How do you wake up in the morning and prepare to go to school knowing that your best friend is now your best enemy, how do you pretend not to have seen her in the hallways or during Mrs Smith's gym class, I thought ignoring her and acting like she doesn't exist anymore would be as easy as ignoring Nick but it's not.

My heart aches every time I set my eyes on her, all I want to do is hug her tightly and apologize for everything that happened but then again I was reminded of her betrayal by all the eyes that were staring at me like the virgin Mary of the twenty first century, so my inner voice keeps telling me to walk away.

It's now lunch time, I'm on my way to sit with Carl and the other guys with my food in hand when big Jim stands in front of me, blocking my way to the table.

My goodness, I'm not in the mood for this.

"What do you want, puppet." I ask in a lazy tone.

"They told me to come carry you but do I really have to?" He asks in his deep voice and I roll my eyes at him.

I sigh, turning on my heel and walking towards the jocks and sluts table, they are all sitting there together, including Amanda and Sofia which is still a mystery to me.

"Thanks, big Jim." Sofia shouts after big Jim as he joins his friends on another table.

"What do you want from me, freaks?" I ask rudely, Nick smiles at me.

Nick and I have been okay lately, we've been talking about things on a friendly level and I'm proud to say that I'm kind of getting comfortable around him.

Way too comfortable.

"Calm down, sweetheart, it's not our fault that your best friend called you out on your virgin lips in front of the whole school." Says Sofia, Amanda just looks down at her plate like a coward.

"Sofia." Nick gives her a warning look, she raises her hands and surrenders.

"Anyway, we wanted to invite you to our beach house this weekend, we're all going so we thought we could invite you since you're one of us now." Jason says to me.

One of them?

I laugh, looking behind me at Carl's table then looking back at them. I see the difference.

"Yeah, that's not gonna happen." I drop my laugh and shake my head.

"Well, I tried." Jason mumbles to his friends.

"C'mon, princess, it will be fun." Nick tries to convince me, chewing on his pickles.

Gross, I hate pickles.

"Yeah, princess, it will be fun." Lilian remarks, looking at Nick from across the table while she says it to me. Nick narrows his eyes at her like asking, what-the-hell-was-that? Lilian narrows her eyes back at him like saying, you-know-exactly-what-that-was.

Tension? I think so.

This is the kind of drama that I'm gonna have to experience if I decide to go with them, I would rather binge watch game of thrones all weekend long, which is totally worth my precious time.

"Can I like go and eat now?" I break the tension.

"Only if you give us a promising answer." Miles leans back on his chair and looks up at me.

"I'll think about it, is that promising enough for you people?" I give them a fake smile.

There's no way I'm even going to think about going with them.

"No, you won't." Nick scoffs to himself.

Can he like see right through me now? He's not supposed to do that.

"Bye now." I quickly turn around and rush to Carl's table but I feel all pairs of eyes on my back.

Carl is sitting with Sam and Jordan, they are in some deep conversation but they stop to look at me as I place my tray on the table and drop my backpack on the floor before sitting down next to Jordan, Carl and Sam are sitting across from us.

"Hey, guys." I greet when they don't say anything.

"What did those idiots want?" Carl asks like a jealous boyfriend.

"Just to make fun of my virgin lips." I half lie.

I don't know why I'm lying to him but I'm doing it.

"Amanda is one of the cool kids now?" Asks Sam, keeping his gaze on their table.

The mention of Amanda's name makes me roll my eyes.

"She has always been one of them, we just didn't know about it." I correct him, "She is so dead to me." I say more to myself.

I've been friends with her for a very long time now but she chose a guy over her own best friend, she has known me longer than she's known Jason, heck, I'm the one who even told her Jason's name.

"But seriously, Allison, how the hell have you never kissed a guy or girl before?" Sam leans on the table and whispers to me.

I feel like everyone has been wanting to ask me this question ever since Amanda put my private life out there.

"Dude, not cool." Carl hits Sam on the back of the head playfully.

"Ouch." He whines, rubbing his head with his hand, "I'm just curious."

"As if you've ever kissed anyone, Sam." I snap, squinting my eyes at him.

"I had my first kiss with Sofia." He rubs fake info in my face.

"Oh yeah, and I've had my forehead signed by Dwayne the rock Johnson." I boss sarcastically.

"He's not lying, actually" Jordan backs his friend.

Jordan is a junior, he came out as gay last year during a homecoming game, apparently he had a crush on a jock called Elijah so he went ahead and confessed his feelings for him infront of the whole school before the game started but Elijah on the other hand, took it as some joke and made fun of Jordan's feelings.

It was hard to watch.

"I call bullshit." I say bluntly.

"I saw it too, it was at my party, Sofia and Jason were on this break so she picked a random guy to make out with from the crowd and that person happened to be Sam." Carl confirms the story.

You've got to be kidding me.

"She used her tongue and it lasted approximately one minute and two seconds." He raises his index finger in front of my face and slap it away.

"It was just luck you big dumb baby." I scowl my face at him.

"You're just jealous." He sticks his tongue out like a child.

"And you're still a nerd." I run out of come backs.

"Enough. you're both virgins, we get it." Carl interjects, I pick a grape from Jordan's plate and throw it at Carl's yellow hoodie. Jordan glares at me, I shrug at him.

"Ready for Friday night?" Carl changes the subject, I nod yes.

Totally not ready for Friday night, I still don't have a dress and I'm scared to tell my mom because I know that she'll make a big deal out of it.

"What's Friday night?" Jordan asks, croaking his eyes at us.

"The dance, Carl's taking Allison." Sam fills him in.

I gotta buy a dress today after school, but damn, I don't even have a best friend to ask which dress I should get, I guess I'll just take a picture of myself and send it to Carl, it's not like he didn't ask me.

"Don't you two like, hate each other?" Jordan points at Carl and I equally.

"Not anymore." Carl smiles at me, I smile back.

"Well, well, well. looks like those lips will not be keeping their innocence after all." Jordan whispers in my ear.

Holy moly.

I actually didn't think about that, this dance thing will be like a date and judging by every romantic movie ever made, the night ends with a kiss on the lips.

Do I want Carl to be my first kiss?

I don't know, I guess we just have to wait and see what happens when it happens.