[ NOTE : I'm going to try and do this justice, but I'm not sure it's possible! so please, bare with me here]

The last 2 weeks went by very quickly. After Mexico, Max and I flew back to the Netherlands, to have some time with our family. We stayed with my parents for a few days and stayed with Max's dad a few days.

Much to Max's annoyance, but he never said anything, Victoria stayed with Roy for a couple of days. I completly understand Max. They are not together for a long time and for Victoria to stay there with him, but then I think back at me staying in Monaco with Max. Which is about the same time. Maybe we were 'together' for a while longer, but that was because Max had to travel.

We also hung out with Sebastian and Femke one day, as Sebastian came home with Femke to meet her parents. Max en Seb talked through the whole Mexico situation and they're okay. Which I'm glad about, because I don't want Max losing friends.

But now we're in Brazil and it's Sunday, race day. Max qualified 4th, right behind Kimi Raikkonen en in front of Sebastian. Daniel is behind Sebastian, qualifying 6th.

But now we're all getting ready for the race. It's raining, which makes Max happy, but me even more nervous than I was. Sure, Max likes the rain, but even he can make a mistake and crash.

The cars are on the grid, but we're missing one. Grosjean has crashed his car while driving towards the grid. That got me even more nervous. Race Control decided to start behind the safety car. That is a good thing, because Max's car was standing on 2 white lines, which means he didn't have good grip.

Everyone gets into their car and the last lights go out. The safety car drives away and so does every car.  I am glad when I see that Max is the only one trying to find grip on every part of the circuit. All the other cars are just driving behind Lewis, but Max is trying different lines.

As usual, I'm sitting next to Christian and Femke. I can see Femke frowning, answering Daniel.

"I don't know what he's doing" she answers and looks at me. I just shrugg. I know Daniel is our team mate, but he secured 3rd place in the drivers championship. Max needs every point he can get. I'm not going to give away Max's secret.

After a good few laps, the safety car finally goes in and off they go. Within the first corner, Max overtakes Kimi.

"Great job, Max! P3 is yours right now!" I say through the radio, extremely excited, but still scared. Soon enough, he overtakes Nico from the outside. The fucking outside. No one does that and Max just does it on freaking Rosberg.

"That was awesome, Max! P2!" I yell.

"I can maybe even challange Lewis!" Max replies. I look at the times, seeing Lewis isn't that far away.

"It's possible, but be carefull, please" I tell him, my girlfriend side coming up.

"I will!" Max replies, speeding up where he thinks he can. A couple of laps later and I have a heart attack.

Max's car goes into a 90 degrees angle and I gasp, hard. I can feel Femke's eyes on me. My eyes stay put on the car, which slowly comes back and Max lets go of his brakes, which makes the car go back to normal. I slowly feel my heart beating again as I see that Max even stays in front of Rosberg. I let out a breath that I was holding.

"Well held, Max! Thank you for the heart attack" I say over the radio. I expect a reply saying how everything is fine, but he says something different.

"Yeah, heartbeat went a bit higher there" he replies. I giggle. He almost never admits that he is even close to be scared in the car. But this caused even nerves for him.

Then, Marcus Ericsson crashes, right in front of the pit, while I boxed Max. Max can luckily go past him and right after him, the pit line closes. Max goes out on Intermediates. Daniel comes in as well, but he went in after the closing, so he is under investigation.

The safety car comes out and Max is stuck 5th position. A couple of laps later, the safety car goes in and they're racing again. Within the first lap, Kimi crashes, barely avoiding Max. I place my hands in front of my mouth, having yet another heart attack. Red flag comes out and everyone has to come into the pitlane. Max is now in P3. I get up from the pitwall and walk towards Max.

He comes walking from his car to the garage and I quickly go in after him. During the race, media is allowed to come in the garage, so I can't do anything girlfriend related to Max. But I do walk towards him and hug him.

"I thought you were going to crash there" I say to him. Max chuckles lightly, as Christian and Helmut both come and stand with us.

"Me too actually, but I felt the car pulling back to front because I pushed down the brakes. Then released them and off I was" Max explains the situation from his perspective. I nod, listening to his stories closely.

We soon hear the signal we're starting again. I kiss Max's cheek and walk with Christian to the pitwall. They start once again behind the safety car, who drives a handfull of laps, before another red flag is waved around. I groan, getting annoyed. I understand Charlie Withing has to think about the safety of the drivers, but I've heard some of them say we can race.

"Why the red flag, we can race?" Max asks over the radio.

