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I entered my apartment. I had already lost my appetite. So, I kept the food in the refrigerator and plopped down on my bed.

I couldn't help myself from thinking about the things earlier.

Were they all lies?

Were they?

There were no answers to that and  I couldn't ask him.

I had no right to do so.

Yes, he told that he liked me.

And yes, I told that I liked him.

And yes, I realized that I had fallen in love with him.

But...

No

That didn't give me the right to ask him anything.

Not when his feelings might not be true. Not when everything he had told me could be lies.

We were like two ships in the night, unsure of our destiny and when we met, it would be rarity. And then, we would go back on our own paths as if nothing had happened.

My head hit the soft pillow and I closed my eyes.

"Life is not a fairytale."

I remembered how dad used to tell this to me and my sister time and again so that we won't have much expectations from life.

But I made a mistake. I expected. I hoped that we could be something more.

And now the same expectation was crushing me making it hard to breathe.

I believed him and his words.

But had he believed himself while confessing to me?

Had he?

It hurts when your trust is shattered into pieces.

It hurts when your vision is clouded with tears.

It hurts more than anything....

*****

Earlier

Jimin

"Do you remember the time where you buttered your dad's chair?", Crystal asked as she giggled.

"Don't remind me of that horrible memory.", I said clearly remembering that time.

I don't know which devil had possessed me that day but I had stolen butter from the kitchen and spread it all over my dad's chair. It looked like bread to me for some annoying reason and I buttered it up.

And my dad was mad as hell at me.

"Do I need to remind your obsession over camping in the forest?", I shot back.

"I remember. I had watched a movie and I was so obsessed with the people in those movie sleeping beneath the trees and I also wanted to do that. My mom was so annoyed at me when I came out packing a bag of clothes and told her that I was going to sleep in the jungle. She locked me in my room until my obsession wasn't over.", She said laughing.

"Good times.", I muttered.

"Childhood is the best period of life. No fears, insecurities, tension, just living life to the fullest.", She said.

We were talking more but I noticed Crystal rubbing her eyes now and then.

"What happened?", I asked her.

"I think something went inside my eye.", She said.

Her eyes had reddened. I stepped closer to her inspecting her eye and blew some air into it.

"Is it good now?", I said.

"Yes, I think. Thank you Jimin. ", She told.

"You are welcome."

I had thought that I would go to my mansion and have some rest after the day's work. But when I got out of my office, I saw Crystal waiting for me.

She said that she wanted to spend some time with me and talk about old times and I couldn't refuse her.

We took a walk together and had a great conversation. We remembered the old times, our games and laughed at the miserable things we did.

After strolling around for some more time, we returned to the company. Her driver came to pick her up and I left for my own mansion as well.

I reached the mansion feeling tired. When I opened the door, everything was dark. What happened?

I walked inside carefully and heard the sound of something crashing and a few whispers. Had a burglar broken into the house? Not with this strict security.

I slowly walked inside and all of a sudden, another thing crashed and finally the light came.

When I looked who had graced me with their wonderful presence, I saw  familiar faces scratching the back of their neck.

"Jesus Christ! You gave me a heart attack!", I shouted.

"All your fault.", I heard the voice and I looked at the corner. I found Jin there and Hobi was lying on the floor. Jin kicked Hobi and he winced in pain.

"Hyung!", He shouted.

"Why did you all crash here?", I asked demanding an explanation.

They looked nervous.

"Uhmm...my apartment building caught a fire.", Namjoon said smiling sheepishly.

"And my...my parents crashed in my apartment.", Taehyung said.

"Oh really? Didn't you tell that they had gone to Russia a few days ago?", I asked him, raising my eyebrow.

"They returned back soon...", He said.

"Bro.... My maniac ex-girlfriend has been stalking me all day....", Jin told.

"The game wasn't feeling so good playing in my house.", Jungkook told.

"I watched a horror movie and the apartment that was haunted was so similar to mine. So I thought that I would come here.....", Hobi said.

"What kind of weird explanation is this? And you Yoongi hyung?", I asked the man who was sprawled on the couch.

"What about me? Well, I was forced to tag along with these morons.", Yoongi said and the other five immediately shushed him.

"Spit it out. What's the matter?", I asked. Why were they acting so weird?

"We just missed you bro and wanted to surprise you.", They said. "It's been some time. We haven't hung out together for a long time."

"Well, you all gave me a big surprise. Let's enjoy then, shall we?",

"Yes! Yes...uhmm, Jimin?", Jin called me.

"Yeah? What is it hyung?", I asked him.

"Well, Hobi might have accidentally crashed your lamp.", Jin said pointing towards the shattered pieces of glass at the corner. I sighed. Trouble follows where they go after all.

"What hyung?! You also did it! You pushed me.", Hobi said.

"When did I--- sorry for that though Jimin .", Jin said smiling nervously.

