Bokuto Koutarou || Timid

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You were shy.

Extremely shy.

You were always self-conscious about how others perceived you. You knew that they didn't care but it still bothered you like an itch you couldn't scratch.

The way you talked, your personality, your laugh, your smile, your image, everything.

You wore sweaters or jackets almost everyday to hide your body because you always felt insecure. You wish you had the confidence.

You sat down in your desk and put on your earphones. You were normally fairly early to go to school since you enjoyed the silence. However, today was different. The total opposite.

Not even two minutes had passed and you could hear faint but fast footsteps coming down the hall. As they got louder, a loud squeak echoed and the room to the classroom swiftly slid open and you saw something unusual.

An... owl? Human.. owl?

It all happened in a flash. His body crashed into a desk beside yours causing your chair to also topple over. A sharp pain buzzed through your body as your head hit the desk behind you.

"SCORE! HERE I AM AKAASHI!!" The male stood up and raised his arms. "Eh?" He glanced around the room and saw no sign of the second year.

"Ow..." You whimpered rubbing the back of your head.  The owl like male turned around to see your small figure on the floor.

"AH! IM SORRY!"

"N-no no! I-I'm okay!" You reassured nervously.

"I apologize on his behalf," you saw a friend of yours walk into the classroom.

"Akaashi-kun?"

"Hello (L/n)-san," he smiled kindly. "Bokuto, wrong classroom."

"What?!" Bokuto ruffled his hair. "DAMNIT!"

"I'm just going to get some ice at the infirmary. U-uhm bye!" You sat up quickly and began to walk out the classroom until someone grabbed your wrist.

"Let me take you!" Bokuto proudly stated as he pointed to himself. "It's my fault anyways."

"I-it's really nothing Bokuto-kun!" You reassured smiling back at him but he completely ignored your calls and dragged you to the infirmary.

"(L/n) right?" He gave you a cold pack to ease your head pain.

"Oh! Y-yeah! (L/n) (F/n), third year," you laughed nervously.

'God (F/n) sound so dumb right now' you thought.

"Bokuto Koutarou! Class 1, third year, ace and captain of the volleyball team, one of the best, number 4!" He chided.

It made you laugh at his silly antics but you immediately covered your mouth with your hands.

"I–I I'm s–,"

"Why'd you stop?" His face dropped to a frown.

"N-no! No... It's just.." You couldn't explain it yourself. It was something that was natural for you to do.

"Don't hide your laugh. Personally I really like it! You look better when you smile!" He smiled brightly.

"Oh, thank you!" You stared at the ground trying to hide your heated face. "W-we should head back! Class is starting soon!"

Bokuto nodded as the both of you walked out of the infirmary.

"Hey! We should hang out during lunch! All the guys are doing other club activities and i don't feel like sitting next to jerks," he beamed.

"Sure!"

"Rooftop?"

"Sounds good."

"See ya (L/n)!"

"Bye!" You turned around only to be spooked by your best friend.

"You know, I'm surprised that you found a guy before me," (B/F/N) smirked. "But I'm also a bit confused. Why Bokuto?"

"What?! It's nothing like that! We just met not too long ago," You huffed.

"You're red," she poked your cheeks.

"Something happened. So what, we talked a bit. That's all."

"Alrighty..." She snickered. "I cant meet up during lunch today."

"Wait! Why?!"

"Detention," she winked at you. "I kinda told the teacher off yesterday and skipped after school detention."

"Of course you did," you sighed.

The warning bell echoed through the halls.

"Time to go!"

Class was boring as always and the same troublesome students got on your nerves.

The bell rang indicating it was lunch. You nervously walked up to the rooftop. You scanned your surroundings and saw no sign of him anywhere.

You felt anxious.

'What if he tricked me?'
'What if he doesn't come at all?'
'Should I leave?'

You ruffled your hair a bit until someone abruptly swung the door open.

"OH MY GOD," You flinched.

"ITS LUNCH!" Bokuto declared. "HEY (L/N)!"

"H-hey, Bokuto!" You smiled nervously.

The both of you sat down against wall and pulled out your bentos.

"How was class?" He spoke with his mouth full.

