Ian's Pov

Can a person hate his own freaking last name? 

Well thanks to Maya, now , I do hate or even loath mine.

"Mr. Mathews" that was all she used to acknowledge me since my company merged with Nickolas's, one week ago. 

I thought that by merging the companies and moving to a new office in Nickolas's company was going to be beneficial and that somehow I will be able to ask for Maya's forgiveness but the latter didn't cross my way. I didn't see her around , well at least not alone. She was always with Nick and even if I intruded and interfered in their friendly conversations, her only acknowledgements of me were my last name and some nodding.

She said that we are not friends. That statement may sound truthful to her and to others but it kind of caused me a great pain. I don't know why but I felt a kind of a pull for Maya. I never really knew her as a person but since that doomed wedding day, her name brought a smile to my face and her picture constantly popped in my dreams and thoughts. 

I tried to find reasons to why I started to angrily kiss her whenever I saw her with another guy, I tried to explain why I marked her neck with a hickey, I tried to do my best to question my obsessive need of her being  near me but I found no answer. 

All I know is that Maya is not my type. She not blond, skinny or has a barbie-like figure. She is just a curvy brunette with dark vibrant eyes. She was not sophisticated and classy but feisty and kind. Most of all Maya was not needy like all the girls I dated. No she was independent and in no need for me. 

She said it wide and clear she has no place for me in her life. But something in me needs her.

I might be  unneeded. But she is not.

For the very first time I am being the rejected instead of the reject(er) and   let me tell you that this position is hellish. 

I got frustrated again and tried to get Maya out of my head. I looked at the file between my hands but my brain kept on repeating the same questions " why am I chasing Maya?" "Do I want her as a friend or more? and is this more emotional or mere physical?" "How could I care about a girl this much when I am already in love with another?" " Why did I suddenly stopped thinking about Rose? My Rose. My perfect woman. The one I loved since I was a teen. The one that I promised to win her love again and start a family with her...

I am in love with Rose but Maya became a distraction instead of a means to get to Rose!

I need to stay away from Maya and focus on Rose, my Rose.

As I made my goals clear again a faint giggle reached my ears. It was faint yet I felt like it was mocking my plans. I knew who it belonged to. I knew it because it tormented me before and it still does. I diverted my eyes from the file between my hands and looked at the glass wall that separated my office from the rest of the company and there she was "Maya". She was standing with Nick and another guy waiting for the elevator. The latter looked familiar.  I think that he is the same guy from her restaurant date. In moments that guy's hand sneaked behind Maya and enveloped her in a tight side hug. I continued to watch waiting for a violent reaction from her but nothing...Instead, she in few seconds leaned her head on his shoulder and hugged his waist...

The scene continued to play in front of me for god knows how much time and then the elevator dinged announcing that it reached the floor. Will she leave with him? My breathes suddenly hitched and my heart crazily throbbed against my chest. I felt some pain starting in the pit of my stomach and then reaching my chest...What the hell is wrong with me? 

I wanted to look away...I wanted but my eyes were glued on that curvy stubborn girl...I watched how she looked at that guy...How his eyes traveled from her eyes to her lips then back to her lips. I saw her blushing and looking down. Then a proud happy smile appeared on the man's face and in slow motion he leaned down to her and captured her lips in a slow kiss. 

I looked away back to the file in my hands and somehow I found on two pieces. 

Dammit why did I feel a sudden void in my chest? Why do I feel nothing?

For the rest of the day, I tried to work. Tried is a keyword because I didn't do much.

I didn't do much and I didn't even go out of my office, not for lunch, not for even a glass of water...

"Group dinner tonight, hope that you will come." I read the text that Rose sent to me but surprisingly found no will in me to attend. 

but this might be a sign and a chance to get Rose, I argued with myself and sent her a text asking about the time and place.

In two hours, we all , and by all I mean Maya her date who is named Asher, Nick and Rose and Jack, were sitting in Rose's house. The latter was dressed amazingly and when she opened the door I couldn't help but admire her beauty. She was truly a real life barbie doll. I kept on flirting with her when her husband wasn't around and she seemed way too happy to mind my hidden messages. I was the first comer to her house and because of that I had more than half an hour of alone time with Rose. Her husband didn't mind me and just left us in the living room. What an idiot! 

I kept on talking with Rose endlessly but whenever she laughed I couldn't help but remember a certain giggle. What the hell is wrong with me?

Talking  to Rose and being with her alone seemed so familiar. It made me smile and be comfortable. Dear god how much I have missed her. I just wanted to hug her?...yet why not kiss her roughly and possessively the way I acted around Maya ?

"Maya." Rose yelled as we heard the doorbell and as she expected it was really Maya ,her date and Nick.

"Rose" the girls embraced happily but when my eyes found Maya's eyes her happy orbs turned emotionless.

"Hey guys..." I saluted as I stood and walked to them stretching my arm  

"hey man." Nick said as he shook my hand then it was May's turn

"Mr. Mathews." she responded and reluctantly offered me her smaller hand. My hand held hers and then I felt an overwhelming kind of warmth. I didn't want to let go of her hand but the man next to her cleared his throat as if asking me to back off. 

