💜Forever To Make Believe💜

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24/7 I'll be waiting, out in the rain
Till somebody save me.
Don't care if it takes,
Forever to make you believe

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Author's Pov

Y/n's whole body became numb where as her heart completely got frozen by watching the person standing in front of her.

The person she was trying to avoid for the past 2 months,her most cruel fate which she was trying to forget from the past 2 months but wasn't capable of because he even invaded her in her closed eyes and now was standing in front of her open eyes while staring at her with his completely broken eyes.

She just gazed at him with her lifeless bewildered eyes where as she felt like everything surrounded her became completely blank. Her body lose its strength to even stand properly while she felt like the land under her feet slipped making her totally shattered and vulnerable..

She just stared at him like a breathing dead body... Until..

"Princess...! " Suga spoke worriedly while panic washed over his whole body watching the crowd.

He looked towards her with his tensed face and found her staring at someone like a statue. Suga averted his gaze to the direction where she was staring like that and he gasped where as his breathing got hitched in his throat watching Taehyung standing there in that state while staring at Y/n with his shattered painful eyes.

"Princess... " Suga spoke but her ears became deaf, she wasn't capable of processing anything around her and continued to stare at him without blinking even for once.

Suga inhaled a deep breath and then place his hand over her shoulder

"Princess... " He again spoke taking
Y/n out of her painful dilemma . She looked towards Suga with her empty eyes and again averted her gaze towards him who was staring at her without blinking his lashes for a second. Her heart started to clench making it impossible for her to breathe properly where as her eyes automatically started becoming heavy and glossy with harsh tears.

And before she could lose her control over herself and bursted out in front him

"Prin...." Suga tried to spoke something but Y/n held Yeona in her arms tightly and looked at him one last time where as a lone tear rolled down from her eyes which made her to immediately turned around and then stormed out from there ..

"Princess... " Suga tried to follow her but before he could reach her, she called a taxi and went inside with Yeona and left from there without uttering a single word..

At Orphanage

"Y/nnnie what happen.. Why are you...?

" Jimin I want to go back to home now, will you please take me back? .... " Y/n spoke looking at Jimin cutting Chaerin's words.

"But.. Where is hyu..? "

"Please take me home... " Y/n said in almost breaking voice making Jimin's and Chaerin's face tensed too. And they both understood that something had happened.

Jimin nodded at her and replied

"Okay... "

Y/n carefully gave Yeona's sleeping body to Mrs Jung and then walked out from there making both Jimin and Chaerin followed her immediately..

At Suga's Mansion

"Y/nnnie open the door... Please talk to me, tell me what happened there please tell me..? " Chaerin spoke in almost pleading tone while knocking on Y/n's closed door.

"Angel please open the door please tell us what happened? " Jimin said doing the same.

But she didn't respond making both of them more worried with her behavior.

"Y/nnnie...please..."Chaerin begged while tears started to fall from her own eyes.

Jimin sighed heavily and spoke

" I think I need to call Hyung, only he can tell us what happened there? Why she is behaving like this?"

Chaerin slowly nodded wiping her tears and Jimin took out his and dialled his number but stopped when he saw a certain someone coming towards them

"Hyung..."Jimin spoke tensed looking at Suga who walked towards them

"Where were you ?     What happened ....."

Jimin stopped talking watching the person coming behind Suga which made him bewildered

"V.... " Jimin said with shocking tone where as Chaerin's eyes widened watching Taehyung walking behind Suga..

"What is he..? "

"Where is she Jimin...? " Suga asked halting Jimin's sentence making him averting his gaze from Taehyung to Suga.

"She is inside her room and locked herself from inside" Jimin replied making Suga to sighed heavily.

Suga walked towards her door and knocked

"Princess please open the door... " He stated in a begging tone but didn't get any response from inside.

He suspired heavily where as tears started to shed from his eyes and he spoke with his breaking voice.

"Princess please I am begging you..open the door... "

"Please... "

"Prin..... " He again spoke but got stopped when the door slowly started to get open, revealing a completely lifeless Y/n standing there with her  messed up face with red swollen eyes.

Suga's heart clenched watching her , he immediately walked towards her and hugged her tightly.

"Princess.... "

But his heart shattered when she didn't hug him back, she just stood there like a statue while tears continued to fall from her eyes silently making Suga's shoulder wet with them.

"Princess please look at me... " Suga said in a pleading tone while cupping her face.

"Please say something.. Please... "

She didn't reply but just look at the floor while her tears never stopped from shedding.

"Princess.... "

"Plea.... "

"What do you want now....? "

Her voice, almost lifeless  with no emotions or feeling like a dead person and her gaze  averted from the floor towards those oceanic gloomy eyes which were already staring at her.

"What do you want...? " She again said looking at him with no emotion in her face, completely blank and numb.

"Princess... "

Y/n removed Suga's hands from her face and slowly walked towards Taehyung and stood in front of him..

"I ask you something ....what do you want now...? " She again spoke as calmly as possible looking at his face while shedding her tears continuously.

