Leah :

Blair? Is she beautiful? She must be because I saw on the internet, beautiful women were all over him. I even saw lots of successful businesswoman that dated him before. Compared to myself, I'm nothing. I can't be sexy like them, my legs are not long enough, I'm pale and they are tanned. I don't know how to do business, even my maths are weak! How am I going to keep Teddy if I'm not even almost the same level as them? How?

Think Leah. Think.

Maybe I should start exercise, but I hate exercise! Diet? I can't, I need to constantly eat. What else? Think Leah! Use your brain!

"Leah.." I looked at Teddy who's looking at me cautiously.
Suddenly he went out from the car and then opened the door for me. What a gentleman, I almost smile at him for his action but then I remembered about his dates. Maybe with them he's like this too, I frowned. After I got out from the car, he silently led me towards some kind of a hiding place I think because there's bushes and trees all around the place leaving only a small wooden fence that attached to the tall bushes, behind the fence I saw a way which I don't know lead to where. Where is this place? He pulled me along the way, that's when I saw a field of lavenders covering an entire garden leaving a small hut in the middle of this purple sea and I also noticed there's a small trail that leads towards the hut. I just let Teddy guide me towards the hut still holding my hand. When we reached there, there's only a table and two chairs made of wood. I saw Teddy then spread out the mat on the floor in front of the wooden table, after that he arrange the food and drinks neatly on it. I didn't realize that Teddy brought a picnic basket just now; I'm too focused on Blair to notice it. After Teddy finished arranging, he sat down then patted the place beside him motioning me to sit. I followed. He eyed me cautiously while I still contemplating whether exercise or diet.

"Leah.............please.." He suddenly pleaded. I look at him confusedly.

"It's been two hours Jellyface" He added still looking at me pleadingly.

"What two hours?" I asked. "Not talking to me, ignoring me, mad at me," He stated.

"It's been two hours?!" two hours yet I still didn't came with any solutions, I need to decide fast.

"You're doing it again" He caught my attention. "You are ignoring me." Oh.

"I know you are thinking something, one moment you look so worried then one moment you look like you wanna stab someone. I'm sorry for my past Jellyface, I didn't mess with any woman since I met you, I swear." He exclaimed.

"I know Teddy, but I can't easily forget about it" I explained.

He sighed. "Please don't be mad. I don't like the silent treatment you're giving me, it's torturous. It's too early for silent treatment honey." I think I just melt by the word 'honey'. So I smiled because I can't stay mad at him.

"what are we?" I asked him, I expect him to be anxious or surprise or any negative response. Instead, he just smiled at me. "you think?" he answered my question with another question.

"Friend?"

"Really?"

"I think so."

"After confessing our feelings last night, we're friend only?"

"How should I know, you're the man."

"What is gender got to do with this?"

"I don't know."

"I know."

"What?"

"You're my woman."

His woman? This is the first time someone called me like that. I don't know how others react with that but I'm officially proud. Fluttering and embarrassed.

"Is that mean yes?" He asked me.

"What yes?"

"That you want to be my girlfriend because you know, my woman means my girlfriend." He said that while looking on the other direction except me. He then coughs awkwardly while tapping his finger on the mat waiting for my answer.

"I-"

"Just a head up, I will take no for an answer. Rejection is not in my diction." He said that determinedly.

"No."

He's surprised. His eyes wide open and body tensed.

"W-wh-what?" he stuttered.

"I said no, I don't want."

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We are in the middle of staring contest. I just rejected him and now I'm definitely nervous. I can't tell what his response, will he hate me? What are we going to do right now? Are we still friends? This all happened so quick that I hadn't been able to grasp the situation. I tried hard to search for answers from his face but he just sit there looking at me, blankly.
Then he smiled. He suddenly gave me the most sincere smile that just lit up my mood. His eyes filled with emotions that I can't decipher.

"I'll just pretend I didn't hear that."
He's really making me speechless; I didn't expect him to take it that coolly. I think I'm getting disappointed right now. How can he say he likes me but take that rejection so simple? Is this how man react? Later I'll google it, I need to keep this in mind.

