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Jungkook's POV

She left me standing like a corpse, numbing my ability to think straight. I couldn't really process anything she said but all I knew was, this wasn't me. Every single word that came out of her mouth felt like a slap to my senses and at once I felt something weird for judging her like that.... guilt?

Every single word she told made me doubt myself or rather realize something. It made me hate myself again. Was I meant to be like this? Why couldn't I forget this past and move on? Why can't I forgive myself? She was really something.

I looked down at my fingers as I could feel them tingling when I touched her lips. 'Love' was something unseen to me, something that made me who I was today. But the million dollar question  was Would I change for the same?

I sighed and sat on my bed, massaging my temples.
"What are you doing to me Jung Hyemi?" I groaned out letting myself fall back onto the silky sheets beneath.
I needed to get my mind out of this, I really did
I grabbed my phone and looked through my recent contacts.
' Bora '
Why was I calling her especially after today?
Oh fuck this shit, I needed her. I needed at distraction. My pride wouldn't let me lean onto her words, nothing will.
Hyemi, hyemi, hyemi was all that my mind chanted and I hated it.
Without another thought impressed the call button.

Hyemi's POV
[Few moments earlier]

I walked downstairs, frowning in disgust. Such a heartless man he was. I should even care to help his out. I shook my head and went down to see my brother on the couch relaxing like he owns the house, then Namjoon and Taehyung on the other couch completely ignoring each other's existence. I sighed and walked to them

"Hoseok ...."he looked up from his phone and stood up at the sight of me.
"You're done baby?" He asked and I nodded slightly.
"Yeah we can leave now " he nodded and grabbed my hand
"Wait ...." Namjoon stopped us and me turn
" Why not join us for lunch?" He suggested making my brother scoff at him.

"How casual can you be? But as an answer for your question, How about no?" he tilted his head at him and turned again only to be stopped by Taehyung

"Hyung, one meal isn't gonna hurt. Plus we always wanted to treat Hyemi" He said and looked at me with soft eyes. This was so not the Taehyung I knew.
"I've missed you hyung, We all did " he looked back at hoseok
" Please ....."

My brother's grip on my hand loosened and his face frowned
"Please hoseok. Let's not bring the past for once. Just once and we won't bother you, just let us be a good host " Namjoon added

My brother sighed. I sensed that he was having a hard time contemplating on his own feelings so I butted in
"Sure ...."

*******

We were having a silent lunch bit I saw no signs of Jungkook, but I felt better this way. I had frankly lost my appetite has all the commotion so I stood up after one serving
"Thank you for the meal ... I'll be waiting in the living room " I said and walked to the sink putting my plate and then to the living room.

As I sat down the bell rang, comtinuosly. I waited for someone to show up but no one did. So I got up  and walked the door, openeding it. I froze on seeing who it was.

"You?!" She exclaimed giving me a look of disgust. I rolled my eyes at her.
"What are you doing here ?" We asked syncronised
She scoffed
"Well my kookie invited me so that we could have our own little time, So if you'd excuse me ." She shouldered me and walked past leaving me absolutely dumbfounded. That ass was never gonna learn. I pursed my lips together and shook my head.

I closed the door and sat on the couch watching her walk upstairs. Just then Taehyung came in from the kitchen and stopped her.
"Where do you think you're going ?" He growled
" Umm kookie called me here and why'd you care mister" she said in a bitchy tome and walked upstairs. I scoffed at her bitchy attitude and crossed my legs.

Taehyung took a seat beside me and sighed
"He doesn't listen at all ...." He shook his head
"He doesn't ..." I agreed and he looked at me
"Huh ?"
"Why'd you ask ..... " I sighed
" I just gave him a huge ass lecture before coming down and there he is trying to fuck the same damn girl again ...."

He sighed
"He's spoiling himselfm He wasn't like this .... That's why he mostly stays here and not with his parentsm"
" He has parents?" I asked being the idiot I've always been. Taehyung gave me a weird look making me go all awkward and red.
"What do you mean does he have parents ?"
"I'm sorry, It's just that. You've never mentioned anything. I-it just slipped out. I'll-I'll just stop talking " I awkwardly laughed and looked away

" You're cute " he muttered but I heard it
" I'm not " I pouted unknowingly and then quickly changed into a serious expression
" Sure ...." He mockingly rolled his eyes and I hit his shoulders