Alice

"This is to prove Brodie has a drug problem and so you can make amends with the only family you have," Nick says running his fingers through my hair.

"I know I'm just worried. Like why go through all this trouble just to expose Brodie." I say against his naked chest tracing my finger over his pecks as it rises and falls with each breath.

"I get your point," Nick mumbles and kisses my head.

We woke up an hour ago... well we fell asleep an hour ago. We were so busy last night we ended up crashing at 5 after many rounds all over the room then waking up now- It's 6 AM.

"Besides you were the one to give him the drugs." I sigh out as soon as I say it he stiffens next to me.

"Alice... that was long before I knew you. I'm different now that you're here please trust me that I don't do these things anymore." He says.

"But you said at the hospital that you gave the drugs to Brodie. He framed me." I say seriously.

"I gave him the drugs years ago and he still has been getting them without me. I guess I started it and I'm sorry." He whispers and I sit up quickly feeling the sheets pool down at my hips.

His warm blue eyes slowly move from my eyes to my chest.

I furrow my eyebrows and grab his chin lifting his face up to mine in hopes to get his eyes off my chest.

When he finally meets my eyes I speak. "You don't need to be sorry, I'm just glad you're here to help. And I don't think it's your fault. I was just mad and confused after Kathy asked me to stay with her and then having to talk about Brodie on top of all that was too much." I admit and lay down on top of him.

His strong arms wrap around my small body under the warmth of the blankets and I hold onto his biceps placing kisses to his collar bone.

"I think you should move in with Kathy." He states from under me.

"Why?" I ask sitting up but he pulls me back down to his chest.

"You'd be away from Brodie. And after all this, I don't think you'd want to move back in with them after they kicked you out and possibly sent Jessie's only son to rehab. And not to mention, Kathy is offering you a place. For free. And I could always be by you. You know... as neighbors." What he says really makes me think. He makes a valid point and truly it would be stupid to turn it down.

"I'll talk to Kathy when we get back," I assure him and he smiles a genuine smile.

"I need to shower then get back to my room," Nick says as his head falls back and hits the ruffled pillow. It's quiet.

"Can I join you?" I ask and he's silent for a second.

Suddenly he jolts upright and picks me up. "No way I'm missing this opportunity," Nick mumbles in my ear and I laugh as he carries me to the bathroom.

"Nick!" I giggle as he kisses my neck teasingly. "I'm still sore from last night." I laugh as he sets me on my feet and slowly walks back in the shower water with me in his arms.

"Just let me hold you." Is all he says tucking his face in my neck and breathing me in.

"I love you a lot, Alice. I don't even think you know how much." He says and I wrap my arms tighter around him.

"I know you love me. You show it in your kisses. Your hugs, your smile. I can see it and I hope you can see the way I see you too." I kiss his chest as my hair feels heavy from the water.

Leaning my head against his heart and I listen to what's mine beat quickly.

"You don't get it. Those two days I was messed up. Seriously if I ever lived without you I'd lose my mind." He admits and I run my hands up and down his back.

I feel him look down so I look up into those blue eyes I love so much.

I stand on my tiptoes and take his lips in a soft kiss.

"I don't want to live without you either," I whisper and he kisses me again.

"I'd die for you." His arms wrap themselves tighter around me. "I'd do anything for you. I'd do anything with you Alice-" he says but stops.

"What is it?" I ask kissing him softly again but he doesn't kiss back.

"Nick What is it?" I say trying to get him to kiss me.

"I want to marry you. When we get back I want you to marry me. I want you to become mine and only mine. Forever. I want you to have my last name. I want to have children with you and I want to see your golden eyes that I really like to look at every time I wake up and I want you to hold me the way you do when I have those fucking god awful nightmares. And I want to kiss you any time I want and I want to hold you whenever I want." He says and I feel my eyes tear up.

"I-I want that too but... we're so young. I can't-" I say turning around and grabbing the shampoo but he grips my hips and spins me around.

"What do you mean you can't? You don't want to marry me?" He interrupts and I glare at him.

He reaches a hand up and tucks a piece of hair behind my ear. "Sorry." He mumbles and I continue.

"I want to but let's wait for a year or two if you're really that desperate," I say and his eyes light up. It was quite cute to see.

He picks me up and spins me around in the shower.

"I have a wife!" He announces kissing my cheek and I laugh.

"Not yet you don't calm down." I kiss his nose and hold his jaw.

"I love you."

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"This is the place?" Gen asks stepping out of the car.

"Gen get back in it looks dangerous," Nelson says quickly pulling at her arm.

"Wuss." She mumbles but sits back in his lap regardless.

I look up at Nick who nervously wipes his hands on his pants. "Ok, I'm going in." He says and I grab his arm.

"Remember Nick asks them their prices for drugs and then talk about Brodie, get his information, and get out," Tracy instructs from the front seat.

"Yes and Nick we'll be around half a block away from door 15A." Nelson reminds as Nick pulls his hood overhead.

"Be careful," I whisper wrapping my arms around his waist.

"I will for you." He says back and I close my eyes. These are dangerous people. People who have access to drugs and guns. Especially ones they can give to people like Brodie.

"Hey, baby. I love you I'll be okay." Nick says holding my face and I nod sadly.

He kisses my lips and I pull away, my breathing stuttering showing a threat of crying.

"I'll be back." He says before jogging down the alley.

"He'll be back," Gen assures rubbing my back and I buckle my seat belt as Tracy drives to door 15A.

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"Go fish." I hear Gen say but I'm too distracted and worried for Nick.

"Got any 3's?" Nelson asks.

"Goldfish."

"It's go fish not goldfish stupid. Cause you fish for another card?"

"You can fish for goldfish!"

"Goldfish are pets."

"Got any queens?"

"Go fis-"

"Guys please be quiet." I plead for them holding my knees to my chest.

"Alice he's going to be okay," Nelson assures with a kind smile but I still feel nervous in my heart.

"I-I know it's just they are bad people. And Nick should have been back 10 minutes ago!" I say frustration lacing my voice.

"Yes, but he knows his way around he used to come here a lot." Nelson tries to explain but it only makes me feel worse.

"But-" I start but get interrupted by gunshots.

I hear Tracy scream and we're all in alert.

"Look there's Nick!" Gen screams Nelson and I slide open the heavy van door.

Nick falls in and I scream seeing blood oozing out from his stomach.

"Nick? Nick!" I scream and press my hands against the gash to stop the blood from pouring out.

"I got shot." He hisses from the pain.

"Tracy drive goddammit!" Nelson screams and I jump.

Suddenly the van is jolting ahead and Nick is laying on the floor of the van.

"No no no," I yell pulling off his shirt and holding it against the wound.

"This wasn't supposed to happen!" Gen screams throwing napkins in the backseat and any other first aid supplies she could find.

"Alice I don't think I'm going to stay much longer... I-I love you take care of Logan and-" he starts and I cry harder.

"Don't say those things, Nick." I plead as tears slip out of my eyes with the van being jerked around left and right.

"Don't cry, my love."

We blow through red lights and streets and I have to grip onto anything I can to just stay upright.

"Nick stay awake please!" I sob and grab his unmoving face.

"Nick." I cry and a tear falls onto his cheek.

Everyone's voices slowly become muted and my eyes blur with tears.

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A/N: don't panic! I repeat DO NOT PANIC.

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