Chapter Fourteen- awake, not dreaming  

Beep beep beep beep

I couldn’t understand what was going on, I heard this annoying sound; there were never any sounds in the basement.

Beep beep beep beep

I could smell someone different here… wait I could smell and hear two different people… which wasn’t a bad thing but I felt different, I felt good, no pain at all but I was very hungry.

Beep beep beep beep

Slowly I began opening my eyes and was met with a room I didn’t remember being in, and the two people I hadn’t seen in a long time, ten years to be exactly.

Beep beep beep beep

I wasn’t sure what was going on but I did the only thing I could think of doing.

Beep beep beep beep

I cried.

It was completely rational, Seth had finally done so much damage that I was hallucinating, thinking of people that would never rescue me, rescue my children. Sitting up swiftly I looked wildly around the room, searching for my children.

Ignoring the machines near me worried about something brand new now.

They are at my hospital, you were in surgery I had to get Chris before you died Rainy, I heard Logan in my head and that brought on a new fresh wave of tears.

“This, this is real?”

“Y-you really came for me?”

“Of course, I never gave up Rainy, not ever…” he whispered.

Are they okay? I asked Logan knowing he would know whom I was speaking about.

Yeah, they had surgery and I had them all placed in the same room with each other, so that they wouldn’t be afraid he answered.

No men right? They don’t like that… I replied.

No men Rainy…

The room was quiet, turning to my left slowly I saw Chris, my mate.

Neither of us spoke, I want to go see the kids I mind linked Logan.

Are you going to tell him?  Logan questioned

Still looking at Chris I just nodded my head, it was still quiet and slowly Logan put my hand down and left the room.

“Hi Crissy,” I said softly, not exactly smiling and not frowning, I was looking into his eyes they were blurry he tried opening his mouth but nothing came out.

Instead we just looked at each other, I didn’t want to cry but my eyes were stinging once again, I didn’t know what to say, how to put anything into words right now. I had so many questions at this moment because I wanted to know everything, what was he doing here? Was he married to Anna by now? If I told him about our children would he want to take them back to his pack? Would he be angry that I wasn’t able to protect any of them, the only two children we had that were never hurt were my babies, Nicole and Michelle.

“I-I so sorry little love,” he whispered.

“I don’t blame you,” I said truthfully, I never blamed any of what happened to me on Chris or anyone else except two people.

“How-how Rainy, I didn’t, I didn’t look for you, I-I just-t… I just gave up on you,” he choked out.

“This was planned, Crissy. Almost two years before we were even left at your hospital, Logan and I, he had been planning this for a long time…” I said calmly greatly proud of myself for keeping my cool so far. I knew better than to blame him, I wasn’t going to let him take control of my life now that I was free and he was dead. I didn’t have time for doing that; I needed to think about my children.

“Still… I forgot y-you were my mate.” He said, his head down, shoulders slumped.

“He had someone make you forget, many people doing things for him. He had things on others, he blackmailed many people to pull all this together.” I answered.

“He wormed his way in Crissy,” I was distracted I was eager to go see my children. I know that without me around they were probably in panic.

“Logan…” I called knowing he was around.

“Chris, why are you here? I mean I know you’re getting married to Anna, so what are you doing here?” I asked point blank, I just didn’t have time to break down over him right now.

“I’m here because this is where you are…” he said in a voice I missed hearing.

“Do you plan on going back?” I asked again.

“No, I’m never leaving here… I didn’t remember that we were mates’… but- I, I just want to use this chance to be here for you as whatever you want me here as…” he said slowly.

“What has Logan told you about when I was taken?” I asked him, wanting to slowly walk him into this.

Rubbing his hands on his face like he did when he was frustrated, “He said that you were being held as, as a se- sex slave, that y-you could feel when, when I… all the times I was with, other women,” he struggled to say to me.

“He said he found you in a basement in Michigan, that-that Seth had you down there… he found you from a video that, one of the men made…” I looked down at my hands, wondering what he truly felt about me. How he would feel when he found out about our children…

I was about to speak when Logan walked in with Abby, the woman that helped me on the plane. In her hands she had a bag, “I thought that maybe you’d like to freshen up, wash up a bit, you’ll need help until you’re fully healed but a nurse is going to come and take out the IV.”

A shower, that sounded great, I did feel dirty in more than one way but for now I just wanted to pretend I had a handle on this. Just nodding my head, she said, “Boys get out let me help her.”

“How are you holding up she asked as a nurse came in and took my IV out, I’m tired but I just want to get too…” I drifted off looking at the door that Logan and Chris walked out of knowing they were still there this isn’t how I wanted Chris to find out.

She understood quickly, bringing her hands to rock like if you had a baby in there she said, “are doing great.”

“Yeah?” I asked wanting information. I had never been away from them, even in the basement I was always in the next room.

“Yeah. You” she said then did the rocking arms thing again “need to have special diets to help get back to where it would be safe, but you have all of us to help with anything you’ll need.”

Everything I would need… what I needed was for nothing bad to ever happen again, but that just didn’t seem like a possible plan.

For now all I knew was I was finally awake and not dreaming, I had this dream many times in the basement, it was my mind always playing a cruel trick on me. This time, being free, being with Logan and Chris here… I never had such an imaginative rescue before so maybe this was all true. Maybe since this seemed too good to be true it actually was.