"It's fine. I will go to get some drinks for us.", I said heading towards the kitchen.

Immediately, everyone's eyes widened and they quickly came towards my side.

"What the hell? Why are you all strangling me?"

"Bro, you can't go there...We will get the drinks.", Taehyung said.

"What? Why? It's my kitchen!"

"N-No! You can't go there!", They protested.

"Just let him go. He will see it anyways.", Yoongi said.

They finally let me loose and escaping from their grasp, I rushed towards the kitchen.

I was shocked when I saw the state of my kitchen. The kitchen was covered with flour, bottles of drinks were scattered on the floor and my once classy kitchen had turned into a whole mess.

"What the heck is this?! You all are so dead."

"We were trying to prepare a cake but because of these little shits fighting, everything got scattered.", Jin said apologetically.

"I wasn't a part of this alright. So, don't snap at me.", Yoongi said and he came towards me and picked up the drink on the floor and left.

"Clean up now!", I yelled at them and the others immediately started picking up the bottles.

"Bro, our intention was good alright.", Namjoon laughed.

"But the result wasn't.", I deadpanned.

After cleaning up, we got to the living room. I took out the bottles of champagne from the cabinet.

We all lied down on the sofas and started sipping the liquor.

I let out a sigh, tired from the day's activities.

"How are things going on?", Taehyung asked.

I paused for a while and muttered, "Good."

"So, things aren't that well then? What's the matter?", Joon asked. They knew me so well.

"How are things going on between Miss Kim and you? Is she still leaving the company and what about your plan of stopping her?", The questions were fired.

"I am not doing it anymore...", I said. "I left the plan ages ago."

"Ohh, Jimin is finally accepting the reality? How nice!", Yoongi said sarcastically.

"But I----"

"Why is there a but?", Hobi asked.

"I have developed feelings for her....", I  said and they all were expressionless for a minute.

"What?! You have feelings for her?!", Jin was the first one to shout. 

"Chill, yes, I like her in that way.", I said as I sipped some more champagne.

"You didn't develop feelings for her, Jimin. You realized your feelings for her. You developed those feelings ages ago and you realized it now.", Yoongi said.

I looked at Yoongi confused. Yoongi and his philosophical words.

"So, you two are dating now?", Jungkook asked.

"I don't know....It's complicated. We hardly discuss about these things.", I said.

"What's so complicated?", Jin asked. "She likes you right?"

I simply nodded. "Then? What's the matter?", Taehyung asked.

"Crystal is back and my dad wants me to marry her.", I said and heaved a sigh.

They again froze for a moment.

"I am going to be Jimin's best man. It's confirmed since I was born in the same year as him.", Taehyung said standing up.

Yoongi kicked him from his seat. "Now is not the time.", He said gritting his teeth.

I was lost in my own thoughts when Namjoon asked me a question after a while.

"You are gonna marry her then? Your dad means a lot to you...."

"I haven't decided yet. Yes, my dad means a lot to me. But what I have for Miss Kim is special...She's special. She is not those girls I have dated before. I cannot hurt her. It's going to hurt me as well.", I said  remembering her face. Those eyes, how can I ever forget them? If only things were easier....

"Why am I discussing these things with you guys? You all are going to tease me later.", I said letting out a laugh.

They looked at his miserable state. He  looked exhausted.

Namjoon took my hand and squeezed it tightly. "Bro, we are here for you. Just let it out.  If we are able to clear even your slightest confusion, that will be great, more great than Hobi paying for your broken lamp." He laughed.

"I am torn between my father and Miss Kim. I am thinking if my feelings for her are just short-lived and if they are going away with time. I am confused as hell. I need some assurance. I can't make baseless decisions."

I have never fallen in love as far as I remember. So, I am afraid if these feelings, I am feeling now,  are going to go away with time. Then, I will just hurt her and myself...I am scared because of this.

"Do you love her?", Hobi asked me.

I paused for a while. Do I? I don't even know what loving means.

"Love is a big word. I don't know hyung....", I said.

"You told that you can't make baseless decisions. You need some assurance. That's not your heart talking Jimin. That's your mind talking. Your deep rooted business mind. Love is not a  transaction.", Yoongi said.

"Sometimes, you need to take risk. Even if you may face failure,  the experience will be worth it.", He added.

"You are truly the philosopher of our group.", I said to him grinning.

"Well, I sleep a lot and sleep enables us to think more.", He said.

"Who told?", Hobi teased him.

"Min Yoongi, the genius.", Yoongi told proudly.

"We have always got your back. Let your heart decide what it wants."

"I don't know what my heart wants.....", I said.

"These things are new for you Jimin. So, it's likely of you to feel confused. But remember that, with time, everything will fall back to their place.", Jin told.

"I hope so.", I said gratefully.

But will it?

*****

----you broke my heart but I still love you with all the little pieces----

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