Samantha's P.O.V

"Can I hold you? Please." Liam begged as he sat cautiously on the bed.

"Please..." I sobbed as he wrapped his arms around me.

Why did he have to come? I was so happy forgetting him and moving on but he had to come ruin that for me too.

It is hard enough that I lost everything and going back home will be a reminder of what I lost and by whom. Now he had to also mess up my sweet serenity with Liam.

What hurts is that a fraction of my tarted heart still longs for his touch. Maybe, just maybe if he would tell me what it is I did wrong I would have peace and let it go.

The weird thing is I know it is nothing that I did. I gave my all to him and he didn't care. He treated me like I was one of his quests. At least that's what my mind and parts of my heart are telling me.

While the other parts are being oblivious to the fact that he hurt me without reasoning. Assumption being that he has never known what love is thus he has no idea as to how to show it.

But the truth is.....even if you have no idea how to show your love to someone. It is a definite fact that you will know that there things you can't do because you know it will hurt the person you supposedly care about.

But that isn't who Alex is. He knew what he was doing. He saw me get upset. He saw me run into the bathroom. He heard me cry but he did nothing. He felt me slap him across the cheek but it didn't affect him one bit.

He is a cold blooded monster who has no feeling whatsoever. Neither does he know how you have to treat people let alone the ones he claims to care about.

With Liam it is different. He actually knows what it means to love and care for someone. He shows it and says it and it doesn't tire him.

He has no problem with waking up and smiling at you while he plays with your hair. Neither does he have a problem with kissing you on the forehead before you sleep.

That's the guy I deserve and my heart knows it. At least parts of my heart. Oh I don't know anymore what I want. On one hand I have an impulsive arrogant asshole who cares in a weird hurtful way but he has never known what love is and I could show him.

Then I have another who is passionate, loving, caring and so so much more which is literally what I have been yearning for my whole life that now that it is here I don't believe it can be mine.

"I'm sorry princess. I promised I would never hurt and I did." He clings to me like his life depended on it.

I know Liam. I really do. He would never ever hurt me. And I can tell it is killing him seeing me like this. And the fact that he is the reason I almost died is hurting him more.

"It's okay Liam. I swear."

"It really isn't Samantha." He argued back as he walked to the other end of the room.

"Uh I'll just give you two a minute okay." Liz said as she excused herself and gave us some privacy.

"Do you know how torn I was that I almost lost you Samantha? I couldn't sleep. I spent my days and nights here holding your hand hoping that you would at least move your finger maybe in the slightest way so I could have a feeling that you would come back to me.

Do you know how hard that was? Having you here but not having you with me. It killed me. I died a little when the doctor said there was a thirty percent chance you would make it. My heart ached.

I couldn't take it so I prayed you would come back to me. But the truth is.....If I can't protect you how can I be with you at all then?"

"Liam no.....don't say that." My eyes began to water as I abruptly brushed the tears away with the back of my hand.

"No no no......don't cry. It hurts me." He quickly rushes to me and wipes my tears away.

"Then don't say that. I can't lose you. I can't bare the pain." I clung to his shirt as I cried harder.

"I can't live with the fact that you almost died because of me Samantha. I can't. You need someone to love and protect you not someone who can only do one of those." He said as he held my face.

"But that's you. Who else can do that other than you Liam? No one can. I need you." I tried pulling him closer but he slipped away and stood at the door with a tortured face and stained cheeks.

"And I need you safe Samantha and I can't give you that. Look at where you are now. I will always love you. For eternity.....bye princess."

"Liam! Liam please don't leave me. Liam!  please don't leave me....Please."

Liam....

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In all honesty guys I cried when I wrote this chapter. It killed me. The emotions I have felt and it brought up memories.

If you have ever felt like you have lost your stability and that one person who you needed....This one is for you.

"Sob"

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