Suga walked towards her but stopped in his feet when he heard her next words.

"Wasn't that enough that you killed my child...?

Now whose life you want to take...mine... ? "

Taehyung's body became desensitized  hearing her words . . .

"Tell me if you are here to take my life then take it and make me free from my all pain...

Because I am fed up pretending to be alright, I gave up on my life and now I have no reason to live

You were my only reason that I was still breathing but now I don't even have that reason because I'll never forgive you for what you did but after all of this
I am still not able to forget you even if it takes forever to make me believe that you are the reason behind my all pain, I will never be able to forget you. Never......"

Her each and every word pierced and scratched his soul harshly and deep where as he was dying internally with each passing second.

But her next words made his soul to left from his body fully

"So just me killed me I know you are good at it so just take my life now just like you took my child's life because you have given me this life otherwise who knows I might have died until now if you haven't save me 9 years ago on this same exact day... And who knows how brutally and inhumanly..?"

Her venomous words made Taehyung lost his each and every sense, where as he died internally along with his aching heart . He just stared at her teary eyes until those words escaped from her mouth.

"But you know what I just hope that you wouldn't have saved me that day and just let me be there to die so that I now didn't have to live a life which is more painful than death....

You really made me feel like a Doll Kim Taehyung

A Doll which get cherished by its owner when it got newly bought and then got crushed and ruined completely by that same owner when that owner got done playing with it...."

Y/n took out her every pain out on him through her words but her whole existence trembled when she saw a tear to escaped from his eyes while staring at her for the first time in her life, she clutched her dress in order to control herself inner self for completely breaking down in front of him.

He stared at her eyes in a way that it looked like he was watching her for the last time, just like a person looked at his everything when he knew he was taking his last breathe and his soul was soon going to leave from his body which was going to make that person to closed his eyes for forever.

He stared at her completely broken and wrecked when again a tear escaped from his painful aching eyes , he averted his gaze from her to the floor and then again looked towards her one last time and then turned around and walked out from there without uttering a single word and without looking back for a single second..

Y/n looked at his disappearing figure and at moment, she realised that , that was her story's ending , her story didn't have an happy ending and her heart completely shattered knowing her everything would always remain incomplete.

She just looked at the door while tears continued to fall from her eyes until

"Now I hope you are happy ... "

Y/n darted her eyes towards the owner of that voice and saw Suga walking towards her and then stood in front of her making her to looked at him startled and her world got frozen hearing his next word.

"Y/n...."

Her crying eyes became bewildered hearing her Oppa first time taking her name from the day she started understanding and remembering everything , she looked at him with widened shocked eyes where as more tears started to fall from them..

"Now why you are crying?.. He left, he left from your life for forever . You should be happy now because that's what you wanted..isn't it. ? " Suga spoke without showing any emotion in his eyes making Y/n's body got freezed at its place.

Jimin saw everything and his heart clenched watching Suga first time behaving so coldly with her

"Hyung.... "

"No... Jimin.. Let me talk to Ms. Y/n..." Suga spoke coldly looking at Y/n

"So now you are happy right?.. You wanted him to leave now look, he left , he left you...

But let me tell you one thing by making him to left, you just not only made him to leave from here but you made his soul to left from his body too..

You are giving him punishment for taking your child's life right? But how could you forget that , that child was his too.

He also suffered from that same amount of pain which you have suffered ,he is going from that same pain which you are going may be even more than you because you lost your child

But he just not only lost his child but unintentionally he became responsible for that loss too..

Think how much pain he must have feel when all of us made him responsible for something which he not even did intentionally. ?

Think how must he would have feel when not only just us but his whole world, his everything, HIS DOLL
accused him of killing his own child...?

You were going to die that day but fortunately you got saved but from that he is dying on regular basis, he is dying every passing second and is going to die .. Because his Doll is not with him, his soul is not with him.

You said to him that now you have no reason to live so he just kill you and free you from everything but did you think now how he is going to survive after knowing the only reason of his survival don't want to be in his life.

We all supported you and wanted you to be happy because we all only saw your pain, your tears.

Nobody realises his pain, nobody saw his pain, his suffering. Nobody among us stood beside him and supported him.. And he just suffered from his pain all alone when we all were praying for your happiness.. Praying for you to be happy" Suga spoke taking out his each and every feeling out making her completely broke from inside.

"That day when you ran from that place because of his anger we all know that he behaved wrongly with you but you too knew from the start that he would get angry, he didn't even know that you were pregnant in the first place and I am sure if he would have know it then he would have never behaved like that with you.. So what ever worst happened that day, he was only its cause but he was not responsible for it... "

Suga's each words stabbed harshly inside Y/n's heart, she just continued to look at him with her teary red eyes while listening to his each word

"And you yourself told me one day.. That you may be the cause of something worst but it doesn't necessarily mean that you are responsible for it too so how could you forget your own words when it comes to you..." He uttered gaping straight at her reddened teary eyes.

