couldn't be avoided anymore... I hope you've enjoyed it and I'll see you on the next one❤

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Jacob?

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