"This is my date Asher." Maya spoke and smiled lovingly at the man at her right and at that moment  felt sick 

"Nice to meet you" I lied through clutched teeth

"Nice to meet you too." he replied and since that moment side hugged Maya till it was dinner time.

"WE have an announcement." Rose said as she smiled at her husband and I  as usual hated their connection " MayMay, you have to open this small box and then you will know." Rose happily sang as she offered Maya a small box. The latter did as told and opened it to find a bracelet with something curved on it...

"Aunty..." she read in a small voice then a tear fell down her cheek then in a rush she stood and ran to hug Rose...

Pregnant! My Rose is pregnant! For the second time today I felt some kind of pain taking over my body.

After dinner, spacing out and some fake acting, I managed to leave early. I drove aimlessly. I felt like a loser and a loner. The girl who is supposed to be my friend just threw me out of her life and the girl who is the love of my life is pregnant with another man's baby...What a life. I drove in empty roads for god knows how much time then headed to a bar...alcohol might help me forget...

Maya's Pov: 

 Some noise was trying to pull me out of my dream land. I tried my best to ignore it but it kept on repeating itself...What the hell is it...As I woke up I discovered that it was my stupid doorbell but who could be here at such a late hour?... It is only four am !

I went to the door and heard some muffled voice calling my name and because of that I relaxed and opened the door. But to say that I was surprised right now would be an understatement. There he was leaning his weight on my door frame but he didn't look as powerful as usual. He looked lost and broken...

"May..." he said and then trough all his weight on me as he hugged me

"Mr. Mathews, what are you doing here?" I asked as I tried my best to keep on standing and not crushing to the ground with him

"She is pregnant..." he brokenly uttered and then hugged me more tightly. I froze.  don't know why but I just stood motionless. Is it because he hugged me? or because he came for me seeking comfort or because he is crying over Rose and yet again using me...?

"She is no more My Rose..."  he said then sniffed and I felt his tears fall on my shoulder and neck where he rested his head. 

"Mr. Mathews...let's go inside..." I offered and helped him all the way to my couch. Yet his next action took me again by surprise he sat next to me and then I felt his head being placed in my lap. He looked like a tired kid and I couldn't stop my fingers from touching his smooth hair.

"Mr.Mathews..." I uttered in a few trying to get his attention. I just wanted to know why did he come here? Yet suddenly he turned around now with his face facing my stomach, he snuggled as close as possible.

"I hate it when you call me that." he sounded like a kid and i found it ...cute? 

"Mr. Mathews...we agreed to no longer cross roads." i stubbornly informed him...I am just tired of feeling broken whenever he talks about his love for Rose. 

"Ian....Ian...I..A..N" he repeatedly said against my stomach and I couldn't help but smile at how this grown man is acting.

"Mr.Mathews, you need to leave." I calmly informed him again

"I feel comfortable whenever I am around you. You feel warm and good..." Ian mumbled as he if possible get closer to me 

"Mr. Mathews ?!" I questioned 

"Can we just stay like this? I somehow need you ,just you, to be here for me..." he continued to talk and my heart started racing

"You need someone to help you forget Rose and I cannot allow you to use me again..." I hushed to him and at that moment he sat and faced me 

"I need you...You have some powers over me...I don't know what are they but all I know is that I need you May...Please don't let me suffer alone...!"  he begged and sounded as broken and tired as ever. His eyes were filled with tears and unspoken emotions and I found myself wanting to kiss his pain away...but I cannot go back to that same situation ...

"May...please!" he begged again 

"Mr..." I was about to utter his last name but when I saw the sadness that overcame his orbs I felt bad "Ian" I uttered shakily for no obvious reason 

"I missed that" he said a hugged me tightly 

 "Ian...You are suffocating me..." I hardly spoke fighting for air 

"sorry, I just needed that."  he murmured as he slowly let go of me

"It is okay" I hushed at him and looked down feeling my cheeks burning and kept on silently praying for the dim light  miss and hide my blushing cheeks 

"Stay with me tonight..." Ian demanded in a low husky tone and that when thousands of butterflies erupted in my stomach

"Ian...I..." I wanted to find some words to refuse and move away but words seemed to fail me as he kept on staring at my eyes 

"Just like this..." he said and that's when his head was back to its former place and he snuggled to my stomach again 

"Ian, this is not right...Asher..." I tried to make him understand to feel him only become stiff and then snuggling closer to the point of me be afraid of even breathing 

"Let's forget about all just for tonight...I never felt this safe before...It is like you are my home...There is this strange pull to you and I am just going with it...Just for tonight May..." he begged and I surrendered the moment he called me home

I am his "home"? He feels "safe" with me? 

"okay" I agreed and he took my hand placed in his mouth and I froze as his smooth hot lips planted a kiss on my palm 

"Thank you May..." he mumbled and after that seemed to get lost in a deep sleep.

Dear god how am I going to act with such a guy? How am I going to push him away ? how am  going to refuse his friendly behavior when he can be this affectionate and cute ? why is my heart beating wildly for him and not for Asher ? What am I going to do  when I know that Ian is just using me to forget about Rose and her new coming baby ...

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