Tsukishima Kei || How?

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"This... Us... There is no us anymore," he could feel the venom seethe from your tongue and enter his lungs.

It stung. It stung like hell.

Yet, why didn't he stop you, why didn't he tell you to stay, why..? Was he too prideful to even hold onto the best thing that has ever happened to him?

No, he was angry. He let his malice take over. How foolish.

"Fine, see if I care. Do you really think that I'd care? Sorry if I gave you the wrong impression, darling," He scoffed.

Your head dropped, your hands were shaking violently as you clawed at the wooden door frame. The growing headache only gave you immense pain.

"You're going to cry now? So is this how it's going to end?"

Immediately the pain disappeared along with the anger, the anguish and the yearning. Gone.

"I (L/n) (F/n), will not waste a damn tear on a self-centered piece of shit like you," You raised your head slowly. Your eyes had lost its shimmer, but it still pierced through his skull. Empty, as if you were looking through an empty void.

"(F/n)—."

"Goodbye, darling," you smiled. A smile cold enough to make him unable to move or make a sound.

~

A month passed, the pain was still the same. Nothing has changed. He hardly got sleep only to be woken up in the middle of the night remembering the look on your face the night you left.

It was truly terrifying. The glint in your eyes the way you curled up your fingers into a fist with the full intent of breaking his nose. It's no doubt that you hated him with every fiber in your body in that moment. He feared that he'll never feel the same way he felt when he was with you.

Not a word, not a text , you didn't even spare him a glance. He would occasionally walk passed you in the hall. Pretending that everything was fine when really it felt as if his heart had started bleeding out.

You looked fine. You seemed happy. Was your life better off without him?

"Yo, Tsukishima! What's wrong with (L/n)-san? She seems, off," Hinata pranced over to the blonde.

"O-Oi! Hinata!" Yamaguchi crosses his arms desperately to stop him from mentioning you.

"They broke up," Kageyama stated bluntly, "You haven't figured it out yet?"

"Kageyama!!" Yamaguchi ran over to grab his shoulders and shook him vigorously.

"What."

"It doesn't matter," Tsukishima turned his heel and walked away as Yamaguchi followed closely behind.

"Tsukki, you shouldn't give up on (L/n)-san," He finally broke the eery atmosphere.

"It's useless."

"That's what you think, but Hinata is right, she hasn't been herself lately either. A part of me is telling me that she's waiting," Yamaguchi stood in front of his taller friend, "waiting for you."

~

He doesn't know why. Why was he still dialing your number? Why was he listening to the ringing on his phone? Why was he even calling you this late?

Yet, you answered. Why?

"(F/n)?" He could only hear silence on the other side of the phone, but he knew you were there; listening.

"Sorry for calling this late.. This will be the last time, I swear," He grabbed he bedsheets in his fists, "can we talk, at the park, please?"

The seconds of silence were the longest he had ever felt.

"Meet you there in ten minutes," her voice was hush. He heard you mutter a quick 'bye' before hanging up the phone.

~

He was surprised to see you standing there before he was. You were staring at the dark sky above you as if you were searching for a single star.

"Hey.." He walked over to you and sat down on a bench next to the light post you were leaning against.

The distance between you and him was far, but the closest you had been since you and him had broken up.

"How? Just tell me how..." removes his glasses and ran his hand through his hair, "I heard you doing okay, that's good, but how do you do it? I'm doing everything I can, but I still can't stop think about you.. God I'm so pathetic. I care, I've always cared and I've never been good at showing it. I let my anger get the best of me and I hurt you, I'm sorry. I don't expect you to ever forgive me," it wasn't like Tsukishima to show any vulnerability, "did you get help..? Did you just do it all on your own?..Did you fall in love with someone else..? I just want to know how..."

"Do you really think I'm doing fine?" You voice was below a whisper but enough for him to hear.

"What?"

"I'm doing fine? Is that what you think?" you turned to face him, "What if I told you I wasn't?"

He remained silent not knowing how to respond to you.

"Well, I'm not just fine. I feel miserable Kei.. and I don't know how! I don't even know if I can feel okay. It's not even about what you said, even though I'm still mad about it! No, actually it is, I'm pissed off Tsukishima!"

'Yell, scream, shout, be angry with me. Please, let it out,' He thought to himself as he took in every word that you've been holding onto for so long.

"How could you even say that to me?! I didn't want us to end, deep down I was hoping that you didn't want it to end either. Right when I thought that you hated me for all this time you bring me here. I'm so confused Kei! I spent two weeks feeling nothing! Nothing made me happy nothing made me sad. I was so numb to everything!" Tears ran endlessly down the sides of your face, but he could tell that the light in your eyes were starting to come back, "after that I was always so exhausted, I barely had enough strength to pull myself out of bed every morning. I cried every night and I never felt better after doing so. I don't want to feel like this anymore! I love you Kei, no matter how many times I feel like socking you in the face, I still love you.."

Tsukishima simply raised to his feet and pulled you into his chest as your tears soaked through his sweater.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I love you, I messed up."

"Yeah, I know you did Stingyshima," you wrapped your arms around him in return.

"We're okay?"

"Yeah we're okay."

"Oh and Kei?"

"Hm."

"Can you take back what you said... when you called me?"

"...Seriously? No, maybe you'll get more sleep if I don't call you that late."

"HEY! TAKE IT BACK! YOU'RE THE ONE TO TALK ABOUT LACK OF SLEEP!"

"Okay! Stop pulling at my face! I take it back!"

"Good!" You pecked him on the lips and smiled brightly, "Now, carry me home."

"You have legs," He simply dropped you onto the floor and began to walk away from you.

"Rude," you crossed your arms before running after him.

A/n
not the biggest fan of this one ;-;
i'll do my best to make it up to you guys
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SHSJHD I THINK I ALSO MADE HIM OOC
It's not easy writing about Tsukishima
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Still love him nonetheless.

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