Keith Powers

Chris and I carried the last bit of baby furniture out of the nursery and down to the truck. Since we have no use for it we decided to donate all the stuff we bought.

Once everything was packed up, we headed back to the room to start painting. I wanted everything finished before April came home later on.

I guess we'll turn this back to a guest room.

"How you holding up?" Chris asked.

I shrugged. "I feel numb. I'm trying to keep my emotions bottled up to make sure April is good."

"I hear you. Just take everything one day at a time."

"Yeah."

"So do you guys ever plan on trying again?"

I sighed. "I'm not sure and I don't want to even ask April if she's even willing to try. I just hope after all this her relationship with Kiara doesn't change."

"Ima be honest with you, it might. Kiara has nothing to do with this situation but her mom caused all of this. April might not be comfortable with the child you made with the woman who ruined her life."

Pinching the bridge of my nose I shook my head. "Kiara is innocent in all of this though."

"She is, But I said that this might happen. It could bring her closer to Kiara. We'll just have to see when April comes home."

"Let's just get this room painted I gotta pick April up in two hours."

He nodded then started setting everything up.

I'm hoping April doesn't give Kiara a cold shoulder because of what happened. She really loves April and being treated mean by her would really hurt her feelings. I don't want her to go through that.

None of this is her fault. Be mad at Brittany, hurt Brittany, don't do that to Kiara.

A Few Hours Later

I pulled up to the hospital and could see April and our moms sitting in the lobby. I jumped out of the car and headed inside. "You ready baby?"

She never looked up at me but nodded.

"Alright let's get you home." I grabbed her bag and the wheel chair and pushed her to the car. Once I put her stuff inside, I helped her get in. I heard her groan as she sat down in her seat. "You good?"

"Yeah." She said just above a whisper.

"Alright." I kissed her cheek then closed the door turning to our moms.

"We'll be over later. I think she needs a minute to herself, let her get some rest." Joyce said.

I nodded. "Yeah."

"Call us if you need anything." My mom said while hugging me then going over to April's door.

I hugged her mom then went and got in the car. When I looked over at April and our mom's, Joyce was wiping her tears from under her glasses. Soon the door closed and they walked away. I pulled off and headed home. Every now and then I would glance over at her. Her eyes just stayed focused on her lap.

Grabbing her hand I kissed it. She looked up at me then back down at her lap.

Sighing I held on to her hand tighter and just kept my focus on the road.

When we got to the house I pulled into the driveway but didn't get out. "April."

"Hm."

"I love you."

"I love you too Keith." She lifted her head and tapped her lips.

I smiled and quickly planted a soft kiss on them. Getting out the car I went and grabbed her things then put them inside the house.

"Can you grab my crutches please?" She asked.

"You sure baby? I don't think you should be using those right now."

She nodded. "I have to be as mobile as possible so that my scar heals properly."

"Alright. I'm not letting you climb those stairs though, you know you can't do that."

"Yeah."

"Okay." I went back inside the house to grab her crutches then took them to her. "Let me at least help you out the car."

"That's fine."

I held her arm and she slid out the car and then grabbed her crutches from me.

"Go slow baby. Don't rush."

She nodded then we started heading to the house. Once we got inside she got to the stairs and put her crutches against the wall near the banister. I grabbed her and picked her up bridal style then went up to our room and put her on the bed.

"Did you clean out the other room?" She asked.

"Yeah, me and your brother did."

"Okay."

"You need anything? Food, something to drink?"

She took a deep breath. "I just wanna go to sleep. The medicine from the hospital has me feeling funny still."

"Alright." I was about to take off my hoodie that she had on but she shook her head no.

"It's comfortable, I wanna keep it on. I love that it smells like you." She smiled while laying down and putting the hood over her head.

I chuckled. "Alright, you mind if I go grab something to cook?"

"Yeah, can we have tacos please?"

"Anything you want."

"Well bring me a birthday cake and some ice cream too."

I looked at her confused. "Why would you want that?"

"I guess the cravings are still there." She gave a half smile then stared off into space. Climbing on the bed I kissed her cheek a few times.

"I'll be back before you know it. Call me if you need anything."

"Okay."

"I love you April."

"I love you too."

Later On

When I got back to the house, April was knocked out so I started cooking. Once I was finished I made our plates and headed back upstairs. "Baby wake up."

Her eyes fluttered then she looked over at me, when she saw the food she sat up. "Yes, I'm so hungry."

I smirked while passing her a plate.

"Thank you baby." She said

"No problem."

We silently ate our food and watched TV. When we finished I grabbed our plates and put them on the night stand. "Baby I wanna talk to you about something." I said.

"About what?"

"Where do we go from here after this?"

"What do you mean?"

"After this happened, do you want to start again? Are you going to feel comfortable even being around Kiara? I just wanna know."

"Keith it just happened. I'm not thinking about all of that right now."

"So you don't want to be around Kiara?"

"I'm not trying to be around nobody! Im trying to get my mind back right. My babies just died and you want me to put my issues to the side and deal with YOUR daughter?"

"April she has nothing to do with any of this though. Maybe being around her would make you feel better."

Her eyebrows furrowed. "I know that this has nothing to do with her but like I said, I'm not trying to deal with anybody. I'm not trying to even think about getting pregnant again because I'm afraid that my child might get snatched away from me again. I love Kiara, I really do but at the end of the day she's not mine, she's yours. That thought is always going to be in the back of my mind. She belongs to you and the woman that took the blessings that you and I created. If you're worried about me hating your daughter because of what happened, I'm not. I just need time, I don't want to be around any child that isn't mine because it just keeps reminding me of what I went through. I just need time." Her eyes were now dark red.

I exhaled. "I hear you baby. I didn't mean to get you upset I just thought I would talk to you about it."

"I'm fine."

Climbing over to her, I pulled her closer. "No I shouldn't have tried to force you to do anything you aren't ready to do. I know you're not okay."

She pinched the bridge of her noise and clinched her eyes together, taking deep breaths. The tears she was trying to fight poured down her face.

"Damn baby." I kissed her temple.

"This hurts so fucking bad! I'm so fucking angry and I'm trying so hard to hold everything in and pretend to be happy but I'm pissed the fuck off. Why did this have to happen to me? All I can ask is why?"

"You have every right to be angry, you can be sad, you can cry, don't hold your emotions in. If you feel like you wanna scream, do that!" That knot popped up in my throat, I coughed to try and get it to go away. I try my hardest to be strong for April but seeing the pain in her eyes hurts me even more.

"This is just so unfair."

"It is, But we'll get through this. It won't be an overnight thing but we'll get through this together. I love you wife."

She smirked. "I love you too husband."

We shared a kiss.

Time heals all wounds, no matter how big or small. Things will get better.