Amanda's POV

After Jen was done with me she told me I look "fab" and then chased me out of my own house. I was wearing a blood red short dress that showed off most of my thighs. I decided to get Lindt for Evan on the way as an extra surprise. He loves Lindt.

The sun had just set and it is starting getting dark. I know Evan keeps a spare key under the pot plant on his doorstep. I take it and quietly open the door and then sneak in.

I go up the stairs two at a time and to his room like a ninja. I smile and open the door to his room and that's when I realize he is not alone.

My heart drops to the floor and so does the Lindt box I am holding. It feels like the air just got punched out of my lungs.

"Oh, Evan, that feels so good. Don't stop! Yes! Right there! Oh god, yes!"

"Mhmm, you like that? You like it deep?"

"Yes! You're so big!"

Don't cry! Keep it together! You're Amanda Fucking Dowley! Keep it together!

But...

I couldn't.   

A tear rolls down my cheek and I just stand there. Speechless. This all feels like Dèja vu.

I curl my hands into fists to stop them from shaking so much.

I'm standing here, watching my boyfriend. I wish I didn't see this. I would be so much better off not knowing what Evan is doing and yet I keep watching, torturing myself.

Evan realizes I walked into the room and gets off the girl he was fucking.

Then I realize who is with him. I had a feeling I heard that voice somewhere.

"Amanda?" Emma says.

Silence.

I shake my head and slowly walk out the room. "Sorry to disturb you." I say and walk away.

That's when the tears fall. I was with him for three years. How long have they been doing this? Why didn't he just break up with me? What did I do wrong? I can't believe I was going to break my virginity to him.

"Amanda! Wait!" I hear Evan shout. It feels like a bomb just went off and I can hear this loud buzzing sound in my ear like a high pitched cry. I shut the main door to his house and keep walking. Just a few more blocks to my house. Should I run? I hear the door open again but I'm not turning around to look at that face. I don't want to see it ever again.

A hand grabs my arm and stops me, "Amanda I'm sorry it's just that I-" I put a hand to his mouth to shut him up. "It's just that you couldn't wait one more fucking day? Is that it Evan? Or have you been doing this more than once?" I ask moving my hand from his mouth. "I... Um... I..." I nod. That's what I thought. I can't believe I was ever friends with that stupid whore Emma. How was I so blind?

I walk away with tears pouring down my face. Evan stops me once again, "Amanda please, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I really do love you. I just couldn't not have sex and..."

"And so you chose to do it with my best friend?" I ask.

Silence.

"I don't love you Evan. I did, I was stupid enough to but I swear I won't make that mistake again." Love is like ice. One mistake and it breaks. Or maybe it's not, maybe it's something you never stop fighting for. I guess I never really loved Evan then, because I don't want to fight for him. It doesn't make it hurt any less though. "Please, just let me explain." Evan pleads. "No Evan, I don't give a shit. Don't fucking talk to me again. Ever. Do you understand me? I. Hate. You. Ihateyou. Ihateyou. Ihateyou." I say. Tears pouring down my face.

"Amanda." A one word-plea. I've never hated my name as much as I do right now. "Three years Evan! I thought I could trust you after three years." I shout. I wasn't just mad at Evan and Emma, I was mad at myself. I should have known. It's happened before. How could I not see that Evan would hurt me too. Anger takes over my body. I want to hurt Evan as much as he hurt me so I lift my fist and punch him straight in the nose. "My best friend. You fucked my best friend." I whisper. He reaches out, "Please don't go." A look of guilt and pain covers his face. "I hate you." I whisper as I turn around and walk home.

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A/N: the feels :( tbh I nearly cried but then again I cried when I watched the croods so... :P Isn't Evan a jerk? Ugh I want to punch him in the nose as well :/ Yeah so what did you think of this chapter?  Sorry for you Lindt lovers but Evan loves Lindt. At least he has good taste in chocolate :P I might re-write this chapter another time cause I'm not 100% happy with it :( Yup that's it for now xxx bye ;)

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