Arya's POV

New Professor, When I saw him first time he asked me if I was okay. And it was weird because at that time I was a subject of humour in every other eye in the class. His eyes had that kindness for me which I never saw in any other eyes before and he had that kindness not only for me but for everyone.

When he used to speak his words showered sweetness which could even beat honey. I never saw anyone like him before. He was different from everyone I knew.

But I still wondered if it was all true or just another mask like every other person had in my class. Even if he was kind I didn't need any of his kindness. I was better like the way I was. I was better alone and cold and feeling less. It was best for me. I used to feel numb sometimes just like my heart had no heartbeats, my music had no lyrics and my scenery had no colours.

Countless times, I wanted to be like everyone else was. But then I realized that at least I was real. If I had no emotions then I didn't fake them. But on the other hand all other were monster under the facades of angels. Everyone faked everything, their love, their care, their kindness, their everything. And I didn't want to be one of them ever.

Sometimes, I desired to feel emotions but every time I just find myself shackled with my fears. I might look like some sharp knife from outside which is capable of pouring blood but, from inside I was like a broken mirror. A pebble was enough to make me shattered into pieces.

I was a coward from inside. I was afraid, I was anxious, I was broken, I was feeling less. Emotions were an alien concept for me. Whenever I saw new professor' s face he had everything that I wanted. He had happiness, pride and satisfaction shimmering in his eyes. He was a total opposite of me. He was like the most alive thing I ever saw whereas I was the most dead thing that everyone had ever saw.

I felt jealous of him sometimes for that cause. I wanted to avoid him so badly and I thought it won't be that hard because soon he would hate me as well as every one did. I already had an image of a rude kid in front of whole college. I was hated by everyone including teachers and my college mates. Everyone used to mock me behind my back thinking I didn't know anything. Perhaps I behave like I could not speak but I could hear very well. And I was also good at observing.

I was a rude loser for everyone and was a little bit pyscho as well. I won't be surprised if there would be a murder in my college and people doubt me. Though, I wound never do any sort of thing like that but hiding myself in the veil of silence and mystery had made me a pricking thorn in all eyes. I was a subject of suspicion.

I was observing that New professor used to glance me with curious eyes. Well, it was not something new. Some of my old professors were curious as well. But my sealed tongue and blunt answers made them believe that I was not curiosity worthy. They believed that I was just a rude, misbehaved, spoilt person whom they could not bear so they just ignored me.

When New professor who was now called "Ri Sir," because his name was Riyansh and students gave him a short name because they thought it was cool and it suited him. And he did not opposed it because of their unnecessary pressure. But to tell you the truth for me it was very dumb idea. He could just be called "Sir" but never mind.

So, when he questioned me for looking outside of the window. I knew now there would be one more person who would hate me. But I didn't care of people's opinion about me. Therefore I replied him though I didn't tell him the real reason of looking outside the window but I just told him off.

And he questioned me again and in his questions I could see my grave. He would be scolding me too much but I didn't care because I could not change myself just because of someone so punishment and scolding were better for me. I was habitual to them.

But then he did the thing I had never expected him to do. He just allowed me to look outside. In my long history of education. I was always just gotten scolded or I was punished for looking outside but he allowed me. I was not able to believe so, I pinched myself and realized that it was true.

He said things like being who we are was our right and no one could snatch it from us. And I never heard words like these from anyone in my whole life. But these words were somehow good to hear. I was feeling bewildered. He was actually someone different. Hearing his word I didn't know why I felt like he said something I always wanted to hear. He made me interested to know more about his personality.

But my close friends called my fears which resided inside of my heart didn't allow me to do so. Even if he was different, my fears came closer to me and whispered slowly in my ear to stay away from him. What if he did this all because of any ulterior motives? How can I trust a man I knew only from a few days?

Getting closer to anyone means dropping myself into the forest of social dangers. I could not do that. Even if I wanted to. People could misuse me, could take advantage. They could play with me. So, it was better for me to forget everything he said. And forget that I had ever thought that he had an interesting personality.

To be continued...

Dear reader, how ya doing?😁😁😁 Well, I hope good. So, we came to know about Arya's views on Professor Riyansh. But, I wanna know your views as well. 🧐🧐 So, comment and also like the story. Do, you also want a Professor Ri in your life?😏😏