Chapter 36

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Chapter 36:

Nadia's POV:

"I am glad we have a deal" Sinan shook my hand as he spotted his driver from afar "Ve öğle yemeğiniz hoş oldu (And it was pleasant having lunch with you)"

"Teşekkürler, benim için zevkti (Thank you, it was my pleasure)" I smiled at him, professionally.

"Şöförüm burada, kendinize iyi bakın, Bayan Collins (My driver's here, take care of yourself, Mrs. Collins" He put more stress on my name although I told him about my status.

"Karınıza merhaba de, gelecek sefere akşam yemeğine çıkmasını bekliyorum (Say hi to your wife, I am expecting her for dinner next time)" I waved at him.

"Tabii (Sure)"

The meeting with Sinan was great since he accepted most of our rules and guidelines, and we signed a contract for two years, which was more than amazing because Sarte was one of the biggest clothing companies in Turkey, and it would spread our name in the market.

Sinan was kind of chocked when I told him that Zack and I, were going to split up; he even tried to convince me to fix things, stating that Zack really loved me just by the way he was looking at me. And I have to admit that it brought a sad feeling to my chest because things weren't the same anymore.

Damn my stupid brain...

After leaving the hotel behind, I went back to my office since I had many paperwork to solve and had be done before the day after, or maybe it was just a way to distract myself like I did the day before in order not to think of Zack.

I worked until I could no longer process what I was doing, I was that exhausted, so I put the things I had finished aside and left a sticky note for Sophia to register them on the Computer. After that, I grabbed my phone and purse and went out.

The entire building was empty except the guards, standing beside the door, who bowed their heads at me on my way out. It was already dark outside and the weather wasn't good as the grey clouds filled the sky; it would probably rain so I hurried to my car and headed home.

On my way home, my mother called, but I was so drained that I didn't feel like answering her call, I just refused her call and texted her "I am driving, talk to you tomorrow". Since mom heard about what happened, she suddenly decided to be my mother again, calling few times a week to ask how I was feeling.

But she never came to see me...!!!

I know that I was being harsh on my mother but every time, I decide to forgive her, I remember the nights I stayed up crying with Adam over dad's death while she was supposedly working in Chicago, I remember all the times I called her because I missed her but she didn't answer me since she had an had an important meeting, and I remember seven months ago when she didn't even show up to our meeting.

Thinking of those memories, lowered my mood and gave me a serious urge to just get home and have a hot shower to wash away my exhaustion and frustration. However, the sound of rain that was tapping on my window, made me relax instantly on my leather seat and lower my speed because of the wet roads.

By time I reached the house, the rain became heavier and the air became colder, and I spit at myself for not wearing a coat when I left that morning although Ann insisted. Moreover, adding to my great luck, I didn't even have an umbrella in my car.

Deciding that it was better to leave the papers I brought with me in the car, I went out, locked the cars' doors then I literally ran to the entrance but I wasn't as fast as necessary since I ended up wet from head to toe.

Just what I needed...!!!

The others were probably in their rooms so I didn't bother to check on them, knowing that it was 10 pm after all, and just walked quietly to my room, at least before Ann would lecture me about not wearing proper clothes for the cold weather.

I filled the bathtub with hot water, added few drops of the vanilla and strawberry liquid soap before I took off my wet clothes and entered the water, feeling my muscles relax although it was really hot.

I closed my eyes and put my head under water as I always did whenever I was stressed out or overthinking, enjoying the sound of bubbles' interaction and the piece that came with it. I reached a point when I could longer breathe so I lifted my head and exhaled, feeling my lungs close up.

I struggled a little bit to even my breathe but I managed to eventually, and that was my cue to wash my hair and body, and get out of the shower, especially that the water was becoming colder.

Wrapped in a towel around my body, I walked to one of my drawers to get underwear and one of my comfy and cuddly pajamas. As I opened the drawer, the handkerchief that Zack gave me, was on my display; I lifted it slowly and brought it to my nose, inhaling its deep scent, that hadn't even changed a bit.

'Few hours and Zack would be gone' I thought to myself, putting the small piece of fabric back in the drawer.

Once I was fully dressed, I rinsed my hair, I lifted the bed's quilt and snuggled myself under it, seeking for comfort but I didn't get it since I kept tossing from side to side like a possessed girl until I gave up after thirty minutes.

I just stared at the ceiling, thinking about what the future was holding for me, how was I ever going to forget Zack although he lived inside of me, and most importantly, how was I going to handle seeing Zack move on with his life and maybe meet a woman who could make him forget me.

'Stop it, you twisted the knot with your hands so untie it with your teeth' My inner voice snapped at me for being so pathetic.