"You look disappointed," he sounded like he's teasing. I shot him my famous deniable face. His lips curled up a bit before it's erupted to chuckle. He chuckled even more after confirming that I am indeed feeling what he thinks just now. "I told you, I didn't take no for an answer," hearing him said that makes me beaming abundantly with joy. So he then started to ask about me and that's how the rest of the 'date' continues with us pretending nothing happened. We keep on chatting and laughing at each other's jokes like he doesn't confess anything and I didn't reject anything. It's the most enjoyable day with him with us sharing our stories while being surrounded by all those refreshing lavenders which is his of course. I mean, what can you expect from rich people? They own everything.

After spending the day together, we decided to head back home plus my headache starts again. I tell you, my face so pale like I just got out from dead people's fridge in CSI but with the power of makeup; you could be the healthiest person on earth. Just a faint blush and nude lipstick can work the magic. I brought it in my bag because I tend to eat my lipstick so a backup is necessary. Teddy doesn't even realize, thankfully. Now, we're on our way to the car he parked before, walking on side to side in comfortable silence. In that calming moment, my brain suddenly decided to do the analytical thinking, so now I'm flooded with thousands of questions. My inner thoughts are screaming like a crazy person trapped in a room but on the outside it looks like I enjoyed the Mother Nature.

"Ask away," his voice snapped me out from my own world.

"We're inside the car already? Since when? I thought we still on our way," I said in disbelief because believe it or not, I already seated inside. "You're too deep in your own sea of thoughts, that why." Oh wow, that's new.

"I know you wanted to ask me Leah and I know what it is about but I'm just going to let you ask me first," he already sit there while facing me with his left hand on the steering and his right on his lap.
I took a deep breath before continue, "Why you didn't ask the reasons of my rejection?"

He folded his hands on his chest and then leans on the seat. "Because I know why."

"Really?" I asked him back not satisfied by his answer.

He looks at me with emotions that I can't read before continue, "You're insecure and scared angel."

That's it, the main point of my inside turmoil. My inner thought automatically shuts down. How can this man be so precise?

"I...I-" my tongue feel numb, I lost words but Teddy gave me the look that encouraging me to continue and he's going to listen even when he knows about it already.

"You're different from me, we- we are too different" I could see the hurt in his eyes but he just nodded. "Elated was an understatement when you confessed last night, I am happy but in the same time scared. Your lifestyle is differ than me, I know you but how can I assure that your past will not come to us in the future? How can I compete with your past? How long all of this could continue? Months? Years? I like you Teddy and I certainly can't be apart from you but I don't know if I like Ian Knight the same as I like Teddy. It's just too much to take." I'm panting for air as I finish letting out all of it.

His hands then reached for mine before holding it firmly. He looked at me somewhat relief. "Thanks Jellyface, for saying that. I will make sure Ian Knight is no different from your Teddy, I will make sure my past won't even have the chance to touch you and most important I'll make sure to show you that you're more valuable and worthy. I promise." His words were so convincing and determine.

"I will need time to fulfill my promises but I need you to be here beside me. Give me the chance. Trust me."

Trust, a strong word that could give big impact on how it is handled. People said trust is like a glass, it is so fragile so we need to be careful. Trusting someone is like giving them the chance to break you. With Ian, I'm more than willing to risk it because I know I could trust my heart to him so I nodded.

He smiled thankfully and I smiled back.

"I'll make you my girlfriend one day, not today, but one day. Even when you are not officially my girlfriend now but I want you to remember Jellyface, you are mine. Any hot blooded hormone crazed homo sapiens near you, they'll have to face me." he said that seriously.

"Is that a threat Ian Knight?" I teased.

"Just a head up Leah Quinn," he smiled.

Suddenly he straightens up his body looking at me like he forgot something. I look at him back confused and worried.

"We haven't seal the deal." He said it as a matter a fact.

"What deal?"

"All of the promises we made to each other." He looked at me in disbelief.

"I didn't remember making any promise to you, Isn't you're the one who made all the promises?"

"No, you just promise me you will not mad at me when I act like a caveman in the future."

"What? No I'm not." Now I'm the one who shot him disbelief looks.

"Yes you are. So now we need to seal it."

"You mean like a contract? But we don't have any papers and pens."

"No need for that, I know the other way."

"How?" I asked him.

"Like this." With that he kissed me, but not on the lips but my forehead. I was taken aback by that. His lips lingers a bit longer and I like it. He then let go and looks at my flustered face.
"I would go for the lips but I'll have to wait until you are officially my girlfriend before I could violate those plump sweet lips again. I hope it's not for long."
Are there any sweeter yet erotic guy than my Teddy because I'm now melting in my own puddle of happiness.