It was summer vacation, but even so, you had ups and downs as much as you did during the school year. And the past couple of days you seemed to be drowning in your own self-doubt and despair.

Shifting your eyes to the time on your screen, it was already 1:00 AM. You sighed as you continued to scroll through social media. It was one of those nights again. The nights when you were left alone in the dark to come face-to-face with your impeding thoughts. You did everything you could to distract yourself but it was worst than ever.

"I need to go outside," you curled up in your covers and laid down your phone. You gathered up your strength to pull yourself from the soft mattress.

As you stepped outside, you found yourself walking down the streets mindlessly. All you could think about was the negative opinions that you labeled yourself.

You found yourself staring at the blank wooden door in front of you. You weakly lifted your arm and knocked softly.

"...(F/n)?" A familiar voice was heard from the person who had answered the door. "How did you get here?"

"I.. walked."

"You shouldn't be in the streets at this time, it's not safe."

"I know.. I just–"

"It's okay, come in."

You trailed behind him as he walked up to his bedroom. He turned off his counsel for his game and turned off his tv which dimly lit the dark room. He turned towards you as concern filled his expression.

You sat on his bed and laughed bitterly at yourself, "This is so ridiculous, I'm sorry I bothered you so late at night."

"It's okay, I wasn't sleeping anyways," He plopped himself next to you.

"You should sleep earlier, stop playing so much video games so late at night."

"I should be saying that to you," he stated bluntly.

"Hah, I know I know."

"Something is wrong, what is it?" He asked turning himself around to face you.

"What? No! I'm okay!" You forced a smile, "I just wanted to pay a visit."

"Stop saying your okay when you clearly not (F/n). Let me help you."

You froze and the emotions that you've been holding back for so long had finally broken down. Tears quickly ran down your sleepless eyes.

"Kenma," you're voice quivered through your sobs. You desperately tried to control your emotions but you couldn't.

He remained silent as he gently held your hand in his. He knew that he shouldn't speak, at least not right now. He listened to you, he always listened and he never left.

"I just feel so hopeless and pathetic you know. It's so dumb! The more I think about it the more I realize how true it is. Bad luck is just my life I guess right?! I feel so alone. Even though I have such amazing people in my life, I feel like I don't live up to their expectations and they're just there out of pity. And I've been terrible. I've been a horrible girlfriend, but I love you so much. And I feel like I don't deserve to have you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to see you, so without even thinking I came here. I'm sorry. Sometimes I just really really hate myself."

A soft cloth was suddenly placed over your eyes. He used his sleeve to wipe away the tears from your eyes. He observed the dark circles under your beautiful eyes. He hated seeing you in this state. It made him feel helpless and hurt. If only he could take away your pain completely.

"You aren't alone. I'm here," he tried to give you a small smile but his hands were visibly shaking in yours.

"Kenma? Hey, it's okay," You squeezes his hand while you moved his blonde strands of hair from his face.

"I don't know what to do. I want to help you, but I don't know how. Sorry.."

You burst into more tears making him even more anxious than he was before. You quickly wrapped your arms around his waist and cried into his chest.

"Stop it! Just you being here is more than enough!" You cried clinging onto his shirt. His arms wrapped around your shoulders in response. He nuzzled his head into your neck making you calm down.

"Sorry that I came here without a warning. Don't worry, I feel a lot better, I can walk myself home." You released yourself from his embrace and stood up from his bed, "I'll talk to you again tomorrow!"

As you were about to leave, you felt a tug on your shirt.

"Wait, you shouldn't be roaming around at this hour. Just stay here for tonight." he avoided your gaze.

"No! It's–"

"Please," his cat-like eyes stared up at you making you smile softly.

"Okay," you fell back onto the bed and tuned yourself towards your cute boyfriend, "I said embarrassing stuff didn't I."

He placed his forehead against yours and shook his head, "It wasn't embarrassing, I'm glad you were able to tell me."

"Thank you, Kenma," you moved your head to his chest allowing him to rest his chin on top of your head.

"I don't say it enough but, I love you, (F/n)."

A/n
HI, it's been awhile. Kind of.
I've been busy lately. Especially with summer school. yay.
It's literally almost 3am, whoops.
Hope you enjoyed! Just a small reminder, I'm still open for requests and i'll be more than happy to do it.
also because i'm running out of ideas

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