'He'd be probably happy in Canada without all the Drama' I thought to myself as tears started brimming in my eyes 'Why couldn't I be selfish for once and put my happiness first? What would happen if I put everything aside and went to Zack?'

I knew exactly what would help me to sleep; I left my bed and headed to my walk-in closet where Zack's jacket was hanging for few weeks. I held it in my hands and brought it closer to my heart, remembering that day in the apartment when he stood behind me when I applying lipstick.

'I'm thinking of locking you in the house... I can't help it, you're stunning... I like that you're cold but shy, it gives me an urgent desire your lipstick, which is so tempting right now... I wonder what runs in men's heads when they see you, I don't think I can handle anyone else besides me, fantasying you like I do...You better start thinking of the future, OURS' Were his from that night before I ruined everything.

Shacking my head to dismiss those thoughts before I would break down, I inhaled deeply, holding the jacket in my hands, I went back to the bed, I got under my quilt again, pulled the jacket closer to me and concentrated on one person until I drifted to sleep, Zack.

I felt a gentle touch on my forehead, stroking my skin so I snapped my eyes open only to be met with Sam's crying face. Her eyebrows were furrowed as her hair was all over the place; she was shaking slightly from fear that was apparent in her eyes.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" I sat on the bed then I lifted her and put her on my lap.

"I had a nightmare but I couldn't wake my mother up, she was tired today" She answered me with a low voice.

"It's okay, I had one earlier too" I lied only to make her feel better.

"What did you do? Were you scared?" She looked at me, curiously.

"I struggled to go back to sleep but I wasn't scared" I wiped her tears "Nightmares aren't real, they're just bad dreams"

"Wait here, I will be right back" She jumped off my lap and ran out of the door.

Sam was the only one who always managed to lift my mood when I felt down throughout these last few weeks; she would just bring a bowel of popcorn and a Barbie movie, to entertain me and take away boredom, if I may use her words.

"I'm back" She yelled, running back to me with her favorite teddy bear.

"Mr. Honey is here" I smiled at her, brightly knowing well enough that since she was three, she never slept without him.

"Would you sleep well if he slept beside you?" She asked, her eyes trained on him.

"I don't know"

"You can have him" She put it on top of mt pillow.

"But I can't take it, he's yours" I told her, quite shocked at what she did.

"If you're happy for having him, I can live without him; it's okay" She grinned at me, widely and lovingly.

"You should never sacrifice your happiness for others" I caressed her cheeks tenderly "Not to the point of being selfish but don't give what is yours to others, just to make them happy, teach them happiness instead"

"Then why did you leave Zack alone and you're living with us again?" She questioned, catching me off guard.

"Where did you get that from?" I answered with a question since I knew she had a point.

"I am six but not stupid, and I might've heard you talking with grandpa" She replied, lowering her head again "I didn't mean to eavesdrop on you"

"Look, I did what I thought would make granpa comfortable and happy"

"But he never asked you to do that, he told you to make the wisest decision" She gestured at Mr. Honey "That's why I brought him for you, you didn't ask me but I thought it would make you happy"

"Be honest, will you be happy if I took him all for myself?" I felt a sudden energy boil in my veins.

'Give me the answer I want to hear' I chanted in my head, although it was weird seeking for advice from a six years old girl.

"I won't" She admitted, honestly "But you can sleep peacefully with him, you'll be happy! Mom says that you love me more than anyone, I have to give you something in return"

As the words left her mouth, few tears started falling down my cheek because not only have I made up my mind and decided what to do next, I realized that I had the most innocent sister in the word, who was wiser than the head of a Company; maybe we weren't related by blood but god only knew much I loved her.

"When have you grown so much?" I hugged tightly to my chest, planting a kiss on her forehead.

"Mom makes me read books at least twice a week, I learn from them new stuff" She whispered in my ear as if she was telling me something important "But don't tell mom I told you this"

"I won't" I reassured her before I stood up and tugged her under the quilt "Sleep here tonight, and you can have Mr. Honey back, I will look for my own happiness" I kissed the top of her head and added "Sleep tight my princess"

Lifting my phone, I checked what time was it, then I started thinking 'Would it be appropriate if I called someone at 5am, just because I needed his help'. However, I couldn't wait from my excitement so I looked through my contacts' list for his name and called him.

"Hello?" He grumbled at me after the third ring.

"Hey Oliver" I said, rubbing the back of my neck since I was quite embarrassed that I called him at 5am.

"Is everything alright?" He questioned, confusion laced in his voice.

"Yeah, don't worry" I retorted before he could assume things then I added urgently "I need your help to kidnap Zack"

"Hein?"

