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Onika's pov.

I put Alex to bed and wrapped a comforter around him and kissed him gently on the forehead.

After that I started pacing around the room in anxiety. Agustin is not back yet. It's already past mid night. I hope everything is fine. Did he do something reckless? Is he okay?

Where is he?

When will he be back?

I just hope he had not hurt himself or anyone for that matter.

What was adding to my anxiety was the lethal decision I took today. I don't know how I am going to act on it. It feels so wrong deep down in my heart but at the same time I do realise I can't wait for a lifetime for Agustin to realise his mistake. If he had not realised it yet probably he is never going to realise it.

I just hope he doesn't see right through my act because if he does.....then god help me, even thinking about it make me tremble with fear.

I took few calming breath. If I be like this it won't take him a minute to figure out what's going on in my head.

Oh God! Stop fearing him so much Onika! I snapped at myself. He can't do anything. He can't do anything...I consoled myself and repeated it two three times to make my brain believe it.

The success of this plan completely depends on the way I execute it. So I have got to be strong...I looked at Alex and mumbled to myself..for Alex.

That's all it took to strengthen my resolve.

I was brought out of my reverie as the clock hit 1 o'clock. Where are you Agustin?

I decided, I can't just wait like this. As soon as I thought to call Jacob for help, I heard the sound of the front gate opening. May be Agustin is here, I thought and I ran to the balcony to see if it is Agustin.

What I saw shocked me, two of the guards helping Agustin out of the car and literally carrying a nearly unconscious Agustin towards the mansion.

I immediately ran down the stairs, panicking. Oh my god what's wrong? Please let him be all right, I prayed silently.

I spotted the guards and ran to them.

"What is wrong with him?" I asked them with urgency in my voice.

They bowed their head in respect, and replied" Ma'am, sir drank too much... An..and passed out."

I looked at them wide eyed.

Drank too much? That has never happened before. He always knows his limits. He always likes to be the one in control. He never drinks more than what he can handle.

I looked at Agustin. He was mumbling some incoherent words. The only thing I could understand out of it is..... Onika.

My heart clenched painfully at the site. He looked like he had aged years in just a span of few hours.

I hurriedly Instructed the guards to carry Agustin to his room, they lay him down on his bed and left.

I took off his shoes and socks and wrapped a linen around him. I looked at him for few more minutes, before I turned to switch off his bed light. That's when I felt a hand wrap around my wrist, taking me by surprise. I turned to find out Agustin looking at me with so much intensity and pain field gaze, sending a shiver down my spine. Every hair on my neck stood erect by the intensity of it.

He gave a tug to my hand making me stumble on my feet and loose my balance and fell on him, chest to chest. I hurried to get up from the uncomfortable position but before I can do that he wrapped his hand around my waist, pasting me to him.

"Onika.." he said in a husky voice. His breath directly fanning on my face. Even his breath is smelling like alcohol.

Then the most unexpected thing happened...he gave me a full blown smile...like that of a carefree child. Grinning from ear to ear.

"It's a dream, isn't it? You in my arms. Like a dream..."he trailed off as if in a daze, talking to himself.

Then suddenly he inched his face towards me so that our nose were nearly touching. I put both my hands on this chest to put some space between us.

My right palm lying just above his heart...I could feel his heart, beating erratically beneath it.

His smile fell and his face suddenly turned serious. He looked lost deep in thoughts.

"I regret what I did...more than anything or anyone. I so casually asked for a chance...a chance, just two simple words....but hardest thing to earn, now I realise..." He closed his eyes for a few seconds then continued speaking...his voice getting down an octave with ever word he speaks..as if ever word is costing him too much.

"How I want that one day I wake up to a morning knowing that it was all just a nightmare and right now you in my arms is not any dream but reality..our reality...." His voice trailed off to end in barely a whisper.

A lone tear slipped from the side of his eyes, not going unnoticed by me.

I can feel my heart sink in my ribcage and guilt rise in me like a storm.

"I want you to wake up in my arms every day...I want the first thing I lay my eyes on to be you and only you...." he paused for a moment to catch his ragged breathing. "You know what I can do to see that happening?" He asked.

And I shook my head vigorously in negetive. I couldn't speak a word my heart was literally struck in my throat blocking my phonation capability.

I don't want to know....please, just stop this Agustin. Stop killing me like this.

He chuckled and replied anyways." Anything...." He says,

I looked at him with disappointed and agony. This anything is anything that suits you Agustin, we both know that. I just don't want to go through the same conversation again and again...

" I remember once you said.. you wish I never layed my eyes on you..."he gave me a sad smile and continued "while you are the only thing my eyes search for..... the day I laid my eyes on you was the best day of my life..I can trade my soul to bring that day back again and start fresh with you...."

"Bringing back that day won't change anything Agustin...it was not the circumstances that separated us..it was you. Circumstances can always be created..if not this then something else....what is needed to make a relationship stable is love, trust and respect. No matter how many times you start fresh if you don't have those for you partner..it will always end in the same disaster." I tried to make him understand.

He let out a defeated sigh " People can change Onika. I learned from my mistake.. I won't repeat them again....I know I did an unforgivable mistake....but I love you to pieces....."

I also don't want to repeat my mistake again, Agustin. I also loved you to pieces..and braking me into pieces is what you did.

"I know, I am the reason behind your pain, behind your tears.....I..I.. feel....so so helpless when I see you in tears..they Peirce right through my heart....I know you don't believe me....and I have done nothing to earn your trust, absolutely nothing.." he paused for a moment.

Looking directly into my eyes he said." I want you to stop hurting...I have caused you enough pain.... I can't see you like this...so..so I have deci..." Before he can complete his sentence he passed out.

I know he is not going to remember any of this in the morning.
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Agustin's pov...

I woke up with a throbbing headache. I opened my eyes slowly and my eyes fell on the aspirin tablets beside the lamp. I furrowed my brows in confusion. Maybe the maids kept it there.

I have never seen them this thoughtful before, not that I am complaining....I am really grateful for it. I need them more than anything right now. Other than Onika! My subconscious snapped at me and I just rolled my eyes..yeah other than her. Oh god I guess it's still the alcohol speaking.

I went to the washroom to freshen up. I am a complete mess right now. I turned on the shower and let the cold water hit me and tried to recall what happened last night.

I couldn't remember anything clearly. I just remember laying in some pub and taking the most difficult decision of my life of letting Onika go and then passing out..I can't remember a thing that happened after that...I have no damn idea how I reached here. Then there are some flashes of Onika's worried face but I am very much sure I must have imagined it.

When should I tell her? Should I tell her tonight itself....that she is free to go? How I want to delay it..like for forever.... but I know that will just increase the pain for both of us. Anyways whether I do it today or after two years it is gonna leave me devastated there is no other way round so there is no use in increasing her miseries as well in an attempt to avoid the inevitable. It's better that I do it sooner than later at least she won't have to suffer then.

So tonight it is.

With that thought I got out of the shower and got dressed in my daily office clothes. I am already running late so I hurried towards the car.

Before I can get in and drive off, I saw Onika running towards me in full speed.

"Wait!" She shouted, then took some time to catch her breath.

Then what she said next made me doubt that whether I am awake or still dreaming.

"You going to office, right? Can you drop me as well? Am getting late and my boss is not a big fan of late comers."

I looked around to confirm that she is talking to me. But there was no one around there other than her and myself. I pinched myself to make sure I am not dreaming.

"So it's a yes or no?" She asked impatiently.

"Ye...yes..I ...I don't see why not." I somehow managed to say keeping my shocked self at a bay.

And the next thing I know is, she is already sitting in the car.

What the fuck is happening over here?

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