"Same as always I guess," you shrugged.

"My sensei threw a fit cause I was loud," he chuckled. "Hey, you should come to our practice one day!"

"No I'd only be a distraction," you reassured.
"Thank you for the offer though!"

"NO WAY! I'D BE SO FUN IF YOU CAME!" He  grabbed your hands making you flustered. "PLEASE COME! EVEN IF ITS ONLY FOR A FEW MINUTES!"

"B-Bokuto?!"

"Can you?"

"I guess so.." You sighed.

"YESS!" He threw his arms in the air.

"Um. You–" you pointed to his fallen bento on the floor. He saw the mess and his face fell.

"It's okay! You can have the rest of mine! I'm not hungry,"
you offered him your bento.

"Are you sure?" He reluctantly took the box from your hands.

"Of course. You need to have enough energy for practice right?" You smiled kindly.

"T-thank you!" He quickly took the box and turned his head.

'Did.. Did he just stutter?"

The rest of lunch was filled with laughter and dumb conversations. You felt so happy..

The bells rang throughout the school.

"We should get going," You suggested standing up and dusting your uniform.

"Yeah, if only lunch was longer," He groaned. You snickered lending him a hand. He accepted it but you realized how much strength he had.

'Oh shoot'

You fell forward crashing into his chest as both of you were now on the floor.

"Sorry!" You hopped to your feet. He bursted into a laughing fit.

"D-don't laugh!" Blood rushed to your face.

"S-sorry!" He laughed.

"I'm going to class!" You turned your heel and ran down the staircase.

"Wait up!" He hopped to his feet and chased after you.  "I'll see you later right?"

"Maybe," you smiled as you walked off.

"You better!"

[timeskip]

You walked towards the volleyball gym and heard the squeaks that their shoes made and the ball making an impact on the court.

You quietly slipped in through the door and sat in the corner of the gym in hope that no one would notice. However, he noticed quite quickly.

"(L/n)?" His golden eyes locked with yours.

'damnit'

You sent him a small wave.

Every time he hit a spike he looked over at you and smiled.

'He's really good' you thought to yourself as you quietly clapped for him.

However, his spikes began to become blocked. One after the other.

You noticed how frustrated he looked and you felt bad for the guy.

You were startled when he fell to his knees.

"Don't set to me anymore! I'm a terrible ace. I don't deserve to be your captain," He sulked.

On impulse you ran down the bleachers to ensure he was okay.

"Don't worry (L/n). It's just one of his mood swings," Akaashi stated. "Bokuto, take a break and come back when u feel better."

"Are you okay?" You sat beside Bokuto.

"I disappointed you," He stared at his feet in defeat.

"What? No way! You're actually great at volleyball! I've been watching you and it's amazing how you could always execute a perfect spike. We all make mistakes right? So don't worry if you get blocked a few times. If you fall you always have to get up right?" You patted his hand.

"Y-you really mean that?" He looked up and faced you.

"W-well yeah! Did.. did I say too much?"

"OF COURSE NOT! THANK YOU (L/N)!" He cupped your hands in his.

"E-eh?!"

"AKAASHI! ONE MORE TOSS!" He stood up and ran into the court leaving you a blushing mess.

"Did he recover on his own?" One of the guys stated.

"It's probably because of (L/n)," Akaashi sighed but let out a small smile.

The rest of practice went smoothly and when the long practice ended you stood up and made your way to the exit.

"(L/n)! Hold up!" Bokuto ran to your side. "Let's walk together!"

You nodded as you walked out of the gym.

"Thank you for helping me at practice," he rubbed the back of his head.

"Don't worry about that! You did great," you complimented.

"You know it's hard to believe that I didn't know you through our first and second year."

"I wouldn't be surprised really. I'm basically invisible in the crowd," you laughed it off. "Besides who would want to try to get to know me. No one cares enough you know.."

"Don't say that! Well, I'm glad I got to know you," He declared.

"L-likewise," you laughed. "well this is where we part ways. "Thank you Bokuto!"

"Bye (F/n)!"

You stopped in your tracks and turned around to see Bokuto walk home.