"I am kidding, I just want to talk to him before he leaves" I chuckled at his intake of breath "Do you have any idea when he leaves and where is he right now?"

"He leaves in an hour, using the private jet, and he is probably home"

"Home? Which one?" I asked, pretty confused since he could be in the Mansion, the apartment or the penthouse.

"That's for you to figure out" I could feel sarcasm in his voice "And I am glad you finally woke up"

"Thanks Oliver" I smiled even though he couldn't see me.

"I hope it's not too late cause Zack lost hope from you" He added then hanged up.

He couldn't lose hope, I wouldn't leave him.

Deciding that I had no time to get changed, I ran to my closet in order to get a coat because it was freezing outside, strode to my purse and got my dad's wallet, that had some cash in case I needed some, then I planted a kiss on Sam's forehead and hurried out of the room.

"Nadia! Where are you going?" Sam yelled when I was about to close the door.

"To get my happiness" I blowed a kiss on her and she giggled when she caught it "Sleep tight princess"

I was running like a headless chicken in the house, wearing a coat on top of pajamas with my hair looking like a bird's nest. But I couldn't care less about my appearance since Zack was the only thing that mattered at that moment.

How could I think that I could live without him, was beyond me...

I started the engine without even knowing where I was heading to. Which house did Zack feel like home in it? Surely not the Mansion since he couldn't have his full privacy there. So I was left between the penthouse and the apartment. Which one?

Then it hit me, the penthouse was never his home, it had always been his escape and his secret spot, as he told me when he took me there. Besides, even when we weren't together, Zack always referred to the apartment by home. Moreover, he left my things intact although it had been few weeks since I went there.

Couldn't that mean something?

With a new born confidence, I drove as quick as I could to the apartment since I had less than twenty minutes to catch him. When I arrived at the complex's parking lot, I saw Zack there so I ran as fast as my feet managed to, and headed to the reception where Collen was sitting.

"Mrs. Collins?" He stood up hurriedly.

"Is he here?" I asked because I had no time to waste.

"He just took a cab to the airport" He gestured at the road.

"When?"

"Two minutes ago"

"Thanks" I yelled when I was already running out of the building.

"Good luck" I heard him yell behind me.

'I could catch him' I chanted in my head, taking the airport's way, and dialing his number in the process but his phone was off 'Damn it'

I never speeded in my life as I was speeding that day, the roar of the car was frightening me but I didn't find it in me to lower my speed because I would be late and I wouldn't ever forgive myself. However, even if he left, I would follow him to Canada.

I was that desperate to talk to him...

I called the cabs' office and asked them to give me the car's registration number so that I would spot it easily. At first, they refused to give it to me but when I used my stern voice and the hidden Simon Cowell in me, the man gave it to me, willingly with the condition that I wouldn't tell anyone since it would be bad for their reputation.

Twenty minutes had passed and I still couldn't find the damn cab anywhere. I was losing my temper with ever passing cab that wasn't the one I was looking for, and it was frustrating. However, when I was starting to lose hope, I spotted it.

After I made sure that it was the cab I needed, I didn't bother myself to try to stop it like people in movies did by using the horn and other stuff because it never worked; I just passed it in the driveway, increasing my speed, then when I made sure that there was enough space between the cab and my car, I turned on the emergency lights and started reducing my speed, still watching if the cab was doing the same.

The moment I made sure that the cab stopped, I literally jumped out of the car and looked at Zack who descended as soon as he saw me. Relief washed trough me at the sight of him standing there.

I wasn't too late...

"Are you crazy?" The cab's driver yelled at me "You could cause an accident"

"It's okay, I know this crazy maniac" Zack walked around the cab, toward me.

"Crazy girlfriend?"

"No, crazy wife" Zack answered him, standing in front of me with a blank face "Have you lost your mind?"

"I'm not a crazy maniac, I'm just stupid" I locked eyes with him, realizing how much I missed them "So stupid for thinking that I could live without you"

"What are you saying?" He raised his eyebrow at me, still covering his emotions.

"I'm not signing the divorce papers" I replied, confidently although I was scared he would push me away.

"What makes you think that I still want you?"

"I don't know, I guess I have to find out" I smirked at him, mischievously before I stepped on my tiptoes and kissed him, just like he did in the hospital.

'His reaction would give me the answer of his question' I thought to myself, as soon as my lips met his.

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/*NADIA WOKE UP LADIES AND GENTLEMEN*/

/*By the way, Sam's nightmare, her words to Nadia, and Nadia's reaction, are all based on a true story that happened to me fourteen years ago, and I wanted to add it*/

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