Amanda's POV

I don't want to walk or talk or move. I don't even want to think. I sit up in my bed and stare at the screen of the T.V in front of me. I'm watching old videos of me. In one of the videos my mom and I were at a petting zoo and there were piglets crawling onto my lap and my mom was like "they think you're the mommy pig" and so I start picking them up and throwing them off me and them my mom shouts "Amanda stop!" and then the video ends. I chuckle, don't call a little girl a pig. I miss my parents being at home with me, they are basically never here anymore.

I feel like watching a sad love story.

Hmm what should I watch?

The notebook?

Titanic?

The proposal?

P.s I love you?

The vow?

A walk to remember?

Finding nemo?

A while later...

Well here I am, sitting amongst my pillows, tissues and tears. Watching The Titanic and balling my eyes out. I have a jar of Nutella that I'm eating out of with a spoon. I love Nutella. If I go to heaven all I want is Nutella, cute boys and jelly tots. Well, to be honest I probably won't go to heaven. Especially after my extremely vivid imagination has been picturing ways that I can kill Evan.

"Rose you better not let go! Girl, if you do I'm pushing you in there with him! Oh hell no! You did not! Someone better hold my earrings!" I scream to the T.V. I shake my head, "The reason this movie is so sad is because of how dumb Rose is. I should have just watched Finding Nemo, at least Dory is actually supposed to be mentally challenged. I mean seriously, she says she will never let go and then she let's go." I talk to myself.

The movie finishes and so I throw all my tissues into my dust bin. I finished the Nutella jar a while ago. Must. Get. More. Nutella. Ugh, but then I would have to go outside. There are humans outside.

I'm too lazy to cry anymore. My eyes have run out of tears.

Is that possible?

I lie on my pillow and stare at my fluffy pink carpet, smiling. I remember when me and my old best friend; Katy would sit on the carpet and play Barbie war. I used to pretend my Swan Lake  swan doll was actually an elephant and I would ride into the barbie war on a swan. Smooth.

What happened to her?

She died.

How?

She actually fell off a cliff when she went hiking with her family in the holidays a few years ago. I miss her so much.

I hear the doorbell ring and I groan. "Who dares to disturb me?" I say to myself as I walk downstairs. I sound like that ugly troll that hides under the bridge.  Fee fi fo fum, oh wait, that's the beanstalk one, oh well. "They better have an extremely good reason for this." I mumble.

I open my door and my eyes widened in shock, for a few seconds I stare with my mouth slightly open at the extremely good looking boy standing in front of me. "Look, I know I'm gorgeous but you don't need to stare." Austin says. Yes, Austin. As in Austin Diesel. As in Mr. Perfection. Like the Mr. Sexy pants is standing at my doorstep.

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A/N: Ooh what do you think Mr. Diesel is at Amanda's house for? :P Who else loves Nutella? So many of my friends don't :O (how could you *shakes head*) Anyway, that's it for now. See you soon xxx

Song: Fill me in- Pia Mia ft. Austin Mahone

Question of the day: What's your favorite pick up line?

Lots of love and jelly tots- TPG