'He called me by my first name..'

[timeskip]

You arrived home and immediately saw several text messages from your best friend.

[B/f/n]: So how was the date?
[B/f/n]: Y'all are so cute together. uwu
[B/f/n]: SPILL HONEY!
You: Nothing happened.
[B/f/n]: What lies.
You: He's a replacement for you.
[B/f/n]: Well that's rude >:(
You: I'm joking!
[B/f/n]: You love me more than him right?
You: I DON'T LOVE HIM
[B/f/n]: Oh please. Don't give me that crap
(F/n). Admit it! You have a crush on him.
You: We barely met!
[B/f/n]: If you think hard enough you'll realize it too!
You: Ugh. I'm going to bed.
[B/f/n]: Goodnight! <3

You threw your phone on your bedside table. There was no way you liked him. He's kind and all but you only met.

Your heart felt as if it was beating 100mph.

'(F/n)! Stop!'

You curled up with your pillow. You couldn't even fall asleep.

You knew it. You liked Bokuto. You felt sorrow fill your body as you came to this realization.

You didn't want this. He could never feel the same way. If he knew, you wouldn't be able to have those special moments you shared with him anymore.

This is when you decided it was best to ignore him until your feelings go away.

completely.

The next morning was the same however you refused to go to school early as you normally did. You left the classroom quickly and ran to a hidden place where you ate lunch with your best friend. You left school early to avoid any conversation.

This went on for a week.

Little did you know Bokuto was very unhappy with it. He began to feel insecure himself. It was something unnatural to him.

You received a message from [B/f/n].

[B/f/n]: Let's eat lunch on the rooftop! Your little corner is so edgy.
You: No.
[B/f/n]: I swear (F/n)... No one is up there. He eats with his team in the cafeteria.
You: Fine. Just for today okay?
[B/f/n]: Deal!

The bell rang and you quickly ran up to the rooftop hoping no one saw you. You opened the door and looked around for your best friend.

'Where in the world–'

"Hey (L/n)!" Bokuto came out from behind a wall.

"O-oh! Bokuto! I haven't seen you in a long time!" You scratched you arm nervously.

'God dammit [B/f/n]'

"Don't give me that." He said sternly making you flinch from his sudden tone. Suddenly tears pricked the corner of your eyes. You felt guilty for some reason.

"I-I'm s-sorry. It's just.." Your voice wavered. "I don't know what to say okay!"

"Just tell me why you've been avoiding me! Why so suddenly!" He questioned.

"I don't know!"

"You know!"

"Okay! But I just can't say it!" You admitted. "There's no way I can say it."

"Just tell me please. You don't even understand how much it hurt me!" His eyebrows furrowed. "We were on good terms, then you just suddenly do everything you can to get away from me?"

"I like you okay!" Tears fell from your face. "I was afraid. You don't even feel the same way. I didn't want it to be like that. I'm sorry!"

You were about to leave when someone hugged you tightly.

"Who said you had the right to determine how I feel?" He let out a breathy chuckle. "You really are insecure aren't you."

You stayed silent as you let out quiet sobs.

"Look at me," he turned you around and wiped your tears. "I love you too, (F/n)."

"I'm sorry I don't know how to do this," You muffled your face into his shirt.

"Your so weird," He laughed. "Let's go out sometime!"

"S-sure."

He kissed the top of your head and hugged you tightly.

"Can you thank [B/f/n] for me?"

"I swear, I'm going to kill her."

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A/n
This was bad. This is bad. And Oh my gOd this was bad.
Sorry he was OOC (out of character)
I NEVER WROTE ANYTHING BOKUTO RELATED.
IM SORRY.
IM A SAD PERSON WHO LIKES WRITING SAD STORIES.
anyways there's probably going to be an angst up next.
maybe kageyama?
who knows, but if you have a suggestion leave a comment or PM me.
i should be sleeping.
i have school tomorrow BUT YALL I HAVE THANKSGIVING BREAK NEXT WEEK SO IMMA TRY TO BE ACTIVE.
that's all
sorry if there's any grammar mistakes.
i only briefly read over it because i'm ashamed of this trash creation...

love ya!

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