April
One week Later

I haven't seen the outside of my house since the day I left the hospital. Depression was hitting me hard, not to the point where I wanted to take my own life though.

Just when I was making so much progress to become a better me, life throws a curve ball. I'm just really trying to figure out why things can never go good for me.

When I'm praying to god does he even hear me?

All I want is to be happy! Everything in my life is going great. I'm doing my dream job, money is flowing, I got my dream house and car. But the only way I'm going to be happy is if I have Keith. I've tried calling, it goes straight to voicemail, I tried texting, it doesn't even go through. I'm blocked on all his social media.

I just wanted to explain everything to him before we got to this point but it's too late. Am I supposed to just move on now? I tried before that it didn't work.

This man has my heart and I just want to be with him. Nobody will ever make me feel the way he does. Nobody will keep me smiling. I miss getting nervous whenever he came around like we just met. Or getting butterflies whenever told me that he loves me or when he kisses me. The way he makes my body feel every time he makes love to me.

I just want Keith.

The morning we talked marriage, that's the only thing that I could think about for the rest of the day.

Mrs April Powers.

That shit sounds good.

As I look back I try to think how did this go so wrong. Number one was the lies. Two, I kept comparing him to somebody that I was supposed to leave in my past. If I would've only focused on the man that I'm in love with, that other guy would've never been a problem.

I hate to even say his name now.

But why be mad at him? I kept him around, I'm the one that lied. I'm the one that should've listened to my brain when it told me to walk away when he approached me at my shop. I was stupid for thinking he could change. He doesn't know the meaning. When he called me a bitch the day everything happened, I saw that everything he was doing was just a scheme. He wasn't trying to be a better person.

Everybody was right, he knew exactly what he had to do to pull me in and I fell for it. Why do I have to be such an idiot?!

Keeeeeiiiiiith! That's all I fucking want. He's all I need! I wanted to carry his kids, maybe even move away from Atlanta. Expand our businesses together. Have barbershops and hair salons all over America. We could've been amazing. I fucked that up though.

Does he even miss me? Is he thinking about me? Or is he just too busy hating me? Will he ever forgive me?

So many questions ran through my mind. I just want to hold and kiss him. I wanted to be the one by his side until he got better and after.

Is he going to run back to his 'Secretary'? What's going to happen?

I wish I could see the future. On some that's so Raven shit and try to prevent the bad things from happening.

All these shoulda, coulda, woulda's....but now it's nothing I can do. Nothing to do but just be saaaaaad and miserable!

Did I already say that I hated myself? Just Incase I didn't, I hate myself. When Chris told me the truth at the hospital, that really hit me like a ton of bricks. It honestly plays constantly over and over in my head.

'You're right, it is your fault."

I am nothing but trouble. I bring nothing but drama. I'm always in some bullshit. But that's due to the evil spirit I let in my life. The wrong people can curse your entire universe if you let them. When you're foolish the devil has no problem bringing you down. 

Maybe I need to be alone. I need to find myself again, realize my self worth. Learn to love myself again. Once I learn that then I'll be able to love somebody else properly. How can you love somebody the right way when you don't even know how to love yourself correctly?

But the things is Keith was teaching me how to love myself. He showed me that I was worth it.

That's why I need him. I need to feel whole again. Only he can make me feel whole.

I'd pull up on his ass but his mom is being a complete BITCH! And I really loved Jennifer like another parent. But fuck her and let me catch Kayla slipping, that bitch owes me a fade!

Uuuuugh!

"April!!!! Bitch where are you?! I have food." Dion yelled.

I hate that I gave this hoe a key. Well I really didn't give him a key, he took my key last week and got a copy. I've been meaning to take it away. The other day it was a whole party downstairs. This bitch even put a pole in my basement.

Grabbing my robe I slipped it on and headed downstairs.

"Dion, I'm not hungry."

"Yes you are. Anyway I brought Thai food, I know it's one of your favorites. I also bought some ingredients to make cookies, and I thought we could have movie night."

"I don't know Dion, I'm not really in the mood."

"April stop, Okay? If you and Keith are meant to be, you will be. I know things are hard right now but it'll get better. It's going to be okay."

I batted away the tears that were forming. I was sick of crying. "I can't help that I miss him and it sucks because I can't do nothing about it. His mom really is threatening me."

"Fuck her! She better be lucky I didn't beat her ass at the hospital that day. Then her chicken head ass daughter gone sneak you and still got beat up."

I let out a small laugh.

Dion gasped. "Was that a laugh that I just heard?! I thought you didn't know how to do that anymore."

He's being dramatic but I really haven't laughed in a while.

"Shut up Dion."

"So, back to making these cookies and movie night. I know we got this Thai food but I'll order pizza. I know you love to eat that when your sad. Most bitches love ice cream but you're a weird hoe."

"Whatever, I guess movie night won't hurt. Order the pizza too." I grabbed the food he brought.

"Don't let this sadness cause you to become fat though bitch, I ain't having it."

I flipped him off then went into the living room, cut on the tv, plopped on the couch and started eating. 

Dion soon joined me.

"And I didn't want to say nothing but this nappy ass puffball you wearing need to go too, right along with those eyebrows." He said.

"Damn spare my feelings why don't you! Leave me and my puffball and bushy eyebrows alone, thank you!"

"I'm just saying! I promise you, once you make yourself look better you'll feel so much better."

"I'll make myself look pretty once my man comes back. Until then I'm just going to keep this natural thing going."

"Girl, you are ridiculous."

"I do need a wax though. And I don't mean my eyebrows."

"Yuuuuck!"

I started cracking up. "I haven't been in the mood to go! I'll do it next week."

"That's a damn shame. You supposed to keep the kitty pretty honey."

I rolled my eyes and kept eating. I was focusing on the tv when the door bell rang.

"I swore I set for this pizza to be delivered at a specific time! I'm cussing they asses out!" Dion yelled as he got up and went to the door. "Uuuuuh, April."

"Yeah?"

He walked back over to the couch. "You should've thought twice about that wax girl!"

"What?" I looked at him confused. What do that gotta do with pizza? Is the pizza man fine or something. Preferably looks like Keith.

He pointed over to the hall. I looked behind me and there stood my baby. I screeched, jumped over the damn couch and ran and jumped in his arms.

"What are you doing?! Here! I've missed you so much. Keith I'm so sorry about everything. I should've been honest with you. I should've told you what was going on. This is all my fault. Everything is always my fault. But if you give me another chance I promise I'll get it right. Baby I love you so mu-."

"Marry me."

"What?" I was suprised, shocked, happy, all of these different feelings. "Wha.what about your mom? And everything that happened?"

He put me down, reached in his pocket, pulled out a Tiffany box and got on one knee. "Marry me. We can go to Vegas right now and make this happen. Marry me April. I love you and I don't want to spend another minute without you. I forgive you for everything and the only thing that'll make me happy is if you marry me."

Tears rolled down my face.

"Say yes bitch!" Dion yelled.

"Yes! YES! A million times yes!"

He slid the ring on my finger then picked me back up and kissed me.

"I got us two tickets to Vegas. We leave in two hours. You think you can pack in 10 minutes?" He asked.

"I'll be ready in 5."

"Shit I'm coming too, y'all need a witness. I'll buy clothes there." Dion crazy ass said before running out the door.

"You ready to be Mrs. Powers?" Keith asked.

"So ready."

It's time to focus on us and only us.

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We're y'all expecting that?

Time jump next chapter, basically the sequel.