"And I don't know about others but I know for sure that, that Kim Taehyung is your everything but owner because he just not loves you, he worship you, he cherish you, he consider you his whole life without expecting anything from you may be not even your love..

He just wanted you to be happy and safe and for that he was, is and will capable of getting ruined and crushed in every possible way....

He can end himself for His Forbidden Doll and that's what he's going to do know because he is living with the only purpose of removing each and everything which stand in the path of his Doll's happiness and today you made him feel like he's the biggest hurdle in that path of your happiness and so now he's going to remove that hurdle..

He's going to end himself for you, for His Doll....."

Y/n stared at Suga's cold breaking eyes and her body lose it's whole strength to even stand , she fell on the ground by processing his each and every word

Her eyes broken out in tears. She placed her palms over her face and got completely shattered in front of Suga making his heart to felt a pang watching her like that.

He walked towards her and caged her trembling body

"I.. I.. Am.. Sorry p.. Princess.. F.. For.. Hurting you with my.. Words... So.. Sorry.. " He said while shedding his own tears because he knew that he crossed his limits may be with the only intention of opening her eyes and made her to see the truth but still he hurted her, hurted her badly.

Y/n clutched his arm tightly and cried, cried her heart out.

"Pl.. Please forgive me.. "

"N..no.. Oppa.. Y.. You. A..are right... I... Became so b.. Blind  with my own pain that I could not.. See his sufferings, his pain

That he's suffering too, he is broken too and is endure everything alone. I left him when he needed me the most

I.. Am.. So bad... I...I became so indulge in putting the blame on him that I refused to check the reality.. The reality of his pain... I am.. So.. Bad... I killed him with my words, my actions every single time ,he tried to show me his..pain..show me how broken he is ." Y/n bursted out crying on his arms.

"I... I.. Became.. S.. So.. Cruel.. That I. Just.. Hurted h.. Him.. With my words.. Instead of listening to him.. How I.. Became.. So. Cruel.. How??? "

"I.. I.. Became so worse...that I.. Shattered the only person.. Who.. Never wanted me to get hurt at any cost... W.. Who loved m.. My life m.. More than his own... "

"I.. I.. Am so worst Oppa.. So worst.. " She said closing her eyes while chocking on her own tears.

Suga's heart felt a pang hearing and watching her

"Princess look at me please look at me. " He uttered cupping her face.

"You are not bad, the circumstances were and it's still not too late , go and save your everything before something worst happen and you again lose him.. "

"9 years ago he saved you this same day from getting your life's biggest pain and now today you go and save him from his biggest pain . "He spoke wiping her tears gently and smiled a little

Y/n nodded her head at him slowly and stood up on her feet.. And exhaled a deep breath and wiped her face

" You are right Oppa. I..have promised him to never give up.. On.. My..love.. And I'll never break my promise...

He through out his life, has taken my all pain and suffering away and now it's my turn to take his and I'll ,at any cost...." She said and then walked out from there.

"Y/n..."

"No... Jimin let her go.. today... " Suga spoke holding Jimin's arm ,stopping him from following her.

"But Hyung how she will go alone? "

"I know she can and it's time now that we have to let her free from our protective cage so that she can fight for her everything alone and I know she will,

Because my Princess just not only has a beautiful and soft heart but has the most strongest heart too... I believe she will win back her everything.....

she can and she will. .. " Suga spoke watching her disappearing figure making Jimin to sighed heavily and just stared at her until she got completely retract from his eyesight...

At V's Mansion

"Ajumma where is he...? "

"Y/n..." Maria gasped by watching messed up Y/n who was panting heavily after 2 months

"Y/n dear... How... "

"Ajumma please tell me now where is he? I need to talk to him right now.. " Y/n uttered while taking heavy breathes but her eyes widened hearing Maria's  words

"Mr V is not here dear... He didn't come back to home from the day you left... "

"What...??? " Y/n said getting shocked hearing her reply

"Yes dear he is didn't come back to home for once from the past 2 months.  "

A tear escaped Y/n's eyes realising how much she broke him that he didn't even come back to his own home when she was living with her Oppa and a painful guilt washed over her knowing he was suffering everything all alone just because of her from the past 2 months.

"Y/n dear....are you.."

"I need to go... " Y/n said cutting Maria's sentence who seemed tensed by watching Y/n's saddened face..

"But.. Where you are going search for him?.. "

"I know where he can be Ajumma... " Y/n spoke and turned around and stormed out from there.

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Y/n's whole body was trembling standing at the door of that place, where everything had begun, the place where he had spent his painful childhood

The place where he had lost his everything and she had found her everything.. The place which connected their destiny and made both each other's fate.

The place which attached her to him in the most forbidden way and made her.

His Forbidden Doll.

Painful tears continued to fall from her eyes where as her heart continued to ached badly, she gulped hardly one last time and walked inside that house.

She slowly took her steps inside his house and walked a little inside

And her world got frozen where as her heart completely stopped beating by watching him sitting on the floor with his bleeding palms.....

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