"I don't know, Max, we'll hear more soon" I tell him as everyone comes back into the pitlane. Luckily, the second red flag goes away again and they start behind the safety car. Max is back on Intermediates as is Daniel. Daniel comes back into the pit to change to Full Wets, still during the safety car. Just as that happens, I hear Max's voice.

"I can't drive like this. The car is slipping away in sector 3"

"Do you want to change back to Full Wets?" I ask him.

"We're waiting for an accident to happen like this" he replies.

"Okay, box this lap" I tell him, getting everyone ready for Full Wets. Max comes into the pit and I see him falling back to P16 when he goes back on track. Soon enough, the Safety Car goes back in and they can race again. Soon enough, Max comes to P11, right behind Daniel, who is fighting Daniil.

I can see he is way quicker than Daniel is. He knows it, I know it, Daniel knows it. So, when he has the chance, he drives around the outside of Daniel, going to the inside in the next corner, securing P10.

Soon enough, he does the same to Daniil, overtaking him and taking P9.

"Great job, Max" I tell him. He closes in on Ocon in the next lap, getting ready to overtake him for P8. He does it like he is supposed to, not even taking a risk.

"P8, good job. Next one is Nasr" I tell him. Max soon closes in on Nasr, overtaking him amazingly as well. I shake my head at him, seeing him moving up in the positions. I look at Christian, who has the same reaction as me.

"Nicely done. Next one is Hulkenberg" I say. And off course, he closes in on Hulkenberg as well, getting ready to overtake him. He does so without any problems, moving onto Sainz. I smile, seeing that if he gets past Sainz, Sebastian is next. He can take back the points he stole from him in Mexico.

Max overtakes Sainz, going to P5.

"Jezus Max, P5, next one is Vettel" I say. I only get a chuckle back from Max. I see how he gets closer and closer to Vettel. I know he won't make it as easy as the others have done.

He gets close to Vettel and I feel the nerves in my stomach. Max tries to goes to the outside, but Vettel puts his car there, so Max crosses to the inside and Vettel can't change anymore. Max goes down the inside, slightly pushing Vettel, but not to much. Off course, Sebastian says Max pushed him off the track, but nothing happened.

"Great job, amazingly done. Next one is Perez for P3" I tell Max. I look at Christian, who is looking at the monitors with wide eyes. For some damn reason, this doesn't surprise me. I know Max can drive like this. He likes the rain for some reason.

In lap 67, he crosses the line and the purple time comes up. Fastest lap time. I smile, writing it down, not wanting to tell Max yet. If it stays like this, he breaks another record.

Within a few laps, he is close to Perez. I can't imagine what Perez must be feeling. He propably heard from his team that Max was coming.

From all the overtakes, Perez was the hardest one and Max caused another heart attack. He puts his car on the outside of Perez in a corner, but Perez doesn't back off, so Max drives on the curbs, slowly slipping away, but luckily keeping the car with him as he now goes down the inside, twice, finally overtaking Perez for P3. When Max is pulled slightly away, I see that there is only one lap to go, so I decide to not say anything to him yet.

He soon crosses the finish line in 3rd place.

"What the hell, Max! You did an amazing job. Caused a few heart attacks here and there, but overall an brilliant race. You even got fastest lap of the race, which means another record broken. I'm so proud of you, Max"

"Ah o my god! That was awesome! Thank you for believing in me!" Max says back. I look at Christian and he nods, allowing me to let out my girlfriend side to Max.

"Max, you seriously caused a few heart attacks with me during the race, but I knew you could do it. Amazing job and I'm very, very proud of you. I love you, Max!" I yell over the radio. I know Max might not know what to do when I told him I loved him. The whole world now knows that it's his girlfriend who is talking to him.

After a solid minute, I hear Max's voice.

"I'm sorry for causing a heart attack, I might need to get checked out myself. But I love you too, babe" he says. I smile brightly and blush at the same time. Christian then takes my hand and makes sure I get to the podium safely. Even in these conditions, falling back to P16, he made sure he was on the podium.

When Max is called out, I cheer as loud as I can, catching his attention. He smiles brightly at me, giving me a wink. I feel my cheeks heating up as I see various team members looking at me.

Christian shows me a picture that he took of Max and I laugh. I ask him to send it to me and he does so, so I upload it to Instagram.

jasminxo : so god damn proud of this one! although I had 3 heart attacks, he did an amazing job! I love you, Max ! <3 #soinlove #BrazilGP #jax maxverstappen1

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so, it was super hard to try and to justice to the incredible race Max drove in Brazil this year. I hope it comes a bit close to it, as I don't think it is even close to good, but oh well.

Wanted to make sure Brazil got a big chapter, which I tried.

Hope you enjoyed this! Only one race to go now!

xxxxx <3